Bella's pov
I don't know how long I've been out here, just looking at the city. I felt lonely, because of the fact that no one was here with me. I was thinking about my life since I moved here. Sure it was great, I had everything I needed. So why did I feel so empty? Why did I feel like a part of me was missing?
" You know," a voice said behind me, I didn't have to turn to see that it was Nali, " when I first brought you here I never thought that would like it so much."
" How could I not?" I asked without turning around, " It's the one place where things aren't so bad."
I heard her footsteps getting closer, the gravel underneath her feet made a crunching sound. She sat down on the cliff beside me. I looked over and saw that she had brought her guitar with her. Music was one of the biggest assets in our family, we loved making music together. Brent and Kai played the drums. Danju had a really cool talent, he could make beats with his hands. Lyssa played the keyboard, and Danni knew how to tear up the violin. Nali knew how to play the electric guitar, and I knew how to play the acoustic guitar, of course Nali taught me. And everyone knew how to sing. We could basically start a band, we've even gotten offers.
" What's bothering you Izzy?" she asked, her voice thick with concern. I looked at her, my eyes completely open to her. There wasn't much point in trying to, Nali knew all of us better than we knew ourselves. She looked at me, and sighed. " We're not going anywhere Izzy," she told me. I looked back to the lights of the town. " Just because the girls have boyfriend's doesn't mean anything," she waited until I looked at her. " Bro's before ho's," we laughed.
" I don't know why I'm so paranoid," I said after our laughter died down.
" I don't blame you," she whispered. She moved and I looked to see that she had grabbed her guitar. " Come on," she nudged my shoulder, " when's the last time you made a song?"
" We usually have the family with us," I sad in a nervous tone.
" Sing what's in your heart," she told me. I nodded, but instantly calmed when she played the first notes. I took a deep breath.
I'm standing on the bridge.
I'm waiting in the dark.
I thought that you would be here by now.
There's nothing but the rain.
No footsteps on the ground.
I'm listening but there's no sound.
The lyrics came out in a whisper. But as the music grew louder my voice grew stronger.
Isn't anyone trying to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home?
It's a damn cold night.
Trying to figure out this life.
Won't you take me behind the hand?
Take me somewhere new.
I don't know who you are.
But I
I'm with you.
I'm with you.
I knew that the lyrics about my lost friends in Forks. I knew that I was singing about them.
I'm looking for a place.
I'm searching for a face.
Is anybody here I know?
Cause nothing's going right.
And everything's a mess.
And no one likes to be alone.
That was when I first moved to Phoenix. Before I met the family.
Isn't anyone trying to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home?
It's a damn cold night.
Trying to figure out this life.
Won't you take me by the hand?
Take me somewhere new.
I don't know who you are.
But I
I'm with you.
I'm with you.
I sang the next lines with everything I had.
Why is everything so confusing?
Maybe I'm just out of my mind.
I sang so loud that it echoed off the cliffs.
It's a damn cold night.
Trying to figure out this life.
Won't you take me by the hand?
Take me somewhere new.
I don't know who you are.
But I
I'm with you.
I'm with you.
Take me by the hand.
Take me somewhere new.
I don't know who you are.
But I
I'm with you.
I'm with you.
I'm with you.
I was taking deep breaths. I was trying to stop myself from crying. Everything I had said, it summed up everything I had been feeling. It felt like the weight of the world had been lifted off my shoulders. I found that I was laughing breathless, and smiling really big.
I looked at Nali, her eyes were shining from the city lights below. " There's the Izzy I know," she laughed.
I sighed happily, it felt good to be so care free. We sat in silence for a few minutes. Then I got an idea, " I think we should move to Forks."
Nali choked and stared at me with wide shocked eyes. " What?" she said shocked.
" I think we should move back to Forks," I repeated.
" Why?" she gasped.
" I miss Charlie," I said, it was true I did miss him. " and I think mom should go on the road with Phil, it would make her happy."
" What about the jerks who you hate?" she asked.
I paused to think about it. Maybe this wasn't a good idea. No, I'm not running from them anymore. " What about them?" I shrugged. She gave me a pointed look, she new I was worried. " Look," I said, " I ran away from them and stayed away for 9 years. I'm sick of hiding from them."
She stopped to think. She was tapping her fingers on her knee, a habit she did when she was thinking. " How do you think they'll react? I mean, do you think they'll try anything?" she asked concerned.
I smiled ruefully. I had no doubt in my mind that they would try to do something. I know that they were going to try and put me down. But I have a surprise, I'm not Bella anymore, and I'm not going to take there shit. I smirked at her. " I don't know, but they had there time. Now," I told her, " it's my turn. And there's going to be hell in Forks, Washington."
Nali took a really long look at me, whatever was in my eyes must have convinced her. She nodded. " Okay," she agreed, " let's go talk to the family."
" What do you think they'll say?" I asked. I forgot about the rest of the family. If they didn't agree I would stay here. This family means everything, it means everything to all of us.
Nali laughed wickedly. " Oh, they'll agree," she said chuckling humorlessly.
" How do you know?" I questioned.
She gave me an ' are you serious' look. " Give them an opportunity to get back at the people who hurt you, and they'll accept it without questions." I laughed. It was true. Since we were eight, they always said they were going to get back at the people of Forks. We slid our helmets on and raced home to tell the family the news.
