Okay so this is a continuation of the first part. This is still Clare's point of view. After this one there will be the point of view of Eli! (: So please let me know what you think by reviewing it! I plan on continuing this story for a little while so feel free to let me know what you want to see happen and it'll consider it (: I hope you all have a great day and also I want to wish Munro and Thomas Chambers a very happy 21st Birthday today! Enjoy!

I enter a place that is quiet and soothing. A place with no worries or cares. I recall the feeling of being sad but I don't remember why and for some reason I don't care.

I wander around until I see a picture of a teenage boy hanging on an otherwise empty wall. The boy has dark brown hair that almost looks black but isn't. His eyes are dark brown too; they look like they are hiding many sad secrets. Something about this boy' eyes make me think that he is looking at the person he loves, but I can't be sure.

He is wearing a dog chain around his neck that looks well worn. He is also wearing a gray shirt and black blazer. His lips show no emotion but for some reason all I want to do is kiss them.

And then I realize why. This is no teenage boy! That is a picture of Eli!

I don't know what to do but I have an overwhelming feeling of needing to get out of here so I turn and run the way I came. I'm running so fast that I trip and fall over something, but before I can figure out what it is everything goes black.

The next thing I know I'm in my bed screaming my head off. I'm drenched in sweat and twisted in my blankets. I finally calm down and try to figure out what just happened. I'm confused about the nightmare because nothing about Eli scares me. I love him.

I slowly untangle myself from my blankets and try to remember how I got there but no matter how hard I try I can't. All I know is that there is this terrible aching feeling in my stomach.

I reach over and grab my phone to send a quick "Good morning 3" text to Eli but seeing his picture is all it takes for yesterday's events come flooding back to me.

My legs automatically go up to my chest and my arms wrap around them and this time when I cry, the tears do fall. They wet my hair and pillow but I don't care. All I want to do is cry.

By the time my mom comes to check on me my clock reads 12:26.

I guess she heard me crying and decided that I needed some time alone to myself. That's very typical of my mom, but this time she was right, I did need some time to myself.

In the few hours I have been awake I have debated whether I should go see Eli or not. And if I did what would I say? Would I tell him I wanted to get back together? But what if Alli was right and he is being to controlling? What if he's not and I was just being paranoid?

"Clare Bear, hunny, do you want something to eat?" "No mom, I'm fine." "Okay hunny, let me know if you want anything" "Okay"

After a few more hours of lying in bed I finally give into my mom and eat a piece of toast.

During those few hours I also decide to go visit Eli. But tomorrow. And only to see how he is doing. I will not tell him how I am feeling and I will not cry. I am Clare Edwards and I am strong.

But I am also Clare Edwards, the girl who can't get over Eli Goldsworthy. But for tomorrow I will be the first one. I roll over in my bed and wait for tomorrow to come.

I open my eyes to find my alarm clock reads 10:42. I roll out of bed, literally, and lay on the ground for a few minutes more. I finally render up the energy and confidence to get ready to visit Eli in the hospital, for the second time.

I get in a quick shower, and to calm my nerves, attempt to belt out some Shaina Twain but It just doesn't seem right with the huge hole in my chest.

I start to get dressed but I want an outfit that doesn't say, 'Hey I want you back now, cause I made the worst mistake of my young teenage life' but also something that doesn't say 'I'm over you and the only reason I came to visit was to show you how much better off I am without you'. So instead I try to go for 'I've been okay but worried about you, let's talk' look with jeans and a plain yellow t-shirt.

I sit at my vanity and put on some cover-up, mascara and a little bit of blush to hide the fact I've been crying. By the time I leave my room its 11:15. I walk down the stairs to find my mom has gone to work. So I grab an apple, my keys and my jean jacket and walk out the door.

I decided that I should walk to the hospital because it's only a 15 minute walk and I feel like I need sometime to prepare myself. But my nerves get the best of me and the entire walk to the hospital I'm a nervous wreck.

I love Eli. I need to get back together with him. I don't think he will be as clingy as last time. I think he has learned his lesson. And if not, we can talk about it and fix it together. I don't think I can survive without him. But what if he doesn't want me back? What if I'm the only one that needs to be together? What if he blames me for the crash and never wants to see me again? What if I tore a hole the size of Texas out of his heart and he doesn't want me to tare anymore out? But I won't break his heart anymore! I never meant to the first time. But will he believe me? Well I guess if he still loves me he will. Ohh god, there's the hospital. Well here goes nothing.

So like I said the next part is in Eli's point of view so stay tuned for that! (: Much love! KillMeSoftlyWithWords xoxo