Disclaimer: I do not own Durarara! and this original storyline is not my idea. It is based on fan-made comic strips by Akio from Pixiv. Please view her/his comics first. ^_^ His/Her art is awesome, by the way.
Part 1: zerochan(dot)net/709697
Part 2: zerochan(dot)net/733582
Part 3: zerochan(dot)net/764403
Part 4: zerochan(dot)net/821130 [FINAL]
Akio's other works (that are from zerochan) : zerochan(dot)net/Akio
My other translations: zerochan(dot)net/user/Xxmilky-candy1996xX
Full summary: Other than strength, it seemed that Shizuo had developed another ability—one that enables him to see Izaya's future deaths. Thinking that the only one allowed to kill the flea was him, Shizuo stopped those deaths. What he refuses to admit, however, was how stopping them—and those to come—would take a toll on his feelings and mind. Warning: numerous character deaths, dark Shizuo.
WARNING: A whole lot of conversation and, uh, there's a reason why it's ShizuIza, guys. ^_^
Reaching For That Hand
Chapter 7
~ Izaya's PoV ~
Izaya walked the familiar route to Shinra's apartment, empty-handed as always. He wasn't going there to ask the young doctor to tend to his wounds or anything; he was going there to see a certain blond brute who's been there for the past three days now.
Once he got the address the caller had sent him, he had run there straight away, masking his slightly-racing heart with 'glee' to see what the monster had gotten himself into. According to the address, Shizuo was somewhere in the old warehouses in the outskirts of Ikebukuro.
But when he reached there he saw a van, and proceeded stealthily to prevent being seen. But in the end it was someone he knew after all. Looks like Kadota had also received the same message and drove there by himself. Both were pretty shocked that the other came, though Kadota said nothing as Izaya called for Shizuo and a bunch of other nasty names. They found him soon enough, tied up and looking dazed and all; when Izaya cut through the ropes with his switchblade, he noticed the severe lacerations and thought of the possibility that Shizuo might have been seriously out of his mind to not attempt to break free as it was just ropes. Why Shizuo was even hurt at all surprised him a little, but he ignored that little fact for the time being. Meanwhile Kadota was trying to get Shizuo to respond, but he never did and they had to drag him to the van parked outside. Izaya was somewhat grateful Kadota received the message too; he didn't want to have to drag Shizuo all the way to Shinra's by himself.
Izaya had intended to demand what had happened, but the brute had already fallen asleep once Kadota had started driving after adjusting his body so he'd be more comfortable. It was silent the whole way, Izaya for once not prattling and seemed to be deep in thought instead, which Kadota was partly grateful for.
And then, when they'd gotten to Shinra's place the doctor had told them to go home since it was late and it didn't seem like Shizuo would wake up soon.
Izaya hummed to himself as he skipped over random tiles on the walkway, ignoring looks people gave him, until he reached Shinra's front door. It wasn't locked. He didn't bother giving a heads-up and waltzed straight in after slipping out of his shoes. Nobody was in the living room or in the kitchen, so he walked to the rooms Shinra reserved for special patients, and, noticing that one of them is lighted, went in.
"Heey~ How's he doing?" he greeted, startling the three people in the room.
"I-Izaya! I didn't hear you come in!" Shinra said.
"The door wasn't locked. So I assumed you let me come in by myself."
"…Who's that?"
Izaya's eyes widened as he set his eyes on Shizuo, who had Celty's helmet in his hands and was currently staring blankly at him.
"Shinra?"
Said doctor laughed nervously as he took off his glasses and wiped the lens with the hem of his nightshirt. "Well, you see, he doesn't remember anything."
Izaya leaned his back against the wall, crossing his arms. "Seriously?" he said as he stared at Shizuo, who had lost interest since nobody answered his question and went back to toying with Celty's helmet. "He looks pretty calm being with Celty."
*He yelled when he first saw me.*
*But he got used to it later.*
Izaya chuckled when he read the words on her PDA.
