Chapter 5: Wrong Energy

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Pissing out the wrong energy,Using all the wrong lines. And the wrong signs,With the wrong intensity.

I lay her down and make my way between her. Her hands pointing up above her allowing me to slide her shirt off. I see her flat body I trace my hand down it to the button of her jeans. She lifts up sliding my shirt up I help her by removing my hands from her body and lifting them up. Once my shirt hits the ground I slightly push Tori back down. Her back touches her soft white bed her hands reach for my face. 'No this sure isn't sex, too slow too much emotions.' I feel her fingers glide down my cheek I lower to bury my face in her neck. Her hand slide its way to my back, to undo my bra. It falls from my chest to catches it and throws it to the ground.

I kiss her neck up and down, slowly leading to her own lips. My free hand rubs on her body as the other one holds me up. I unbutton her jeans while looking at her, she has a sure look on her face, with no doubt. She really wants me to do this. Both of my hands slide her jeans down she kicks them off when she feels them touch her ankles. I force my knee between her making her moan. My bare body touches hers she quickly grabs the buttons to my pants I look at her. She seems to be getting inpatient. I let her unbutton them and slide them off me pulling down my underwear as well. How am I suppose to tell her I have never done this before, not even with Beck.

Once they are completely off I reach behind her and take off her bra, sliding it off the bed. My fingers dip their way into her underwear and slide them down while I kiss her on her neck. She kicks those off too my knee makes its way between her legs again pressing up. I can feel her wetness rubbing off on me. I go faster as the sound of my name moans out of her. I slow down because I don't want her to be done, yet. The real Jade starts to come back though and I am scared I will hurt her. "Tori" I whisper gripping on arm she turns her head in pain. But I can't let go my other hand makes it's way into her. She gasps, arching her back I kiss her neck again a smile forming on my lips. 'What is wrong with me?'

I need to get off her her before I... "Jade!" she screams her hand grabbing my wrist, hard. I go faster with our bodies rubbing together. She finally releases and tightens around my fingers. I pull out slowly as I lick on her neck my hand rubs up her body and grabs the other side of her neck. Her face turns toward me as I am kissing her neck she yanks away when I bite down. The blood that I draw begins to drip down her neck to the bed. I lick it away as is falls she rolls me over and pushes me hard against her bed. I growl for some reason she kisses my lips, cheek and neck lower her head down. I feel her hair moving down my stomach, splayed out. My back arches once I feel her licking me I moan her name my head turning back and forth. My hands curling in her hair pulling her closer.

She moves her head to my thigh and bites down I scream. She pulls her body back up, making sure our bodies rub together as she does and her knee pressing between me. I didn't know she could be this feisty. Her hands on my thighs rubbing up my ribs to my boobs. I look down as she squeezes them with a smirk on her face when I moan. My nails scratching down her back she just presses her knee harder. I grind against it, she is torturing me. Her hands rub back down grabbing my waist pulling me closer. She bites down on my neck and my nails dig deeper. She knee presses harder I grind faster, I am panting I can feel her tongue on my neck, licking away the blood. When she pulls away her knee I growl at her again.

"Jade don't worry I will please you" she whispers I lay my head back, and let her insert her fingers into me. It hurts at first but then I get used to it. My back is arching again but her body is still touching mine. She looks at me while she is doing it I turn my head one last time as she kisses me on my neck and I moan one last time. I release on her she pulls out licking everything off. I look at her wide eyed she crawls beside me her knee still between me. I turn to my side and look at her she reaches out and rubs my cheek over and over. I close my eyes to just live in the moment. I jump when I hear a loud knock on the door. I rush out of her bed and hurry to get dressed.

Tori gets up slowly, walking over to me. "Are you just going to leave after this?" she asks I can see the pain she is feeling. I shake my head, grabbing her face, burying it in my chest. I feel her tears hit me I lay my head on hers. She just stands there, hoping I don't leave. "Tori I am not going anywhere" I whisper, the knocking on the door, continues. "What?" I yell out "Oh well I am going to Andre's you know my boyfriend" Trina yells back through the door. "Ok?" I shout, annoyed that she would interrupt us just to say that and I didn't know she was dating Andre. "Ok!" she shouts back I hear her heals running, downstairs. I sigh, looking back at Tori she lets go and starts picking up the clothes off the ground. I just start getting dressed, myself by the time I am fully dressed she is too. But she is just staring at me, normally this would bother me but it's Tori.

I look at her neck, remembering that I left a mark. "I'm sorry" I say under my breath she tilts her head, confused. "Your neck" I whisper she gasps running into her bathroom, the door wide open I can see her looking in her mirror, I hate mirrors. But I pretty much hate everything counting now that my car is ruined. I have finally came to realize that I did wreck and there was a kid in the middle of the street. That stupid kid, "Jade!" I hear her yell I roll my eyes, it's just a bite mark. I chuckle to myself, actually it's a hickey, I laugh. She turns and give me a cold stare "well wow" I say, grinning. "You know you have one too right Jade?" she asks still glaring. I nod, crossing my arms "I said I'm sorry and you know I don't apologize much." I mumble but she hears my she turns back to her mirror and says to me "you don't apologize at all."

I shrug walking over to her, "it was your first time huh Jade?" she asks, smiling still looking in the mirror. I nod and shout "it's not funny Ok" she shakes her head and whispers "no it's not funny it's cute." I glare at her and say "I am not cute and nothing about me is cute." She is still looking in the mirror I don't see why she already knows she has a hickey from me, no need complaining. She knows she sure did like it when I gave it to her now she doesn't, man girls these days. Now wonder I have never even thought about being with a girl or liking her. But I just don't know why Tori is an exception. I have always known myself but now Tori is just fucking it up. She is making me feel feelings I don't want to feel.

I grew up not feeling anything but hate, power, and pain I have never felt love, sympathy, or care it just not me. Anybody could tell you that and what pisses me off is that Tori could change it so damn easily. Not even trying her hardest, she is just too fucking perfect. I kiss her trying to take her attention of her damn mirror. Until I see myself in the mirror I pause. "I'm not Jade anymore am I?" I ask the mirror laying my hand on the cold glass. Tori just stands beside me and stares. Tori walks closer resting her hand on mine. I turn to look at her and she smiles at me we both look back at our hands, and just stand there. I yank away after a few minutes and walk out of the bathroom. "I have to go" I whisper pacing back and forth in Tori's room. She walks out of her bathroom, frowning at me.

"You don't have to" she whispers taking small steps closer. "Back away Tori I was already born wrong now you are just screwing me up more. You are making me weak I don't want to feel love." Tear drops begin to drip I wipe them away before they can fall more. "Jade" she whispers one last time I run out of her room, crying. Why the hell am I crying? see what love does, fuck it. I run downstairs I see her trying to run after me. "Jade, no don't please stop" she yells I turn around. I try to glare or growl at her but nothing works. "Why do you care so much?" I yell with my hand already on the door knob. "Because I love you and I love you because you are different. And you care about me more than others even though you don't want to admit. I know you do." She cries back my hand drops from the door knob and rests by my side.

"I love you too Tori and I do care, that's the problem I was raised to avoid those feelings. I am not meant for this Tori I will break your heart. I am warning you." I shout shakes her head and screams "I don't care just know my heart is yours, all yours and just yours." I walk over to her and wipe the tears from her face. "You will regret this, Tori" I whisper then kiss her. I pull away, grabbing her hand. "Let's go" I whisper she nods, following me outside. I close her door and we begin to walk with our hands still together.