"Morning Cody" John said coldly, it was pure politeness.
"Morning Cena" he answered.
"What the hell happened to you, you look terrible?" Punk frowned.
"We broke up" Cody stated without emotions.
"Why?" Punk asked as the door opened and Randy entered. He was pale und looked tired.
"Cody can we talk?" he tried to gain his attention.
"Don't talk to me" Cody hissed.
"Please" Randy begged and reached out to touch his shoulder.
"Don't touch me" he punched Randy right in the face "You lost every right to do this as you fucked Swagger, urgh I can't get the image out of my head" the shocked look in Randy's eyes tore at his heart but it was his own fault, he didn't cheat on Randy. Cody grabbed his shirt and stormed out of the room.
"He caught you cheating? Randy how could you?" John almost yelled "I thought you love him"
Punk shook his head and said nothing, something wasn't right and he watched Randy to get his answers.
Randy put up his cold masquerade and left without a word.
"I don't believe it" John rubbed his forehead.
"Something is wrong" Punk looked at Cena "He cheated on him of course there's something wrong"
"I don't think he did" Punk couldn't put a finger on it but a feeling told him Randy would never cheat.
"Why?" John was confused; Cody caught them how could he get that wrong?
"Haven't you looked at him?" he saw in his eyes that he didn't, Punk sighed and ended their conversation.
Randy sat in his hotel room and played with a bottle of sleeping pills he got a while ago. He wanted to end it so bad but he couldn't. He decided to give life a chance and put them away. He would find a different way to release his pain. Old habits die hard, he thought as he pulled the pocketknife out of his bag. He eyed it for a while until he cut the inside of his upper arm. He didn't feel the blade cut into his skin but he felt the warmth of his blood, running down his skin. It was soothing and Randy cut a second time. His thought circled around Cody and Swagger. He showered and showered but he felt dirty, he couldn't get him off his skin, out of his mouth. He felt his touches in his dreams and his presence in his mind when he was awake.
He needed his lover and his friends but they left, without to hear him out, without to ask of his version of the story. Randy went to bed and stared with lifeless eyes at the ceiling until sleep stopped his pain for a short time. He didn't feel well after he woke up, it felt like he got a concussion at one of his encounters with a fist.
Randy met Swagger as he walked through the corridor and he felt sick immediately. Swagger gave him a dirty grin and blew him a kiss. Randy rushed into the bathroom and threw up; he sat next to the toilet and shivered.
Edge went into the bathroom to take a leak as he found Randy, pale as death and shivering like a leaf "Randy?" he kneeled down next to him "Randy, talk to me?" he reached out and touched his shoulder. Randy jumped up and threw up again "Shit" Adam panicked.
Matt, Jeff and John were talking in front of one of the locker rooms as Cody passed by, he tried to avoid them "Cody" John called him.
"Damn it" he muttered and turned around "Yes?"
"How are you?" Cody was surprised that John was concerned.
"Fine" Cody replied; he talked himself into believing that he was okay with the situation.
"No you're not" John could see it in his eyes.
"How would you feel when Adam betrays you?" Cody hissed, he saw the wheels in John's head turning.
"I would feel like shit" John said gently, Cody nodded.
"JOHN" Adam yelled "here you are" he was out of breath.
"Adam calm down. What happened?" Adam's reaction scared him.
"You have to come, NOW" Edge breathed heavily and stepped inpatient from foot to foot.
"Randy!" there was no other option. John began to ran, followed by Matt, Jeff and Cody.
Adam dragged John into the bathroom, while Matt and Jeff stood in front of the door with the intention to keep Cody outside.
"Randy" John got on his knees "What happened?" he looked at Adam.
"I don't know. I had to pee and found him like that" he explained.
"Randy?" he got no reaction "Ortz?"
"Should I call an ambulance?" John shook his head "Wait a moment" he sat down next to Randy and pulled him against his side, gently stroking the side of his face.
"Come on old boy talk to me" he pushed gently.
"I don't feel well" he whispered "I can see that" John said.
"Is it about Cody?" he knew how Randy reacted when he was unsatisfied with life and his own outburst a day ago wasn't helpful either. He should have listened instead of blowing up.
