CHAPTER 3: Weak under pressure
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"Tohru Honda, Tohru Honda, everything I HEAR it's about this ugly little girl," Akito was ranting to himself as he was waiting for Yuki and Shigure to arrive for a meeting about that current status of things.
"Misa, what do you suggest I do? Should I take care of her now or wait a little longer until she's deeply engraved in Yuki's heart so I can rip his heart out later? Though the latter sounds more cruel… thus making it more pleasing, but you know how I hate waiting for things."
I rolled my eyes. Akito had his moments of severe sadism.
"When are you gonna give up hurting Yuki, you already know he's scared as hell of you." I was surprised I was actually defending Yuki, but I knew Yuki was one of Akito's favorite toys to torture. It was tough for Yuki especially since he had the curse of the rat. The rat was the closest to god.
"I know he's terrified of me… but I still sense a level of rebellion. I need him to obey me with his whole mind and body. Getting rid of Tohru Honda would be like destroying Yuki's only spark of hope. He'd crawl back to me with fear and hopelessness, like the old days. Since his move to Shigure's house, I've missed him quite so."
I almost said something I'd regret if Shigure and Yuki hadn't interrupted to enter, shockingly they had another guest with them.
It was Tohru Honda herself.
Akito stood before them as they kneeled on the ground to show their respect.
"What is she doing here in my home?" Akito spitted his venom.
"I… I… I've come to ask for direct permission to be allowed to.. to stay to Sigure Sohma's house. I.. I promise to do all I can to not be a nuisance! I even cook and clean and.."
her voice was trembling beneath Akito's shadow.
I felt uneasy due to the harsh tension in the air. I even saw Yuki and Shigure shake a bit.
Suddenly, I heard a huge thump.
Akito had kicked Tohru and she slid across the room.
Yuki was about to grab Akito but Shigure held him still.
"You wrench, you think you can just come into my home and ask permission for a act like that? Who do you think you are!" Akito turned to Yuki who was fighting to get free, "and Yuki… what are you gonna do? Hurt me?"
All Yuki could do was snarl but I saw the defeat in his eyes. Tohru lied still on the floor as she whimpered from the pain.
Akito walked towards the groaning Tohru, his lips curled into a wicked smile.
As he lifted his backhand to slap her I felt a rush of anxiety overcome me. This was too much. Tohru hadn't done anything wrong.
"Akito-sama…. please stop." I begged, Akito turned to me with a unfazed face.
Yuki and Shigure were apprehensive to what Akito's next move would be.
"This is not your business Misa."
"I know but," I swallowed to clear my throat and to swallow my nerves, "you're wrong. You think they'll obey you due to fear.. but you're wrong… they'll never obey a god who's hurt them…."
"WHAT WOULD YOU KNOW!" Akito exploded. His yell could be heard all over the estate.
"Watch this," Akito grinned as he slapped Yuki to the ground. He cringed as a tear of blood escaped his cheek bone.
"Yuki, tell me you adore me…"
Yuki didn't say anything.
"Yuki… I'm so sorry," I whispered.
"Don't be Miss Misa…"
"DON'T TALK!" Akito kicked Yuki in the stomach. Tohru screamed.
"Fear is how I control you… fear is the reason why you cannot stop trembling before my presence! Right Misa?"
Akito grabbed my neck and lifted me up a good inch off the ground. It was hard to breathe.
"… Yes Aki.. Aki…" I soon started to gag.
Despite Akito's set thinking, I knew different…
I didn't accept Akito into my life because of fear.. it was because I truly loved him at some point.
But he mistakes love for fear all the time.
He thinks I love him because I'm afraid of him…
He thinks Yuki obeys him cause he's afraid of him but I know the only reason Yuki obeys Akito right now is no longer because of fear but it's because of love of that Honda girl lying around the corner.
Why did Akito have such a hunger for control?
& why was everything beginning to turn white?
- Akito's point of view -
I saw the light escape Misa's eyes and I quickly let her down, but it was too late, she had passed out.
I cried for Hatori, he rushed in and saw the commotion.
"HELP HER!" I screamed as I pointed to my Misa. I didn't bother about Yuki's state or the girl's but Hatori said he'd be back to take care of them as well.
As I saw Hatori carry my Misa out of my room, I felt my eyes begin to cloud…
"GET OUT OF MY ROOM!" I screamed at Yuki, Shigure, and that girl.
I wanted them out before they could see my weaker side.
I felt so weak knowing what I've done to my Misa.
I don't know why I get like that.. why I push every limit.
Shigure helped Tohru and Yuki crawl out of my sight. I turned to my bed and smothered my face with my palms.
WHY…
Why do I always hurt the girl I care about the most.
Her voice echoed in my mind…
"you're wrong. You think they'll obey you due to fear.. but you're wrong… they'll never obey a god who's hurt them…."
They have to obey me…
They are mine and I am their source of energy…
I am their god..
but why do I feel like the weakest of them all?