South Of Where Chapter 5: Follow your heart, a south of nowhere fanfic

Thank you so much for all the great reviews. Now I know I got something good out of all those English classes lol. Anyway here is some more…enjoy.

Spencer's POV

Another Monday…I hate it when weekends go by fast, but this time I was looking forward to Monday and my weekend seemed like it would never end. I wanted to get to school early today, I'm not sure why? I guess I just didn't want to wait for Glen anymore. He takes forever sometimes and we end up getting to school late. I don't really mind getting to school late but my brother Clay…all he does is whine. I just want to see Ashley. I want to talk to her, about nothing specific, just talk to her. I'm now in the middle of the court yard sitting at a table doodling on the cover of my note book.

"Hey gorgeous, how are you." I was surprised but happy at the same time. I turned and stood to greet Wade.

"Hey stud." We giggled as we give each other a warm hug.

"So what are you doing here so early this morning?" He asked

"I don't know I just felt like getting here early. Why are you here?" I wasn't the only one early.

"I had to make some flyers for GSA so I came early to use the computer and printers." I nodded my head. "So where have you been? You haven't been coming to the meetings?" he asked concerned.

"Yea I'm sorry about that. Cheerleading has gotten really intense and Madison well…" I trailed off.

"Is a bitch and would never approve of it." He finished.

"Exactly; you should have seen the way she talked to Ashley the other day. I wanted to just put her in her place and say something…I did but I just made her stop, I didn't tell her off or anything." I added

"Wait whose Ashley?" He asked very interested.

"Oh…umm she's just some girl Madison was bothering." I said trying to hide my smirk. Even talking about Ashley made me blush. I hardly know this girl and I'm obsessing over her like a little boy with a fifth grade crush.

"No she is not 'just some girl' if you say it with that kind of look on your face." He stated with a smile.

"What are you talking about? You're crazy." I said as I turned my face from him.

"Oh come on talk to me Spence, you know you can… Is she gay?" He said sincerely. Ugh how can I refuse to talk to him know. And now he's putting that flippin' puppy face on.

"Yea I know. And yes I think she is. Well at least that's what Madison was bothering her about. I don't know if it's a rumor or not, but I think she was flirting with me the other night." I said looking at him again.

"Really? Did you flirt back?" He asked.

"No why would I? I'm not…" I stopped. What if I am? I have felt like this sometimes back in Ohio, but I never had anyone to talk to about it so I would just let it go. I was just being stupid…or was I.

"Spencer? It's ok." He said sincerely taking one of my hands into his.

"But what if I am gay... I mean what would people think of me? And my mother, she would never allow it." I said sadly

"Look at me," I looked into his eyes, "I've been through a lot, and yea I was teased and beat up for being gay, but I got through it. And you know how…" he paused "Because of my friends and the people how still loved me for me, nothing more nothing less. Yea I've lost a lot, friends, my father, but I'm still alive. All you have in this world is your free will, and you should love who you will, don't let anyone tell you different or try to take that away from you." He brought me into a warm hug as some tears slowly escaped.

"Thank you Wade, you're a good friend." I pulled away whipping some tears.

"You're Welcome, Sweetie." He said with a warm smile.

"So what now?" I asked. I'm still a bit confused…a bit lost.

"Just do what feels right…go with the flow. Or do what I do." He suggests as he stands from the table.

"What's that?" I asked with a smile

"Follow your heart… I have to go I'm sorry, but call me if you ever need to talk." He said.

"Ok thanks I will. I'll talk to you later." He gave me a kiss on the cheek then walked off.

Maybe he is right; I should just follow my heart, but what if my heart has a bad scene of direction. Damn it why does this have to be so difficult. The first bell rings and takes me from my thoughts. I gather my things and I go to my English class room. Not many people are in the room yet, and the only one that's here that I talk to is Chelsea. I sit down next to her.

"Hey Spencer are you okay?" She asks with a concern look on her face.

"Yea I'm fine why?" I lied.

"I don't know it just looks like you've been crying." She was right I was, but I wasn't going to tell her that.

"Oh no I'm just tired. It's early; I'm not completely awake yet." I replied with a fake giggle.

"Alright." she said with a smile facing forward. I could tell she didn't believe.

I looked towards the door as our teacher walked in; followed by none other then Ashley. Our eyes looked and my stomach fluttered. I small smile covered my face but when one wasn't returned and her eyes lost mine, all the feeling I had left me. Something was wrong…but what. I need to talk to her. I'll stop her after class, if she'll let me.

