Fall Into Your Sunlight
Chapter Six
The Memory of Loneliness
法律がなかったら
Roxas
The room looked empty, very lonely, as I sit down onto the matress sitting by the window, looking at the clothes and popsicle sticks on the ground that do not belong to me, but feel so familiar to me too. I'm wearing clothes I recognize a little, with a checkered vest I've never owned before, and a bracelet and rings I've never lain eyes on before now. I look out the window, which gives a clear view of a ruined city falling to pieces to the left, with a white beach to the right, salty ocean water meeting the sand gracefully. There's not a person in sight, in this beautiful wasteland.
I stand up and make my way to the door, which I hope will lead me away from this. The place scares me for some reason, and I feel jiitery, as if there's something I should watch out for, or someone. The door falls off its hinges as I open it, sounding too loud in the silence of the dead village. The sky is painted in eternal twilight.
"Twilight Town." Somehow I know its name as I step onto the broken path, hand trailing falling walls. My eyes stray to a tall tower in the middle of the place that reminds me of the London Tower, with a clock face. I see a small shape up on its ledge, as if someone's sitting there and swinging their feet, watching this world crumble into dust.
So I run towards the tower, passing places that seem so familiar to me, and yet I can't place them, even if I know I should remember it all. Somehow I know how to climb the thing, for the salty wind soon buffets me as I stand on the ledge, panting heavily with my hands on my knees.
"We haven't met like this in a long time, Roxas." I raise my head to see the back of a brown-haired boy, with hair sticking up like mad. "It makes me wonder what we did wrong for all the worlds to want to end."
I find myself answering, as if this is a memory and I've just been watching.
"Last time we met, it wasn't exactly for real." I say to the boy, who nods, a sound of guilty agreement in his throat as he twirls a rather large key in his hands. "And the time before that, I wasn't exactly myself."
"No, that you weren't." He looks to the sky. "It makes me sad to see everything and everyone we loved die like this, the worlds starting to fade."
"Do you think we'll ever have another life?" I ask, sitting beside him. He keeps his face hidden, however.
"Maybe. You were Ven once, remember?" The boy sighs. "I just hope that maybe it'll be easier than this. This 'saving the worlds' business, it's only prolonged everyone's suffering and allowed Ansem to put an end to all of this with the heartless, but even they don't exist anymore."
"Do you know why we were spared?" I lean my chin on my interlocked fingers, which rest on my knees.
"I don't know. Maybe we had something all the others didn't."
"Other than the fact that we're each others' Other, we can co-exist side by side at the same time."
"Yeah." His amazing cerulean eyes look at me, he looks so much like Sora. "I hope we never have a lifetime where we can't be together."
"No matter which way." I nod.
"I hope we'll meet again, or if not, that I'll never forget you, Roxas." I turn to look at him, lifting my head up to meet his eyes. The boy leans in and plants the gentlest kiss, one I know only Sora is able to do, onto my lips.
Then he dissappears before my eyes, turning into dust made of light, as if he was light itself personified.
"I'll never forget you either... Sora."
そして日は永遠を持続させた
Sora
It was so lonely. The beach I stood on had beautiful white sand and a beautiful ocean. Papui trees moved with the breeze, but no one was around. I knew in my heart that there should be more people, some in the waters, in the tiny vilage nearby, anywhere. Somehow I knew Destiny Islands weren't meant to be this empty.
There was a figure standing by a pier, however, but I was afraid to aproach him. There was a mixture of emotions inside myself. I feared whoever stood there in the black coat, but I also felt a tugging at my chest, as if my heart would go off to see the boy without me. So before anything like that could occur, I took a deep breath before I walked towards him.
As I walk onto the boards of the small dock, he takes off the black coat and drops it into the waters.
"You're giving it up at last?" I ask the boy with beautiful spiked blonde hair. He nods.
"I want nothing to do with the Organization anymore. It was the last straw when Axel..." He trails off, leaving things unfinished.
I find myself approaching the boy, unable to stop my actions or to say what I want to say. I stop a few feet short a moment, and then I continue, until I can sit down on the edge and have my feet dangle near the waters. Everything I'm wearing is unfamiliar to me, except the pants and the undershirt a little. The gloves and the jacket throw me off, though I know I should remember.
"He finally tried?" I ask. The boy sits next to me, his face shadowed.
"He didn't just try, Sora. He actually managed to rape me. In my sleep. The coward." I can see his fists clench, and I reach for his right hand beside me, placing my left over his own.
"It's better for you to leave the Organization, anyways. Ansem's Nobody was the head, things were bound to be bad."
