Complications

Chapter Seventeen

Don't Leave

As usual I woke up drank coffee and went down to breakfast but the funny thing was that Severus didn't come into breakfast at all. So I figured that he probably slept late or something nothing to be worried about but after breakfast I went down to the classroom as usual and the door was locked. Their was a note tacked to the door written in Severus's smooth script:

Dear Class

I didn't feel well this mourning and the

headmaster didn't have a substitute so

class is dismissed

your potions professor

S. Snape

I just stood there for a moment shocked. My mind running wild now I didn't feel well what if it was something realy bad what if... Now Tristan don't panic it could easily be the ... the... maybe a minor reaction to a potion or something probably nothing big right right so I'll... I'll check his rooms. Yes! That's what I'll do I'll check his rooms. I instantly found myself running to his rooms as fast as possible which that speed actually surprised me but right now I can't think about that I have to concentrate on Severus and if he is sick I'll take classes off today to take care of him whether he likes it or not. When I got to his rooms I spoke the password to the snake painting but instead of opening the snake slithered out of the painting and something that looked like a giant piece of parchment appeared on the painting and it had a note on it specifically written to me this time and again it was written in the familiar spidery smooth script:

Dear Tristan

I'm not here at the moment and I won't

be able to meet you tonight so don't

wait up.

Your mate

Severus

I frowned at that confused and now worried Ok that's an understatement I was panicked out of my mind. I mean if Severus wasn't in his rooms then that meant that what ever he didn't feel well from was something much more serious than I tried to make myself believe but how serious? I didn't know. So as you've probably already guessed I dashed to the infirmary possibly even faster than before just hoping it wasn't something bad enough to get him emitted into the hospital. I burst through the doors of the infirmary like I owned the place which seemed to be very similar to a worried sub looking for his Dom. I checked all the beds behind curtains and in all of the private rooms. No Severus was found. As I was checking the last empty room I turned around and noticed the nurse standing there looking as if she was furious with me but when I saw her I realized that Severus wasn't here and I didn't know where else he could be.

I could feel my expression shifting from worried determination to just plain worried and I saw madame Pomfre's expression softened at the look on my face. I of course couldn't see it but from looking at her I could tell it was pitiful I was the first to move or speak the only thing now keeping my bodie running was the need to know where Severus was. I closed the door to the private room I had just checked turned and faced madame Pomfre and with a dangerously calm and hallow voice I asked. "Where's Severus?" She gave a sympathetic look and said. "I can't tell you." At that I got pissed and depressed at the same time and she seemed to realize that because she backtracked and said. "I was told you'd be here so I know why but I was told specifically by him and the headmaster not to tell you." Then I was just depressed it can't realy be that bad can it? I mean it's just a reaction right? Then madame Pomfre spoke again. "I can tell you that he's not in this castle and he's fine so stop worrying before you end up in my office again with an ulcer." We smiled sadly at each other then she opened the door for me and I left but I stopped just feet away from the door.

Shell shocked I still had no idea where he was so I did the only thing that made sense at the moment I practically stripped the castle of every thing. I found hundreds of trap doors and deserted hallways and little odd rooms but no Severus. I was beginning to think that the nurse was right maybe he wasn't in the castle so again I had to do the only thing that seemed logical at the moment. I went back to his rooms and I used an overdose password that Severus taught me encase I ever needed to get in and the guardian wasn't there. First I think the nurse was right I actually might get an ulcer because after getting sick five times franticly searching the apartment twice and sitting and simply twitching for who knows how long.

Severus finally came in from the flue at 2 am his pure black cloak and robes torn with crusted and running blood down every corner. He had scraps bruises and every thing he almost didn't look human he didn't seem to notice I was there at first. He went into the bathroom for a couple of minuets and when he came out he was wearing his black sleep robes and it didn't look as if he had been hurt at all but I still couldn't get that haunting image out of my head. Then I was startled by his voice as he said. "Oh Tristan I didn't realize you were their exactly how long have you been there?" He looked almost horrified by what I could have seen. I looked at the clock and replied. "Ever since about ten or eleven this mourning." He frowned. "You've been waiting for me to get home?" I nodded as he continued "I thought I told you not to wait up. Not to worry I'd be fine?" I frowned right back at him personally thinking if he was crazy as I replied in a deafly calm voice. "I wake up and your not here you didn't feel well this mourning so class is dismissed. I thought I would take care of you because obviously if it's bad enough for you to dismiss class you might need help. Then you weren't in your room and not in the infirmary I nearly drove myself crazy stripping the castle looking for you trying to do something so that I didn't think about what could have happened. Then I knew I couldn't go back to class because now I didn't feel to good either. I came back here and I couldn't keep my mind on a book or anything. All I could think about was that you could be in a ditch somewhere dead and I would never know." i paused for a moment

You seem to be forgetting a very large thing Severus I am a sub get that through your skull I am a sub." After that my voice started to get louder and louder. "A sub that has a missing Dom who tells him what not to worry? Of course I'm going to worry." By that point I was yelling at the top of my lungs. "Of course I'm going to worry an idiot could figure that out and don't tell me you've never herd of the subs that ended up in similar situations they went crazy because all they could think about is where are they what happened and they can't do anything about it." I fell to my knees because my legs wouldn't hold my slight wight they were trembling so much. Tears started to blur my vision and track down my faced. "And I now understand why they went crazy because it's true no matter how hard you try your instincts will not let you take your mind off the fact that you have no idea where a potential mate might be you could be dead for all I know and you say what? What?! Don't worry?! Don't wait up?!" The trembling in my voice didn't let me continue for a moment as my body surged forward in a whimper. "It's hell! and I don't want it to happen again Severus please! Next time at least tell me where your going or a heads up that your not going to be there in the mourning and when you'll be back could be helpful too."

His hard onyx eyes at sometime in this conversation softened and looked almost as if they were about to tear up as well. As he walked forward and let himself fall to his knees in front of me he just looked into my eyes for a moment then he held me close to his chest. I don't know how long we stayed like that but it wasn't long enough for when he started to try to stand again I refused to let go if any thing I held on tighter. He seemed to think for a moment then said. "Tristan you have to get to bed." He picked me up bridal style and if it wasn't for the fear in my gut that he was going to leave again I would feel safe. He sat me on my feet but I didn't stand i hung off his neck latched on as I refused to leave his side again. He puled my face up to look me in the eyes then he seemed to get the picture. "How about you sleep in the guest room it's right next to mine and if you or I need any thing I'll be right there alright?" I nodded and stood on my own still having my hands around his neck but I loosened my grip a small amount.

I noticed that he wasn't wearing his hair tie it had a protection charm on it and he probably wouldn't have gotten hurt if he had been wearing it. So I said. "Why aren't you wearing your hair tie?" He smiled and shook his head at me. "Where I went I can't tell you but if I had worn that it would have been taken from me and I would have come back in worse shape then I did." He picked me up bridal style again and took me into a bed room that looked as if it hadn't been used in years. It was all in silver and gold he set me down on the huge feather king size canopy bed and I let him leave the room for a moment he came back seconds after wearing his hair tie. He smiled and said. "Better?" I nodded he kissed me on the forehead turned the light off said "Goodnight." Then left the door open a crack as he went to bed as well.