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Castle walked into the 12th precinct carrying his signature two cups of coffee and a bearclaw for Beckett. He smiled when he got to her desk, thinking about the events of the previous night. She felt right in his arms despite the fact that Josh hadn't been far away. Maybe he should try and tell her how he felt. This cat and mouse game they'd been playing had been going on long enough.
The elevator signalled her arrival and Castle looked up, beaming at her infectious smile. It soon fell when he realised it wasn't him she was smiling at. Josh got off the elevator with her and was holding her hand. But she hated PDA, especially at the station! Castle thought to himself. Her giggle yes giggle, rang out through the station. Josh then leaned in to kiss her. She kissed him back, hard. Oh great, post-coital glow thought Castle to himself. So much for telling her how I feel she's clearly been feeling something else!
Beckett and Josh approached her desk.
"Hey Castle." Beckett said enthusiastically.
"Hey..." he said flatly.
"Oh Rick I just wanted to apologise for overreacting yesterday. I appreciate your help for last night." Josh beamed at him and held out his hand. Castle took it reluctantly but shook nonetheless. It wasn't his fault he was in love with Kate too. Who wouldn't be?
"You're welcome." He was sincere.
"Well ok sweetie I've got to get to the hospital. See you tonight?"
"Sure." Beckett seemed to have slept with a coat hanger in her mouth the way her smile was still radiating out as she gave Josh one more kiss goodbye.
Castle waited for Josh to disappear before saying, "You're getting all cozy with motorcycle boy!" He spat as if the words tasted bad on his tongue.
"Well what do you expect Castle he's my boyfriend" She folded her arm and raised her eyebrows, slightly shocked at his accusation
"Hmm, yeah so it seems." He muttered.
"What's that supposed to mean? And what does it have to do with you anyway? You know what I think? I think you're jealous?" She taunted him, the wave of anger that he'd provoked, threatening to envelope her completely.
"Why should I be jealous? You wanted me last night when you asked me to stay."
Kate froze. Her eyes wide with fear. Damn him for bringing that up! Castle got cocky when he realised she wasn't going to argue straight away.
"You didn't want anyone but me to hold you. You snuggled into my neck." He was dangerously close to her face now. She could feel his hot breath on her cheek. Her breathing became ragged, coming out in short bursts as he invaded her personal space further. His eyes darted to her lips, and she made the mistake of looking down at his lips. She was sure he was going to kiss her and she closed her eyes in anticipation. Castle smirked and chuckled slightly, realizing how much of an effect he'd had on her. This broke the spell and Kate pulled back as if he'd burnt her. When Castle looked at her now he could see she'd put up her walls well and truly now.
"Don't flatter yourself Castle I thought you were Josh. Why would I ever want you?" It was spiteful and she knew it. She could see the pain those words had caused and she was instantly sorry for them; she certainly hadn't meant them. But before she could react Castle dejectedly walked away, taking his jacket with him.
"Where...where are you going?"
"Home. I won't stand in your way anymore."
"Stand in my way? Castle what do you mean? Come back. I'm sorry, I didn't mean what I said..."
"It's ok Kate. I understand. Good...goodbye."
She watched as his crestfallen form disappeared from sight. Her feet were glued to the floor. She desperately wanted to run after him and take back what she'd said. She could feel Esposito and Ryan's eyes on her back. She turned to look at them, her eyes watering ever so slightly.
"Haven't you got work to do?"
The boys lifted their hands in the air, in an act of surrender. They weren't prepared to provoke her wrath any further.
Kate sat down in her chair heavily and fiddled with her Mother's ring. What have I done?
Castle came crashing through his front door and straight into his study. He hoped nobody was home as he sure as hell didn't want to talk to anyone. The tears had started well before he made it to his chair. Kate's words just kept running over and over in his head like a bad movie; taunting him. Why would I ever want you? Why indeed? Because I love you more than life itself? Because I'd gladly give my life for you? He pondered to himself. Castle ran his hands over his face in an effort to erase the pain that was etched all over it. This only made him cry harder. Why did he have to fall in love with Kate Beckett? The only woman he'd truly loved in his whole adult life, and she turned out to be crazy for someone else, and only saw him as a joke. Someone that she had to put up with. There had been times when he was so sure that she'd felt the same. Obviously he'd been wrong and he'd been punished for it. He laughed ironically to himself as the tears continued to fall. Katherine Beckett I gave you my heart and you just broke it. It was the last coherent thought he had before crying himself to sleep on his desk.
Dun, dun, duuuun. A little depressing this chapter I feel but it had to be done. For those of you that are worrying about this happy ending, don't worry, Josh will be out the door very soon!
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