Hi,,,I know I haven't updated in a while,,,sorry.! But I have been really busy,,,Im trying to get into this school, but I'm worried about my behavior. . Im going to try and update more,,,well enjoy this.!

I've got to talk to her, and I've gotta phase again eventually. I just hope that when I do, I can get a running start before they pounce on me.

I sighed deeply and turned the corner where I knew Mari would be. She was in the park, sitting on a swing, staring at the ground, her face emotionless.

She heard the crunching of fallen leaves under my feet and looked up, then looking back down choosing to ignore my presence.

Looks like I'm going to have to make the first move.

I squeezed my eyes shut and bit my lip before speaking. "Uh…err is that seat taken.?" I said opening one eyes cautiously preparing for rejection. Then, gesturing silently towards the swing once she finally looked up at me.

"No, you can sit." She said before returning her gaze to the moss below.

I nodded, and sat. We sat in silence for a bit, me looking at her, and she looking at the ground.

"Penny for your thoughts." I said, deciding to take the casual approach.

"Their not worth that much." She answered, predominantly ending whatever conversation I was just trying to start.

I down casted my eyes as hers are and we sat on the swings in silence, until I finally choose to shoot the pink elephant in the room. I looked up and opened my mouth to speak but nothing came out when I was met with dazzling hazel eyes staring straight at me, glistening with unshed tears.

"Why didn't you ever call me.?" She asked, her voice breaking with hurt.

I quickly looked down, wanting to be honest but knowing she wouldn't like my answer. I decided that honesty was the best way to go.

"I wasn't allowed to." I whispered, being a coward and not facing her.

"Not allowed.? By who Sam or your mom.?" Her voice quickly changing from hurt to anger when I didn't respond.

"Why does everyone listen to him.!" She shrieked clearly exasperated with all the secrets being kept from her.

"He's alpha of the pack, his word is law."

"Why didn't you at least, text me that we can't see each other anymore or-"

"Because it would break your heart.! When you ask why, what am I supposed to say.! 'Sorry but I turned into a vampire eating werewolf and my wolf alpha ordered me to break all connections with you'.!" I shouted, my hands shaking lightly in anger.

"Well it would be better then that disappearing act you pulled.! I thought you were DEAD.! That you got in a car crash on your way back, or, or you were faking it the whole time and you never meant one word you said about caring about me…do you know how much that hurt.?" She asked her voice softening, and her hurt overcoming her anger towards me.

I stood up to embrace her but she pushed me away.

"I thought you loved me." She said crossing her arms and turning from me, and towards the sky. "That you cared about me." She chuckled darkly to herself, "But I was just fooling myself."

"No.! Don't say that.!" I said taking her by the arms and jerking her so she faced me. "I loved you and I still do. I-it's just that, saying good-bye would have been too painful. I whispered, pulling her to me and burying my face in her hair so she wouldn't see the single tear that fell from my cheek.

"So what now.?" She whispered pulling away from me. "We'll be friends and just ac like nothing ever happened between us.?" She asked her eyes dry of tears, but still sad.

I wanted to tell her no, that she should dump Juan and be with me. But Paul imprinted on her, so her true happiness must lie with him. It would be wrong to try and screw with that.

"Yeah, I guess we do." I said, she sucked in her bottom lip and nodded, returning her eyes to the mulch. I kissed her on the forehead and then she walked away. Throwing me a small smile over her shoulder.

I watched her, each step was like a stab to my heart. Once she turned the corner, I stared at it thinking about the amazing girl that I just had to let go of.

I touched my lips where they had touched her forehead. "Good-bye."

How'd you like it.? And no worries this is a PAULXMARI story so she will choose him in the end,,,or will I.? XD Review please.! Adios.

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