"I want to go home" Randy shivered and got on his knees to throw up once more.
"What did you take?" John asked worried "Nothing" he believed it for now.
"I'll take you home" John offered while he rubbed Randy's back "Come on, get up. Adam, give me a wet paper towel" Adam did as he was told.
John cleaned his friend up before he put an arm around his waist to steady him "Adam tell Vince what happened and that he needs a few days off" Adam nodded and left.
Matt and Jeff were surprised how fast Adam ran out of the room, they turned around to help as John walked through the door with Randy in tow. Cody was shocked how bad his ex-lover looked. He looked sick and slightly disorientated.
Randy tried hard not to look at Cody and was surprisingly successful "Randy, can you hear me?" John wanted to make sure Orton was still here with him.
Randy nodded carefully, every movement made him feel sick "I take you to the hospital" John decided, he wasn't sure Randy didn't take an overdose again.
"Don't want to" he mumbled "Don't answer back!" John said as gentle as possible.
"John has he…?" Matt asked worried.
"I don't know but I give you a call when I know more" Matt nodded and took Jeff's hand.
Cody looked at their linked hands and then back to Randy, he wanted to hold him, to care for him but he couldn't. He despised him and hopped he suffered as much as he made him suffer.
"Matt, he will be alright" Jeff comforted his lover.
"That's what you said last time too. And you know how it ended" Matt watched them go.
"He is here isn't he?" Jeff stroke through Matt's soft hair.
"Not anymore" Matt started to walk and dragged Jeff with him.
Cody couldn't move and asked himself what they were talking about.
"Are you here for Mr. Orton?" a young nurse asked.
"Yes" John replied and followed her.
"Mr. Cena right?" the doctor shook his hand.
"How is he?" answers were more important than politeness.
"He has a slight concussion. He took quite a few blows to the head. He's lucky it's not serious"
John frowned, he saw Cody punch him but only one time.
~ What happened to you while I wasn't there? I should never have left you alone that day. It's my fault you're here. I should have protected you from Rhodes, why didn't you listen, huh?
I wouldn't have listened too when you had told me to leave Adam.
Oh Randy ~
"Mr. Cena" the doctor brought him back to reality "Do you know something about his past? Coping strategies for example?"
"What did he do this time?" the doctor took it as a yes "Let me show you" he turned Randy's arm until the fine lines of the knife were visible.
John sighed and closed his eyes for a short moment "Randy"
"Do you know the reason why he hurts himself?"
"His boyfriend left him" the doctor nodded "We gave him something to sleep we'll release him after he wakes up"
"I keep an eye on him" he answered the next question of the doctor before he got the chance to ask.
"You're used to it" the doctor stated, John smiled sadly at him "It will get worse before it gets better" the doctor nodded and left them alone.
"I have to make a call. I'm back in an instant" John patted his cheek but got no reaction, not that he truly expected one.
"Hey Adam" he pinched the bridge of his nose "Please find out where Randy lives at the moment and collect his things, … yes…I want him near…right. He has a concussion that's why he puked. No Cody isn't here; you're right he has to stay away. I love you too. See ya"
Edge put his phone away and headed for the locker room. He looked through Randy's things until he found a hotel key.
"Adam, has John called?" Matt stood in the doorway.
"Randy has a concussion and he asked me to collect his thing. I think it's serious"
Jeff nodded "Cody vanished" he added.
"He isn't at the hospital and that's good. I'm not sure what John would do if he got him into his hands" Adam packed Randy's things away.
"I have to go. Keep an eye on Cody for us… should you find him" he shrugged.
"We come by tomorrow evening" Matt decided and left no room for an argument.
Adam chuckled "Sure. See you tomorrow then"
"I'll break Cody's neck" Matt hissed after Adam left them alone.
"But Randy's the one at fault" Jeff reminded him.
"Ah come on. Do you really believe Randy would cheat on him?" Matt frowned and gesticulated.
"They took a break maybe he wanted revenge or he was lonely" Jeff numerated.
"No" Matt was confident that Randy was innocent. Jeff stopped to argue he knew better than discuss with Matt when he made up his mind.