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Ashley's POV

Monday, Monday, Monday…ugh this weekend was boring. We'll not Friday night but beside that it was boring. I can't wait to see Spencer, I've been thinking about her all weekend. She a lot different then I thought and for some reason or other she cares about me. That's a first; maybe I have a chance with her. As I'm walking to my locker I find Spencer in some guy's arms. WTF…who that the hell is that? I can't see anymore of this so I walk off back to my car.

"That tease, that fucking tease." I whisper harshly to myself. I get in my car and close the door as I put my key in the ignition, but I can't turn the car on. Something is stopping me. Why can't I be mad at her? I'm jealous as shit right now and I can't be mad at her. Damn it.

I get out of the car as I hear the bell ring. As I'm walking to class I spot my teacher in the hallway walking towards the class room as well. Once I walk into the room the first eyes mine find are Spencer's. She looks so cute…and now she's smiling. Shit look away, your pissed remember. I sit without looking at her. Ahhh I hate myself.

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Spencer's POV

Finally class is over. I see Ashley leave the class room and I quickly run after her.

"Ashley wait up." I yell but she continues to walk. "Hey…" I grab her arm and turn her around.

"What…What do you want?" She asks. I can't tell if she's mad, or sad, maybe a little of both. What ever it is I know she is upset.

"Are you okay?" I ask…I know I'm not going to get an answer.

"Yea, just peachy." She said not very convincingly.

"Oh come on don't make me force it out of you again." I giggle and I spot a small smile that she quickly hides again.

"What do you want Spencer?" She says coldly.

"I just wanted to talk to you, maybe eat lunch later…I don't know hang out?" I ask. Please say yes, please.

"Why?" Wow I think I got frost bite from that one.

"You know sooner or later your going to open up to me." I said with a devilish smile.

"Oh really…" She replied finally releasing a small smile.

"See I'm breaking through." I said pointing at her smile, but then it faded.

"Wouldn't you rather want to hang out with your boyfriend?" She became sad again. Is that why she's upset; because she thinks I have a boy friend. Is she jealous? Wait does that mean she likes me?

"I don't have a boyfriend. What made you think I did?" I asked

"I don't know? I just figured a girl like you would." She said avoiding my eyes. Good because she didn't see me blush.

"Ash…" She looked into my eyes again.

"What?" She looked upset again and turned her eyes.

"Why do you do that?" I ask. I hate seeing her so sad.

"Do what?" She said confused.

"Why do you close up so fast?" Please say something. She took a deep breath before she finally spoke.

"I've just like to keep things to myself. I've been hurt a lot and that's just how I deal with it." She stopped talking again.

"So now what you close off before anyone else can get in, so you don't get hurt again." Oops I think I was to blunt. I shouldn't have said that. Crap she defiantly looks mad now.

"I don't have to talk to you." She began to walk off and again I followed.

"Ashley wait, I'm sorry. I shouldn't have said that." Damn she walks fast.

"You're right. You don't know anything about me." She yelled.

"That's because you won't let me." Ok I'm getting a little pissed now. All I want is to get to know this girl better and she won't let me. Ugh this is so frustrating. She stops and turns and I continue to walk and stop in front of her. I hear a voice but it's not mine or Ashley's.

"Spencer what are you doing, talking to this freak." Oh great it's Madison and some of the other girls on the squad.

"Madison cut it out." I say annoyed

"Spencer if I would have known you were gay I would have never let you try out for the team. We can't have a lesbian checking us out while we are getting changed." She says as the others laughed.

"Madison get over yourself. Who would want to look at you? You're nasty." Ashley defends me.

"Was I talking to you? I would never stoop so low." She snorted

"Hmmm the dirt on your knees says you would get even lower." Ashley got her good I couldn't help but laugh.

"You're on thin ice Spencer." She narrowed her eyes at me

"Madison I'm done with you and the team. How are you to judge anyone? I don't like to judge anyone but if I had to, I'd say you're just a nasty person with a cold heart. And I don't want anything to do with you anymore." I'm going to get my ass kick by someone today…shit. Madison clenched her teeth and took a deep breath before she answered.

"You're going to regret this. Be careful who your friends with Spencer." She said as she stormed off followed by her crowed.

Ashley and I stood silent for a while before she spoke.

"Why did you do that?" She asked

"They were pissing me off and I don't like them all that much anymore." I said honestly. Cheerleading lost my interests. The only thing I am interested in now is Ashley.

"No, why would you choose me over them. You're going to get so much hell now because of it." She said sincerely.

