Chapter two: if I tell myself it, it has to be true.

"SHIT! Look John can you open up tonight without me? I just gotta go do something but I'll be back as soon as possible I promise." John looked blankly at her, he'd only worked there for a week "please?" she was desperate and he could tell.

"Yeah ok,"

"Thank you," Jesus she thought before rushing out of the doors of P3, she got her mobile out and automatically sent the pre-saved text message to Dan:

I'm obviating get home now!

her car skidded in to their drive way, and so practically took the door of it's hinges trying to get through it while slipping of her shoes, despite Dan not being there yet she was still in a rush to get to sex. But as she burst through the door she was amazed to here the T.V happily playing away. She walked slowly into the lounge, expecting perhaps Dan but never what met her eyes.

"Hay sis," Paige lay happily on the sofa eating peanut sandwiches and wearing snoopy pyjamas.

"Paige what the hell are you doing here at this time of day?" Piper had only just told her sisters she was trying to get pregnant, although she had been trying for nearly 6 months now, so to explain this was going to be hard.

"Watching T.V, what you doing here..? Hay is your top undone?" her sister looked at her more suspicious, and Piper knew no matter what older sister power she held over Paige when they were younger it wasn't as easily used now.

"I'm…. I'm obviating if you really have to know," as serious as she said it. Her little sister seemed to still find that the funniest thing she had ever heard.

"Like those weirdo's on TV who rush how to get laid, just cos their tempeture ha like gone up 2 degrees," Paige looked at her grinning in laughter, then her face became more serious. "you been serious?"

"Yes thank you very much, I'm serious about wanting this child, and yeah if that means rushing home when my tempeture goes up then yeah I'm a fucking weirdo!" she had lost it, for the past 6 months her hopes of a daughter had been dashed and every time the stick read negative it was as though another dagger had been placed in her heat.

"I'll be off then, er…. See you later." and with that Paige made a swift exit. Piper felt miserable, she couldn't ever tell her sister what was going on, let alone tell Dan how she felt. The man of her dreams, and yet her body just wouldn't allow her to have his kid. It taw her apart mentally, emotionally and physically. She couldn't sleep, her dreams where plague with children, and men, men of her past. Men she shouldn't of thought of any more. But still did.

But once again now wasn't the time for those thoughts, now wasn't the time for much. She slipped upstairs as she heard Dan's truck pull up, and undressed she had to focus, it was him she loved, it always had been. An all she wanted was to have a child with him, if she kept telling herself that maybe she would believe it.