Arizona's POV 11 MONTHS AFTER CALLIE'S INJURIES
There's something about you I want to rescue I don't even know you So what does that mean
Maybe I'm cynical I'm painfully logical You're tragic and beautiful And that's good enough for me
You're looking for a hero, but it's just my old tattoo Tonight I swear I'd sell my soul to be a hero for you
Today is the day. I've know for a while now that she would be returning to work at the fire department, but I have avoided thinking about this day. Callie has been so wonderful these past few months. After everything we have been through, she still amazes me every single morning I wake up. I'm just laying here watching the beautiful woman lightly snore after hours of passionate love making. We have each done our share of side-stepping the conversation that needs to take place about her career. I know that my fears are something that I should be discussing with her, but I don't want to ruin our bubble we have created. When she first told me that within the month, she would be cleared to return to duty, I quickly changed the subject and distracted her with sexy time. Anytime she would attempt to bring up the subject, I would use her obvious weakness for me, to avoid popping the "bubble." The past 2 month she returned to the station on light duty, restricted to educating the kids about fire safety and generating reports for Capt Sheppard. Even though she was happy to be back at the station, the light that used to surround her when she was there had disappeared. Anytime the guys would go on a run, she would become depressed and wasn't herself at home. I know she has missed being on full duty, but I still have all of my fears of losing her again The alarm goes off and Callie rolls over towards me.
"Hmm, your doing it again."
"Doing what?" I lean over and place a kiss on her lips. She snakes her arm around my neck and soon we both need to come up for air.
"You were watching me sleep again. You only do that when something is on your mind, so spill it." She is giving me her squinty eyes.
Instead of answering I attempt to kiss her again but she pulls away. I think she is on to my little charade.
"Arizona, I know that your trying to avoid talking to me about going back to full duty. You always distract me with sexy time whenever I bring up the subject. Now tell me what is on your mind.' She sits up in bed and pulls me into a hug.
"Calliope, you know that while I appreciate your passion for firefighting, it still scares the hell out of me. I almost lost you, and just the thought of you being in harms way causes me great worry. I'm not asking you to give up your career. Just understand that this is hard for me. I know firefighting is a part of who you are, and I don't want to change you, but I will always remember the fear I felt that day." I begin to cry softly into her chest. She wraps me up tighter and speaks.
"Babe, I know you're afraid. There isn't a moment that goes by that I wish that day didn't happen. I want you to know that I will do everything in my power to come back to you everyday. I just can't walk away from this. I need to know I can still do this job. I love it and miss it so much. I feel like a part of me is missing. You don't understand how hard it was for me these past weeks not being able to jump on the truck. It sucked really bad. I have to do this Arizona, I have to go back."
She tips my head up so that we are looking into each others eyes. She has unshed tears in her chocolate pools. We kiss again and she goes into the shower to get ready. It's my day off so I just lay back down and drift off to sleep. I awake a few hours late to a note with a rose by the bed.
Arizona,
You looked so beautiful and peaceful sleeping that I didn't want to disturb you. I am working a 24 hour shift, so I can't wait to see you tomorrow. Please stop worrying about me, I promise you I'll always return.
Yours forever my love,
Calliope
I read the note and begin to smile. I lay in bed a few more mintues before shuffling out to the kitchen for some coffee. Since Cristina moved in with Owen last month, its been quieter. I start to sip my coffee when I turn on the TV and see that there has been a fire in a Senior aprtment complex downtown. Immdeiately I begin to worry and my thoughts are of Calliope. What if she is hurt again. What am I going to do without her. No no no, this just isn't going to work. I hop in the shower and decide that I need to see Calliope, at least to ease my own mind.
Callie's POV
Who's going to save you When the stars fall from your sky And who's going to pull you in When the tide gets too high Who's going to hold you When you turn out the lights I won't lie I wish that I Could be your superman tonight
When I woke up to Arizona watching me sleep, I figured out that she was avoiding talking to me about returning to work. I know that she has fears, but I refuse to let that affect me proving to myself and everyone that I can still perform the job. After getting showered and dressed for work, I came out to find her sleeping with her arms wrapped around my pillow. I leave her a note with the rose I picked up yesterday and make my way to the station. When I walk in, Mark is finishing the truck check. I go over to my locker and set my stuff down, taking a few moments to check my gear.
"Torres, so how's it feel to be back to work?"
"It's great Mark, it's been a really long time."
'Well I know I'm glad your back, I miss my partner."
He comes over and pats me on the back. I make my way up to the Captain's office, as I knock I hear him say come in.
"Hey Capt, just wanted to tell you I was back." I said as I sit down across from him.
"Callie, it's good to have you back. As you know we had Avery assigned over here TOD until you returned but there is another matter that needs to be addressed." Capt Sheppard started. "Before you were injured you asked to be trained as a Chauffer, correct?"
I nod at him, remembering the request.
"Well the training begins next week and if your still interested, I'll send you."