"I know, but hey you look like you need a friend and I defiantly need some new ones so what do you say? Friends?" I ask and extend my hand.

"You're so corny, but okay friends." She takes my hand and with a big smile shakes it. "Umm so since your afternoon just opened up, I'll be at Grey's tonight, it would mean a lot if you came." She asks

"Sure sounds like a plan." I reply

"Perfect so I'll see you at seven." She walks off as the bell rings. Did she just ask me out? The bell rang. Shit I'm late…and I have a date…yey.

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Ashley's POV

Class ended and I got out of the room as fast as I could.

"Ashley wait up." Spencer yelled after me but it only made me walk faster. "Hey…" She grab my arm and turned me around.

"What…What do you want?" I'm really not in the mood to talk to her

"Are you okay?" She asks sweetly. Do I look okay to you?

"Yea, just peachy." Of course I'm not going to tell her what's wrong. I saw her in some guy's arms and it broke my heart.

"Oh come on don't make me force it out of you again." Ugh why does she have to be so cute…No don't smile. Be cold Ash…

"What do you want Spencer?" I said as cold as I could.

"I just wanted to talk to you, maybe eat lunch later…I don't know hang out?" She asks. Wait she wants to hang out with me. Sweet…NO you're mad damn it. Be cold.

"Why?" I'm such a bitch.

"You know sooner or later your going to open up to me." She said with the cutes smile.

"Oh really…"I can't help it and I show a little smile.

"See I'm breaking through." She says pointing at my smile. I want her to always make me smile…but she has a boyfriend.

"Wouldn't you rather want to hang out with your boyfriend?" I hate being jealous. It sucks.

"I don't have a boyfriend. What made you think I did?" You don't. Then who's that guy? Wait I can't ask that. She is going to think I'm spying on her or something.

"I don't know? I just figured a girl like you would." Very smooth, but I look away because if I look at her she'll see me blush.

"Ash…" She says sweetly so I look into her eyes

"What?" I say and turn away again.

"Why do you do that?" She asks. What did I do?

"Do what?" I'm confused.

"Why do you close up so fast?" Oh that…she not going to let me get away with saying nothing so I might as well. I take a deep breath before I continue.

"I've just like to keep things to myself. I've been hurt a lot and that's just how I deal with it." Okay I'm not going to get into anything else.

"So now what you close off before anyone else can get in, so you don't get hurt again." I do not. Do I. She doesn't even know what I've been through.

"I don't have to talk to you." I storm off. She shouldn't have said that. Please stop following me

"Ashley wait, I'm sorry. I shouldn't have said that." Damn right you shouldn't.

"You're right. You don't know anything about me." I yelled.

"That's because you won't let me." I stop. I know she's right. She doesn't deserve the way I'm treating her. I'm such a bitch. Oh no, speaking of bitch.

"Spencer what are you doing, talking to this freak." Oh great it's Madison and her posy.

"Madison cut it out." Spencer demanded

"Spencer if I would have known you were gay I would have never let you try out for the team. We can't have a lesbian checking us out while we are getting changed." Madison said as the others laughed at Spencer. No way is she getting away with that.

"Madison get over yourself. Who would want to look at you? You're nasty." I'm so good.

"Was I talking to you? I would never stoop so low." She snorted. That's all she's got?

"Hmmm the dirt on your knees says you would get even lower." I got her good. I ever made Spencer laugh.

"You're on thin ice Spencer." She narrowed her eyes at Spencer.

"You're going to regret this. Be careful who your friends with Spencer." She said as she stormed off followed by her minions.

Spencer and I stood silent for a while before I spoke.

"Why did you do that?" I ask. Why would she give up Cheerleading like that?

"They were pissing me off and I don't like them all that much anymore." She said.

"No, why would you choose me over them. You're going to get so much hell now because of it." I feel bad now if she gave up being on the squad for me. She must of worked hard for it.

"I know, but hey you look like you need a friend and I defiantly need some new ones so what do you say? Friends?" She really must want to be my friend. She's so cute. She hasn't run away from me yet like everyone else. Why the hell not.

"You're so corny, but okay friends." She takes my hand and with a big smile shakes it. I feel like my body is on fire "Umm so since your afternoon just opened up, I'll be at Grey's tonight, it would mean a lot if you came." I'm playing at the open mic tonight. I want her to hear me sing and play my guitar. I want to surprise her.

"Sure sounds like a plan." She replied. Sweet she said yes.

"Perfect so I'll see you at seven." I walk off as the bell rings. I can't wait. Shit this is going to be a long day.

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