Thank you all for the lovely reviews! Here is chapter 3 (:

Beta Reader- EFlareDegrassi

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Chapter 3.

My eyes fluttered open, looking around the bright colored room that I was sitting in. I heard the faint noise of a heart monitor beeping.

Beep Beep Beep

I shut my eyes tightly and opened them back up, finally realizing that I was in a hospital room. I looked at my aching wrist and noticed bandages covering up the cut I made. I took a deep breath and closed my eyes,

"Why did you do it?" I heard a deep, scratchy voice coming from beside me. I jumped and looked over to see those jade green eyes staring back at me. His eyes were red and puffy and I could see the redness of his cheeks. "Why did you hurt yourself?" He asked again only louder. He looked at me with anger slowly entering his eyes.

"I... I don't know. I just felt the urge too. After what KC did to me, when I went into the bathroom I saw all the scars, the memory of the night my parents died mentally flashed through my head. I- I couldn't stop myself." I felt a tear escape me eye. I lifted my free hand and wiped it away before Eli could notice.

"Why didn't you say anything to me?" Eli yelled, I flinched at his sudden outburst but he came and sat down next to me, "S-sorry." he mumbled, "Do you know how worried I was, though?" He whispered, looking at me.

"How?" I asked softly, looking at him through my eyelashes. My head hung low as he spoke; I didn't want him to notice I was crying.

"It was about an hour after you got up, and I figured you were in the shower or something so I didn't bother checking on you." He took a deep breath, "Minutes went by and you still didn't come out, so I went to check on you. I knocked on the door and you didn't answer. I knocked again and I was becoming scared. I opened the door and saw you lying there, with your eyes closed and you weren't breathing properly." Eli took a short pause and placed his hand on top of mine. I looked up at him, our eyes locking. He smiled and looked away, "I called the police and picked you up and waited in the kitchen for the police. I put pressure on the cut and waited."

I sighed, "I'm so sorry I put you through that. I didn't know what was happening. I'm sorry."

"Don't be sorry, Clare. Just promise me... you won't do it again."

I can't promise him that. Sure he can stop me, but I will always be a cutter. No matter what, that's still me.

I slowly nodded as he stood up. He walked over to me and pressed a light kiss on my forehead. I smiled to myself as I felt his lips touch my skin. He leaned back and looked at me, "I'm going to go get something to eat, and do you want anything?" I shook my head and he rubbed my hand before showing me a smile and walking out of the room.

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I was finally home from the hospital, well not home, I was at Eli's. He asked me if I wanted to stay with him for a little bit, so he got the quest room ready for me to settle in. We were currently in his room, sitting on his larger, king sized bed. His walls were covered by Dead Hand posters and the rest were bands I didn't recognize. His bed was a forest green color, with a pillow covered in skulls. This room practically screamed Eli.

"So, Clare, what's the plan for today? We can stay here and hang out, we can go see a movie, or we can play video games." Eli looked at me with that goofy grin on his face that made me laugh.

"We can stay here so I can totally beat your ass at video games." I smiled at him as he rolled his eyes playfully.

"Yeah right, you wish." He said sarcastically handed me a game controller from his bed stand.

"Okay, we'll just have to see then." I raised my eye brows at him and he smirked, pressing play on the game.

We were about 2 hours into the game when Eli threw his controller down with a frustrated sigh, "Alright, I quit." He said. I looked at him and smiled wide,

"You're just pissed that I beat you... 4 times in a row. Face it Eli, you lost to a girl." I began laughing as he shot me a glare. I watched as the smile tugged on his lips, and before I knew it, Eli pounced on me, sending me back against the pillows.

"You shouldn't make fun of me because you won, blue eyes, and now, you're going to pay." With that, Eli began to tickle my sides. I took a deep breath as Eli quickly found my soft spot and began tickling me. Eli laughed under his breath as he watched me suffer.

"O-Okay Eli! I learned my lesson. You can stop now." I tried forcing his hands off my sides, but they ended up getting pinned above my head. My breath got caught in my throat as Eli looked at me, his eyes drifting from my eyes, to my lips, and back again. He moved his head closer and kissed my forehead, making me slightly laugh. He kissed both my cheeks and my nose. He lifted his head back up and looked at me,

"Sorry." He whispered, he slowly moved off of me but I grabbed him by the shirt and pulled him back down, I looked into his eyes before slowly leaning up and briefly touching my lips against his. His lips were soft against mine. I smiled and at that moment, everything stopped. I felt as if I was slowly melting into another world, a perfect one if you were wondering. I leaned back and looked at Eli, who was staring at me with a confused glare.

