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Chapter 2

EPOV

Bella's raised voice get the attention of everyone left from the party. I jerk my head in the direction of the kitchen. Alice and I were talking earlier about things with Bella. I am ready to take the next step but I am worried that she will get scared off. I know it's been about a year and a half but she is still Bella.

We all crowded around the kitchen area as Bella continues on clearly unaware that we are they because she is focused in on Alice.

"Alright damn it. Because I am so in love with him and I am afraid he doesn't feel the same. Happy now you annoying little damn pixie? I am so in love with him that if he were to leave me right now I feel like the world would slide right out from underneath me and that scares the hell outs me. I have never felt like this before. Happy now… you got to hear what you wanted to hear…

"I am in love with Edward."

"Uh Bella…" My heart is beating like an Indian drum, but I also see Bella has been pushed just a little too far. I need to remove her from the situation, "let's go talk."

"Oh shit." With a look I'm not about, she grabs her coat and stops by her mother's side. "Watch out for Leah please I will be back soon." Her mother nods as Bella jets out the door before I can do anything.

I spin around to face Alice "Damn it Alice you weren't supposed to do that!" I motion to the door.

"Edward, she needed to be pushed."

"Not like that, now what the hell am I supposed to do? …Huh. You just ran off the only woman I have ever loved with every fiber of my being." I feel the panic start to rise in my blood.

"She will be back, her kids are here."

"Yeah, then she will pack up and leave. I will lose my family; I have to go find her." I spin around and almost run right into the chief.

"Son, you go now you will pay for it dearly. She needs time. Let me try to calm her down." Then he leans in, "When it comes to matters of the heart, don't go to the skinny pixie no more, kay." I nod and let the chief go find his daughter. He gives me a reassuring smile, kisses his wife and leaves.

"Edward calm down." Rosalie walks over sits with me on the couch as I freak out. "Do you remember our conversation, a long time ago?"

"When she says the phrase "I'm in love" you have her whole heart in every way possible." Rosalie's words echo in my head. She wants me; she is IN love with me. I did it! Then why did she run? Why does she think I will leave, or don't love her the same? UGH women.

"Edward dear calm down, her Father will bring her back." Renee tries to comfort me now.

"What the hell is going on, she is confusing me. I love your daughter with everything I have and it seems like all she does is run away when I break through a wall." I shove my hands in my hair. "I need her."

"Then don't give up," now my mother has joined in the conversation, replying to my thoughts, in unison with Renee.

"Stop listening to everyone else, go to Bella. She will talk to you. That has been proven, so talk to her, and leave the crew out of it dear." My mother adds, Renee nods agreeing.

BPOV

"Bella, are you alright?" my Dad walks up.

"Dad…I'm fine. I just had to get out of there. I am just not ready to deal with that yet."

"Well, with as much as I think the way Alice handled it was wrong; I think it needed to be done. Maybe not announced to the house, but I do think it is something you and Edward have to talk about." He sits down next to me.

"How did you find me? I never showed anyone this place. Not even my friends." I look confused.

When I was little I found this place, I could go to just sit and think here. I never brought anyone here. I didn't want to share it at all I needed one place to go to, to just be alone and clear my head to work things through. So to have my Dad find me, is a bit confusing.

"Well one day when you got into a disagreement with that kid from school, you stormed out. I wanted to make sure you where okay, you looked so angry, so I followed you. I didn't want you to know I was there for fear I would rail you more. So I stayed back and made sure you were safe. I couldn't help it. So when you left I knew where you went and I didn't worry so much." He looks to the ground.

"Oh Dad," I smile shaking my head.

"Bella I am getting to be an old man, I aint gonna be around forever. I think Edward will take real good care of you, and he loves you more than anything." There is a long pause. "I see how you look at him Bella. I know you feel it too. I saw it that day you came home from the store and you didn't even know his name. Then again at the fair, you would have never asked me for a shirt to make a man feel better you would have let him know he signed up for this and he needed to deal with it." He chuckles. "That boy can help you cook and I aint even allowed in your kitchen. That says something there. You give a lot of grief to your Mom when she wants to help, and he can just walk in and jump in."

