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I want to dedicate this chapter to my sister, you know why hun…

Chapter 9

EPOV

"Dr. Cullen, Miss. Stewart is fully dilated and Bella said to call on your next break, it's important."

I nod, and rush into Miss. Stewart's room. "I need to push." She is screaming.

"Alright Miss. Stewart, let's do this." I snap on my gloves as she starts to push. Women are so impatient. As I am having her push out the baby, the nurse is getting everything ready for the baby.

"And last time here we go, PUSH" out comes a screaming bundle of joy. "It's a boy…" I hold him up then hand him to the nurse as I have the mother deliver the placenta. When all that is over, I walk out of the patent's room to give them as much privacy as possable.

As I walk into my new office I remember I need to call Bella and my mind wonders back to almost a month ago, when Bella came back to me.

*Flashback*

"Bella"

"Hello Edward…"

"What are you…why are you…did you need something?"

"Well, I thought we could…talk, but I can come back or something" she turns to leave.

"No, wait…" I reach for her arm. She turns back to me but keeps her head down. "Please, come in."

I take my glass into the kitchen and return to the living room to sit on the other side of the couch from her. The room is so quiet you can hear the clock tic. We both start at the same time.

"Edward…"

"Bella…"

"Go ahead," she says.

"I just want to say, I am sorry. I didn't mean what I said about Amanda. I know you love her, and care about her. I was out of line. Sometimes I just don't think."

"Edward, please stop. I was wrong. I took all my personal feelings out on you, and then shoved you away. I guess I just thought that you deserved better. I thought you deserved a chance at that big family that we talked about and I don't think that I will be able to give that to you anymore."

"Bella, that's not true. The doctor said that you can still have more children you will just have to take precautions…"

"No, Edward. We were taking precautions so we wouldn't get in this situation and look what happened. I took that damn pill same time every damn day. Then I wasn't even strong enough to hold it, even though it was here. I am weak, and useless." She starts to cry.

"No, Bella this happens more than what you think." I slide closer to her. "Bella plenty of women lose children then go on to have more all the time." I shake my head. "Bella you are a strong, take no shit, kind of woman and I love that about you." She starts crying harder.

"Edward, you need someone who is good enough for you. You need someone to give you everything you want and need in life."

"Then, why did you tell me to leave?" I ask.

She looks up into my eyes. "Edward, you are a damn good man. You need someone who can love you… like that."

"I found her, but she seems to think she isn't good enough." I smile.

"Edward, the only way to insure this not happen again is to abstain from sex. I can't ask you to do that."

First of all I know my Bella, that won't last, but she needs reassurance, so I give it because that is what you do for the ones you love. "Bella, I don't need sex, when I do need is to hold you, while we mourn the loss of OUR baby. As long as I have you by my side that is really all I need. We have three children, really we don't NEED more, it's just a want, but if I can have you then I will give up any more children. Bella I need you, I want you, you are what's best for me."

"Edward how can you say that? I just told you that we will never have sex again, that you will be giving up that big family that you want." Her brows make a "V" shape.

"Well ya know, there are other things we can do that feel good too." I crack a joke to make her smile.

It works; she snorts a little and playfully slaps my chest. "Edward, stop it."

I release her to rise my hands is defense "Just sayin is all."

She rolls her eyes but then turns serious again. "Edward, I want you to, I have felt like something has been missing since I sent you away. It's almost like a part of me is gone. I want you to come home Edward, if you don't want to I will understand." She drops her head again.

"Well, I don't want to be kicked out again" I jokingly mutter to her.

"No, I won't I swear, but coming home means you will have to "take care" of yourself. I cannot have sex. The risk is clearly too high."

Again I doubt that, but I will help ease her mind "Bella that's fine, I don't want the sex anyway." she snorts. "Okay yeah it would be nice, but it is a bonus compared to you."

"Then will you come home tonight? Like right now" I see the pleading in her eyes.