When we went inside it was just like no one knew I was gone. Brent and Kai were playing video games cussing at each other loudly. I laughed when Brent accused Kai of cheating. Kira and Lyssa were sitting at the table looking at magazines. Mila was drawing, she's like the worst out of all of us. Like literally, she gets in the most trouble, but she is the most amazing artist. Danni was reading quietly on the couch next to her. Tristan was staring out the window. Danju and our newest addition, Sergio, were sitting together playing on the guitar.
Everyone looked up when the door closed behind us. " Hey guys," they welcomed together. We laughed, somehow we always do that. We've been together way too long.
" Okay guys," Nali said getting there attention, " Izzy's made a decision."
She motioned for me to continue. We were sitting in a circle on the ground. I looked around all the girls were in the arms of their respected others. Strangely, I didn't feel the same heartache as earlier. I knew they were happy, and one day I would be too.
" Okay," I said to their awaiting faces, " I've decided that I want to move back to Forks." Everyone except Sergio that is, gasped and stopped breathing. " I know that this is a shock," I continued, " but I miss Charlie. And I think mom needs to be with Phil."
Everyone was looking wide eyed at me. Then they turned their gazes to Nali. " You agreed to this?" Kira asked.
Nali shrugged. " She wants to go," she smiled in a sisterly way at me. " I think it would be good to start in new place," she said to them. They all shook their heads snorting at her excuse. " It's too bad," she sighed dramatically, " this is your chance at revenge."
They stopped and had thoughtful expressions. And then they stretched into the widest grins anyone could imagine. " Hell yes!" everyone yelled. Then we doubled over in laughter when we did it in unison.
" I'm confused," Sergio complained.
We looked at him, he was pouting looking from each face. " Forks is where Izzy grew up," Nali explained, " and we have some business with the jerks there."
He still looked confused and frustrated. " I still have no idea, but I'm up for a new place," he shrugged.
" What about your family?" Lyssa asked.
He looked at her calmly. " I don't have a family, they died in car crash."
They gave him looks of sympathy, they knew what it was like to have no parents. Sometimes I feel really bad, they've suffered more than I could ever dream of. I don't know what they've been through, what they still go through everyday.
" Can I ask you guys something?" Sergio said. We nodded our heads. " How do you do it? Without parents?" he asked slowly.
When we had discussions like this we usually took turns. Brent went first.
" I was eight when my parents died," he said looking down, " their car was hit by a train that fell off the tracks, they died instantly." His shoulders started to shake slightly, Kira wrapped herself around his huge shoulders. " Two weeks later Nali found me," he smiled at her, she smiled her sister smile.
It was Kira's turn. " I lost my dad when I was six, my mom died in childbirth. My dad was depressed and he killed himself," her tone was disgusted. Kira hated her dad, she felt like she was abandoned. We tried to convince her otherwise, but she's hated him for so long I don't think she knows any other way. " I was in foster care for two months when I met Nali."
Lyssa's turn. " Me and Tristan never knew our parents," she said without emotion, " we were given up for adoption."
" We met Nali when we were six," Tristan added. They had met when they were in the same foster home. Huh, no wonder they ended up together. They had a head start.
" Me and Kai were abused," Mila said. She spoke in such light tones, you would think that she was talking about the weather. " Him by his father, me by my drunken bitch of a mother."
" Mila," Lyssa scolded.
Mila smiled at her. " Sorry Lyssa," she said, " forgot their was an angel in the room."
Alyssa was the angel. The one who never talked about anyone, the one who would help you without asking, the one who would make you smile without even trying. Alyssa was one of the reasons we smile so much. I mean Brent and Mila are hilarious when they get going, but Alyssa had this effect on people. Just walking into a room will make you smile.
" Take it away Danni," Brent said. We laughed looks like this won't be a cry fest.
She smiled and struck a pose making us laugh. " My parents died when I was seven, hit by an eighteen wheeler," she said, she was skimming over her book, " met Nali on my eighth birthday."
She gave Nali a meaningful look, we all laughed when Nali winked back. " Let it go Danni," Nali begged, " we were eight. I didn't know how to throw a proper birthday party."
We laughed. " Brent trashed the cake," I told Sergio, he looked left out, " so he made a mud cake instead."
" Not the most appetizing thing around," Lyssa said.
" Danju you're up," Mila said.
He rolled his eyes. " Parents were killed during a mugging. Killer never found. Put in witness protection when I was six. Nali helped me escape when I turned seven."
" What about you Izzy?" Sergio asked.
" I have both my parents, Nali saved me from the neighborhood bully," I looked down blushing.
" What's your story Nali?" he asked.
We all went quiet. We looked at each other nervously, this was a touchy subject. Truth was, none of us knew her story. She never told us, said the past was meant to be in the past.
She smiled at him. " Time for bed!" she announced. We all groaned, but headed to our rooms anyway. Like I said, she was our mom.
I went to bed thinking. Was it a good idea to go back to Forks? I didn't want to cause drama, I hated it. And I didn't want us to cause trouble for Charlie either. But I couldn't help but wonder. What would it be like? Would anything be different? Would anybody have changed? I know Edward and Lauren haven't, but what about everyone else?
Even if things haven't changed, I was going back. I wasn't running anymore. Get ready Forks, I'm coming with a fire behind me. When I left Forks I was Bella. Now that I'm going back, I'm not Bella anymore. Now I'm Izzy.