Chapter 9

Dreams and Nightmares

Barriss POV

When Rex left the room, I decided to confront Cody about the conversation I overheard between him and Rex.

"Cody? Um… I wanted to tell you that I overheard that conversation with you and Rex."

Cody just stared at me for a couple seconds then answered. "So did you hear the… entire conversation?"

"Yeah… I did. Including the part about you calling me…" I trailed off, allowing Cody to finish the sentence.

"Beautiful."

"Yeah. So um… Cody? Do you like me? As in a lot?" I suddenly blurted out. I then cursed myself for my loud mouth.

Cody looked taken aback by my question. "If I answer that, will you make sure your opinion of me never changes?"

I nodded and waited for his answer.

"Yes, Barriss. I do like you. And I know that the Jedi Code says that you can't have attachments, but I just want you to know that if you would give me a chance I'm positive that I could love you and treat you better than anyone's ever treated y- why are you crying?"

I hadn't realized that I was crying until Cody pointed it out.

"I guess I'm crying because no one has ever spoken to me like this. I mean you're just letting everything out and-" I started sobbing.

Cody climbed onto the bed with me and wrapped his arms around me. I stopped crying, looked up at him and turned a dark shade of green.

Lately my feelings for Cody had been changing from a friendly sort of way to something more. I had planned to talk with Ahsoka about it but I hadn't seen her for about two weeks now. But I guess it was now or never that I had to tell Cody about my feelings.

"Cody… there's something I need to tell you," I admitted. "I love you, Cody."

For a minute, Cody just stared at me. He probably hadn't expected me to return his feelings. I could guess why, considering the fact that I always seem to follow the rules.

But before I had time to say anything else, he was kissing me.

I had never been kissed before, much less kissed like this. But I knew immediately that I liked it. I put more pressure on his lips and started to open my mouth, as he was doing. When our tongues started to come out, we wrestled a little, in which he won. So his tongue explored my mouth, while I savored the taste of him.

We separated after about two minutes gasping for air. Then Cody started laying kisses all around my upper body, in which I'm sure I must've moaned a few times because Cody didn't stop for a few minutes. After awhile though I knew I wanted more than this, so I started to remove Cody's upper body armor. When it was all gone, Cody rolled on top of me and pressed all of his body weight down on me, our chests pressed together. I liked the feel of it.

"Barriss? Is it possible for a human to get a mirialan pregnant?" Cody asked suddenly.

I thought about it for a second then realized what he was implying.

"It's very hard to, but yeah, it's possible."

"Then do you wanna find out how hard it is?" Cody asked, his voice sounding very seductive.

I replied, "Heck, yes."

That's when we started to take off the rest of our clothes.

Lux POV

I woke up to the sound of screaming. I looked down to my arms and found Ahsoka yelling and crying. At that moment I was glad the walls in the room were soundproof.

"Ahsoka! Ahsoka!" I yelled, trying to calm her down. "It's alright! Lux is here! Lux is here!"

"Lux?" Ahsoka repeated, sounding like a small child who had just awoken from a nightmare. Which I was sure half of that was true.

When Ahsoka's eyes met mine, she immediately threw herself at me and kissed me desperately.

"Ahsoka? Is there something you want to talk about?" I said against her lips.

Ahsoka separated from me and went over to the bed and sat down over there. "Lux, I want to get married." Her voice cracked on the last word and she exploded into sobs.

I went and sat down by her and asked, "I thought we were already getting married, sweetie."

"I know but… I want to get married as soon as we get done with this mission," Ahsoka said through her tears.

"Why?" I asked, curious as to why she wanted to rush this.

"Lux, I've been having dreams about you rescuing me from some kind of threat, but then you always seem to get killed by someone else." I could tell that Ahsoka wasn't kidding about this. And judging by the look on her face, these dreams must be pretty gruesome to make her cry like this.

"And Anakin has been having dreams like mine where the ones that he loves are being killed and… I look up to my master and all but I don't want to end up like him… and losing the one person you love most in the world." Ahsoka looked about ready to throw up at this point.

"What do you mean, Ahsoka? I mean Padme is still alive isn't she?" I asked. Ahsoka had already told me about Anakin and Padme's relationship.

"I know but a few months after I became Anakin's padawan we had to visit Tatooine again and we came across some Tusken Raider ruins and Anakin started to tear up a little so I asked him why. That's when he told me that his mother, whom he had loved more than Padme at the time, had died there, only a few meters away from where we stood." That's when Ahsoka just completely lost it and cried harder than I had ever seen her cry.

At that moment, I took her in my arms and kissed her more passionately than I had ever kissed her, even more than last night. She kissed me back and fell on top of me. I decided to separate and talk again.

"Ahsoka, I'm right here whole and healthy so I don't think I'm in danger of dying."

"I know that! The nightmares that I have take place in the future and I want to be married to you if…" Ahsoka didn't finish the sentence, but I already knew what she was suggesting.

"Okay. How about this? If we complete this mission successfully and manage to get back to Coruscant in one piece, we'll have a real wedding, okay? With dresses and suits and flowers. We can also have a priest and bridesmaids and groomsmen. Does that make you happy?" I told her, meaning every word I just said because truth be told, I wanted all that stuff. I wanted to experience things that normal people experience through their lives, people that didn't have to deal with a war.

My promise seemed to cheer her up a little. "You mean that?" she asked, still sniffling a little from earlier.

"Yeah, I sure do. Now come on! You promised my brother we would go to the ball and you don't ever want to let down my brother!"

Ahsoka then smiled and said," Okay, but how about a shower first."

It took me a moment to understand what she wanted but then I grinned and said," Whatever you say Ms. Tano."