Cody sat on the couch in the living room and held a picture of better times. It was their first date, they visited an amusement park. Randy stood behind him and had his arms around Cody. His chin rested on the younger man's head. Cody clung to the picture for dear life. Randy's eyes shone and he seemed so happy.
"What happened with us?" Cody spoke to himself.
~ We were so happy! When did I start to get so jealous? And when did you start to remain silent? I miss you so; the house is empty without you. I packed two storage boxes and nothing is left of you in here. Why is it so easy to clear out your belongings? I found your clothes, toiletries, a few pictures and books but that's all. Everything in here is mine or we bought it together but almost nothing is yours. I should have noticed it earlier; before you were gone maybe I could have done something to keep you by my side. You could have talked to me, I would have listened but you decided to whore around. Worthless whore! ~
He crushed the picture in his hands before he took off his engagement ring. He rolled it around between his fingers "I forgot to take it off" he wondered.
He got up and went to the trash bin, he held his hand above the opening but his hand didn't listen to his brain. He couldn't let go of it. Cody sighed and opened a drawer "Goodbye" he threw the ring into the drawer and slammed it shut.
The young man decided he needed a drink and company. He took his cell phone and called a few friends.
"Hey Cody, how are you?" Rey gave him a hug.
"I'm fine" he felt better when he wasn't alone.
"I thought you threw his belongings away?" Rey looked around but it seemed nothing changed.
"I did" Cody put his stuff into storage boxes because he wasn't able to throw them away.
"But it looks like nothing changed in here" Miz said confused.
"There was nothing to throw away" they stared at him "It's as if he never moved in, sure we bought the furniture together but I had a great influence on him"
"Have you heard that Orton has a concussion? I overheard a phone call between Edge and John" Miz said, changing the topic as he noticed the change in Cody's mood. He wished John was there but he asked his boyfriend to stay at home even though he was a friend too but Morrison agreed to keep their happy relationship away from Cody for a while.
Cody shuddered as he remembered Randy's appearance that evening. He looked so sick and vulnerable it hurt.
"That's why he looked so miserable and I thought he might miss me" Cody spat.
"We told you to keep away from him" Kofi stepped through the door with Ted in tow.
"What do you want here?" Miz frowned.
"I got over what happened between us so I thought Cody could use some help too" he sounded worried.
"Thank you Ted" he missed their friendship and regretted the way their friendship ended. Maybe that was the chance to get closer again.
"Come here" Ted opened his arms and Cody accepted the offer.
They hugged for a few minutes until they heard the front door open. Randy was Cody's first thought and his heart raced "What do you want John?" Cody was surprised how disappointed he felt about the fact that it wasn't Randy.
"Where are his things?" he looked around.
"Follow me" Cody said coldly, John obeyed.
"Here" he pointed at two storage boxes "That's all?" John eyed him suspiciously.
"Yes, I packed a bag before I threw him out and this is what's left"
"I thought things changed" John said out of the blue.
"What do you mean?" Cody crossed his arms.
"He wasn't at home at your house but I thought now that you bought the house he would find peace" John sighed.
"He was always welcome in my house " Cody shot back.
"That was the problem. It was your house, everything was yours" John realized that Cody couldn't understand the problem.
Cody bit his bottom lip "Where is he?"
"The doctor said he needs someone who watch over him so Adam and I decided to take him in" John explained.
"How is he?" John noticed that Cody was truly interested.
"He got a concussion" John thought about what the doctor said "Did you hit him more than one time?"
"No" he wished he had "Why?"
"Doesn't matter" John took the boxes and walked back to the living room.
"Cena! Tell him to stay away from him" Ted hissed.
Cody's heart stopped as he saw the look on John's face. He saw resignation, fear and a hint of sadness "Trust me you won't even notice his presence"
Cody opened his mouth to tell John to wait a moment but Ted interfered, he tried to get away from his friends but as he left the house he only saw John's rear lights.
"Damn it" he said to himself, John's reaction scared him. He shouldn't worry about the bastard but he did and he knew it wouldn't change in the near future. He still loved Randy and he wasn't sure he would be able to fall out of love.
"Come in or you catch a cold" Rey led him back into the house.