WHAT IF?
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A.N.- I feel like I should explain. Several people have commented that I am moving fast. There are several reasons why.
1. I was going to name those reasons then I realized I would be giving the story away. (sorry, please bear with me )
2. I am sorry this chapter is short-I have been busy, but I will post again soon.
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CHAPTER-8-What If?
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After Caroline and Zak left Lee watched as Kara looked over every inch of the house commenting on different things as she went room to room.
Kara went to join Lee in the over sized chair and after snuggling in next to him she elbowed him lightly in his side. " You do know this house is missing a very important thing, don't you Lee?"
Lee looked at her hoping for a clue, but finally gave up " What would that be Starbuck?"
Kara knew he was clueless and chuckled " A TV Apollo, how am I supposed to watch sports, especially pyramid?"
Lee laughed " I thought I would leave something for you to pick out, and I thought you might have an idea what to put on the walls, because I don't have a clue "
Kara turned to look directly at him, wondering if he knew she painted " Why would you think I would know what to put on the walls?"
Lee shrugged " No reason other than me not having a clue, like I said "
Kara knew then that he didn't know she painted " Okay, I might have a few ideas, but we are getting a TV tomorrow, I have money on the game and I intend on watching it "
Lee pulled her closer to him " Fine we will get one first thing and since I have already moved my stuff in we can pick up yours, where are your things anyway?"
Kara laid her head over on his shoulder worried about what Lee would think of her apartment, she knew she would have to show him eventually. She got up and pulled him up out of the chair " Come on, I need to pick up my things anyway and I might as well show you and get it over with, besides we can use my TV "
Lee could tell Kara was worried about him seeing where she lived, but he had no idea why " You don't really want me to see your place, do you Kara?"
Kara shrugged " It is probably not going to be what you are expecting that's all "
Lee grabbed her hand so she would look at him " It won't change the way I feel about you Kara and besides I never know what to expect from you and that is one of the things I love about you "
Kara grinned " I'm glad, now let's go and get this over with I have plans for tonight "
Lee grabbed the keys as they went out the door locking it behind them.
Kara got in the drivers seat and before she started the truck she looked over at Lee " I really love the house Lee and I'm glad that my first home is with you "
Lee smiled and grabbed one of her hands " If I have my way all of your homes will be with me and only me "
Kara smirked " Agreed, now enough with the sappy stuff, I am ready to pick my stuff up and get back to our home"
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Lee stayed silent as Kara drove leaving Caprica behind as they headed to the out skirts of town ending up in Delphi. He knew they were in a run down area and began to understand why Kara didn't want him to see where she lived.
Kara was glad Lee was silent it gave her time to think. She knew her life was changing fast and it was turning out to be more different then she ever imagined. It also gave her time to remember the day her mom had shoved her causing her to fall down the stairs.
After she had ran into Caroline that day she decided to go back and try once more with her own mom. Kara had found her sitting outside her apartment door smoking and she climbed the stairs to stand in front of her mother.
Kara had cleared her throat " Mama I'm sorry for running away before, I thought you would be proud of me and I wanted to let you know that I had passed viper classes " Kara paused thinking her mom would respond " How come you are not happy for me?"
Kara's mom finally looked at her before standing up and spoke with anger " You might know how to fly, but you will never make a good soldier let alone a colonial officer to be proud of "
Kara remembered her standing up and poking her in the chest with each word she spoke and shoving her on the last word causing her to fall backwards down the stairs.
The memory was painful, but as she looked over at Lee she knew they might never had met if not for her mom's actions that day.
Kara pulled into a parking spot and turned the truck off and hopped out as did Lee " Come on, I live in unit number two and keep in mind I haven't stayed here in a while, so it is not clean " she chuckled " Not that it is when I am here, actually I'm a bit of a slob "
Lee followed Kara into her place and down the stairs unable to speak as he looked at the pictures and words she must have painted herself. After reading the words he knew that something drastic must have happened to her because the words were dark and painful. He then moved onto the paintings, one consisted of bright colors that formed a circle of sorts, he had no idea what it meant. The second one was a landscape of an open field with mountains in the background and a bright sun shining down on the field, it felt like hope.
He turned around when he heard music and saw that Kara had started the music disk before going into another room. Lee followed her and found himself in her bedroom packing clothes into a duffel. " Kara I had no idea you were an artist, your paintings and words are profound and beautiful and I like your taste in music also "
Kara glanced at him " The music is my dad's "
Lee knew she wouldn't comment on the rest " Can I help?"
Kara shook her head without looking at him " I am only taking a few things for now, the rest I'll get later or put it in storage I really don't have that much "
Lee went and sat on the bed " I hope you are planning on taking your paints, maybe you can paint something on one of the walls at our house "
Kara finished zipping the bags up " Okay, will you take these to the truck while I grab my paints and my dad's music?"
