Chapter 13
A Disturbance
Ahsoka POV
"Lux! You promised!" I yelled, still struggling against everyone. I still hadn't stopped fighting and struggling and pretty soon it had become apparent that it would take everybody to hold me down.
"You promised! You promised!" I yelled over and over again. I was about to yell it again, but then I saw Lux getting shot by the droids. I screamed and watched as Lux fell to the ground and the droids collected his body.
"LUX! I loved you!" I screamed and I collapsed into sobs. I knew that nothing could comfort me at that point, not even Anakin, my brother. The only person I had ever felt this way about was dead. I passed out and let everyone take me back to the Resolute.
I didn't care if the Council found out that I had an attachment. I didn't care if I was expelled. I just didn't care. I didn't care anymore.
I felt nothing.
Anakin POV
When Ahsoka screamed," LUX! I loved you!" I felt a disturbance in the Force. It was the biggest one I had ever experienced and at that moment I could feel everything that Ahsoka felt, but what I felt was a shock. I felt nothing in Ahsoka. No sadness, no sorrow, no anger. Just nothing.
I now knew exactly how much Lux had meant to Ahsoka.
But if I knew then that meant that all of the Jedi in the Order knew about this. And if the entire order knows then the Council knows. And if they know then Ahsoka was in trouble.
Barriss POV
Cody and I were resting a little after earlier today, when I felt a huge disturbance.
LUX! I loved you! I realized it was Ahsoka who caused it when I heard that. She had never told me about Lux consciously, but I had heard her in her sleep about a month ago.
I immediately felt what my best friend was feeling, which was nothing at all. I almost passed out because if she wasn't feeling anything then that always meant that she was suffering from depression. She wanted to end her own life.
I burst into tears and Cody woke up. "Barriss, what's wrong?" he asked. I didn't respond so he wrapped his arms around me.
That night, I cried myself to sleep.
Obi-Wan POV
I was watching over my favorite person, Satine, when I felt a disturbance. I realized it was Ahsoka and wondered what could make her cause a ripple like this when I heard it.
LUX! I loved you!
I immediately sat down on Satine's couch and looked at me. "Obi, what's wrong?"
I looked over at her and said," It's Anakin's padawan, Ahsoka. Remember, her?"
She brightened up immediately. "Oh, yes! The Togruta girl who saved Mandalore from corruption. What's wrong?"
"She's formed an attachment… and the person she'd formed it with… just died," I said, knowing what losing someone felt like.
Satine's mood quickly changed. "That's sounds dreadful. I know what losing someone feels like… well, almost losing someone," she added.
I looked up. "What do you mean?"
My friend eyed me. "Remember when you were fighting Pre Vizla at Death Watch's base. I almost… lost you and… well, I…" she started crying and I scooted closer to her.
"It's alright, Satine," I said, wrapping my arms around her. She looked up at me. I realized that this was the first time I had ever hugged her.
Satine leaned closer to me and she placed her lips on mine. When she did this, I felt like I could just melt like ice on Tatooine. Unfortunately, she separated from me and looked sheepish. "I'm sorry, Obi. I shouldn't have done that. It's against the Jedi Code to form attachments."
She got up and went to her balcony. I stood up and followed her. "Satine, don't be sorry. I actually wanted to tell you something," I said, when I had reached her. She looked at and waited for my statement. "Satine, I love you." I leaned forward and kissed her gently.
I felt her smile against my lips and we separated. "I love you, too."
Shaak-Ti POV
The Council was in session when we felt the disturbance. The only person absent was Kenobi, but we knew he had felt it.
"Who or what has caused this disturbance?" asked Windu. I immediately knew it to be Ahsoka Tano. I could feel her emotions and thoughts. What scared me about this was that I could feel something, but I felt nothing at the same time.
LUX! I loved you!
I immediately stood up. All eyes turned to me. I said, "I believe that Padawan Tano caused this disturbance. She just lost someone that she had an attachment to…" I trailed off, wondering why no one else was feeling this. It was pretty obvious that she was the one who caused the ripple in the Force.
"Feel the disturbance, we do. Fell that Tano caused it, we do not. A special bond with Tano, you have," Yoda said. I felt confusion at this. How could we have a bond? We barely saw each other, aside from Council meetings and the occasional spar.
"You're confused. I think that you and Tano have the bond because you're some of the only Togrutas in the Temple," Windu said. That kind of made sense. "Since you can feel her, tell us what she feels."
I felt hesitant about revealing how she felt, but I knew that I had to obey the Council. "She feels… nothing," I said. "The loss of the boy, Lux Bonteri, made her like this. She's fallen into a depression."
As soon as I said that, all hell broke loose. Pretty soon, everyone in there was shouting and giving their opinions.
"She should be expelled from the Order!"
"No, she should only be punished! She's just a teenager!"
"Yes, but that means that she should've known better!"
"Teenagers feel like this all the time!"
"But Jedi shouldn't!"
"Silence!" Windu's voice was far louder than anyone's and the room got quiet pretty quickly. "Shaak-Ti, what are your thoughts on the matter?"
I stood frozen in place, like a padawan being given their first mission, the Council waiting to see how they react. "I agree with some of the Masters that she broke the Jedi Code, but she's only a teenager. They always feel this way when they reach this point in time." I saw a mixture of confused, angry, or understanding faces in the room. "I mean, didn't we all feel this way about someone when we were this old? We all do if we're Jedi or not," I concluded and sat down, glad to be out of the spotlight.
All eyes turned to Windu and Yoda, who were having a silent conversation. We sat in silence until those two were done and Windu said," We've decided to let Tano stay in the Order, but not without punishment from the Council." I saw that Plo Koon, Aayla, Fisto, Ki-Adi and maybe Luminara were happy. Kenobi would be happy. I was happy. Unfortunately, the rest of the Council wasn't exactly as excited about this as we were.
Before the other Masters could say anything else, Windu stood and said," Council adjourned."