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7. Realization

"God that was tiring." Roy groaned as he led Kai out of the room.

Kai nodded, not really paying a lot of attention as his thoughts drifted. It had been that way through most of the party actually. Roy had noticed but said nothing, simply using Kai to show his uncle that he did indeed prefer guys over girls. The woman had been pretty, but she was obviously a princess anyways. Kai had played his part well, keeping a tight arm around his waist, kissing him whenever Roy turned for it, and he talked when spoken to by anyone, using all the right answers.

"I think it's time…" Roy said, turning as they reached the elevator. He leaned into Kai and grinned. "To go up to our room."

Leaning forward, he pressed his lips against Kai's. Kai automatically kissed back, hands slipping to his hips to hold him where he was. Kai returned the kiss in an almost hungry type of way, but really he was just trying to get answers for himself.

"I want you to love me like you used to, I want to trust you again."

Kai blinked as Rei's words rang through his head. Roy didn't seem to notice as they moved into the elevator. His hands had began to roam around Kai; tugging at his clothes. The older Russian didn't seem to care as he kissed Roy, his lips moving quickly in sync with the younger's.

"When you come home, you can either kiss me goodnight, or kiss me goodbye. You'll either be devoting yourself to our relationship without anyone else in it, or we'll be going our separate ways."

Kai's body was tense but again Roy didn't notice. His own need was more important as he began to remove Kai's tux jacket. Buttons began to be undone as Kai let him do what he wanted. Kai closed his eyes and tried to feel pleasure, any type of enjoyment in the situation. But all he could think about was those broken golden eyes looking at him desperately for answers. And now he was wondering how the hell he had ever thought this was good. That he needed this affection and need from someone other than Rei. He pushed Roy away and stepped back; this time Roy was utterly aware of Kai. His crimson eyes were darker and he was frowning.

"I'm leaving." He growled. Roy raised his eyebrows.

"Oh, and where are you going?" He snapped, obviously pissed about being rejected.

"Home. Back to my lover." He put his hand between the almost closed doors of the elevator. "Don't bother me again Roy."

And with that he stepped out, grabbing his jacket from the ground and leaving Roy. The blonde boy stared at Kai until the doors shut, glaring with azure blue eyes. But Kai continued to walk, without a glance back; now completely sure how he felt.

Rei sighed as he pulled his knees up. His breath fogged against the glass of the window in front of him, clouding his vision of the sky. Each little star was twinkling, the bright full moon shone above. He had a blanket wrapped around his shoulders and his raven black hair was tied back in a low ponytail. His golden eyes were sad, but they didn't shed tears. He had trust in Kai; he trusted that Kai would do what was right. Rei didn't know what decision the Russian would make – but he was sure it would work. He was currently in one of his favorite window seats, in their bedroom. He didn't have any lights on so the only light provided was from the silvery moon's glow.

He didn't know what time it was or how long Kai had been gone, but he had been doing next to nothing useful all day. He had to worry, and he had made plans incase Kai said that they couldn't be together, but he trusted Kai. He trusted him with his heart at the moment- and that had to be the most fragile part of him. He bit his lower lip and his eyes closed, lips parting as a soft sigh escaped his lips again. Suddenly he felt the warmth of another's skin against his own and golden eyes opened to look up at his lover. Pale arms wrapped around his shoulders and a strong but lithe body slipped into the window seat. Rei's body leaned back against Kai's chest and he rested his head against his shoulder, looking out at the sky again. Kai's breathing was soft, and his skin was warm, comforting Rei.

"Rei." Kai breathed, pressing his face to Rei's neck. Rei was quiet but let Kai hold him, enjoying the closeness.

It was quiet in the room again, the only sound being their quiet breathing. Rei drifted into a comfortable state, placed contentedly in Kai's lap. Kai had his face pressed to the smaller boy's neck, breathing in his skin and feeling the warmth of it against his own. Crimson eyes were closed but soon they slowly opened. Rei wasn't looking at him, golden eyes staring at the moon which reflected back in them. Kai stared at his exotic beauty of a lover and reached up with one hand to trail his fingers down his cheek. Rei turned his face into the touch, kissing the fingers lightly. Kai could have stayed like that forever, just holding Rei and keeping him safe, but there were many questions to be answered and truths to be told to one another.

"I've never thought so deeply about you as I did this night Rei." Kai whispered. Rei closed his eyes and leaned back into the Russian's embrace, hoping the feeling of love and connection would last.

"I want a straight answer Kai." Rei breathed, breath tickling the pale skin.

"I'm getting there." He said and Rei was quiet; he was waiting. "Rei I know I've loved you for a long time, I may not have realized it was love at first but I know now that it was. I love being able to hold you, I love being able to kiss you…and Rei I know I can't lose that." Kai sighed. "My love, you're the best thing that's happened to me. I don't think I realized how much my life depends on your involvement in it, but I have now. And…it scared me to think that I could lose that." He whispered, lips ghosting over Rei's temple.

"Kai…" Rei whispered, and Kai knew he wanted his answer.

"Rei Kon, I love you. And I'll never not love you. Until I take my last breath, until the last beat of my heart, I swear that I will love you in every way possible. I want to never fear of losing that thrill of looking in those beautiful golden eyes again, because you're the only thing that keeps me going Rei. The only thing I live for, the only thing I will ever live for." Kai turned Rei's chin with his fingers to find those beautiful eyes closed. "So please, all I want is another chance to show you that you are the most special creature ever created and given to someone as selfish as I am."

Rei was quiet, slowly opening his eyes to stare into the crimson ones belonging to Kai. Kai met the stare with his own gaze, not willing to break it. The golden eyes searched his own for even a flicker of uncertainty or fear but all he found was devoted love. His breathing was soft but sped slightly when the Russian leaned forward just enough for their lips to brush. He reached up one hand to slip his fingers into the soft hair at the nape of Kai's neck and brought him down so they could properly kiss. Kai was sweet and kind with the kiss, going at just the right pace to show Rei how much he cared. He was gentle, one hand stroking Rei's hair while his other arm supported him in his lap. When the kiss broke they didn't move far, Kai resting his forehead against Rei's. Their breath mingled in between them, warm and soft as they looked at each other.

"Kai…" Rei whispered, voice quiet and nearly shaky. "I love you too. I don't want to lose what we have either."

Kai's lips pulled up into a smile and he closed his eyes just to enjoy the closeness. Rei smiled too and cuddled more into his chest, content to just listen to his Russian lover's steady heartbeat. And if he could hear his own, he was sure it was beating just as quickly.

Well that was it - I hope you enjoyed it. I posted all the chapters at once because (lie I said in the first) I had started this a long time ago and jsut kinda worked on it whenever I got bored. So when I posted it, it was too long and I cut it into 7 chapters. I have a POSSIBLE idea for a sequel to this, mostly because this was actually pretty interesting and amusing to write. So a sequel might be fun. No promises though. Alright, don't forget to review! :)