"Bella you have admitted what we all seen for a long time now and I think you scared the shit out of that men when you left. He was gonna chase you down; he looked so worried you weren't comin back. Bella you need to talk to him, you seem to be the center of his world and when something is wrong with you, he is crazy with worry. Do you realize, a year ago, when in that coma, he was right there; he wouldn't let them kick him out of the room. He wouldn't let them tell him he couldn't be involved in your recovery, and that wasn't his specialty, but he was always in a book to learn about what to do. He did all this studying with the kids at his feet and still workin on his own schoolin. Bella that guys was almost crazy with worry, and he stepped up with them kids. He only asked for help when he had to work, otherwise he handled it all."

"Dad, I am in love with him, but I'm just scared. What if I hurt him too, like I did Jake." I ask, with tears forming.

"Bella I truly believe you and Jake where meant to make Billy, but I knew when you told me you were getting married he wasn't the one. You didn't have the light in your eyes that you have with Edward. Why do you think I was always so hesitant to hand you over? I need to let go knowing you are going to get what you want, what you deserve and need. You're my baby girl Bella."

"Edward does that. I see your eyes sparkle when you smile or laugh with him. I see the pride in your eyes when you do things as a family. I don't always say it, but I always see it. I also know you are stubborn and the more I fight you on something, the more you will go against it. That's how you learn; you have to fall and pick yourself up, then try another route. Sorry sweet heart, that's the Swan blood in ya." He smirks.

"So what's the plan from here? What ya gonna do? Cuz if you leave that man you will kill him."

"Dad I could never leave him, the whole thing just…it was too much. I had to clear my head. I just don't know what to do now. I am so lost, how do I face him after I ran out on him?"

"I would say start with talking to him, without anyone else steppin in, and go from there." He shrugs his shoulders like it is so simple. Maybe it is but to me it is scary.

"You don't think I screwed things up by runnin off like I did?" I look up from the leaf I am destroying.

"Bella I think you could murder that man and he would still come runnin back to you," my Dad chuckles. "Come on, let's go, stop runnin from that poor man." He pulls me from the ground and we walk back home.

There is just something about a Dad that leaves you feeling safe, and you know with him you have a security net. Dads are always there to fix the problem and tell you which way you need to go when you are lost. Hence my Father is now leading me to the man my heart belongs to.

We walk in the door and Edward rushed up to me. "Bella! Oh my god, are you all right"? Please, don't do that to me again." He pulls me into a tight hug.

"Edward, calm down, I never intended to stay away I just needed to clear my head." I try to sooth him.

"Alright guys I am calling it a night, I need to speak to my girlfriend alone." Edward calls out to the house while pinching his nose. A sure sign he is stressed. I start to feel bad that I made him worry so badly.

As he closes the door after the last person and all the kids are in bed, he turns to me "Love, come sit with me please." I follow him to the couch and we sit side by side. He wraps his arms around me and begins. "Bella, I need you to know something. My heart is soaring right now with what you said. I feel the same way about you, Bella, you and the kids are my life now. I would never be able to survive without you. The rest of the world could fade away and as long as you are still by my side I will still have everything I need to survive. Please don't doubt how much I love you anymore. I am trying to show you every day, I must not be doing a very good job if you still think the way you do. Bella, I will spend forever showing you just how much you mean to me, as long as you are willing to keep me around."

"I know you are scared, but please let me help ease those fears, let me stand by your side. I want to continue to be everything you need. And please, please, please don't ever run out on me like that again. I was scared shitless, Bella I don't think you will ever understand the love I have for you and when you leave like that I worry that you will run from me. That is something that I don't think I will be able to come back from. I need you like I need air, Bella. My life was so empty until you came into it. Please Bella." I hear the desperation in his voice, and it makes my eyes water.

"Edward, I am sorry I ran out. I didn't mean to scare you. Yes I am worried too that you will get tired of me and then I will be left broken. I need you just the same, and that scares the hell out of me. The only other person I have ever allowed to take care of me is my dad, which gives you a lot of power over me. Edward, I know I am in love with you and I could in no way leave you like that. Ever since I got married the first time I have always felt like something was missing and when I met you something in me shifted. Now I feel complete and blissfully happy. That is all because of you. I won't leave if you don't and I will talk to you from now on if there is something I am worried about, or that is weighing heavily on my mind. I am so sorry Edward." I turn in his arms to kiss his beautiful lips.