"Hah. He had it out for me. It's funny, because every member, at some point, has tried to kiss me or whatever before." He shrugs. "But Axel was my best friend, you know. It scared me. I think it still does."
He brings his knees up and rests his interlocked hands on them, and then his chin on his hands.
"They don't have your worth, so don't worry about it. They didn't deserve you, anyways." I give him a smile, like I use on Roxas a lot.
"I know. I didn't want them, either. No... someone else, instead." He sighs. "Why are we talking about my love life?"
I shrug.
"You want to talk about something else? Or can I know who this person is?" I ask. I see him look at me with a beautiful cerulean eye out of the corner of his eyes. And with the setting sun catching his hair and making it shine like gold, he looks like the spitting image of Roxas, except... broken. Shattered.
"Either way." He closes his eyes. "But I'm scared. Ansem has millions of heartless in Dusk City and everywhere else, except for here and Twilight Town. Everyone I've known is gone, except you." He says the last part so softly, like a secret.
"I hope I'll never leave you to fight alone." I find myself saying. "We're both the same, so we'll go the same. And if we never see each other again, we'll never forget each other, right?"
"Right." He smiles sadly as he opens his eyes. "I'll be whisked off to Twilight Town in a few moments, to where I started out."
I lower my gaze and stare out into the ocean, feeling as if my heart shattered and loneliness wraps around my soul.
A hand presses onto my right cheek, forcing me to turn my head and lift it up a little.
"But I'll never leave you alone." Is the breathy answer beside me just as my head makes a full 90 degree turn and gentle, warm and graceful lips land softly on my own.
This is Roxas. I smile inwardly, and with that thought I wind my arms around his neck, hands into soft golden hair. Even if this dream didn't allow me to move as I desired, I would have done so without it's prompting. My Roxas.
He pulls back, cerulean eyes opening halfway, hands gentle on my cheeks, as if carressing a newborn, lips mere inches away. Just as I was about to force my dream self to lessen the distance, Roxas does it himself, caressing me ever so gently.
"We'll see each other soon." He whispers against my lips, and I open my eyes just as he pulls back.
"It's a promise." And before my eyes, the wind whisks him off as small black particles, like if he was the personification of darkness itself.
"Because I don't know what I'd do otherwise... without you there." I whisper after him, even after he's already long gone.
私は近い握り、決して放さない
Roxas
I open groggy eyes with the sun in my face, and instinctively I pull the blanket over my head. There's a rustling sound and some laughter, with someone trying to quiet the sounds down. Frowning I open my eyes once more, sitting up and letting the blanket fall behind me. I notice I'm in loose pants now, which confuses me.
"You're up!" Unfortunately I don't have time to dodge the hyper ball that is my brother before he tackles me. So, lying down with my legs propped up a little, he snuggles his spiky-haired head into my neck, whispering against my skin.
"They arrived last night, staying at a motel for the night. When I woke up I noticed them outside, so I put you some pants on. Is that alright?" I nod, still tired. "And apparently, from what I've overheard... they heard you."
Rise and shine, anyone?
"What, me?" I hiss. "It's your fault for-"
"I just gave what the doctor ordered, ne?" He's lying down on top of me, chin resting on his hands with his elbows propped up on my bare chest.
You know, sometimes, as adorable as he very well may be, I want to bite his face off.
Call me cruel, but it's true.
I think he could tell I was a little mad, because his eyes lowered and his smile faded.
"Don't worry about it, Sor." I kiss him gently, softly. "I'm not mad, and of course I still love you, you idiot."
His smile widens again.
あなたの恐れから保護しなさい
ちょうどので
私に世界を意味する
And their eyes betray
What words cannot say.
Eyes closed, heart beating,
The freedom they've been missing.
Lost within the wind of time,
Fate cruel, wanting their lies.
Never free, alone, shadowed,
Forever running, Arrows
But their love is true and strong
Pure innocence with a deadly song.
Cerulean eyes, the same darkness
Hikari shining despite that darkness.
誰かおよびだれも
永久にそして常にIt's almost overrrrr! *Sulks in corner* And I love this series so much! Plus afterwards I wanna do a Leviathan one, so SoRoku will go poof for a wee bit =(
Bubbles: All good things must come to an end, An-Chan.
Phlyx: I like the Kanji, though! It's very... profound.
Here's the translation for those who don't wanna use a translator or can't read Kanji.
法律がなかったら
If Laws did not existそして日は永遠を持続させた
And a day lasted an eternity私は近い握り、決して放さない
I would hold you close and never let goあなたの恐れから保護しなさい
Protect you from your fearsちょうどので
Just because私に世界を意味する
You mean the world to me