'This is not a fucking guilt trip!' I hissed down the phone. From the other end of the line I heard a frustrated sigh.

'You can't just go running off because we're all being affected! It's not just you!' Jess shouted. Obviously, she and Jordan were still awake at 3:00am but I was sat in the bunk above CC's whispering to make sure that I didn't wake any of them up. That alone made me feel like I was losing the battle already. I could hear CC snoring calmly underneath me, but at the moment I was so annoyed that I wanted to smack my foot against the roof of his bunk. I ignored mostly all noises from the bus; the boys were naturally noisy so it didn't really make me jumpy.

Her voice rung through my ears and it made me want to hang up and cry myself to sleep.

'I'm the one dealing with the brunt of this! You're fine; you've only got to deal with a break-up! I have to deal with a break-up, the death of John, the fact I'm still in love with Jack and the pressure you're putting on me!'

'Look, I don't want to argue with you, but please. Just come back to the hotel and we'll sort this out.'

'No, I'm sorry.' I hung up. Frustration was the first word to come to mind when I finally had a chance to think. So many questions were swimming around in my head and it was unbearable. I had no idea what to do this time. However, I definitely was not going back to the hotel and that was something I'd definitely decided on.

'Hey, you okay?' I heard one of the boys' voices from outside the bunk I was sleeping in. At first, I thought he was talking to someone else but when he pulled back the curtain, falling victim to my icy blue eyes that tears were falling from, clearly, CC was talking to me. 'I heard you talking to someone. And you were making quite a lot of movement.'

'Did I wake you? Oh crap CC, I'm sorry, I didn't mean to.'

He laughed slightly. 'Hey, don't worry about it.'

I leaned out of the bunk and looked into the darkness that surrounded us both, hoping to find an answer. Stupid thoughts. CC's dark brown eyes stared at me, like he understood.

'Is Andy awake?' I asked.

'Nope. Just me.' he replied. I jumped off of the edge and stood opposite him. Well, I was squashed into him because of the lack of width of their bus. 'I hope I'll be an okay agony uncle,' He gestured me to the table and we both sat opposite each other. 'So, what's up?'

I was used to people getting straight to the point. I'd been open to it all my life. I sighed, 'I don't know what to do. I was planning on going back home but then Andy saw me and told me to come here. How much of the argument did you hear?' I explained.

'I heard enough to know what was going on. I think you should go back to your friends. They need you just as much as you need them. Because your boyfriend or ex-boyfriend is gay doesn't mean you should be angry at him forever no matter how much pain you and your friends have been through.'

The guy had a point. 'So I guess Andy told you lot then.'

CC nodded. 'When you collapsed Andy took you to bed and told us the situation. He wanted to make sure that we didn't ask you any questions that made you uncomfortable or made you need to say something that you didn't really want to say.'

Even though CC's extremely good encouraging made me sway a little, I was still certain on being my usual stubborn self and do what I initially planned to do.

'I can't go back, CC. Really, I can't. I don't want to face Jess' hysterics and Jordan's yelling because that's what I would do if I ran off like I did. CC nodded again.

'Well, if that's where you want to go, we'll drive you to the airport when the next flight is due to leave. Andy doesn't want to leave you alone for a second.'

'He was always like that when we were kids. Whenever we played out in the road he'd always be the one to pull me back in case I got run over. Considering there were no cars coming when he did it, I don't even know why he tried...'

'Because he was paranoid. Just like your friends. I'm not going to be able to sway you am I?' he joked. I shook my head dramatically and giggled.

'Thanks, CC. Really. You don't know how it's helped me. I will figure this out.'

'Go to bed. You look really sleep deprived.'

I wasn't in the mood to argue so I nodded and climbed into the bunk above CC's. CC went to the bathroom before retreating back to his spot underneath me and closed his curtains. When I was remotely sure he'd fallen asleep, I pulled out my phone and punched in my Twin's number.

'Hello?' She croaked, sounding sleepier than usual.

'Twin, it's me.' She instantly coughed and her voice sounded much more alive; not comparing that she sounded like a zombie, but it was 2:30 in the morning.

'Oh my god, Twin. Where are you? Are you okay? Why did you run? Why didn't you tell me? Are you coming back?'

'Twin, calm down, I'm fine. I'm with a friend and I'm going home. I... I need space for a bit. But I'll be fine. I'm not suicidal or anything. Honestly, if I wasn't fine, you'd sense it.'

Jordan hummed in agreement. 'But seriously, we're all worried about you. Who are you with?'

I could hear the panic slowly decrease in her voice, but she was still panting with breath. I'm so stupid.

'I'm with Black Veil Brides. Well, I'm with them, but they're all asleep.' I said.

'Couldn't imagine why.' She said bluntly.

My head started spinning and I felt lighted headed, like I'd just downed a bottle of vodka. I found it hard t concentrate of what Jordan was saying and the words she was speaking soon started to become a visual mosaic in front of me. It was like she was speaking in a different language, and all I could do was predict what she was saying. That says a lot for what I do in my French lessons.

'Okay twin, I have to go now. I'm knackered and I really need to give my head a rest. I'll speak to you in the morning.'

Okay, Twin. It's good to know you're okay. I love you. But not in the lesbian kind of way, okay?'

I laughed. 'Okay, love you too.' I hung up and tucked my phone into the back pocket of my jeans which were lying untidily at the end of the bunk. I heard a slight thud and nearly crapped myself.

'Hey, I said go to sleep.'

'Calm down, CC, I'm going.' My hiss turned into a girlish giggle.

'Okay, I believe you. Goodnight.' He whispered.

'Goodnight.'

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