When we separate he looks me in the eyes. "So it is true then, they weren't just words in the heat of the moment. I love you so much." He pulls me in for another kiss, I return the kiss with as much love in need for him as he is emanating out to me.

He stands up and reaches his hand out to me palm up. I softly place my hand in his, and I feel the need for me in his touch. He leads me up to the bedroom and opens the door letting me enter first.

He closes the door with a soft click. A strange warmth flows through my body as he walks up to me. When he wraps me in his arms I feel a sense of security, and I relish in it. We don't rush anything, there is no need to.

He guides me back to the bed keeping his eyes locked on mine. It's almost like a trance, one I am willing to stay in. when the back of my knees it the bed, he slowly leans down and connects his lips to mine as his body presses into me gently. He is so close to me I can feel his heartbeat, slow and steady, matching pace with mine.

His hands brush up my sides slowly, everything around me disappears. He pulls back slowly to removes my shirt. My eyes never lose his, even after he slides his own shirt off. When that is gone he wraps his arms back around me, kissing my neck with kisses as soft as butterfly wings. He moves back to my mouth and slides down to my chest. I latch my hands into his hair and let his mouth roam over my body.

His hands slide down and start to undo my pants; he slips his hands inside my jeans and slides them down, while running his hands down my thighs. As he stands back up he pauses at my waist and kisses my stomach. When he is standing tall again his eyes lock back up with mine. I see nothing but endless love and admiration in his green pools. I see him unbutton his own pants and he removes them, with his boxers, quickly.

I slide my hands up his chest and rest them there. After a minute he takes my wrist, and after kissing each one, he picks me up by the waist, and places me on the bed. He latches on to my nipple, sucking slightly. Only releasing it to slide his tongue over the hard pebble I feel the tingle between my legs.

I feel his hand slide down my side, over my hip, and slip over my thigh heading straight for my moistening core. His finger slides right meeting no resistance, causing a low groan from me. As he slowly slips his finger in I feel his tongue connect with my swelling nub. My hips rise on their own accord. He takes the opportunity to move his other hand under my rear. I feel the coil coming undone as his tongue and fingers work together.

After I come down from my high I reach for his hardening shaft. He grabs my hand before I can reach it and lays me back on the bed. As I am lying out before him I don't feel exposed, I feel cherished. He climbs on the bed one knee at a time. He is back to staring in my eyes again. I feel nothing but love radiating from him and reflecting back from his eyes.

He leans over me and I feel the pressure of his weight on me. I know he is holding most of it on his own arms. He lowers down to kiss me again; our tongues meet and dance together in perfect harmony. I bend at the knees placing my feet flat on the bed, as I feel him stretch me slightly. I use my leverage to lift my hips and meet him thrust for thrust. He seems to enjoy it. As he pulls back I lower my hips, and as he presses forward I lift up again. It flows together like a fine tuned choreographed dance.

I feel him harden even more and I know he is not far from his release, so I add a little wave to my hips as I lift up and draw back, this seems to do even more for him because a quiet "ahhh" slips from his lips. At the sound of his voice I feel the burn start at the pit of my stomach, and roll through my body.

As Edward twitches inside me I feel my own release flood through me. He lays over me and with as heavy as he is I still feel at peace. "I love you so much" I hear him whisper.

After a short amount of time he rolls off of me and goes to clean up. I grab the towel I usually keep next to the bed and wipe myself up. As I do this something really strange hits me, and I don't know where it comes from.

I start to wish I wasn't on birth control; I start to want another child. Edward's child, I want to have children with Edward. I lean back and smile as I let the dream I had a while back flood my mind. This is not like me I am not a spur of the moment type of person. I shake it off as Edward walks back in the room, I won't ruin the moment we have just had with baby talk, besides I need to know that this is what I really want and he agrees with me. It can't be a heat of the moment kind of thing.

I curl myself into Edward as he lies down. I rest my head on his shoulder and I can still smell the love we just shared on him and in the room. I smile to myself, making a mental note to wash the sheets tomorrow.

As I wake up the next morning, Edward has left for work. I get up and strip the bed right away and fabreez it, after I put the sheets in the washer.

When I'm done I go to the kitchen and start breakfast, with Amanda at my side. That has become routine for the two of us. It's how I find out a lot about what happens at school. I can never ask the boys because they never talk to me. I can ask how their day was and all they respond with is "Fine" or "Okay" or something along those lines. Amanda, however, prattles on about everything. She needs very little coaching from me. Don't judge me now; a mom's gotta do what a moms gotta do.

