Chapter 7: Wrong Night
Disclaimer: don't own Victorious not even fifty percent.
With the wrong moon, every wrong night
"You know what I hate?" I ask her still looking out to the dark sky. "Everything" she says, laughing "yeah but one thing that really get's to me is pretending." She stops laughing and looks at me, "what do you mean?" she asks, really wanting to know. "When people act like things are Ok and there not. When people always see the brighter side to everything." I say not even bothering to look at her. She slides her hand away from me, I just ignore the empty space filling between us. "Why do you always see the darker side of everything then?" She asks I roll my eyes, she is acting like she doesn't know a thing about me. "Because dark is who am, you already know that" I whisper closing my eyes. "Your so ignorant" she shouts my eyes flash open.
"What?" I growl sitting up to glare at her. "You, are, so, ig-nor-ant" she says slowly acting like I am dumb. "I understand what you are saying I am not retarded" I shout. "Well then" she says taunting me, she is still laying down, looking towards the sky. "You are the ignorant one, always so damn cheerful. That's not what life is." I yell at her I quickly stand up, and head towards the ladder. "Jade, come back!" Tori shouts across the roof. I ignore the words that are ringing in my ear. She wants to call me ignorant, I will be ignorant. I literally slide down the ladder and I don't have second thoughts about turning back.
"Life is more than being hateful all the time, Jade!" she shouts. I turn around and see her standing over the ladder. "Tori, be careful dammit!" I yell taking just little steps closer. "No if you want pain, hate and anger I will give it to you. Just to make you happy if that is the only thing that can!" She shouts at the top of lungs I run over to her as she is falling. I catch her just in time, my heart is beating so fast. I have never ran that quickly it seemed like a blink of an eye. "You dumb ass!" I shout at her, panting. She wraps her arms around my neck and whispers "I'm your dumb ass." "Shut up" I yell, walking her inside, it's empty Trina is probably still at Andre's house, still hard to believe.
I lay her on her couch and sit right beside her. "Jade" she whispers, sitting up I shake my head looking down at the carpet. "You scared the shit out of me!" I yell once she tries to touch me. "I know Jade, I'm sorry" she whispers. She puts her arms around my waist and lays her head on my shoulder, looking up at me. "I don't fucking know what to do anymore" I whisper looking away from her. "Stay with me Jade that's all you have to do is stay with me." She whispers, making sure her quiet words reach my hear. "But you are killing me" I whisper, looking back at her. She is trying her hardest not to smile it makes me laugh. "It's not funny dummy" I say grabbing one of her hands. "Ha that rhymed" she whispers I laugh and say "you sound like Cat."
"But I'm not Cat and you don't want Cat do you?" She says with some serious tone in her voice. I nod and say "I only want you" she laughs and whispers "good because she has Robbie anyway." "What?" I ask I don't understand what's going on. "Her and Robbie are dating" she answers "oh" I whisper, nodding. Well that's a weird yet normal couple. "I have to go home, sorry" I whisper and kiss her on her forehead. "Ok, call me when you get there" she whispers getting up with me. "I will" I say giving her another kiss. I walk out of her house and feel something walk away from me, like some kind of emotion. I start walking and don't look back this time because if I do I will go back.
I lied to her I don't have to go home neither am I. I just need to be alone for now there's been too much of Tori. Well even for me there is a such thing is too much of Tori. I walk and it's still night I am surprised she let me walk this late at night maybe she understands. I have to have time to let these new emotions settle in instead of always trying to tear them out. I keep walking until I see the moon reflecting off a puddle of water. I walk up to it looking into it trying to see my reflection, what am I now? 'Your not Jade I know that for a fact' my mind whispers into me. "Shut up" I whisper to the lightened water, my hands curling and tightening. 'Who are you now?' "stop talking to me leave me alone" I am shouting to the darkened ground. 'Stop listening to your damn heart it's turning you weak.' I stomp my feet into the water I jump on it, making it spray everywhere.
