Complications
Chapter Fourteen
An Agonizing Purpose
Professor Snape was actually nice to me last night which compared to how he's been treating me lately is almost a mericle but I guess I'm just glad he's not avoiding me any more. He liked his Christmas gift and he got me a solid gold jewelry box. Wow! I wonder how much that cost especially on a potions master's pay I wonder why he did that I'll have to ask him at some point. Hmmm. I can't wait until I turn sixteen! But until then I guess I just shouldn't think a whole lot about it. I sighed as I thought I should get ready for school. There was the normal cup of coffee on my bed side table and that's what I drank as I was getting ready.
I then went down to breakfast and again when professor snape walked in he walked past me down the center ill and you could tell he groomed this mourning and it actually looked like he had tried to polish the hair tie. Well at least I know he likes it I guess but I still couldn't help from giggling behind my coffee mug. Once I was done with my coffee I went to my first period potions class and waited for him to get there and as I was waiting I was reading a book. Which ever since he stopped ignoring me I don't feel almost ADD any more so I could actuality concentrate on the plot of the story. When the rest of the class started to fill in and Severus walked in the not ADD thing seemed to stop and it was a good thing that I already had my quill charmed to write notes because I couldn't help but ogle him for the entire class and I think I may have been drooling! That's how bad it was! and I wasn't even listening at all! All I saw was a hot man standing in front of me and my eyes seemed almost glued to him and before I knew it the bell rang for class to end. Thank goodness it finally startled me out of my 'ogling ' enough to get my stuff together and go to my next class.
Well that was realy weird now that I think about it but oh well! As I was going over my notes after classes to check if we got any home work I had to re-read something to make sure I got it right but sure enough I had detention with snape tonight in his office for not paying attention. I never get detention! I looked at the clock and it was like five minuets until it started and I personaly think being late would have thrown my body into even more shock then getting detention would. So I had to hurry and run down to the dungeons and because of the fucking moving stair cases I ended up being 10 whole minuets late stupid damn stair cases.
I stoped runing right out side of Proffesore Snapes class room door and calmed my breathing then lightly knocked. I heard Severus's elegant and silky voice say. "Come in." I opened the door to folow the comand and as soon as I closed the door behind me I herd his voice come out of the door at the front of the class next to his desk say. "Your ten minuts late." He then came out of the back room and raised an eyebrow at me and I went to defend myself with "I'm sorry.I was looking over my notes and realized I had detention and it was alreaedy five minutes till time to start then I-" "Stop! It dosen't matter. Quite making excuses for your actions. Please come in." This time the 'Come in' wasn't a comand. It was a request and he put his arm out inviting me into his back room and symply to seem polite I did as requested and went in to the other room before Severus folowed.
He offered for me to sit in a large leather wing backed chair and I did. The room was decerated in mostly black like the walls and the chairs and couches and wood furniture was all black. It looked like a living room only with a fire place where a T.V. would have normaly set The walls were outlined in silver and there were randome green objects around like snake statues and things like that. It made it look very inpersonal but also very elegant at the same time Proffespre Snape sat down in the chair infront of me and there was a small coffee table between us. Once he sat down he spoke. "Would you like green or black tea?" I noded and said. "Green please?" He knoded back and left the room in a door behind me.
I started looking in the direction he disepeared and I saw a very large book case as tall as two of me staked and about 20 -25 of me standing side by side in his livingroom. Amazing! I just had to get up and see what books he had. I saw some fimilure ones from Diagon ally and the couple of times I went to the library and symply just loked around. Some I had read from the library. They were all diferant shapes and sizes most of them were about either dark arts or potions but concidering he is a potions master it does make sence.
He came back whith the tea and raised an eyebrow at me when he saw I was standing infront of his book case I gave an awkward apologetic smile and sat back down where I was before. As he gave me my tea cup and set the pot on the coffee table. It was silent for a moment as he took a sip of his tea then he spoke again. "I apologise for the potion I sliped into your coffee this mourning. I needed an excuse for giving you detention and that's what I thought of for the moment." So it was him that made that happen on purpose well good I was starting to think there was something wrong whith me today and this detention is just a decoy for something well that's good too so the only bad thing that realy happened today was that I was late for this little meeting.
Before I could think any further Severus started talking again." Dumbledore said that I should make sure that before we get into any thing serius you should know what your getting yourself into and for once I actualy agree whith the old coot. So here goes becouse I'm a teacher and your a minor if we do get into a relatioinship seriusly we couldn't tell any one until your sixteenth birthday so that as my place as the adult I could go to jail and lose my job and there are things in my past that the minestry would find and bring back up that wouldn't be good at all at the moment and yes your elevan and i'm 34 so there's quite a bit of age gap and for the moment until I'm sure your my mate I don't think I shopuld say much else. So what do you say yea or nay?" I sat quietly for a moment shoked with Proffesore Snape stairing at me expectantly but soon he sunk back in his chair as he seemed to think that I would say no but I barley noticed as I was thinking.
That I can't lie. I couldn't belive that he was asking me to lie to hundreds of people and out of those hundreds there's one that I couldn't lie to if my life depended on it. Amio he can tell when I'm lieing just by the sound of my voice and even if it wasn't Amio you'd still probably be able to tell I'm a realy bad lier! realy bad! realy realy realy bad! And if I some how did manage to pull it off some how it just wouldn't feel right and I would probably end up cracking and he'd know any ways. So either way it's not good for me to try and lie at all.
He waited for me to say something for a while and when I just kept stairing off into space he said. "If the answer's no-" I gave him a look that he was crazy and cut him off. "No I would say yes it's just it-it-it's complicated." He looked down at the ground for a moment before repling while he was fidling whith the hem of his shirt. "Well if you need time to think about it I guess we could meet in the kitchens at seven on friday?" I knoded and left to the old junk room I found on my first day here. It was a quiet place that I could esily think in. I flopped down and just thought for a while.