Missing Clare

Chapter 8: "I am By your Side."

Nobody's POV:

I opened my eyes, to see the dim sunlight peaking through my curtains. Instantly, my mind went back to the night Fitz raped me. I sighed, getting up and reaching for my phone.

*11 new messages*

I knew they were all from Alli, Adam, and Drew. Maybe some other people, too. But I wasn't in the mood to talk, I couldn't talk.

The day after I got home, I stopped speaking. I just nodded, or shook my head. Occasionally I would put on a smile for my mom, but usually I layed in bed, only getting up to go to the bathroom.

I wasn't sure why exactly I wasn't talking. Maybe it was out of fear. Or pain. Or, possibly both. It hurt to speak, because people only asked me about what happened. It hurt to say the things that happened, and I was scared of what people would think, or say.

I felt dirty. Un-needed. un-wanted.

But yet, I knew I wasn't, I had family and friends who cared, but I still felt like something was missing.

There was a knock at my door, and a face peaked in.

"May I?" Jake smiled at me, and I nodded my head. Did I mention him and His father had moved in already? I did my best to avoid him, and keeping in my room helped.

"So.." He took a seat in my swivel chair, and played around with the hem of his shirt. "I know you don't want to talk about it, so I guess I'll stay off that topic.."

I had to give him props, he knew I wasn't ready to talk about things.

"How are you?" He looked at me, and smirked, before adding "Sis" to the end.

" Im ok.. How are you?" I managed to say. I was slightly shocked by my own voice, but Jake seemed uneffected by it.

"Im fine. For people who live in the same house, it seems like we're strangers." He chuckled, and I smiled a bit. "But, I have to get to work, It almost time and my dad needs my help with some stuff, so I guess i'll see you around the house."

He got up, and walked to the door. "Bye, brother." I gave him another smile, and he closed my door behind him.

Short chapter, but the next one will be better, and I'll have it up soon :] xoxo. Jadasophea