"Shi~zu-chan~" he called to see if he had any response. He blinked when all he got was a wide yawn. He doesn't seem to be irritated by my presence too, now that's interesting…
"Hey, want some coffee? I need to tell you about something, too," Shinra said, getting up and ushering Izaya out of the room. "Hang out with Celty for a while okay, Shizuo-kun?"
Shizuo nodded without looking up.
"So, what really happened?" Shinra asked as he leaned against the countertop, drinking normal cold water since Izaya didn't want any coffee. "Neither you nor Kadota-kun really explained the situation with me when you guys dumped him here."
"Actually I don't know much about it either!" Izaya said with a huge smile on his face.
"Liar," Shinra immediately replied.
"Haha, well you see, I got a sudden call from someone I don't know, saying he's got Shizu-chan. He just mailed me and Dota-chin the address and we went there to find him, that's all. The guy's a smart one though, he took care not to leave anything behind, and when I tried to trace his calls yesterday," Izaya chuckled. "Nothing came up. It's as if he never existed; he just gave me free information and he just left. Hmph, I wanted to ask Shizu-chan about what had happened to him but given the situation now he's even more of a protozoan than he is."
"Hmm~ It's rare to see somebody that even Orihara Izaya can't manage to sniff out."
"Don't use that term for me. 'Sniffing' is for stupid monsters like Shizu-chan. So, what about him? Is he gonna be like that forever? Did he really remember nothing? Nothing at all?"
"About that," Shinra started. "It looks like we have something serious in our hands, Izaya."
Izaya perked up his ears with interest. "Go on."
"I noticed it straightaway when I started treating him after you guys brought him here, but I wasn't so sure so I tried a little something." He paused. "Heiwajima Shizuo is no longer a 'monster' or an extraordinary specimen. He's just like you and me now. He can fall down and bruise his knee as much as you can with yours, Izaya. Coupled with that and his apparent total memory loss which I'm not exactly sure how long it'd last…" Shinra trailed off.
"… Seriously?" Izaya breathed.
A few moments of silence passed by and Izaya started to laugh as if he'd just heard the best joke in the world. To Shinra it just sounded maniacal, very Izaya-like. It went on for a full minute until Shinra considered drenching him with his glass of water, just in case it was one of those hysterical cases.
Finally he stopped. "Now this is precious. To think that Heiwajima Shizuo has stepped off his throne and straight into the arms of mortal danger! Now maybe I can overpower him! But, it wouldn't be fun to just kill him straightaway when he's so clueless like this, right Shinra? Poor, poor Shizu-chan…" He started giggling again.
"Oh come on, Izaya. Stop. You look like you're the craziest person on the planet."
"Hah. Geniuses had always been thought of as lunatics before their ideas flourish."
Shinra shook his head. "Come on, let's get back to Shizuo."
Izaya kept a smile on his face as he sat with his elbow propped up on the side table as Shizuo stared at him. Shinra and Celty had just left the room to pick up a call from the living room, leaving the two all alone.
"Why are you smiling at me?" Shizuo asked.
"No reason. Why are you staring at me then?"
"'Cuz you're weird."
Izaya had to laugh at that. "Oh really. Nee, Shizu-chan, do you remember anything?"
Shizuo shook his head. "I just know my name's Heiwajima Shizuo. And it looks like I'm good friends with those two."
"Hmm~ Aren't you afraid of Celty?"
"At first," the blond man admitted. "Well, I woke up and she was right next to me, and she didn't have a head, so…"
"Ahaha! I get what you mean." How strange. The normal Shizu-chan won't have a conversation like this with me. Not a chance. He just looks so… how do you call it… Like a new person. He's somebody who doesn't know anything, so you can influence him, manipulate him… Haha, I wonder if I can shape him to be someone like me? Or someone who works under me. Or I can use him all I want, hurt him in any way possible and leave him at a ditch.
