Authors Note:
Okay, guys. I changed my mind - there will be ONE more sequel in this Caitlin&Logan series or whatnot. I've still got to include the tour, birthdays, and the conclusion behind the letter and it's all too much to fit into a few more chapters. So, anyways, the sequel will be called BITTERSWEET GOODBYES. It'll start after the award show, and it'll AT the part where they're driving up to Texas to see Logan's family. So, look out for that FF after this one wraps up. I think this FF will end around chapter 35, then the sequel. Sooo, see you guys soon.
Cheers, Celine xx
"Caitlin? Caitlin!"
"Logan?" I slurred before sitting up straight. My head hurt immediately and I held onto my forehead, wishing the pain to go away. I opened one eye and saw Logan crouched down next to me and Katelyn on the other side. James, Kendall and Carlos stood above, looking down with concern. I flinched at another flash of a camera.
"Babe, you alright?" Logan frowned.
I sighed. "Fine. Help me up."
"Miss. Caitlin! Is the fame too much for you?" A reporter desperately.
"Caitlin, are you on a strict diet? Is that the reason behind your fainting?" Another photographer asked.
"No questions please." Logan said, holding up a hand. Luckily, I had made it to the end of the carpet before fainting and only had to take a few more steps to exit. I rubbed the back of my head and winced. That's gonna leave a mark. When we were away from the cameras and paparazzi, Logan held me by my shoulders and looked into my eyes. "Are you okay?"
"Um, what happened exactly?" I asked.
"Well, you fainted."
"I know that." I sighed. "What I meant to say was what happened after?"
"Lots of cameras flashing and questions. Photographers were clamoring over each other to try to get closer. Me and the others were trying to wake you up and luckily, you did after about 30 seconds." Logan explained.
I groaned. "Great."
"Caitlin!" Katelyn exclaimed, rushing towards me with James, Carlos and Kendall not far behind. "Are you okay?"
"A little knocked out but besides that, I'm fine." I smiled warily. "What'd I miss?"
"Caitlin, don't scare me like that." She sighs, dusting off my dress.
"Oh, sorry. I must have ruined the dress." I said, trying to look around myself to see if it was damaged and if it was that bad.
"It's looks fine. And even if it didn't it's still fine." Katelyn waves me off.
I smiled as they all hugged me, telling me they were glad I was okay. To tell the truth, so was I. I glanced at myself in the mirror and tried to fix my hair, adjusting my bands and tousling it a bit.
"You look beautiful." Logan said, coming up behind me and kissing me on my cheek. "Boyfriend's honor."
I grinned as I followed him into the seating's for the awards show. Good God, celebrities were everywhere. The Kardashian's sat near the front, talking within each other. Miley Cyrus and her father was discussing some matter with the stage director and I even spotted Selena Gomez and Justin Bieber laughing at something one of them had said. Geez, I was in a room full of perfect people. I didn't belong here.
I glanced over to the side as Logsn and the others waited for someone to seat us. The spots were filling in quickly, popular singers and actors were everywhere. I dusted off imaginary dust particles on my dress as I bit my lip nervously. I eyed the other celebrities whispring within each other. Oh, God. What if they were whispering about me? An outsider? God, what was I doing here? I don't belong.
As if Logan read my mind, he slid his hand into mine, entwining his fingers. "Babe, you're special. Don't worry about not fitting in." He whispered.
Me? Worry? Of course not.
"Ah, Big Time Rush!" A voice exclaimed. I slowly turned around to see a blonde lady walking towards us with extending arms. She looked old - maybe in her late 40ties. A Stage Manager nametag hung around her neck with a small microphone in her ear. She then, had suddenly noticed that BTR was not alone. "And Katelyn Tarver. You're seats are - " She gave a smile to and then, turned to raise an eyebrow at me. "You are?"
"Me?" I questioned. I mentally slapped myself silly. Of course she was talking to me. Who else? The man behind me? I slowly turned around to make sure no one was behind me. "Ah, um, I'm Caitlin." I nodded slowly. "Greene." I added quickly.
"She's my date - and girlfriend." Logan said, explaining to the lady who I had yet to meet.
"Oh." Her eyes dimmed.
I smiled warily. "So, where will we be sitting?"
"Well, I've only got only five seats available that are together soo, if you wouldn't mind, Caitlin, to sit over there. It's not like you'd be receiving any awards anyways." She sneered.
"No, she has to sit with me. On my lap, if she has to." Logan suggests, sending me a naughty grin.
Author's Note:
Which reminds me, look for some smut in BITTERSWEET GOODBYES. A friend of mine, named Nicole, she writes all these drabbles and ugh, it's all so painful. So, I've decided to write some. And I've been reading some novels that have smuts and it makes me all tingly inside. So. Yeah.
The lady frowned. "I'm afraid that won't be possible. It wouldn't be a mannerly formation."