Lee stood up " Sure, should I come back?"
Kara wouldn't look at him " No, I'll be there soon just give me a minute, okay?"
Lee took the bags " I like your place Kara, it fits you and I want you to fix our home up so that it is like you also "
Kara didn't know how to respond to that " Thanks Lee for not asking a lot of questions right now "
After Lee left Kara took a look around at the place she thought of as hers one last time, that is when she saw the TV, frak she thought she would have to get Lee to come back. Kara walked upstairs and outside until she was in hollering distance " Lee could you come grab the TV?"
Lee walked over to her chuckling " Sure, I wouldn't want you to miss your game "
Kara followed him back in " Thanks, I'll be right behind you "
Kara gathered up her paints and music before leaving and looked forward to making a home with Lee.
After getting back home they spent the rest of the afternoon unpacking Kara's things and before they knew it day had turned into night.
Instead of cooking Lee went out and picked up pizza's for dinner.
While Lee was gone Kara hooked the TV up so they could watch a movie while they ate.
Kara and Lee cuddled in the chair after eating and before long neither of them was watching the movie anymore. They had moved on to kissing which quickly turned into full out making out. It turned out the chair was the first place they christened twice by fraking before Kara suggested moving to their bed explaining that they needed to break it in properly also.
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Kara woke the next morning reaching for Lee intending on starting back up where they left off last night only to find him not there.
The next thing she realized was the smell of bacon frying which sent her running to the bathroom to throw up. She felt Lee pulling her hair back from her face " What's wrong Kara?"
After throwing up one more time she sat up " Frak Lee, I guess I am still having issues adjusting to the altitude change "
Lee grabbed a rubber band off the sink top and put her hair up " Kara maybe you should go see Doctor Harris and see if he can give you something till this passes "
Kara stood up and washed her face and brushed her teeth before answering him " I will if it happens again, but I feel fine now Lee, actually I'm starving now "
They both went into the kitchen " Sit down Kara and I will fix you some toast and scrambled eggs "
Kara snorted, but sat down " You are going to spoil me Lee if you keep waiting on me, but just this once I'll let you after this I will fix my own plate "
Lee grinned at her " If it will make you feel better you can wait on me tomorrow "
Kara chuckled at that " In your dreams Adama, I am not your mother "
As they ate their first breakfast together in their new home Kara asked " What are your plans today while I watch the game?"
Lee finished swallowing " I am going out to the War College to see if they have posted the schedule yet "
Kara looked at him " We still have a month and a half before we have classes "
Lee shrugged " I like to be prepared "
Kara took a big bite of eggs then pointed her fork at him " Fine, just don't expect me to do the same I intend on enjoying my summer break "
Lee laughed " I wouldn't dream of interfering with your summer break Kara "
They both cleaned up after eating, Kara had learned that much from being around Caroline.
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Their first day had set the routine for the next two weeks except for Kara trying to hide her throwing up from Lee.
Kara was actually starting to get worried, she started trying to count the days from her last period. She finally realized that between her check rides at the end of viper classes and her fallout with her mother and her falling down the stairs she had missed her monthly shot. Kara Thrace was freaking out and she didn't know what to do.
The next day she went and bought a home pregnancy test and it confirmed what she already knew.
Lee knew something was bothering her and he finally asked " Kara please tell me what's wrong "
Kara knew she had to give him a partial truth " I miss your mom " and she did.
Lee believed her " I'm sure she misses you too, go see her or have her meet you for lunch or we can both go see her this weekend "
Kara blurted out " No, I will call her and see if we can meet for lunch or coffee "
Lee had been laying on the couch and he got up to go join her in the chair " Scoot over "
She scooted over so he could sit beside her.
Lee wrapped his arm around her and pulled her legs over his so she was sitting sideways almost in his lap. He took his other hand and lifted her face to his and kissed her briefly before pulling back and looking into her eyes "You might not feel the same Kara, but I love you and I just wanted you to know "
Kara was never more glad to hear it then at that moment. She just hoped he would still feel the same if she decided to go through with it " I know I don't say it Lee, but I love you too and I always will "
She laid her head on his shoulder knowing that if they both wanted a baby that she could still take her Officer Candidate classes while she was pregnant.
As much as she knew she should tell Lee first she knew she needed to talk to Caroline first. If they went through with it they would need Caroline's help since they would both be posted to battlestars. It would mean missing out on a lot with their baby, but they didn't have much choice, Kara wasn't ready to give up her career.
Kara also knew after their two year postings they could opt out for reserves and be a family. During the two years they could take their leaves and spend time with their child and if they were lucky they might get a few down times together.
