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"Oh man...Liv needs to come back and tell him why she was there to begin with
like to let him know she came to tell him she loves him. And a bus can run
over Kathy now!" - Rhonda Roo

- Ehh. . . something like that. Anyway, on with the show.

Disclaimer - not mine

Earlier:

"Ben!" Called Olivia as she burst through his apartment door. "Ben, where are you?"

"Liv?" She heard him call from the bedroom. In a flash he was at his front door, circling her in his arms. "Liv, baby, what are you doing here? What's wrong?"

Everything was wrong. The man she loved had given her an ultimatum and the man who was currently holding her wasn't the man she wanted. Everything was fucking wrong. She knew what she wanted but she also knew what she had. What she didn't know was if losing what she had was worth risking it with what she wanted. She let him hold her a while longer before speaking. "Ben, you love me don't you?"

He chuckled and kissed are hair. "You know I do. What's this all about?"

Olivia sighed and led them over to the couch to sit down and settled herself into his chest. "I had a talk with a friend tonight and he just made me think about some things."

Ben raised an eyebrow. "Like what?" He asked. "Do I know this friend?"

Olivia clung to his shirt nodded. Leave it to Elliot to make her so insecure about her relationship.

"Is it Elliot?"

Damn! Even Ben knew how easily he could influence her decisions. She nodded again.

"I don't like the way he looks at you."

Olivia lifted herself from his chest. "What do mean?" She asked.

Ben chuckled. "C'mon Olivia don't pretend like you haven't noticed. Its obvious he's in love with you."

Olivia was shocked. Even the man she was currently enveloped in could see that Elliot loved her. How could she have been so blind? How could she not have seen what apparently everyone else in the world had noticed?

"If I wasn't so sure you loved me I would swear you two had a thing."

Her mouth fell open. "What?" She snapped defensively.

Ben shrugged. "Olivia, relax. I'm not accusing you of anything. I know there is nothing going on between you two and I know you love me."

She relaxed a little, knowing that Ben had no clue as to how much in love she really was with Elliot. She smiled. "I do love you, Ben."

He leaned in to kiss her. The second their lips touched a cold empty chill fell over her. He wasn't a bad kisser, actually, he was pretty damn good but he wasn't Elliot. There was no spark, no pop, not like how she felt when Elliot had kissed her days earlier.

"Move in with me." He whispered against her lips.

She pulled back instantly. "What?"

He smiled. "Olivia I love you. You just said you loved me. Move in with me."

Olivia shook her head. What was wrong with her? This was what she wanted. She wanted someone to come home to, someone to love, someone to raise a family with. Why was she so reluctant to let herself be happy? "Ben, I can't."

"Why?" He asked.

Because your not Elliot. "I just can't."

"Olivia", he wrapped his arms around her, "Don't I make you happy? Don't you want to be with me?"

She couldn't do this. Could she? Ben did make her happy and she did love him. Why couldn't she do this? Why couldn't she let herself be happy? She fell further into his arms. They didn't feel like they should.

His embrace was nice but it wasn't what she wanted. It wasn't warm and caring, it didn't give her that smoldering heat and rush of lust she got whenever she just looked at Elliot.

Ben was a good guy but there was one thing missing; one thing that she finally realized she could only get from one person. And then it all made sense; the thing stopping her from taking this step suddenly was painfully clear: he wasn't Elliot.

"Olivia, kiss me." He said in response to her silence. "Kiss me and tell me you don't feel something."

He leaned into her. Their lips met. He kissed her passionately, eagerly. She didn't move but she didn't kiss him back either. She couldn't return that kiss. She could never put that much fire into a kiss that wasn't shared with Elliot.

He pulled back. "Well?" He asked. "Olivia?"

She just shook her head. "I'm so sorry, Ben." His head hung down in rejection as Olivia got up and headed out the door. "I'm sorry."

"Yeah", he said, "me too."

The walk to Elliot's apartment was painfully slow. She had stopped to get his favorite pizza as a peace offering and hoped he would let her in to talk about what had happened tonight.

She wanted him. God, did she want him. And it had taken Ben offering her everything she had ever wanted for her to realize that she only wanted it with him, with Elliot.

Who cares if he dragged it on forever, the point is he was ready now and she wanted him.

She loved him, and apparently he loved her.

She smiled as she placed her key in his door. This was it, the first step to her dream come true.

And then her heart dropped in her stomach. She heard Kathy's soft moans before the door was completely opened.

She was on his couch, kissing him. He wasn't moving, wasn't pulling back, wasn't pulling away.

"Liv." He said as he stood up from the couch.

She didn't want to hear it. She didn't want to hear whatever bullshit excuse he was trying to come up with. Instead she dropped the pizza on the floor and stormed out into the streets.

"Olivia!" She heard him call. She didn't stop. She didn't want him to see the tears streaming down her face.

"Olivia stop." He said when he finally caught up to her. His hands wrapped around her biceps and spun her around to face him.

Again he let his body do the talking as his words failed him. He pulled her into a kiss, the likes of which Ben had tried to produce only an hour ago.

She was on fire, both from anger and from passion but she pulled back from the kiss.

He tasted like Kathy.

"What's the matter with you!" She shouted.

He didn't know what to say. Really, he knew how this looked, he knew what she was thinking.

"Liv", he began, "this isn't what it looks like."

She scoffed. "Yeah, like I haven't heard that one before." She turned to walk away but only made it a few feet before he stopped her again.

"Hey, Olivia, you know what? You never told me you wanted me. You never gave me any indication that wanted to start something! You have no right to be mad."

She glared at him, hurt and anger in her eyes. "Your right, Elliot, I didn't." She was crushed but she couldn't let herself fall apart in front of him. "Have fun with Kathy."

"Liv, I don't want Kathy." He said. "I want you. Isn't that why you're here? Isn't that why you came to see me; to tell me you want me to?"

It was, but she didn't want him to know that. She didn't want to give up the last piece of armor she had in the matter.

She scowled at him. "It doesn't matter. It looks like you've already made up your mind."

Something BIG is about to happen. Let me know what you think so far.

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