I still don't own Victorious.
I know I said I was gonna update on Tuesday, but I already had this written & I saw your reviews so I felt back holding it till then. SO HERE YOU GO.
JADE'S P.O.V
It was 1pm I was watching reruns of That 70s Show when I heard the doorbell ring, I turned off the TV. I knew it couldn't be Cat cause she almost always calls before she comes over and my parents are at work. A voice in my head was telling me that it could be Beck, but I kept pushing the thought back; he wouldn't come over at a time like this without calling. But I decided to check to be sure, I peeked though the family room window which had a clear view of the front porch…and my heart sank, Beck was standing there with his hands in his pockets.
I moved the curtain by mistake
"Shit" I thought I hope he didn't see that. I just wanted him to assume I wasn't home so that he could leave, knowing Beck if he knew I was inside but didn't want to talk he would not leave. I quickly moved away from the window and sat at the bottom of my staircase, he couldn't see me if I was all the way over here.
BECK'S P.O.V
I sat in my car for 20 minutes trying to figure out how I would explain myself, then I just decided to go and tell her exactly what happened. No lies. I walked up to her house and heard the TV on, I rang the doorbell. I knew she was home because her parents are always at work at this time and she loves to watch the TV with the volume up really loud. As soon as I rang the doorbell I heard the TV noises stop. She probably turned it off or muted it. I stood there knowing that she had heard the doorbell ring and that she would be coming anytime soon, so I just placed my hands in my pockets and waited.
Suddenly, I saw the curtain from her living room move. Was she checking to see who it was? If she knew it was me she would never answer the door. I rang the doorbell again, "Jade, I know you're inside; I heard the TV turn off as soon as I rang the doorbell." I spoke loudly so that she could hear me, "I'm not leaving till you talk to me".
'Shit, I should have just stayed on the couch.' I thought to myself, I decided to just open the door and talk to him now and get it over with. I hadn't planned what I was gonna say to him, so I decided to just go with what my heart feels like saying at the moment.
"Fine" I said as I opened the front door, I saw his eyes light up when he looked at me; but I looked down. Looking him in the eye right now would just make this harder for me to say.
"So can we talk" Beck said
& I immediately responded with a cold "About what?"
"Jade, come on. I know you know saw what happened with Jamie, so can I just come in so we can talk?" He sounded desperate and so I decided to hear him out, but my mind was already made up. I wanted this…us to be done.
I moved out of the way and he walked into my house and sat on the couch. I made sure to sit away from him, so I sat on the small ottoman on the opposite side of him.
"Ok, so talk" I said coldly once again. I saw him move along the couch so that he could be closer to me so I decided to stand and lean against the wall; he sighed deeply as soon as I got up.
"Ok, well Jade, I know what you saw yesterday and I was sitting in my car for 20 minutes trying to figure out how I was going to explain this to you. But I still don't know exactly how to do that." He said
"Dammit Beck, can you just tell me the truth! Tell me exactly what happened that made you decide that you wanted to go have sex with Jamie on the balcony at our prom?" I said angrily
"I don't know, I drank a lot. I wasn't paying attention to anything, it was a mistake; I didn't have sex with her either, we just made out. it doesn't mean that I don't still love you. Jade I care about you more than I care about anyone else. My heart broke when Cat and Tori explained to me what happened…I really am-" I cut him off.
Is he really that stupid, "So if Cat and Tori didn't walk in on you, what would have happened?"
"I-I…' I never actually thought of that before she caught me off guard with that question. Would I have had sex with Jamie if Cat and Tori didn't walk in? "Jade, I wouldn't have gone that far. I know how to control myse-" I stopped deciding not to finish that sentence because it was a mistake to say it in the first place. But it was too late she had heard me.
"Wait, so you had enough self-control to stop yourself from having sex with her while you were 'drunk' but making out with her you couldn't control that!" I didn't ask it as a question I was now shouting at him
"Jade, I hate seeing you like this. I don't like knowing that you were crying at night because of something that I did. I will do anything to go back to how we were." He said.
"I might have cried last night, but you don't have to worry about me crying over you anymore. I remember back when I used to think that you were actually perfect and that I was the one with all the flaws. But God, Beck you're even more fucked up than I am; It's crazy to think that a part of me still loves you even though I know what you are. But I don't care, I'm gonna get over you…I'm through with you and now I see that you were clearly the best thing I never had…but you know what I want you to remember that I will always be the best thing you've ever had." I walked to the door and opened it, "And as for going back to the way we were, we can."
"really?" He said looking shocked and I saw his eyes light up
"Yea, we can go back and pretend like you and I were never together. Like you never asked me out back in Freshman year." I gestured to the door again and I swear I saw his eyes watering as he walked out.
I hope you guys liked it…
Don't worry this is still a BADE fanfic…so they will have more moments
And for the TANDRE & CABBIE lovers…they will have their moments soon too don't worry.
So if you want more, please review