"Yes sir, I'm still interested. Thank you."
I leave his office and know that I have done the right thing for Arizona and I. Driving the rig will put me in less risky situations less often. My plans are coming together, I just hope before Arizona freaks out too much. I return downstairs for our usual training seesion when the alarm sounds for a call. As I put my turnout gear on for the first time since being hurt, a wave of fear and excitement hits me. I jump in next to Mark and listen while we drive there. It's a Senior complex, and everyone is out. It's just a shake and bake...a fire that just needs to be put out. I breathe a sigh of relief as we pull up on scene and are given orders to assist in ventilation. I make my way up the ladder and cut a hole in the roof. As I'm looking over the side of the building I begin to feel someone is watching me. I know this feeling, it's one I get when only a certain blonde Doctor is staring at me.
"Mark, get over here." I call to Mark who casually walks up beside me.
"What's up?"
"Arizona is somewhere around here."
"Why is she here? Did you see her? " He questioned
"I don't know why she is here, but I'm guessing she heard it on the news and is checking up on me."
"Awww, your little woman is making sure that her whittle woman is ok." He laughs and punches me in the arm.
I actually began getting pissed off, until I see her standing by a group of the residents helping them with blankets and such. She is so adorable helping out even when she is here spying on me. Even though I know I should be mad, I also know she needed to see that I was ok doing this job. After we finish securing the roof, I make my way back down the ladder and help break down the hoses. I take my jacket off, leaving my helmet and bunker pants on. After about 20 minutes, I sneak up behind Arizona who was searching for me. I wrap my arms around her waist and lean into licking her ear down to her neck.
"Can I help you with something?" I playfully ask. She blushes bright red at being caught.
"Umm, I, I just was passing by and thought I see if anyone needed help." She tries and cover but she just hangs her head. I turn her to look at me, and cupped her face in my hands.
"Baby, I know you needed to make sure I was o.k. You were afraid, and I understand that, but trust me, I'm really good at my job. What happened was a fluke." I kiss her lips and pull away before it gets heated.
"You looked really hot up there in your gear. I do believe I should come visit more often." She grins and shows her dimples.
"Honey, you can visit the station anytime, but please the scenes are dangerous enough, and you being here distracts me." I give her a hug as I hear Mark say we were released.
"Come back to the station and have dinner with us. I'm cooking dinner."
We say goodbye and I jump back onto the truck. All the guys give me shit about Arizona checking up on me, but I just shrug them off. I know she needed to be there. She comes to dinner and everyone is having a great time eating and sharing stories with Arizona. I'm very happy the guys all love her. After a couple of hours we get another run this time a Motor Vehicle Crash with entrapment. I kiss Arizona, and assure her I'll be ok. She watches as we pull out and all the guys lean out blowing her kisses. I just laugh and smile at how grateful I am to be here.
If somebody sent you An angel to save you What would you tell him to turn him away
That your heart don't break That your lips don't kiss That life is just a lie That heaven don't exist?
LYRICS SUPERMAN TONIGHT BY BON JOVI
Arinona's POV 1 month later
If you only knew I'm hanging by a thread, the web I spin for you If you only knew I'd sacrifice my beating heart before I lose you
I still hold onto the letters you returned I swear I've lived and learned
It's 4:03, and I can't sleep Without you next to me, I toss and turn like the sea If I drown tonight, bring me back to life Breathe your breath in me
I'm lying in bed and it's been 2 days since I've seen Calliope. She said something about training and having to go away, and it's been hell here without her. She calls everyday but after the fight we had last week about her job, I'm afraid I'm losing her. She was on a fire and I was at work when I was paged to the ED for burn victims. 4 children from a house fire were coming in and I could feel a knot in the pit of my stomach. I knew Calliope would be at the fire and when I got to the ED I heard that some of the firefighters got hurt. My mind started to race and I was unable to foucs on my patients. After a half hour I had enough and began blowing up her cell phone. 2 hours later she called me back and I basically ripped her head off. I didn't mean to but I was so scared that something happened I couldn't control myself. When she got home the next day she told me that I had to chill out and if I couldn't then maybe we needed a break. Since then she has been working a at training. So here I lay wondering where she is and how I can ever really come to terms with the dangers of her job. I don't want to lose her.
Callie's POV
If you only knew how many times I counted All the words that went wrong If you only knew how I refuse to let you go Even when you're gone
I don't regret any days I spent Nights we shared or letters that I sent
I'm lying in my bunk, thinking of Arizona. she is so amazing and wonderful and I can't wait til tomorrow. She has been extra edgy since the fifre the other day. I know that she flipped hearing about the other guys getting hurt and I didn't call her right away. We fought all night but it kind of has worked in my favor. She has no idea what is in store for her tomorrow. She believe I off on a training seminar. I've used the last 2 days putting all the final pieces together, with the help of Mark and the guys of course. I hope that it doesn't rain tomorrow. I want everything to be perfect when I finally propose to Arizona.