"Morning baby boy" Randy woke him with a gentle kiss "I made breakfast"
"Mhmm" he mumbled and turned around "Love wake up we have two hours left before we have to go" Randy shook him gently, he got no reaction so he shook harder "Come on… you're a big child" the older man sighed.
"You're a big mean mother-hen" Cody sat up and blinked. He was dead tired and couldn't remember why the hell they had to go in two hours, but the main question was where the heck they were going.
"Baby, don't be like that" Randy frowned.
"Like what?" Cody spat "You're using your 'get out of my sight you jerk or I kick your ass' tone and I don't like that. Especially not this early"
"That's my point" Cody lay back down and pulled the comforter over his head. He didn't notice the sad look in his lover's eyes.
"Okay" Randy got up "sleep well"
"I will" Cody didn't know why he was so mean, but he felt like the world was against him. The voices of Randy's friends still rang in his ears. It wasn't Randy's fault, not at all but they were his friends and he never defended him or stopped them. He didn't doubt Randy's love for him but it hurt nonetheless. He was scared of what would happen when Randy came to the conclusion that they were right. Randy was his life, his whole world and the fact scared him deeply. How could a human be able to love so deeply? With a lot of questions and worries he fell asleep.
Randy sat on the couch and watched T.V. he had planned a nice day for Cody. A trip to the new amusement park, the new action movie Cody wanted to see, a nice dinner at a restaurant and a nice walk hand in hand. And at the end of the day he wanted to propose to Cody. He wasn't sure anymore if a marriage was a wise decision. It was their second anniversary and it seemed Cody forgot all about it. It hurt. Randy continued to stare at the T.V. deep in thoughts he didn't notice Cody's presence.
"Hey love I'm talking to you" Cody frowned as he got no answer. "Randy?" he approached him carefully, he knew better than to scare the older man.
Still no answer, he put his hand on Randy's shoulder "Love talk to me" Randy almost jumped out of his skin "Where were you love?"
"Nowhere" Randy looked so sad it broke his heart "Love talk to me"
"Why were you so angry?" he asked, carefully avoiding Cody's gaze.
"I wasn't mad at you" the young man sighed "I was mad at your friends, I was mad at me and the whole world. I bottled my emotions up again and let it out on you. I'm sorry"
Randy knew Cody had issues; damn he himself had enough issues to keep an armada of psychiatrics busy for a lifetime.
"Why are you so insecure?" Randy finally looked at him.
Cody caressed Randy's high cheekbone "People tend to use me. They toy with me, so I never learned to … to keep a serious relationship upright. Sometimes I'm overcharged with the things people expect from me, what I expect from me"
"You're a good boyfriend, I love you the way you are. You don't have to change for me or have to try to befriend my friends" Randy leant into the touch.
"I know but it's not easy" Cody kissed him "Tell me why you wanted to drag me out of the house?"
"Doesn't matter anymore" Randy faked a smile and Cody believed it.
Their make out session was interrupted by a loud rumble "I think we should eat first" Randy chuckled, Cody blushed "Yeah"
"What do you want?" Randy entered the kitchen; he liked to cook for his boy.
"You don't have too cook I take the leftovers from this morning" Cody didn't want him to cook again. He gave his best this morning and he didn't get up to try it.
"Okay" Randy turned around to hide a sad smile "Here" he reached him a plate.
"How much did you cook?" Cody stared at the leftovers, Randy looked slightly guilty and Cody frowned "You haven't eaten!"
"I wasn't feeling well" it wasn't a lie. Cody sighed "I'm sorry"
"Don't be" Randy patted his dark hair, the young man loved the gesture "But I am. I ruined whatever you had planned for today. We can do it now if you want" he offered but Randy shook his head.
"Nah, it wasn't important and I should have taken last night into consideration. The party and all"
Cody pulled the older man closer and dragged him on top of his lap "Look, I'll eat and then we spend some time together. Okay?"
Randy didn't answer; he put his arms around his lover and rested his chin on his shoulder.
Cody felt even guiltier "Love you" he whispered and placed a soft kiss on his lover's cheek.
The older man closed his eyes and tried to banish the sadness. He had hoped Cody was too tired this morning to remember but he still didn't.
"Randy, please tell me" Cody almost begged "What's wrong?"
"Nothing. I'm still tired. I think I go back to bed for a while" he got up and after a little kiss he vanished.
Cody shoved his food from one side to the other, he wasn't hungry anymore but not eating would make Randy even sadder and there was nothing he hated more than a sad Randy.
He was always so strong and calm and it scared him to see him so vulnerable, he looked so young and helpless sometimes. Cody decided to make a few calls after he finished dinner.
After an hour Cody went upstairs and peeked into their bedroom. He called a few friends but no one could or wanted to tell him what he did wrong.