"Let me get our stuff…"

*End Flashback*

I am brought back to the present by my phone beeping. I roll my eyes "Yes,"

"Dr. Cullen, Isabella is on line one for you." I smile and shake my head.

"Alright." I pick up the phone.

This should be good…

"This is Dr. Cullen." I smirk; it gets her all the time. We may not be sleeping together…yet, but I can still mess with her and that does it all the time. I am so right, she giggles.

Yep I am wearing you down baby… I chuckle to myself.

"I left you a message to call me on your break." I can just see her playful pout now, it makes smile to myself.

"Bella, love, I just walked into my office after delivering a baby, I need time. Now what is so important that you felt the need to call me twice in…?" I look at my watch, "an hour and a half."

"Oh nothing I just thought that beings the kids are with your parents this weekend we could maybe catch a movie, and some dinner, alone."

"You mean Seth, left Halo?"

"Oh no, both parents got PS3s. So he took it with him." She chuckles. I laugh a little and shake my head.

He started playing this stupid game when I came home and Amanda has taken to it now too. Not quite like Seth though. Billy likes to watch them, he laughs so hard when they get railed up. Bella has to go in to the playroom to tell them to quiet down all the time.

"Well then in that case, why don't you make reservations, and when I get off we can go."

"Are you going to be home at normal time?"

"I should be, as long as no more women decide to go into labor." The words just leave my mouth and I smack myself in the head.

Edward you are a dumb ass…

"Well you knew the way the schedule was going to be, before you graduated." She giggles…she giggled. There is a step in the right direction.

"Alright, love I need to get my paperwork done, did you need anything else?"

"No, I just needed to hear your voice." She sighs.

I feel a smile come across my face. "I will see you soon love." After we say good bye I start on my paper work.

BPOV

I got Edward to move back in. We still aren't having sex, I don't know if the 'in time' part of everything will ever come, but Edward has been so patient with me. Edward's parents came to pick up the kids, about twenty minutes ago. So now I have time alone.

I talked to Edward, and then let him go to do paperwork. Edward said to make reservations somewhere, but I think we will just walk to the diner, then come home and watch a movie here at home. I know he wants to do things for me, but I won't go all out. It's the simple things that I like. This way too he can enjoy his shower, even if he runs late.

I get up and bake some cookies. I have been spending a lot of time in the kitchen, baking and cooking. It has helped me relax. I have been feeling better, and better as the days go by. Some days are still harder than others, but they are getting easier. Edward has stood by me this whole time. He holds me when I need to be held, and he just sits with me when I really don't feel like being touched, he is too good to me.

I pull the last batch of cookies out of the oven, and the door opens. "Bella, I'm home. Wow it smells good in here."

I walk out to greet him. "You're early, did you get all that paperwork done?" he nods at me smiling.

"I'm going to go shower, did you get those reservations made?"

"Uhh…no." I look at the floor before looking up to meet his confused gaze. "I thought we could…ya know…go to the diner maybe. Then we could come home and watch a movie, one that's not edited." I smile, hesitantly.

Edward walks up to and touches my cheek, "anything you want love, you know that" he smiles. "I'm going to go take a quick shower then we can go."

I head to the kitchen, and call over my shoulder "Take your time, angel." Edward stops in his tracks, making me follow suit. "What?" I ask confused.

"N…nothing," he grins then turns to walk away.

"No, wait, please tell me."

"It's nothing love," he smiles shaking his head.

"If it's nothing then just tell me." I push. "Whatever I did I need to know what did so I could do it again."

"You called me 'angel', you haven't done that since Billy and Seth came home." He kisses my forehead and walks away. I think about what he just said as I go in and shut off the oven.

We lace our fingers together and head to the diner. We find a booth in the corner. After placing our orders we sit and talk for a while. I started to feel like a high school girl again; somehow Edward does that to me.

"So, how is the collage stuff go…"

"Edward, how are you?" Jessica of all people walks up to our table interrupting.

"Jessica I am on a date with my girlfriend if you don't mind." Edward brushes her off.