"I'm sure seating someone far away from where she should be seated isn't a mannerly formation either." Carlos shot back, raising his eyebrow.
The lady rolled her eyes. "I'm sorry but that's just the way things are.
"I'm sure you can help us out." Carlos said, poking at her Stage Manger tag. "You are a stage manager, after all."
"Sadly, I can't. Now, if I can show you your seats - " The lady shrugs.
"I'm pretty sure that if we keep talking, then all the seats will be taken. Seats for six, please." Katelyn smiled.
"I just told you that there are not enough -"
"It's okay. She'll sit on my lap then." Logan said, taking my hand. "C'mon, Cait."
"Wait!" The lady calls. "Maybe I can pull a few strings." She mutters, waving for us to follow us. I give Logan a smirk and he shrugs.
"Really? How lucky of us." Kendall replies. I try not to laugh as the lady shoots us all a glare and gestures for us to follow her.
"Thanks." I whispered to Logan.
"Don't thank me. I wanted you to sit on my lap." He whispered back. I wrinkled my eyebrows and looked at Logan who winked at me.
"Going live in one minute!" Another stage director said, as I took in a deep breath. "Please turn off all electronics!" I sat down in my chair, next to Logan and Kendall, my heart beating fast. I don't know why, though. It's not like I was going to get an award. I sighed. Erin was right. I had no talent.
"Live in five seconds!" The stage director exclaimed again. The place was packed. There were only a few excited whispers but everyone else was watching intensively. I gulped as Victoria Justice and her crew sat down next to Kendall. Oh, God. "Five, four, three, two, one!"
A loud speaker echoed through the place. "ANNNNND WELCOME TO THIS YEARS KIDS CHOICE AWARDS." This was really happening. "PLEASE WELCOME YOUR KCA HOST, ELLEN DEGENDEROUS."
Everyone erupted in clapping as Ellen stepped onto the stage, waving to the group. "Hey, good evening everybody." She paused as the clapping died down. "Funny thing, I just bumped into the door coming here and it reminded me something. I need to make that doorway a bit bigger." A few light scattered laughers filled the air. "Annnd, that just a moment ago at the red carpet, a new celebrity was knocked out. With cameras."
I blinked. Someone else got knocked out by cameras? Cool. "Who's she talking about?" I whispered to Logan. He shrugged.
"Not physically, as in chucked a camera at her but with the flashing. The entire time, I was screaming, 'NO! DON'T GO INTO THE LIGHT'." More laughter. "Ah, let's all hope Caitlin Greene is okay." Clapping. Wait - Cait - wait, that was…oh god. Logan's deep laughter fill his lungs.
"Omigosh." I sighed.
"Don't worry, she's getting you publicity." Kendall teased.
"I don't need publicity." I whispered. "You only need publicity if you're famous."
"Looks like you're halfway there then." Kendall winked as I shot him a lol-no-you-need-to-stop-now look.
"Anyways, enough chatter." Ellen said, holding up her hand. "Time for the first award. Best male artist ! The nominees are …" The back screen opened up to a advertisement, for the viewers at chance, no doubt. "Justin Bieber, Bruno Mars, Greyson Chance, Cody Simpson, and Jason Derulo." Polite clapping as we waited for the winner to be announced. "And the winner is…." How much do you wanna bet that it's - "JUSTIN BIEBER!" Told you.
I watched as Justin Bieber kissed Selena before going up the stage. He walked with his 'swagger' in his hipster glasses and took the orange blimp from Ellen.
"I want to thank God, uh, but mostly my fans. Uh, they're the reason why I'm here and I couldn't have done anything if it weren't for them. So, this one is for you!" He said, holding up the blimp. "Thank you!"
Justin made his way off the stage as Ellen introduced Katy Perry to the stage. The intro started playing for Firework. My friend always told me that Katy can't do live. Let's see.
Katy Perry started to belt out in her song as Kendall leaned towards me. "Promise you won't tell Logan." He murmured.
I frowned. "Tell him what?"
"Just promise."
"Well, it depends what it is. Say if you were planning to set him on fire. Of course I'll tell him." I whispered, looking sideways at Logan. Instead, he was watching Katy Perry in her whipping cream guns dress. Pervert.
"Don't worry. It's just that me and Carlos are very good at typing up official letters from certain acting agencies." He whispered back. I gave him a sideways glance and a curious look.
"What do you mean?" I smirked.
"Carlos and I may have something to do with Erin's job in Florida." He grinned.
"Kendall!" I exclaimed under my breath. I paused. To tell the truth, I was a bit curious. "What did you do?"
"We talked with some guy that Carlos' friend is friends with and he's a university student. He's working on a student film on actresses and we told him about Erin." He pauses just as fireworks blew from the stage. "Erin was trying to sabotage your trip to Logan's parents."
I gasped. "I knew she was rude, but not crazy."
"Erin's a bit obsessive."
"No kidding." I replied, nodding. "So, she'll be in Florida 'filming' for how long?"