He sat down on the edge of the bed, he watched Randy sleep "Why are you so restless?" he mumbled to himself as Randy frowned in his sleep.
With a deep sigh he slipped under the comforter and took his lover into his arms. He noticed how Randy relaxed and smiled "I really do love you. Never doubt this"
He held and watched him for hours, Cody tried to figure out why Randy was so frustrated but he had no clue.
"You don't have to comfort me" a deep voice disturbed his thoughts "I made you sad and I intend to change it"
Randy smiled, his lover could be so cute and naive "Let's spend the day in bed with a good movie"
"Okay I'll get a few movies and you can use the time to eat"
"I'm not hungry" Randy complained but Cody cut him off "You have to eat. You do it on your own or I'll force you" it was an order and Randy knew better then to complain.
Cody grinned "Good boy" he got up and left. He knew exactly how to push Randy's buttons and he used his knowledge when he had to.
Randy did as he was told and went back to bed, waiting for his young lover.
Cody came back with three movies and beamed "Look what I got" he showed him the movies "Do you like them?" he asked hopefully.
Randy liked them and was surprised how well his lover knew him "I like them, can we start with … this" he held up the cover of an action DVD.
"Sure" Cody got up and prepared their movie night "Ready" he said cheerful to lighten the mood.
They snuggled and talked during the movie, they enjoyed the touches as their hands met, while they grabbed at the same time into the bowl full of popcorn. After the movies ended they decided to sleep. Cody watched Randy for a while before he fell asleep. He had tried to figure out why Randy was so depressed but he couldn't find a clue. But he was happy that he was able to cheer his lover up. Cody woke up at three a.m. as Randy groaned.
"Hey… love wake up" he shook him gently and Randy sat up, his eyes were wide open and he breathed heavily.
"Randy?" he rubbed his back "It's okay, it was only a dream"
"Geez" Randy groaned "I hate this" he fell back onto the mattress and rubbed over his eyes.
"What have you dreamt?" the young man asked worried, it had to be bad when Randy reacted so unlike him.
"I don't remember"
"Yes you do" Cody said patiently "Tell me"
"I dreamt you left" Randy mumbled barely audible.
"Oh love. I will never leave you" he rested his head on Randy's broad chest "I'm here" he took Randy's hand and placed it over his heart "Do you feel that. It beats for you and only for you. It would stop the day we part"
Randy felt Cody's strong heartbeat and calmed down, his words echoed through his mind and he wondered if Cody really meant what he said. He decided to believe him, he needed to believe in him.
"Hush" he heard how Randy's heart hammered in his chest.
Randy took a few deep breaths to calm down, he felt how his heart stopped to race "Love you"
Cody smiled sadly into the semi darkness of the room "Love you too. Go back to sleep we have to train in an few hours"
The older man fell asleep after a few minutes but Cody couldn't, he woke up by every movement, ready to help his lover through the next nightmare, which never came.
"Good morning Cody" Edge smiled and tried to get a look at his hand.
"What are you looking at?" he asked confused as he noticed Cena and Punk doing the same.
Their faces fell "Oh" Edged mouthed to John, who got dressed and hurried out of the room.
"What?" the young man asked angrily.
"Did you break up?" Edge asked carefully "NO where did you get the stupid idea?"
"Why did you say no then?" Punk frowned.
"No to what?" he got even more confused.
Now Edge and Punk looked confused "Didn't he ask?" Edge blurted out and got a slap on the head from Punk.
"Huh?" Cody grew impatient "Would you be so nice and tell me what the hell you're talking about"
"Yesterday was your anniversary and Randy planned to propose to you" Punk explained, getting an angry glare from Edge.
Cody was white like a sheet, they could practically see the blood draining from his face "Oh god … damn…" he cursed and ran.
"He forgot" Punk stated the obvious "Yes he did. But Randy planned the whole day how could he not notice how special the day was?" Edge would ask John after they got home.
John was in the locker room together with Randy as Cody ran into the room; he stopped as he saw how Cena comforted his lover. The look on Cena's face was so gentle and his hand squeezed Randy's shoulder, he would have been jealous if he wasn't the cause for Randy's distress. It was obvious that the other man was there as a friend.
"Randy" Cody wasn't sure what to say "I'm sorry, I'm so sorry"
"You figured it out then?" John gave him a venomous look "I leave you two alone okay?"
Randy nodded "They said it was our anniversary… and… and I forgot… I'm so sorry love. I should have known, how could I forget…I-I…"
"Calm down and take a deep breath" Randy cupped his face "You're starting to hyperventilate"
Cody did as he was told "Okay" he sighed.