"Oh I'm sure she doesn't mind, Dr. Cullen, if you say hi to friends, do you Bella" I don't like how she said 'Dr. Cullen'.

"I'd say more like an acquaintance, and just because Bella doesn't mind, doesn't mean I don't mind. I do. Now please leave us to our date." Edward says firmly.

"Oh come on Dr. Cullen…" Again with the 'Dr. Cullen'.

"Alright that is enough, Jessica, you small town skank, I told you if you came near me or my family that I would kick your ass child or not." I reach up to grab her throat.

"Bella, don't please." Mike speed walks up to us with their little one in his arms. I stop and drop my hand. I won't do that in front of a child.

"Mike, I get you are simple, I really do, but how do you not see that she is a cheating whore. Mike do you even realize that little girl in your arms might not even be yours." Mike looks at Jessica in shock. That shows how stupid he really is. "Do you realize she was just hitting on my boyfriend… on our date? Though I shouldn't be surprised be, you hit on me, the whole time I worked in shipping. The two of you are such a fucked up pair, I feel so bad for that child."

They both look at each other than back at me, "Now if the two of you will please leave me to my date, I would appreciate it. Oh and Jessica, keep your hands off what's mine." I stare into her eyes.

"Oh uh, Mike." Edward calls. "The same goes for you. It's not my fault you have an unhappy wife. Leave Bella alone." Edward stares into Mike's eyes causing him to shudder, grab his wife, and hurry out.

We both sit back down and I growl. "If I ever wanted to kill someone Halo style, she'd be it." I point over my shoulder as Edward laughs leaning against the wall.

"Alright Bella, no more Halo for you." He chuckles out. I stick my tongue out at him making him laugh harder.

"You are not nice." I point at him.

"Uh, Bella, I think you are the one who's not nice" our waitress jokes as she sets down our food.

I pick up a french-fry and point it at her "You are not helping." We all laugh together.

"Is there anything else I can get you guys?" She asks through her giggles, and then she looks right at me "I think we can bring you some boxing gloves, if you want." I flip her the bird, and throw a fry at Edward making them both double over in laughter.

"You both suck." I say before tossing another fry in my mouth while starting to chuckle with them.

We enjoy our meals and head for home. I wrap my hand around the crease in Edward's elbow and snuggle into him as we walk home.

As we sit on the couch my mind wonders…

I wonder if should repay Edward for all of his efforts. I don't have to have sex; he did say there was other ways to make him feel good. I can do that much for him.

I look at Edward out of the corner of my eye. He looks so content just sitting here with his arm around me. I shift my body to the side so my cheek is against his chest, and my hand is on his thigh. I feel his body tense up a little so I hold still.

EPOV

I freeze as Bella's hand touches my thigh. Not that I wouldn't be grateful for what she would have to offer, I just don't want her to feel that she needs to do it. I keep my eyes on the T.V but if you are to ask me what has happened in the last few minutes I would not have a clue. I can feel Bella's hesitation, so I relax again as I will the stiffening in my pants away. It's going to be another cold shower kind of night…lovely.

After a few minutes more I feel her hand slide up. Okay, I am a guy and my body already has a mind of its own when it comes to this woman, so I shift a little to make myself more comfortable around the hardening in my jeans.

"Are you alright, angel?" Bella asks innocently, making me wonder if she knows and is purposefully doing this. Could she be ready to try to have sex again?

I clear my throat and look down at her with s forced smile. "Yes, love, why wouldn't I be?" her face looks a little confused at first then disappointed.

She starts to pulls her hand away with a sigh and then it hits me like a semi, she was doing that on purpose and now I just made her doubt herself, because she is trying to turn me on. So I grab her hand and put it right on my hard on, stupid move I know but I want her to know what she is still does to me.

She starts massaging me, and making me harder I might add. Jeans and raising male parts do not mix well, I can tell you that much. I clear my throat again, and hold her shoulder tighter.

"Are you sure you're all right?" Bella asks me again.