"What was that for?" He asked, but without saying words, I flipped us over so I was straddling his lap, my legs on either side of his waist. I smiled at him before leaning down and pressing my lips to his cheek. I looked at him as that smirk played on his lips as his cheeks turned a light pink.

"You're cute when you blush." I whispered, not processing the words I just spoke. Before Eli could answer me, I leaned down and pressed my lips to his. Eli's breathing hitched, but soon enough, his lips were moving in-sync with mine. My hands rested on his chest, feeling his rapid heartbeat beneath my palm. My stomach was exploding with butterflies as we kissed, it felt like a first kiss, one that you wish you can rewind and replay it over and over again.

Honestly, I have never been kissed like this before. KC's kisses were always forced and sloppy, and Jake never wanted to kiss me, he was always too busy to even peck me on the cheek. Eli's kissed though, they were soft, and they were perfect. Even though this is my first time kissing Eli, I fell in love with them. As scared I was about admitting this, I was slowly falling for Elijah Goldsworthy.

I was totally pulled off guard when I felt Eli slide his tongue on my bottom lip. I smiled against his lips and slowly opened up to him. His tongue met mine, and I suddenly felt like I was in heaven. Our tongues danced with each other as I smiled against his lips once again. Eli pulled back making me whimper from the loss.

"Wow... that was..."

"Amazing." I said, finish off his sentence. I laid my head on his chest, trying to regain my breathing. Eli's breaths got deeper by the second; I looked up to notice he was sleeping. He had his arms wrapped loosely on my lower back with his head turned slightly to the side. I chuckled at him and I leaned up and kissed his cheek lightly, trying my best not to wake him.

Just for a second, I thought my life was going to be perfect. I thought everything is going to be okay, that I have to worry about nothing. But of course, I was wrong. I suddenly snapped back to reality. My eyes widened, and I shot up, jumping off on Eli's lap.

"C-Clare? What's wrong?" I heard Eli ask. I stopped at the doorway and turned around to face him.

"I'm sorry," I whispered, getting that feeling in my chest like I was about to cry, "I can't. I have to go." I whispered and ran out of his room. I heard Eli call my name, but I blocked out all the sound of his voice and went inside the guest room. I shut the door and locked it, sliding down and bringing my knees up to my chest. I cried silently, as I heard footsteps coming closer to my door.

"Clare, are you okay?" I heard Eli ask softly. I took a deep breath and shook my head, even though he couldn't see it.

"Just go away Eli; I don't want to talk to you right now." I cried and wiped my eyes, getting rid of all the lose tears.

"Clare please... let me in, let's talk about this." Eli said to me. I took a deep breath,

"No. Leave me alone, I want to sleep." I stood up, and pressed my ear against the door. I heard Eli mumbled something under his breath, but soon enough I heard his footsteps disappear down the hall. I shut my eyes tightly and walked over to the bed and lay down. I closed my eyes and thought about everything that happened earlier. I sighed; Eli can't know why I did that. He simply wouldn't be able to handle it. I was probably going to tell him, he would somehow get it out of me, but it was going to take a while before I could ever tell him what happened.

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It's been weeks ever since I last talked to Eli. Yes, I still stay with him, but I haven't said anything to him ever since that day. We only give the occasional "good morning" or "hey" in the hallways at school, but that's about it.

Today during English, Eli was desperately trying to talk to me, but I was to embarrassed to talk. The truth was going to eventually slip out, so I tried to keep quiet for now. The bell finally rang, telling the school that it was now time to leave. I grabbed my books and ran out of the school, not even bothering to go get my things out of my locker.

"Clare! Wait!" I heard Eli yell. I rolled my eyes and started walking faster. "Clare." his hand wrapped around my arm and I turned around, stopping myself before slamming into his body.
"Please, tell me what's wrong. I can't stand not being able to talk to you. It's killing me." I looked up at him, finally locking my eyes with his for the first time in weeks. "please." his eyes were glossy and filled with worry as he spoke every word.

"Eli. I... I'm scared. I'm scared that if I start liking you more that I'm going to realize that you're going to leave me. I can't let someone hurt me again." I took a deep breath and looked down at my feet "I'm scared that if we become more than friends that the end of it will come. I get too attached to people, and every time I lose them, I-I feel like I'm going to die." I looked back up at Eli and continued, "I like you Eli, I really do-" Eli cut me off by touching my cheek with his hand.

"Clare you have to know, I'll never, in a million years hurt you. Also, I like you too." Eli showed that smirk and I shook my head gently.