Wrong, wrong, wrong... I scream as my eyes shut tight, afraid to open. 'Jade, jade, jade, jade' "shut up!" I yell one more time before running off my eyes still closed. My hand still in tightened fist. 'Wake up, wake up, Jade' once I open my eyes I see my old house . "Fuck you!" I scream running into the door, breaking through. "I hate you dad, I hate you Tori, I hate everyone and everything!" I yell to wore out painted open walls. "I'm not weak!" I scream dragging my fists into the wall. "Oh it's you the lesbo let's finish what we started." I turn my head towards the voice to a dark tall shadow. I smile returning my fist to my sides letting them hang. "Ok" I whisper, walking closer to the shadow it's like walking towards death, I don't care anymore. 'Kill, hate, be yourself again' I push him against the wall but he gets a hold of my shoulders. 'He was prepared, but so are you' I laugh punching him in the face as much as I can I don't stop. 'Power Jade, power' I punch harder making more blood bleed from him.
I laugh and laugh as his grip on my shoulders, loosens. "You won't be much after I am done, don't worry I will kill you misery. You should thank me." I say taking a small step back letting his body drag down the wall to the floor. I kick him in his gut over and over again, laughing. "Die!" I scream kicking him harder he spits out blood after each kick. 'Blood' I kneel down and look at his bloody face the moon light breaking through the window, letting me see. I smile putting my hand on his neck "scream help, I want your let your last words to be help." I whisper gripping his neck just a little harder. He shakes his head I want to see him plead for life and forgiveness. 'Now this is the Jade I know' "please" he gasps out I smile and begin to choke him. It's gives me a sense of power to know I am the one controlling if he lives or not. His legs kicking his arms barely moving I just laugh.
"I'm not weak" I whisper as his movements calm down I keep chocking until he stops moving completely. His face pale and covered in blood, there's blood everywhere, on the floor on the wall and on me. I let go and rise of my knees, now love will never get the best of me, I'm ready. No one can catch me off guard anymore, not even Tori. I walk out the house and walk to my house slowly I am not scared. They can arrest me I don't care, I'm Jade, not some lovesick puppy. I pass by Tori's house I don't even bother to go talk to her I keep walking until I get home. I walk in the unlocked door, locking it when I close it. It's dark, just how I like it I walk up the stairs into my room. 'But Jade there is still something missing in this new found power.' "What, what is it?" I whisper looking in my mirror. I flick on the light and I don't see me.
My eyes get wide, I am a murderer not Jade, what have I done? I jump when my alarm clock radio comes on. "What's missing tell me!" I scream at myself in the mirror, 'you' my mind whispers.
Wrong, wrong, wrong, wrong
I was born with the wrong sign. In the wrong house. With the wrong ascendancy
I took the wrong road. That led to the wrong tendencies. I was in the wrong place at the wrong time. For the wrong reason and the wrong rhyme. On the wrong day of the wrong week
I used the wrong method with the wrong technique.
Wrong, Wrong
There's something wrong with me chemically. Something wrong with me inherently. The wrong mix in the wrong genes. I reached the wrong ends by the wrong means. It was the wrong plan. In the wrong hands. The wrong theory for the wrong man. The wrong eyes on the wrong prize. The wrong questions with the wrong replies
Wrong, Wrong
I was marching to the wrong drum. With the wrong scum. Pissing out the wrong energy. Using all the wrong lines. And the wrong signs. With the wrong intensity. I was on the wrong page of the wrong book
With the wrong rendition of the wrong look. With the wrong moon, every wrong night. With the wrong tune playing till it sounded right yeah.
Wrong, Wrong (Too long) Wrong, (Too long)
I was born with the wrong sign. In the wrong house. With the wrong ascendancy. I took the wrong road
That led to the wrong tendencies. I was in the wrong place at the wrong time. For the wrong reason and the wrong rhyme. On the wrong day of the wrong week. I used the wrong method with the wrong technique.
Wrong
'You killer...'