"… Who are you?"
"Hmm? I'm Orihara Izaya, your one and only."
Shizuo looked confused. "Are you my relative?"
"Hell no."
"Friend?"
"I don't really know whether we can be called that."
"Somebody from my workplace?"
Izaya snorted. "Yeah right. I'd never do the work you do."
"Then—"
Izaya put a finger to his lips, shutting him up. "You know, Shizu-chan, you've gotten to be quite a talker now. You really want to know what our relationship is?"
Curiosity made itself known in Shizuo's eyes. It made Izaya suddenly want to pull a silly prank on him. Serves you right for being such a klutz! Izaya smiled hugely.
"You're my lover!" he exclaimed in a happy voice.
Shizuo stiffened only the slightest bit, and he blinked. He slapped Izaya's hand away. "I know you're just messing with me."
"Hehe~ The world's always full of surprises, you know~ By the way," he said as he took Shizuo's wrist and fingered the bandage wrapping it. "You're hurt pretty badly, aren't you?" For someone who's normal now, that is. "Did Shinra tell you anything?"
"No, not really. Just that I was taken by somebody and you and someone named Kadota found me. I met him yesterday. He seems like a pretty nice guy."
"Of course he is. He's the only one who can put up with us three altogether, after all. So, don't you wanna know anything?"
"I'm not really interested. I just wanna hurry up and get my memory back, then I'd know what to do." Shizuo withdrew his hand and leaned back against the pillows that were propped up, sighing. "I'm so sleepy…"
Izaya stared at Shizuo who seemed to be thinking about something. Probably something about his current situation, anyway. He bit his lower lip. He doesn't yell at me the first second he saw me. He hasn't said the word 'flea' or 'louse' once too. He also didn't punch me or anything even when I'm here right next to him.
I wonder if… the current Shizu-chan could grow to accept me.
Izaya's eyes widened right away. Wait a second, what am I thinking? ! A-Accept me? Shizu-chan? Why?
"… Hey, are you really my lover?"
"Huh?" What did he just— "Nn!"
Izaya could only blink when Shizuo leaned in, placed a hand on his lap to support himself, and kissed him.
W-Wha…!
~ Shizuo's PoV ~
I wonder if this is a dream or a little bit of my memory, but, I'm… fighting someone…? He looks so thin. But I don't think he's very friendly if he's flinging at me with a switchblade. But I don't seem very friendly myself either, for some reason I'm chucking a vending machine at him.
Am I some sort of bodybuilder or something? I thought vending machines are heavy.
But, why…? Is this… turning into a nightmare? He's running around the alleys, turning here and turning there, as if he knows exactly where he's going but, I see a road ahead. Is he going to dash across that road? Or maybe turn either left or right at the last minute and running into some store? I stare as he dashed across instead, and got run over by a truck.
Ahh, he's really pretty stupid after all, running across a city street like that. He's probably just someone I conjured up in my dream anyway.
Then why am I… crying?
Shizuo woke up to sore pains in some parts of his body, a stiff neck, and an empty brain. He had no idea who he was, but he guessed he was a sensible enough person to not panic. The headless woman was scary, yeah, but he felt that she was someone familiar to him so it didn't matter as much. He had screamed but he didn't feel particularly scared.
The man in front of him was a different matter, however. He didn't really like the way he was looking at him as if he was sizing him up. And that amused look in his eyes just made him look like a complete jerk. Shizuo decided he probably didn't like him that much if he had known him before. To dream about him earlier definitely meant he knew him, but he's right there smiling at him so the part about him dying was definitely something his mind made up.
He had asked him who he was, and he told him his name. Orihara Izaya. Yep. That certainly does sound familiar. But then, he isn't his relative, or his friend, or somebody from his workplace, so who is he?
"You're my lover!" Izaya said happily with a stupid smile on his face.
Somehow Shizuo didn't feel really surprised he gave that sort of answer.