"Uh…" clear throat…"I…I've… yeah…yeah I'm good." I look pointedly at her hand then glance at her.

Smirking little vixen…

"Really, good, that's all?" She pulls out the batting eyes and sugar sweet voice.

"Uh…" I don't get any more than that out and she unfastens my pants, I look down then back up at her. "Bella, you don't have to…"

"I know," she interrupts as she pulls down my zipper, "I want to and from the feel of things I wouldn't say you aren't totally against this idea either." She smirks and raises a brow as she pulls me through the button slot in my boxers.

She watches me as she moves to the floor and she leans over my, standing at attention, cock. Keeping eye contact she licks from the base to the tip, then circles her tongue around the tip. Between her actions and me watching her, I can't help but drop my head back, hitting the couch behind me, with a not so subtle thud.

She pulls me in her mouth before she stops and looks at me "Are you all right?" she giggles a little.

"Oh God, yes. Please don't stop," I moan. She slides her mouth back down me and I can feel my tip hit the back of her throat. "That feels so good." I whisper, afraid to get any louder because I don't know if Leah is here. Bella grabs the base of my shaft and slides her hand up adding a small twist as she pulls her mouth up. Her hand and her mouth work in perfectly together and in a matter of minutes I am ready to release.

"Bella…oh god Bella…I'm…you…" She grasps me firmer and moves faster. "I'm almost there." She almost swallows me, and I feel my orgasm roll through me, and she swallows every drop I give her. When she is done she sits back up, and looks proud of herself.

After putting myself away we sit back to watch the rest of the movie. A little bit later Leah comes down and heads to the kitchen. Along the way she says, "Coming along nicely, I see, Bella."

"Stuff it Leah" Bella quarks back, and they both giggle. I have a feeling Leah knows all too well what went on down here. I feel my face warm up a little, and Bella pats my leg smiling.

Oh yeah my wild cat is on her way back to bed… I feel myself smile at that, oh so, lovely thought.

After the movie we head up to bed. Bella snuggles in and lets, out a sigh of contentment then falls asleep. I pull out my book, clip the light on the back cover and start to read.

About two chapters in Bella's legs start to move, I look down to see if she is waking up but it doesn't look like it. I give her some space and continue reading. All of a sudden she starts moaning, and spreads her legs under the blankets.

"Oh yeahhh." She whimpers. This captures my attention, and something else's attention.

I groan to myself, shut the light off and put my book down. As I start to get up, because there is only so much a man can take, I hear her again. "Edward…mmm" my dick jumps.

"Yeah, like it would be anyone else" I roll my eyes and whisper.

"God, harder please…" I watch her hand go underneath the blankets. That right there is all I can take. I rush to the bathroom for a hot shower, and to take care of what my loving girlfriend decided to leave me with.

After my shower I crawl back into bed, after prying my pillow from Bella's arms. When I lay down and get comfortable, Bella's arm comes over my chest, her leg comes over my legs, and she nestles her head in my shoulder. That is how I fall asleep, the happiest man on the planet.

BPOV

I woke up from the most amazing dream. I am a little confused by what it means, so I think a trip to my mother is important right now.

"Morning, love" Edward says as I hand him his coffee and he kisses my head.

"Good morning. I will be going to see my Mother today, is that alright?"

"Of course I need to speak with my Father too. So I will do that while you are with your Mom." He says. "I will just bring the kids home with me." I nod agreeing with him.

After our pot of coffee is gone, we both head out it opposite directions.

"Bella, what a nice surprise, coffee?" my Mother offers.

"That would be wonderful; umm…I actually stopped by for a reason. I need to talk to you, is Dad gone?"

"Yes," she looks at me. "What is it sweetheart?"

"Well," might as well dive right in. "Okay look I had this dream, and it was a …good…dream. When I woke up this morning I felt like I shouldn't have had that dream. Is this making sense?"

My Mother smiles, "what kind of dream?"