"Bella!" I hear a frantic Leah call me. I shut off the stove and tell Amanda not to touch anything then dart to Leah's room.

"What's wrong?" I ask as I reach her side.

"He is bleeding" she panics, "What do I do, it's coming from his belly, oh my god we haven't been home a month and I am already screwing up."

"Leah calm down. He is fine." I pick up J.J and walk around shushing him, leaving the diaper for a minute. "It happens, you did nothing wrong. Sometimes the diaper rubs where the cord was and it irritates it a little. It's no big deal." I try to sooth her as I rock her son lightly over my shoulder.

Leah rushes over to me and takes her son from me. She kisses his head "Mommy's sorry baby. No more diapers for a while okay, I won't let it happen again." She coos to him and he calms right down her arms. It really is getting to know who mommy is.

"Uh, Leah" I hold up a finger. "I don't think the 'no diaper' thing is a good idea."

J.J starts to cry softly again. "I don't think he agrees with that idea, Bells" Leah laughs.

"Okay, but he is your puppy, not mine you clean up after him, I won't." I laugh with her. That is one thing I don't miss, all the hormonal crap.

"Oh, Auntie Bella, come on. We like being naked." She looks down at her son, "Don't we baby. Tell Aunt Bella, she's no fun." Leah coos again.

I smile and shake my head, "Breakfast is about done, come on Mama" I pat her arm as I walk by.

Leah enters the room, J.J on her shoulder of course. She puts him in the swing, and comes to eat. As she is about to take her first bite J.J cries. She drops her fork and rushes to the swing to comfort him. The kids watch and I lean over the table capturing all their attention. "Don't any of you do that, okay."

Leah comes back and sits down to resume eating and again J.J cries and again she rushes to him and he stops crying instantly…Mama's boy. I chuckle to myself.

I watch this go on for about twenty minutes, laughing to myself. I have to stop it now, so when she goes to get up still not having touched her food I stop her. "Leah, stop. Is he dirty or hungry?" she shakes her head no. "Okay and he is not really crying, just eat. You do this too much and he will get used to you coming whenever he makes a noise and you will lose your mind, or starve. Now if he gets hysterical, then go."

As I said he stopped making noise and when she went to check on him a few minutes later he is asleep.

Typical male, all clean and a full belly now he is sleeping. I shake my head again and go clean up breakfast.

"Mom," I turn from my afternoon work, to see my little girl with a perplexed look on her face.

"What is it sweet heart?" I pull her to my lap.

"J.J is sucking on Aunt Leah" She has a funny look on her face. "That's just not right; Daddy says no one is post to touch you there."

Oh boy, uhh… "Well sweet heart, that's how he eats. You know he can't eat with a fork and spoon yet. So that how he gets fed."

"Huh?" her brows turn into a V.

"Well see Leah has milk in there for him. It's called nursing. Instead of giving him a bottle she does that."

"Why can't he have a bottle?" she asks.

"Well, it's kind of like bonding. Do you know what that means?" she nods "Well that's what they are doing while he eats."

"Do you think my mom nursed me? I don't think she did, cuz then she would have been bonding with me and she would not have left me." She looks down.

"Amanda listen to me." I lift her chin. "You don't need to nurse to bond. We cook together, that's bonding. You want to know what else I think?" she looks at me with puppy eyes. "I think this thing called fate made it turn out this way so you could come to me. I want a daughter and I prayed all the time, but I never got one…until you. I may not have had you myself or nursed you like I did your brothers but I was meant to be your mom. This is how it happened. Fate just fixed a mistake." I smile as I see her eyes light up a little. "I don't want you to worry anymore because I will never leave. You have me until the day I die."

"I love you Mom." She wraps her arms around me, hugging me with a death grip. I know she is still worried that she will lose me but I can only show her over time.

"I love you too, sweetheart. Forever." I kiss the top of her head.

The doorbell rings and I send Amanda to play as I answer it.

I gasp as I see my very unwanted visitor. "Tanya, what the hell are you doing here?" I don't even try to hide the venom in my voice.

"Bella, I came to see my little girl, you surely wouldn't deny a mother her daughter would you?"

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