"You know him" Kasuka asked as he noticed the change in his brother's expression; Shizuo nodded and stood up from the chair he was sitting in. Kasuka knew that when Shizuo was in high school he would come home everyday being mad at this one kid…but he never told him the name.

"…Was this the same person who sent those gangs after you in High School?" Kasuka asked; wanting to make sure his prediction was correct.

"Yea, I knew that prick was crazy…but I'd never think he'd do something like this." The blonde said as he started pacing back and forth across the room.

"Try not to worry too much Nii-san, my arm is broken but my leg really isn't. The muscles are a little bruised so they just put a cast on it to be safe; the doctor also said that the other cuts and bruises I have will heal quickly. I only have to stay here for about a week, and then I can go back to my hotel…although they postponed the shooting of my movie for a few months so the rest of my injuries can heal completely."

"I'm not worried, I know you're strong and I know you'll be fine…right now all I'm focusing on is how I'm going to kill that bastard flea." Shizuo said fiercely, Kasuka sighed and turned his attention back up to the ceiling.

"I'm kind of thirsty; could you go get some milk from the cafeteria for me?" The actor asked the still angry bodyguard, Shizuo nodded and quickly walked out of the room. Kasuka thought that maybe a short walk would calm his older brother down; he hated seeing him so mad all the time. Mostly because he didn't want Shizuo to be arrested again or die from an extreme heart attack caused by his anger issues.

"That was quick…" Kasuka said as he heard the door of his room slowly start to open; but when he looked over his expression turned grim.

"Hello there Kasuka." Izaya said in a cheerful tone, he skipped over to the brunet's bedside and grind his best evil grin at him.

"Why are you here?" Kasuka asked as he lay back down in the bed, keeping both eyes locked on the older male.

"I just wanted to see how you were feeling; it's a pity that my little stunt didn't kill you though." Izaya said, sounding very disappointed.

"What reason would you have for wanting to kill me? What did I ever do to you?"

"Nothing of course…but you love your brother don't you? You love him even though he's a monster right?"

"What does that have to do with anything?"

"Actually it's the entire reason why you're in that hospital bed; you see no one really loves me. Even my bratty sisters wouldn't care if I was dead…and I don't think it's fair that Shizu-chan has someone to love him and I have no one…so I thought it would just kill him if his little brother that he loves so much were to just…die." Kasuka was getting uncomfortable at the insane look the informant had on his face.

"Hm…you know my brother really was right about you."

"Oh? And what did the monster of Ikebukuro say about me?" Izaya asked curiously, he was leaning over the younger male with an expression of pure madness on.

"You'll never be loved; you're an insane bastard who doesn't deserve to live. No one would care if you died and the world would have been a lot better off if you were never born you pathetic excuse for a man." The wicked smile spread across the thin male's face disappeared in an instant after he heard those words escape the injured actor's lips.

"…..Is that so?" Izaya reached into his pocket and pulled out his switchblade, tears ran down his cheeks as he held the male down with one hand and held the knife over his heart with the other.

"Die…" He swung his arm back and plunged the knife forward to the brunet's body; he gasped when his wrist was suddenly grabbed roughly by someone behind him. As Izaya was spun around a large fist was slammed into his nose; he yelped and slammed against the wall behind him.

"You stay the hell away from him flea." Shizuo barked as he approached the brunet who was now on his hands and knees. Celty and Shinra had met up with Shizuo in the lobby and were now standing in the doorway; they had come after they had heard Kasuka had gotten hurt from Shizuo.

"Wait!" Shinra yelped as he watched the large male start to strangle the informant to death; Izaya tried to reach for his switchblade as big hands squeezed his throat.

"Shizuo stop! You'll kill him!" Shinra grabbed at the blonde's shirt as he tried to pry him off of the smaller male.

"That's what I'm trying to do!" Shizuo screamed back as he watched Izaya's eyes start to roll in the back of his head, finally Celty stepped in and used her smoke like substance to hold the bodyguards hands back.

"What the hell are you doing?" Shizuo screamed as the other male tried to catch his breath; Izaya looked around with wide eyes to see that everyone was staring at him.

"I need to get out of here….I need to get out of here…" Izaya jumped to his feet and started running full speed out of the room; he didn't care how much his lungs hurt he continued to run down the stairs of the building until he was out of there all together.

Shinjuku, Izaya Orihara's apartment…

Izaya breathed heavily as he finally got into his apartment, his lungs were screaming at him at this point as he slid his back down the door until he was finally sitting on the carpeted floor.

"What the hell is wrong with me?" Izaya thought as he buried his face in his hands, more tears were starting to form at the corner of his eyes and his body shook with fear. He sat there for god knows how long, shaking and crying at what had just happened.

"It's not fair, why does that bastard get to have someone to love him? Why…him…" Izaya said aloud; after a few minutes of trying to calm down he got to his feet and went to go sit at his desk. Maybe a little work or playing around on his chat rooms would calm him down. Unfortunately no one was on the chat rooms at the moment and he had gotten all the information his boss Shiki had asked him to get. Izaya's eyes trailed down his top desk drawer; knowing it held an item that he had bought just for this sort of occasion. He slowly opened it and pulled out a loaded hand gun; he studied it for a while before starting to bring it up towards his head.

"The world would have been better off if you were never born….I've been told that so many times…." Izaya swallowed hard as he pushed the barrel of the gun to his head; he was just about to pull the trigger when he heard a loud knocking at his front door.

"Izaya let me in! I know your home!" Shinra yelled as he continued to pound his fist on the door.

"Go away Shinra, I'm busy." Izaya said fiercely as he started to pull the trigger of the gun; he gasped when the knocking turned into loud banging. He accidentally missed and fired the bullet of the gun at the window; at this point Shinra had knocked down the door with his arm at the fear of his friend being killed. The underground doctor looked around the room until he saw the informant starring at the hole he had made in the window; luckily the window was so big that it didn't shatter when hit with the bullet.

"Thank god..." Shinra sighed as he ran over to the informant; he quickly snatched the gun from his hands and turned him around to face him.

"What the hell do you think you're doing?" Shinra barked angrily, hid anger soon turned into concern as he saw the brunet's sad expression.

"Izaya…why on earth would you try to kill yourself?" Shinra asked, his eyes locked with the other males.

"I…I don't deserve to live Shinra…"

"Why would you think that?"

"….because…I'm a horrible person…"

Author's Note: Not my best chapter but I liked it and I hope you did to. Please don't forget to review so I know if you liked it or not! Thanks for reading and I'll start on the next chapter soon!