"One that I don't want to give to many details about." I think back on that dream. She must have gotten the idea because she giggles a little.

"That is normal honey; it has been a month now. Honestly I am surprised you haven't moved passed it already."

I look down at the table. "Well, that the thing Mom, I started, and finished for that matter, things last night. I wasn't quite ready to do more, but then with this dream thing…"

"mmhmm…" She nods her head.

"I just don't know, I mean what if I do this and I wind up pregnant again? Then that one ends up falling through…"

She reaches out and rests her hand on mine. "Sweet heart, if you just take the precautions like the doctor said, and take a test and the slightest thought of it, I think you will be fine. Besides" she sits back up, "nothing says it will happen again." She shrugs one shoulder.

"I don't know Mom…"

"Sweetheart, you are fine. If you are not ready don't push it, but don't deprive yourself either." She looks at me pointedly.

"Oh Mom," we giggle together.

EPOV

I walk in to the house and get rushed by the children screaming, "DAD!"

I kneel down and hug then all "Hey guys, I need to talk with Grandpa for a little while then we can head home, okay?" they all nod.

"Your Father is in his study, dear" my Mother says drying her hands.

I walk straight to his door and knock. "Come in, son." I open the door and walk in. "There certainly is no mistake when you arrive is there." He teases.

I raise my arms palms up, "Hey what can I say, I'm a Dad." I feel the pride fill me.

"That you are son, that you are." He mumbles as he finishes writing, then he looks up and puts his pen down. "So what's up?"

"Well I know you specialize in children but I was hoping you could answer a few questions about an adult."

"Mmmhmm, and what has Bella done, now, that has you confused?" she smirks.

Might as well just put it out there…

"Well, how blunt should I be?"

He gets up and closes his door, then sits back down. "As blunt as you want, son." He shrugs.

"Okay fine, Bella did things last night," I hold up my hand, "I did not ask or initiate. She just did it." He raises his hand to rest his elbows on the desktop and meets the tips of his fingers together. "I didn't exactly decline either." I shrug. "Then she had this dream last night that left her…making noises, and moving and touching." I look at him pointedly, hoping he will catch on. I know he does because a, cat that ate the canary, grin slowly appears. "Okay so you get my point, is this normal or just a result of what she did, like I let her down kind of thing?"

"Did she seem open to you returning the favor?"

"Well when she was done with me she just snuggled back in and we finished the movie…oh and she and Leah flipped each other shit for a minute."

"Edward, I would be worried if Bella didn't do that." He smiles brightly. "Now just wait for her to initiate things. I honestly think you won't have to wait long. You are doing well son, keep it up."

"Will I ever be able to please HER again?"

"In time, son, in time." He drops his hands to the desk. "You know it took your mother over a month before she would even let me do anything intimate with her, and even longer before we actually had intercourse." I think the shock is clear on my face. "That's right, before you your mother and I lost a baby. It takes a lot for a woman to heal mentally and emotionally. Bella is doing very well actually; I think the talk the mothers had with her really helped."

I take a deep breath, "So just wait on her, huh?" he nods. "That I can do." I stand up.

"That's my boy." He claps me on the back, with an encouraging smile.

When we go downstairs, I gather up the kids and we head home. Right after I shut the car off Bella appears at the door. My girl has on my shirt and a pair of boxers. What I also like to call PMS clothes. The kids run ahead and hug her while they greet her. I walk up and she kisses me hello.

"How are you feeling" she looks confused as I grab my shirt and look at her. "There is only one reason you dress like this, otherwise you have jeans and cute tops on."

"You notice that?" I nod. "Well I feel a little bloated." She frowns. "I can go change." She points her thumb in the bedrooms direction.

"No, I want you to go sit and relax; I will make supper, and put the kids to bed. Then I'd like to give you a massage." She looks at me worriedly. I touch the side of her face "Just a massage love, I swear." She lets out a sigh of relief.

"That sounds wonderful, thank you."

So things are looking up. They will only get better from here. Let me know what you think in a review please…