He then leaned back into the pillows Shinra had propped up for him earlier and closed his eyes. He wished this man to go home already so he could sleep. His wounds still hurt and Shinra bothering him about tests and blood samples and stuff tired him through. It wasn't as if he broke all his bones or had poison in his bloodstream or his blood could suddenly be used to create a serum for some mysterious disease or anything. And he couldn't go back to his home either. He didn't even remember where it is.
He opened his eyes and stared sideways at Izaya, who was looking downwards. He raised an eyebrow when he blushed a little. It was easy to overlook that really light pink though.
"… Hey, are you really my lover?"
"Huh?" He looked up. Shizuo leaned in, placing a hand on his lap so he could support himself without falling out of the bed and kissed him experimentally. Izaya didn't move, and he looked astounded, and embarrassed as well. Shizuo pulled back and smiled mischievously at him.
"Wh-What did you…!"
"What? I thought you said we were lovers. Isn't kissing what lovers do?" Ohh, he's blushing even more fiercely now.
"That's…!"
"Hm? Was that your first kiss then?" I'm feeling that this is strangely fun.
Izaya quickly slapped a palm to his face to cover his flaming cheeks.
"Oh wait, was that my first kiss too?" Shizuo wondered.
~ Izaya's PoV ~
Izaya's fingers curled into his palm as he felt Shizuo's lips on his. I… He… Oh my god.
"Wh-What did you…!" he stuttered.
"What? I thought you said we were lovers. Isn't kissing what lovers do?"
Shizuo was smiling at him. The same sort of smile he would be making if he were the one messing around. Izaya could feel his face growing hot.
"That's…!"
"Hm? Was that your first kiss then?"
What. The. Hell. Nevertheless he covered his cheeks, though Shizuo probably already noticed.
"Oh wait, was that my first kiss too?" Shizuo said thoughtfully.
"Heey~" Shinra chirped as he came in.
Izaya jolted and turned to him straight away. "Shinra!"
The doctor looked a little surprised. "What?"
"Help me! This isn't Shizu-chan at all!"
"Well, that's to be expected, since he's lost his memory and all…" Shinra trailed off.
"That's not what I mean! He did something to me!"
"What did he do?" Shinra asked as he frowned confusedly, looking back and forth between Izaya and Shizuo.
"He… Uh…" Izaya gave up. "… I can't say it…!"
"Well, it doesn't look like he hit you or anything. More importantly, I have something to announce~" he said cheerfully. "Hehe, I kinda have a business trip."
"What?"
"You see, there's this conference I reeaaally wanna go to, and I just got a place. That's what that call was about. I have to go to the airport tomorrow…" Shinra twiddled his thumbs.
"And…?" Izaya didn't like where this was going.
"Since nobody's home, nobody could take care of Shizuo-kun for the next few days, and I can't let him go back to his own house 'cuz other people will find out about his current condition…" he trailed off.
"Oh no. No fucking way."
"Aw, please? There's nobody else to take care of him! Besides, he's not going to kill you or anything!"
"What? ! What if his memory suddenly pops back into his head? Then what am I going to do? !"
"Nee, Shizuo-kun, you've grown used to Izaya now right?" Shinra moved on to Shizuo, completely ignoring Izaya.
"Hey!" Izaya turned around just in time to see Shizuo nod.
"So do you think you'd be able to stay at Izaya's place for the time being?"
Shizuo nodded again.
"Wai— Shizu-chan! Even if you're okay with it I'm not!"
"That's alright," Shizuo said.
"I want to stay with Izaya."
Hehe~ Sorry for the boring ending. Please focus on the kissing part. X3 I don't feel sorry for Izaya at all, 'cuz if he never said that Shizuo wouldn't have kissed him~ But I wanted Shizuo to kiss him so I wrote it that way… XD I originally intended for this to be a dark fic, but now it turned into a ShizuIza romance… D: I'll think of something, I guess.