Chapter 8: Wrong Page
Disclaimer: No, never Victorious
A/N: Sorry it was so long for the update I needed ideas and school was just a issue too. But please review though I want to hear what you think.
I was on the wrong page of the wrong book
My hands still have his blood on it. I hurry and strip out of my bloody clothes and throw them to the ground. I jump in the shower, I hold my hand on the nob, turning it until the water is cold enough to freeze me. If I'm not enough frozen because inside i'm dying. My heart has been frozen all this time, when I was around Tori, she was the fire that was hot enough to thaw it out. I only let her thaw it out just to freeze it again.
I try to shower with the slippery soap, sliding off my hand. I try to grip it but it just falls, there has never been anything that I can hold on to. The soap drops, hitting my feet I am trying my hardest not to think of the man I killed or Tori. My thoughts can't bare it right now. I step out, just leaving the water on, and I walk past the mirror not even bothering to look into it. There is nothing else to see but a murderer.
It was so wrong for me to take his life. It was wrong leaving Tori, I am just so wrong. My phone begins to buzz on my bed I ignore it, walking into my closet. I quickly grab random black clothes, I realize I am still the same. I get dressed, feeling the texture of the clothes rub against my pale cold wet skin. I didn't even bother to dry off. After I am done I finally look at my phone Beck it's Beck. I pick up the phone and answer.
"Hello Jade" he gasps out like he is running. I just say "I remember" a long pause is taken after I say that. It seems like he stopped breathing or died. "You do?" he asks, his breathing gaining back up like he is running again. "Yes" I whisper I walk over to my window and look down. There's Beck looking up at me, still holding the phone to his ear. He just stayed silent until I finally ended the call. I walk out my room, jogging down the stairs. I can already see the doorknob turning, he opens it before I reach the floor.
"I killed a man, I need to run, run away." I simply say he just stands there and reaches his hand back to slowly close the door. "Jade" he whispers, walking closer "Beck I need to leave and never come back." I whisper when his hand makes a noose around my wrist. I look down at his hand then back at him. He lets go but moves his body close to mine, too close. "I want Tori's body against mine not yours." I rudely growl but he just keeps staring into my eyes, making me vulnerable. "Let's run" he whispers, ignoring what I just said about Tori.
He backs away to reach for my hand I take it, he intertwines our hands together, like old times. I frown because I remember he walks me away from home. "I want to go to Tori's" the words just fall off my lips. But I can tell he heard because he gets stiff and let's go of my hand, a empty feeling takes place of my hand. "I'm letting you go, Beck I have been letting you go." I whisper loud enough for him to hear me before I start walking again. I don't look back and he doesn't call out my name but why am I crying.
I can feel the tears rolling down my cheeks to rest on my neck.
I raise my hand to wipe away the sadness from my face, because I had to let go. I walk to Tori's house feeling nothing but shame how could I get away with such a wrong sin. I knock at Tori's door she opens it and pulls me inside before I can say 'hi' or 'i'm sorry'. "Tori" I whisper she just kisses me, forcing my back into the door, closing it. "I'm glad you chose me over Beck" she cries as she breaks the kiss. "Of course I chose you, Tori, you are my first." She hugs me tight, burying her face deep in my chest with the leftover tears still trying to dry. More tears come, because she deserves so much more. Why couldn't I have been a better person? Why can't I be a better human being?
She thaws my heart out when I put my arms around her and deepen the hug. As long as I have her I won't freeze again.
A/N: I was thinking of doing a sequel but I don't know if I should, let me know.