Chapter 4: Wrong Day
Disclaimer: Nope, not Victorious
On the wrong day of the wrong week. I used the wrong method with the wrong technique.
"Tori you are so dumb" I whisper still looking outside, seeing the other cars pass be us. "Why?" she asks keeping her eyes on the road. "Because you keep trying with me because you care. You feel dumb feelings that always end up hurting you, like love." She keeps driving, silently until we arrive at her house. She turns off the engine and turns to look at me, unbuckling her seat belt. "You feel those feelings too Jade" she says to me I look at her for just a minute before getting out of the car. "I am not weak I am empty and I love being this way. I hurt people to feel power and not to get hurt myself."I say walking into her house not turning back. "Jade, I didn't call you weak" she whispers to me. I just ignore her and sit on her couch, and look at the blank TV.
She sits by me, staring at me I try to scoot away but she just follows my movements. "See all you do is runaway that doesn't make you strong." She says and I stand up fast glaring at her and the words that just fell from her mouth and flew to me. "Fuck you, Tori" I growl she stands up and walks closer to me. "Back off Tori I mean it" I yell, trying to scare her, if it was anyone else they would have already ran from me. But she just keeps coming closer, she is an idiot to try to feel something from me. What does she want? I have nothing to give, nothing to share. Why doesn't she just leave me the hell alone and get out my thoughts, my dreams, my life.
"Jade" she whispers, now just a few inches from me. "Get away" I shout, she grabs my shoulders, scooting closer. Making our bodies touch, "what is your problem?, leave me alone" I shout, grabbing her hands, throwing them off of me. I take small steps back, glaring and growling at her to get away. I am being nice enough, warning her before I hurt her. I don't see why I haven't hurt her yet. I look like the weak one now I keep backing off. I just stop walking and stand my place. "If you want to fight, well come on then." I say, starting to walk towards her instead of back. She shakes her head and grabs my hands. I don't pull them away though, why am I letting her? She puts my hands on her chest and Ifeel a beat.It was the wrong plan. In the wrong hands.
"My heart" she whispers looking up at me. "Well duh I know that" I say still glaring at her. She holds on to one of my hands but she lets go of the other. I look down at her with more of an confused look then angry. She carefully still looks at me while putting her hand on my chest. I jump a little, once I feel the heat from her hand transfer to my chest. "What the fuck" I whisper she has me stuck her I can't move. What is this? I can't move I can't speak I almost can't breathe. "Jade" she whispers one last tome before, laying her lips on mine. I close my eyes and let her like in the dreams I had about her. When she pulls away I keep my eyes close, my heart is beating faster against her palm. I can feel hers beating fast too. Her hand moves off of my hand but I keep it on her beating heart.
Her hand finally drops from my chest, leaving the heat there. My hand still stays on her, not moving a inch, my eyes still closed. Wishing this was just a dream when I open my eyes she is still there. A part of me is glad she didn't leave. I let my hand drop from her to my side I look away from her. My cheeks burning, why is my cheeks burning? My whole body is burning, aching, and it hurts. See this is already hurting me I should have never let her touch me or kiss me. I should have never let her into my dreams and life. "You can't hurt me" I say, turning back towards her. Her eyes are just focused on me. "I am not trying to" she whispers sitting back down on her couch. I walk over to her and sit down too.
'See, now she has you at the palm of your hand' my thoughts are trying to say. But for some reason my heart is beating something else. "Is Trina here?" I ask, not knowing why. "Um, yeah she is in her room" she answers I nod. Grabbing he again, wanting to feel what she made me feel earlier. I have never felt this urge, this wanting so you call it. I grab her face, straddling her, her back against the couch, laying down. I kiss her again, this time with more energy. She rests her hands on my hips, kissing back. I lower my lips down to her neck. The heat is coming back burning me up flames in my veins and heart pumping fast from all of it. Her hands slide up to my ribs, under my shirt.
I begin to throb between my legs, I know I am getting turned on. I am trying to hold back but I can't. She is like a magnet and my emotions are the metal. I am trying to hate her again like I did, but why can't I? She is so, so intoxicating, shooting lustful poison into me. I reach down her, trying to take her shirt off but she shakes her head. "What?" I growl, confused of why she would lead me on then kick me off. "Not here" she whispers, removing her hands from my ribs to my hands. I get off of her and stand up, with the throbbing still between my legs. "Where then?" I ask, impatiently she stands up with me and points upstairs to her room. I nod following her there, we go slowly trying not to alert Trina that we are going to Tori's room.
Once we make it in there, we both close the door. I laugh, for once in a long time I laugh. Tori laughs along with me, grabbing my hand walking me over to her bed. We finally stop laughing when I grab her by the back of her thighs and left her up, at the edge of her bed. She wraps her arms around the back of my throat. "Are you sure?" she asks me, quietly I nod, looking straight into her eyes. 'Just sex just sex right?' I ask myself I don't know, maybe it's more.