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WHEN DEATH RETURNS:

Chapter 15- Keeping secrets

(Amu pov)

I woke up to find myself in the room, I must have passed out. It was then that I remembered the events with my father, my stomach clenched and I felt nauseous. Tears sprang to my eyes he had let me believe I was crazy this whole time, he had allowed me to suffer for years feeling like a freak. Why? I wanted to know why I was struck with mixed emotions was everything a lie was him loving me a lie? What about Ami? Did he know and not even do anything about it my heart dropped and felt as if it had splattered against the floor. Chills ran down my spine... from fear, fear of my own father. The image of him holding his finger to his lips flashed through my mind, one thing was sure he wanted me to keep my mouth shut about this. The idea of my life ever returning to normal now seemed to be silly, then again I would have only had a year in the end. My life would always be full of lies and secrets, It would and will always be a place where I am forced to pretend. I had almost gotten used to the ideas of actually having friends and not having to wear a mask to get through the day looks like things will never be Ok for me...

(Ikuto pov)

After Amu had passed out her father asked us to leave saying she needed rest after we had left we all decided to go home and get some rest ourselves. Once home I had to explain where Utau and I had been so I told them I had been looking for my girlfriend who had gone missing. My parents loved Amu and so we had gotten off without a grounding only a lecture on why we should tell them next time. I was now laying in bed when what Kairi had said echoed through my head. If I were to become immortal I could be with Amu .. but then I would have to give up my family and a normal life. My mind was flipping out as my thoughts were filled with Amu and my family. I couldn't tell anyone I was torn between two decisions I loved Amu and my family I was lost and could only hope when the time came I would have my mind made up...

(Rima pov)

My parents were screaming at me while I sat on the couch listening and not daring to make a noise or move. I fought back the tears and remained silent even when my father hit me covering my face as he threw me to the ground and kicked me repeatedly. I had known this would happen, yet knowing didn't make the emotional pain any lesser. At least now I had my friends I used the memories of each one of them to help me endure as they screamed and hit me. When they had finished I slowly made my way up the stairs once in my room I layed down sore and hurt. It was only then that I allowed the tears to escape my eyes, this was a secret I would keep and it was one that would eventually kill me...

(Nagi pov)

I had been yelled at by my mom, not for being gone but for missing dance practice. I used to enjoy dancing that is until it ruined my life. I only went through with it because it made my mom happy. She had forced me into intense practices and hours and hours committed to my dancing. She wasn't always this way, I suppose she had changed 3 years ago when my sister had committed suicide. This was a secret I was forced to keep I wasn't allowed to speak of her or even visit her grave. All pictures of her had been destroyed any trace that she was ever alive had disappeared. And that's the way my parents wanted it to be they couldn't handle being reminded of their daughter who was perfect in every way. I suppose that's why she had killed herself the pressure they had put on her had finally caused her to snap. My father had become a drunk after that and him and my mom argued allot. All of this was a secret I was forced to keep just like the scars and cuts that decorated my arms...

(Yaya pov)

I entered my house with hopes that I would be yelled at or grounded. I should have known better, after all my mom was to busy to even notice I was gone. So I did what I always did when I was nervous, lonely , or sad I headed straight for my stash of candy. I wish Kairi was here he had said he would visit me soon. Not even candy could help I thought as I threw my lollipop in the trash. I would never tell anyone just how lonely I was not even Kairi. He knew I was lonely he just didn't know that my mom would leave me alone for days without even telling me she wasn't coming home. I suppose that's why I developed my childish personality because I was forced to grow up when I was little. After daddy was gone my mom seemed to avoid me and forget I was there most of the time. I don't even remember my dad anymore, and had long since learned not to get my hopes up that my mom would be home it only left me feeling worse...

(Tadase pov)

I woke up once again to that nightmare, Knowing that soon my other side would take over. Ever since I was five he would get me through the times I was scared. He came for the first time after that man had left after he had ruined me. No one knew the truth and never would not about what that man had done or about why my other side was born. That man had ruined my life leaving me feeling dirty after the sick bastard had his fun. I was only four when he began to watch over me while my parents had to work, I was only four when he had started to do horrible things to me. Threatening to kill anyone I loved if I uttered a word about it, he died in a drunk driving accident one day and I couldn't help but feel happy. Yet the nightmares and fear still remained I was lucky enough my other side helped get me through my times of fear. My vision began to blur and I didn't fight as I felt him taking over...

(Kukai pov)

It was only once I was in my room and locked in that I allowed my fake smile to falter. My brothers had locked me in because they were busy with their drugs. I wish they knew how much they ruin my life, doubt they would care though even if they did know. My mom had long ago quite caring about anything that didn't involve her latest boyfriend or going to the bar with her drunk friends. It was annoying I couldn't tell anyone or have anyone over. I went to my drawer grabbing a pill and popping it in my mouth soon my worries drifted away replaced with the care free wonderful buzz that had now become familiar to me...

(Utau pov)

When my father got a call from his "office" I left to go upstairs. I knew he was really going to see that women. He had been having an affair for a year now, I was the only one in my family who knew. Yet it hurt knowing he would rather see another woman then be with his own family. I hated that women she was a co worker but I had seen them together more than once. How silly that I kept my mouth shut even though it killed me to. I guess this was the price to keep a happy home or at least pretend it was happy...

(Kairi pov)

The castle was now clean and angel had went home. Airi was staying in her brothers room, I knew she was torn up about it. I had just got off the phone with my sister she had confirmed that my cousin Hikaru would be here soon. I just didn't know how to tell him his destined wife was already with another. I had known who Amu was from the moment I had layed eyes on her. I also knew that it was wrong of me to not tell Amu she was promised long ago even before her birth to be engaged to my cousin...

(Airi pov)

I closed my eyes I knew he wouldn't want me to be sad but he was all I had left. I had friends and I loved them with all my heart but it wasn't the same. I reached for the dagger that was beside me it had been his. I studied how it glistened in the light tempting me. Slowly I raised the dagger above me closing my eyes tight as the images of him flashed through my mind haunting me. Maybe I should join you my brother...

(Emiko pov)

I was practicing my new song when I suddenly choked up on my words. I held the necklace of the twin dragons that Lulu had made for me. Tears fell to the ground as I bit my lip trying to hold the sobs in. My body was covered in flames, my element being fire it didn't harm me. Suddenly my mind went to the first day I had met Lulu the day my parents and brother had died, she had saved me and tried to save my family but it was too late. The flames grew as I frantically tried to shake away the images...

(Mizuki pov)

I was putting all my energy into my dance routine, when I felt a familiar hunger come over me I snuck out to go find a victim. For a year now I had kept this a secret from everyone. I had no clue why this was happening but I knew I couldn't allow any one to find out. I took deep breaths pulling strength from my element earth. I knew I had to keep control over the hunger or it would end badly, If I kept control I could take only enough energy to fill me without draining anyone...

(Haruna pov)

I grabbed my jacket sneaking out to go see my boyfriend. I had been dating him secretly for five months now. I knew the others wouldn't approve seeing how he was supposed to be our enemy and was being forced into an engagement. It sucked having to sneak around but I had fallen in love...

Lies tear you apart, secrets burden your heart.

Hiding the truth from all, lies so small grow so tall.

Trusting is hard when your scared you will fall.

But maybe the lies we keep will be the death of us all.