Hell On the Heart

And all I got is a big broken heart and memories I can't drink away.
Just because the man I was wasn't enough to make you stay.
The heaven we had, the hell that I'm going through, other than that, there ain't much left of loving you.

-Randy Montana

Part XIV

For one day it was silent. Her head, the house, it was all silent, giving her room to breathe. When she had woken up the next day she felt lighter, as though a weight had been pushed off her shoulders. Her mind for whatever was clear, not dwelling on details about her breakup, her subconscious avoiding it altogether. She had gone to find some company to share her enlightenedness with but only found a note on the kitchen counter saying her father, the boys, and Zach would be gone all day because they went on a fishing trip.

She was only slightly relieved, pleased to find she had the house to herself, but was saddened by that fact that she'd been itching to speak with Zach. Only to see if he'd change his mind after she'd broken up with him. She wanted everything to be less stressful, and according to her newfound happiness, her relationship with Taylor had been quite stressful. Most likely because she was cheating on him and she felt enormously guilty.

But the day was short lived, as she had wasted the day away watching cartoons and Jersey Shore, endless TV to keep her mind from wandering from its peaceful abyss.

So when she heard the front door slam and the overly happy voices of her fathers and brothers, and Zach's deep laughed she was surprised that so much time had gone by. She was in her comfiest, softest sweatshirt that had once been her mothers and a pair of shorts despite the fact that it was the middle of winter.

"Oh hi," she said, as she went to greet the boys in the kitchen.

"Hey Cams," Ashton and Calvin greeted simultaneously.

Zach gave her a nod but nothing else and something was itching to talk to him.

"How was the fishing trip?" she asked.

"Great," Ashton replied. "We caught loads, dads putting them in the freezer in the garage."

Cammie nodded and smiled.

"Zach?' she said, feeling like she hadn't directly addressed him since they'd been here. He met her gaze for a moment, looking surprised to have been spoken to.

"Huh?"

She was going to ask him to talk but she knew her brothers might suspect something.

"Did you have fun?" she asked a harmless question.

He looked confused but answered anyway. "Um, Yeah."

She smiled. "Good."

It turned out she didn't have to ask for time alone with Zach because before she knew it her brothers had excused themselves.

He turned to go, muttering something under his breath.

"Zach," she called. "Wait."

He turned, his shoulders were tense.

"Yes?"

She took a deep breath. "I broke up with Taylor."

For a moment something lit up in his eyes before walls went up and she couldn't read him.

"Ok. . ."

She was disappointed, she didn't know what to expect he'd say but she didn't think it would be this.

"If you wondering," she said, taking a chance and throwing her heart out to him. "I did it because of you."

He looked surprised, as if he hadn't expected her to admit that.

"Me?"

She nodded. "I think I'm in love with you," it was blunt, but she didn't want any tricks.

This time he didn't say anything, staring at her, making even more anxiety creep up her spine. "You broke up with him." It didn't sound like a question but she nodded anyway.

"For me."

She nodded again.

He gave her a smirk, one that made her heart race but also made her want to hit him.

"I'll see you later."

Her eyes went wide. "Zach—"

But he was already gone, stomping up the stairs.

She would have gone after him but her father entered through the backdoor.

She smiled. "Hi daddy."

"Hey sweetheart."

"How was the trip?"

He grinned. "Great."

She smiled to herself, but sincerely happy that her father seemed to be overjoyed. But the knots in her stomach about her doubted relation hip with Zach was making her nervous.

"Are you okay?" he asked.

"I'm staying here right?" she asked. "Not going back to Huntington."

He gave her a weird look, "if you really want to go back I'm not going to stop you."

She shook her head. "No, I'm good here. I was just checking."

And... it's slowly coming to an end... Mwhhahaa