"Better?" Randy stroke his cheek with his thumb, Cody nodded "Good"
"Randy how can I make this up to you? How could you say it doesn't matter when I asked you what was wrong? It's so important"
"Not important enough to remember" Randy wanted to slap himself after the words left his mouth.
Cody started to cry, to know he forgot their special day broke his heart.
"Love" Randy soothed "We can participate next week when we have two days off"
"No" Cody almost yelled "It was yesterday and I forgot and ruined your plans. It was yesterday" he sobbed.
Randy tried to calm him down but he couldn't so he tried a new tactic. He let go of Cody and went to his bag, he searched for a little velvet box "Found it" he mumbled to himself.
Cody watched Randy as he walked away from him, he was sure Randy would leave him and prepared himself for the blow but what he didn't imagine was what happened next.
Randy got on his knees and held up a velvet box "Cody, pleas marry me"
Cody's eyes widened he wasn't sure if he was dreaming or not but it felt so real. He opened and closed his mouth but he couldn't speak so he nodded instead. Randy beamed and put the platinum ring on his finger. He got up and placed a soft kiss on his lips.
"I would have been sad too when you had destroyed my proposal" he finally understood why Randy was so heartbroken the day before. He couldn't forgive himself for ruining everything. Randy must have been so happy and nervous from anticipation, and he let him down. How could he forgive him so easily? Randy was like a riddle.
"You weren't in the mood to go out, I understand you were tired. I should have planned it differently" Randy dragged him to the nearest bank and pulled him onto his lap. Cody shook his head "No I should have remembered, I should have seen your happiness, I should have seen that … I-" Randy pressed his index finger against Cody's lip "Stop that. We could have done a lot of things differently but we didn't. It's the past, forget what happened and marry me" he smiled.
Cody couldn't suppress a smile and nodded, it was the first time he couldn't decide what to feel. Happiness, sadness, guilt, he felt all of this at the same time. But right now was happiness the strongest emotion in his heart. He slung his arms around Randy and buried his head in the crock of his neck. He inhaled the other mans scent and enjoyed his warmth "I can't go on without you"
"I would stop to exist without you by my side and because of that I want to bind us together, forever"
The young man chuckled, it was so cheesy but it warmed his heart. It didn't matter what people thought, he needed to hear things like that. He liked to hear them.
"Let's start to practice or we'll get our asses kicked" Randy released him and Cody obeyed.
"Damn I thought he tries to break my neck" Randy rubbed his sore neck, he trained with Edge and a move went wrong. Randy fell ungraciously to the ground and hurt his neck. Cody was all over him and dragged him to the doctor, who gave him pills against the pain and the order to rest.
"I prepare your bath" Cody announced as they entered their house, he hurried into the bathroom.
Randy smiled and shook his head, it was a 'painful' habit "Ouch, I should stop that" he sighed and went upstairs. He had huge problems to undress and needed a while.
"Randy, call me when you need help" he stepped closer and pulled his shirt over his head, unbuckled his belt and helped him out of his pants.
"Thank you" Randy gave him a dirty grin "Oh no Randal no sex. You're hurt"
"It's not that bad" Randy said annoyed, everyone he met fussed over him and that got on his nerves.
"You could have died" Cody's eyes watered, only then Randy understood that he had scared the young man.
"Love, it wasn't that bad. We always have bruises or broken bones even" Randy reasoned, their job wasn't easy.
"It looked so bad" Cody took his hand and led him into the bathroom, they had a huge tube with enough space for two adults.
He got rid of his clothes and helped Randy out of his shorts before he stepped into the tube "Come" he held out his hand. Randy took it and got in "Smells nice"
"Lavender, my mom says it helps to relax" Randy nodded and set down. Cody sat behind him so he leaned against his chest. The young man held him tight and played with the ring on his finger "I don't want to lose you and especially not before we marry. I want you, I want children and I want that we grow old together"
"Children?" Randy hadn't thought Cody wanted children, he was young and could be immature.
"Don't you want kids?" Cody hoped he wasn't the only one who wanted kids. He would sacrifice his dream for Randy but both would be better.
"I do" Randy said finally "but I thought you don't want children"
"Why?"
"I don't know, you're young and there is so much for you to achieve" Randy closed his eyes, he was tired.
"I want children, with you and no one else" the young man kissed the top of his lover's head "Relax, that's good" he felt Randy relax in his arms.
He let him sleep for a while and watched out for him, he listened to his breathing, heartbeat and movements. He knew it was totally irrational everything he had to do was to watch out that he won't drown but his heart wasn't listening.
"Hey" he whispered into Randy's ear "time to wake up"
Randy was dead tired and had no interest in waking up but he knew he had to "Yeah" he got up and Cody helped him to get dressed before he tugged him in.
Cody placed a glass of water and pain killers next to the bed before he joined Randy.