Thanks for all the reviews. So here is the chapter that I teased about. Most of you want to know when Olivia will come back as in when will Rachael stop being Rachael and be Olivia again…my my that could get confusing….anyway, as I've said to most of you things will start to happen soon.

Anyway, last update for a few days because I have to go away till Monday, I'll update straight away when I get back.

Chapter 5

Elliot had jogged to the corner store and back, changed, washed the dished and read the paper by the time Rachael appeared out of the bathroom, washed, groomed and ready for the day. She was still wearing his jacket but he really didn't mind, he liked the way she looked in it.

Her hair was hanging down around her face. It was longer than he had ever seen Olivia have it, coming down just underneath her breasts, and it was slightly wavy and a gorgeous rich chocolate colour. He loved it.

He was aware that he was staring at her but he just couldn't help it. She'd put hardly any make up on and she looked like Olivia again. Well, mostly, the heels and the short dress made her not like Olivia.

His staring was beginning to make Rachael feel a little nervous, actually very nervous. "That showers the best I've ever had." she exclaimed, snapping him out of his thoughts.

"Yeah, yeah it is…p…pretty great." he stuttered.

They both stood, staring at one another till it was becoming awkward, again.

"Right…" Rachael began to say at the same time Elliot said, "I have some fruit."

"Oh," Rachael said, a little lost for words. "I thought you had none?"

"Well I got some from the store whilst I was out jogging." he said, blushing slightly.

"That's sweet." Rachael said as she walked into the kitchen to get the fruit she could now see on the worktop, that's also when she noticed the clean dishes. "You washed the dished too? Wow, was I really in the shower that long?" she said feeling a little guilty.

"It's a great shower." Elliot said, smiling, making her suddenly forget about feeling guilty.

"So, don't you have to be in work or something?" she asked him before taking a big bite of an apple.

"Well I figured I'd stay here with you for a bit."

"Look, I appreciate you letting me stay here last night and everything, but I can't stay again. I have mouths to feed, bread to put on the table." she told him.

Elliot looked at her, shocked. "You have kids?" he asked.

"Well no, but I have to feed myself and my boyf…this guy I'm kinda with, he relies on me to make some money."

"So, your boyfriend is happy for you to go out, sell your body and make him some money?"

"It isn't like that….I…I owe him." she said, not sounding convinced.

"For what?" Elliot asked her.

She looked at him, for some reason she wanted to give him the honest answer which was, "I don't remember…"

Elliot looked at her, 'break through' he thought.

"Well I do…It's…it's because he took me in. When I had no one and no where and stuff." Still she didn't sound convinced by her own words.

"Fine then, stay here with me. I'll take you in. You'll owe me nothing."

Rachael looked at him. She was in Shit Street at the moment, she knew how far in Shit Street she was too, so his offer was tempting, very, very tempting. "I don't even know you." she said as she walked past him, ready to go, confused.

Elliot quickly gave chase. Grabbing her wrist, stopping her and making her turn, without much force at all, to look at him. "You know you want to say yes." he said to her.

"Why?" she said, tears in her eyes. Why? She wasn't sure. Maybe it was the sad look in his eyes. "So you can tell me I'm someone I'm not."

"Fine, if you don't want me to tell you then let me show you." he offered.

"You really are insane." she muttered, pulling out of his grasp and walking to the front door.

"Answer me one question then?" he called to her, making her stop dead at the door, hesitate, before turning around to face him, tears in her eyes.

"Tell me something that you did, or that happened to you more than three years ago and don't lie." he said.

Her hesitation was obvious. The truth was her past was a blur to her. The only memories she had were living with her 'boyfriend' and being a prostitute and everything about being one, the pimps, the punters, the good, the bad and the plain evil. She also knew of how much trouble she was in, but before that she had no idea…no memories.

"What's your point?" she asked, sounding exhausted.

Elliot walked right up to her. He looked into her tear filled eyes and then reached up and gently brushed away a tear that escaped and rolled down her cheek. She closed her eyes and nuzzled her face against his hand when he held it against her face.

She then reached up and held her hand against the back of his. There was no denying something felt so familiar about him, about his touch. She opened her eyes and looked back into his. Then, like magnets, their faces were drawn together until their lips touched.

Elliot delicately kissed her top lip, softly sucking on it before simply kissing it again. Not only did it bring something back for him but also her…

It had been a long and hard day at the SVU. Two small children had been murdered by their step-father. There was nothing the SVU could do for them except try to catch their killer, prosecute him. However, legal technicalities meant he'd gotten away with it and was now out to hurt whoever else he could. Yeah, they were gonna keep a watch on him, but that was about all they could do. The case had gotten to the whole team.

Elliot was at home, looking at a picture of him and all his children. He couldn't imagine how a parent could hurt their own children or let someone else. He knew that he sure as hell would never hurt them and that he'd walk through fire before he let anyone else.

He put the picture back down on his bedside table as he heard someone knock on the door. He didn't feel a bit like company but was still intrigued enough to want to know who was knocking at his door at such a late time.

He opened it up to reveal Olivia. Her eyes red and puffy, her face tear stained. He didn't need to ask what was up. He knew. She was feeling as bad as he did and he almost envied her that she was willing to show it.

As fresh tears began to fall he took hold of her and pulled her into him. Holding onto her as he eased them both into his apartment and pushed the door shut behind her. Then he simply held her and let her cry.

"I can't get those kids faces out of my head. I keep seeing them. Why couldn't we just have got to them in time." she cried into his chest.

"We did all we could Liv. You have to stop beating yourself up over this. This wasn't your fault." he soothed as he stroked her soft hair.

Olivia still needed more convincing. "There must have been something more we could have done, still something we can do. We can't let him go to just hurt other kids." she said as she now looked into his eyes. He was looking right back into hers.

"Liv, somewhere there's this bullshit rule that says we can't save everybody. Sometimes that's just the way it is. It's not fair and it's not easy to follow, but we don't always have a choice." he said, stroking her face as her tears slowly stopped.

She daren't look him in the eyes as his words sunk in. She knew they were true, every one of them, but still, "Then why do I still feel so bad?" she asked him, tears building up again.

"Because your hearts too big and you wanna save everyone." he said, delicately brushing a stray strand of hair back off her face.

He was a little surprised when she turned her face a little so she could kiss the palm of his hand. He watched as she rested her cheek in his palm but looked into his eyes again. Suddenly he couldn't resist it any longer. He cupped her face in both hands and met her lips with his. Olivia had seen what he wanted and she wanted it right back. She placed her hands over his and met his kiss wholeheartedly.

It didn't take long for it to really heat up and tender went straight to passionate. It took about as less time for Elliot to lead Olivia into his room, where he laid her down on the bed and they made love for the first time ever to each other.

The event had happened many more times, until 2 months later Olivia went under cover and he lost her…

As Elliot pulled his lips away from Rachael's he found he was looking right back into her eyes. He had his closed for the kiss but she hadn't. He could see the confusion on her face.

"What happened to me?" she asked him, tears falling down her cheeks.

TBC

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