She was making herself crazy with all the thoughts running through her mind, so she got up. " I think I will call your mom now and see if she can meet me tomorrow "
Lee nodded " Tell her I said hello "
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Kara who was barely on time for anything arrived at the coffee shop fifteen minutes early and had lucked up and got the same table the first time they had coffee. By the time Caroline arrived Kara had shredded five paper napkins into pieces.
Caroline saw her and began waving before she reached the table, after sitting down she looked at Kara closely "Kara honey what's wrong?"
That was all it took for tears to form in Kara's eyes " I messed up Caroline and I don't know what to do "
Caroline got up and sat in the chair next to Kara " Just tell me Kara and together we will figure it out "
Kara still silently crying looked at her " You are going to hate me Caroline "
Caroline took one of Kara's hands and held it between hers " Kara I could never hate you I love you like a daughter, so please let me help you "
Kara took a deep breath " I'm almost two months pregnant " Kara looked everywhere but at Caroline she was afraid to see her expression.
Caroline never let go of her hand, but she took a moment to digest what Kara just told her. She wanted to shout she was so happy, but she didn't because she wasn't sure how Kara felt about it.
Kara finally looked at her after the silence became to much " Caroline? "
Kara saying her name brought her back to Kara " Does Lee know?"
Kara shook her head " No, I am afraid to tell him, what if he leaves me or even hates me?"
Caroline patted her hand " I am not sure how Lee will feel about becoming a father, but he won't hate you and I'm pretty sure he won't leave you "
Kara pulled her hand back " I can't lose Lee, maybe I should just get rid of it and not tell him "
Caroline knew she needed to ask a more important question " How do you feel about it Kara, do you want the baby?"
Kara nodded " Yes, it's Lee's baby how could I not want it, this baby is a part of Lee and I love him, but I don't know what I would do if he left me "
Caroline nodded, she was glad Kara wanted the baby " Kara you and I both believe in the gods and we both know this child is a gift, so knowing that, no matter what Lee decides what would you do?"
Kara smiled a little because she knows everything the gods do they do for a reason " I would keep my child "
Caroline smiled and pulled her into a hug " Kara I will help you in whatever way I can, besides this is my grandchild and I'm sorry you are worried, but I am so happy, thank you Kara "
Kara knew she needed to ask " Caroline I don't want to give up my career, so what will I do when I get posted to a battlestar?"
Caroline chuckled " You know the answer to that Kara, I will take care of the baby while you are away and when you get leave you will come home "
This time Kara hugged Caroline " After my two years I will join the reserves and be home for good unless we go to war "
After they sat back Caroline asked " When are you going to tell Lee?"
Kara sighed " I can't tell him alone, so if it is alright with you can we come visit you this weekend and I will tell him while we are there " Kara paused " I have never been as afraid as I am now having to tell Lee "
Caroline smiled " I understand Kara, before Bill and I married I got pregnant with Lee and I will make sure Zak is not there this weekend "
Kara sighed again " I will not marry Lee just because I'm pregnant, if we do get married I want it to be because he loves me not out of obligation "
Caroline took her hand again " Kara try not to worry too much, Lee loves you more than you think "
Kara nodded " I sure as frak hope so, I'm strong, but not that strong " she paused a beat " Thank you for talking with me Caroline and we will see you this weekend "
They both stood " As soon as you tell him and everything settles down I think I will throw a party to let everyone know I am going to be a grandmother "
Kara laughed " At least you are happy about it I bet the Commander will be upset "
Caroline grinned " Maybe not, don't forget he will be a grandfather "
They hugged one last time. Caroline walked away grinning from ear to ear and Kara felt somewhat better.
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When Kara got home Lee was hanging a swing on the front porch. " What are you doing that for Lee?"
Lee smiled " We have a house, so I thought we should have a porch swing, how was your visit with mom?"
Kara looked at the swing instead of him " She invited us out to her house this weekend "
Lee gave her an odd expression " We can't go "
Kara looked at him then " Why not?"
Lee snorted " Kara you have tickets to the game this weekend, you know the one you haven't stopped talking about "
Kara had forgotten " Visiting your mom is more important than a game Lee, we are going "
Lee stepped off the porch and felt her forehead " Well you don't have a fever, you love sports, what's wrong with you?"
Kara backed away from him " Nothing is wrong with me, I am not going to disappoint your mom over some game that's all "
Lee knew when to back down " Okay we will go to moms this weekend "
Kara nodded and went to pass him to go inside, but he grabbed her and pulled her to him and kissed her " Come sit in the swing with me "
Kara knew she couldn't keep avoiding him plus she missed being near him, so she sat in the swing with him. She just needed to get through the next two days then they would go to Lee's moms. Kara knew she would spend the next two days making love with Lee as often as possible in case he decided to leave her. With that thought she got up and straddled his lap and kissed him as deeply as she ever had.
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