"Three to four months." Kendall grinned.
"Wow." I blinked. "Well, thanks."
"You're like a sister to me, Cait. Don't mention it."
Just on the stage, Katy Perry finishes up her song. Logan turns to me and whispers in my ear. "She looks like a ho."
"It didn't look like that a few minutes ago." I teased.
He whispered back. "You're the only one for me."
"Oh really." I said, raising my eyebrows.
"You know it." He said, leaning closer to kiss me on the cheek.
"WE'LL BE RIGHT BACK AFTER THESE MESSAGES." The loud speaker said, taking us to the break.
"Hey Kendall." Victoria said, leaning over to say hi. Arianna, Avan, and the rest of the cast waved.
Avan noticed me and gave me a warm smile. "You're Caitlin right?"
I nodded slowly. "That's me."
"Oh, God, I heard you fainted. Are you okay?" Arianna asked, concerned. What I hated about Hollywood was that you could never know if someone was fake or not. But I knew that this cast was totally friendly.
"I'm fine. Just a bit tired." I smiled warily.
"Well, welcome to Hollywood." JADE said, smiling. "You'll get used to the cameras."
"Thanks." I grinned. "And I hope so."
"Excuse me, you're Katelyn Tarver, right?" A voice asked, making me turn my head. I saw a man who also seemed to be a stage director. Katelyn nodded and the man scanned the rows. "And you're Caitlin Greene, correct?" He said, looking at me.
I nodded. "Yeah, why?"
"We need two Nickolodeon girls to guest host the next segment for Best Band."
"Hey, you guys are nominated in that." I said, looking at James who beamed and nodded.
"Well, can you two do it?"
I blinked. Me? "I - I don't know. I'm not much of a entertainer."
"All you have to do is read from the telecommuter just in front of you." He said, pointing to a large screen behind me with the words for the next part. My name was written in big letters across the screen. And I didn't even say yes yet.
"Can't Arianna or Victoria fill in for me?" I asked, pointing to the girls of the Victorious crew.
"Oh, no. Caitlin, you'll love it!" Arianna grinned. "And both of us have a part later in the show."
"C'mon, Cait. It'll be fun." Katelyn assured.
"Go ahead, babe. Do it for me." Logan grinned.
"Okay." I sighed, getting out of my seat. This must mean a lot to them.
"Excellent. Follow me." The man smiled as me and Katelyn made our way backstage. Backstage is huge. Mirrors were on every wall. A stand of clothes were in every corner. The man's finger pointed to the nearest rack. "Make your pick out of these dresses and you'll be able to keep them afterwards. Get changed then let the people fix your makeup a bit and just wait for your cue. You'll be on in five minutes." He hurried off, leaving me and Katelyn to get ready.
"What's wrong with the dresses we have on now?" I asked, frowning. "Oh, gosh. They all look so expensive." I muttered, starting to leaf through the dresses.
"You girls need help?" I looked up from the dresses to see a plump lady with orange hair stand with her hands on her waist.
"Oh, do you think you could?" Katelyn asked. "Pick dresses, I mean. We're on next."
"Well, let's get moving." The lady said. She brought out a light golden dress and held it against Katelyn. "This one makes your skin glow and your eyes brighter. Go get changed." She gave the dress in Katelyn's arms and pointed to a dressing room. The lady turned to me and gave me a curious glance before looking through the dresses again. She pulled out a beautiful sea blue dress, some sky blue pieces hanging on the edges. "This one is for you. It's just a feeling."
I blinked but took the dress from her and went into the change room. I fiddled with my dress zipper and pulled it down, letting the dress fall to the ground. I quickly took the other dress off its hook and pulled it over my head. Well, there goes my hair. I sighed, tugging the dress down and stared at myself in the mirror. The dress, strangely, really did fit with me. I gave myself an approving look before opening the door to the change room and headed out.
"Wow, that feeling was right." The lady greets me with a surprised look. Katelyn nods, agreeing. Before I can say yes or thanks, the lady ushers us towards the makeup and sits us down. She smiles at us and says, "Good luck ladies" before rushing off to help some other celebrity. I'm about to say something to Katelyn when a man brushes some power on my nose, thus making me close my eyes tight. However, by doing so, I gave him the perfect opportunity to brush some eyeshadow over my eyelids. So much for not over doing the makeup.
"Now, go." He said, gesturing me to go and I slowly get off the chair and wait for Katelyn. It's not long before some other stage manager pushes us towards a black curtain which I'm guessing in the entrance to the stage.
"Stay here and wait for you cue." He says. "We'll give you a little wave."
"Okay." I manage to say. I glance at Katelyn who was grinning.
"Relax!" She assured.
I could hardly respond when I heard the loudspeaker crackle. "ANNNND, WELCOME BACK TO THE KCA'S. PLEASE WELCOME KATELYN TARVER AND CAITLIN GREENE."
Oh god.