"How do I know that you won't hurt me?" I asked

"I promise you that I won't. I would never hurt you in a million years. Trust me." I looked up at him to see any hint of lying, but thankfully, I didn't.

I slightly nodded and he smiled, showing all his teeth. I laughed at his excitement and placed my hand on his.

"Can I... kiss you?" He asked with hope in his voice. I giggled and took a step closer to him.

"I'd be upset if you didn't, Goldsworthy." And with that, Eli leaned down and pressed his lips gently to mine. I moved my hands up and tangled his hair between my fingers. His hands snaked down to my waist and held me securely in his hands. I pulled back and rested my forehead against his before smiling inwardly to myself.

I saw stares as people walked past us, but we didn't give a care in the world. Eli looked deeply into my eyes before connecting our lips again. I smiled in the kiss and he took his chance to slide his tongue past my mouth. His tongue met mine, and that feeling suddenly hit me again.
The butterflies exploded in my stomach as the world stopped around us.

"Can I ask you something?" I asked him, breaking the kiss. He nodded and pecked my lips again making me smile, "When we get back home, can I tell you why I... cut, and what made me the way I am? I feel like I can trust you, and there are some things you still don't know about me and I feel like I should tell you."

Eli nodded, "Of course, and I'll tell you some things about myself as well." He showed me a caring smile and kissed my forehead before pulling me into a hug.
"You know, I really do like you Clare."

I smiled against his chest, "I do know, and I like you, too."

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"My sister, Darcy, was my best friend before my parents died. She was always there for me and I was always there for her. We told each other everything." I took a deep breath; I hated talking about my family. But when I was with Eli I felt like I could tell him anything. "When she found out that I was driving the night my parents were killed, she turned against me. She practically kicked me out of her life when she found out. I haven't talked to her since." I closed my eyes and leaned back against the headboard to Eli's bed.

"Did you try calling her or anything?" He asked while moving up and sitting beside me.

"Yeah, but she always told me off, saying that I was a terrible human being for purposely killing our parents. After the day she said she hated me I stopped. That's when I started cutting, because I felt like no one loved me, I felt like no one gave a care in the world if I died or hurt myself." I felt Eli's hand grab mine as he gave it a gentle squeeze.

"So, after a few weeks, the word got out. People at school treated me like shit, my best friend turned against me, my brother wouldn't talk to me—"Eli cut me off,

"You have a brother?"

"Yeah, Liam, I never talk about him though, I'll get more on him in a second. But right now, that's not the point." Eli nodded as I continued, "The only person that cared for me would be Ms. Dawes. Yes I said it, Ms. Dawes actually treated me like I was her own daughter. I even spent a few nights at her house when things were getting bad. She's like family to me." I looked over at Eli who was giving me a confused glare; he nodded his head again to tell me to go on.

"So, anyways, let's talk about Liam. He was the best brother in the world; he always stuck up for me, even after our parent's death. One day, I don't even know what happened; he just randomly started yelling at me. I yelled back, and he called me all these horrible names and he even mentioned that whatever my parents said to me was true, a mistake. After he said that to me, that was the first night I woke up in the hospital. He didn't come to see me, when I got home he even packed up his things and left. I haven't spoken to him or Darcy in the last two years."

"I'm so sorry Clare, " Eli whispered putting an arm around me. "Have they figured out the real story yet?" He asked, I shook my head,

"They'll never know the real story. They're too busy with their own life to know that their fucking sister is dying on the inside every day. It's all their fault and they don't care." I closed my eyes tightly and leaned onto Eli, resting my head on his shoulder.

"They do care about you, Clare. They're just being stupid to not realize how amazing you are. You know the truth and they're too stuck up to believe it." I smiled up at him and kissed his cheek. I watched as a light shade of pink moved across his face. I laughed and moved my head back on his shoulder as the silence fell around us.

"So, I told you about myself, it's your turn." I whispered, breaking the silence. He nodded slightly before shifting on the bed.

"Can we talk about this tomorrow? It's late, and we have that English test tomorrow." I nodded and got off of the bed before leaning over and kissing the corner of his mouth.

"Goodnight, Elijah." I said while walking out of his room and into mine. I jumped onto the bed and quickly fell into a deep sleep. I wondered if Eli was going to tell me about those scars on his wrists, or those bruises on his sides. I always saw a small glimpse of some when he was reaching for something, but he quickly covered them up before he thought I could notice.

I shrugged off the thought and closed my eyes, falling into a deep sleep.

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Well… a lot was happening in this chapter, but yeah. There will be some drama coming up in the next chapter probably.. REVIEW!:)