EDIT : Alright guys quick reupload : following the complete lack of interest on this second chapter I decided to termintate this story here. It's bad enough that I have been suffering from author's block but feeling that nobody cares makes things worse. For the few who showed interest I'm sorry but I'm not motivated to continue this story anymore.

Chapter 2 :

Confrontation :

8 days, it has been 8 days since Maura had witnessed her best friend shoot her estranged biological father. 8 days since the last time she had sleep in her bed refusing to leave Patrick Doyle's side, splitting her time between his bedside and Constance's. Actually she couldn't sleep at all because every time she dared to close her eyes even for a second she had flash backs of that day : she would see herself begging Jane not to shot him, but the Detective wouldn't listen to her and shoot her father anyway. Every time she closed her eyes she could hear Jane's gun firing and she could see Doyle falling fro the cat walk.

As strong as he was Doyle has been shot twice and had fallen from a at least 10 feet tall catwalk. On top of the multiple gunshots , the fall had caused cranial and ribs fractures, one of them had even perforated his lung. 8 days after a 5 hours long surgery Doyle was now fighting for his life in the intensive care unit only a few doors away from Constance.

Ever since Maura had found out who her biological father was she had been hating him for not only abandoning her but also for being a cold blooded killer. Unfortunately hate and love are two very close feelings and Maura couldn't help but feeling affection for that man who not only killed twice to protect her, the second time clear exposing himself to the FBI and Boston PD but who also seemed to have been following her ever since she was a little girl.

As a child Maura had often feel neglected by her parents especially her mother who she literally worshiped. She remembered every dance recital or science competition her mother had missed and after all those years of being convinced that nobody was never there to watch her Maura discovered that Doyle has been watching her from a distance and couldn't help but feeling loved cared about. So as much as she was trying to hate him for what he did to her and for who he was Maura couldn't help but feeling a certain affection for him.

So for the past 8 days Maura has been sitting there holding his hand, talking to him telling him to hang on that if he lived they could work on their relationship.

Obviously Maura wasn't spending 24 hours a day at his bedside and visited her mother constantly. Obviously Maura was unable to lie to anyone especially her mother and had decided to tell her about Doyle, about how they met and about her brother. After spending several days wondering if her mother and Doyle actually knew each other Maura had decided to confront her about it. After much hesitation Constance finally confessed that her and her husband had indeed had contact with Doyle but refused to give more details feeling that it was Doyle's duty to tell her the entire truth. What Constance promised Maura though was that she never met her biological mother and that she never meant to lie to her or to hold information but that for her own protection Doyle and her agreed it was better if she never knew who he was.

Maura spent her entire life convinced that her adoption was private and that her parents never knew who her biological parents were. At first she obviously felt betrayed but realized that they were all trying to protect her and after what happened ago she was determined not to stay bitter about it and move forward. She knew how much her mother loved her, God she had almost given her life to protect her and it's all that mattered.

If she could forgive her mother for lying to her Maura couldn't forgive Jane for shooting Doyle. Even if Jane had expressed immediate remorse only a few seconds after shooting Doyle Maura couldn't forgive her. Jane knew Doyle only shot Dean because he had fired at him first and that he would have never shot at her or Frost. Despite knowing her was the only link she had with her biological mother and how important it was for her to know who she was Jane still decided to shot him without even flinching. That was something Maura would never forgive, she knew it, she could feel in in her heart. No matter what Jane would say or do in the future to earn her forgiveness something was now broken between them, something that was more important than anything else : trust and without it she knew their relationship was unfixable.

As much as hated her Maura, knowing that Jane spent hours everyday standing a few feet behind her never asked her to stop visiting. Maybe it was because she didn't want to have to talk to her or maybe her presence reassured her somehow. Ever since she had met Jane 5 years ago Maura had found a safe place in their relationship. For the first time in her life she had found someone who she knew she could trust with her darkest secrets and with her life, and she always felt that Jane would do anything to protect her no matter what it might cost her. So as much as she hated her for shooting her biological father Maura couldn't help but feeling the almost visceral need to feel Jane's presence behind her.

That morning Jane woke up around 7 am as usual and drove directly to the hospital hoping that Doyle's state had improved. Approaching his room Jane suddenly saw Maura apparently sleeping at his bedside her head on the edge of the bed. Stepping into the room for the first time as quietly as possible afraid of that look she would never forget Jane walked towards Maura, so close that she could almost touch her.

"I would give anything to turn the clock back." Jane whispered stroking Maura's hair with her finger tips amazed by how peaceful Maura looked despite how worried and hurt she was.

"What are you doing here?"Maura suddenly hollered pushing Jane's hand away violently.

"I….I…."Standing there her eyes wide opened petrified Jane realized she had made a big mistake coming so close to her.

"How dare you come here after what you've done?Get out!"Standing up, her voice rising it only took a second to Maura to wake up and feel this intense desire to jump at Jane's throat.

"I'm sorry…I just wanted to check if there was any improvement. "Taking a step back Jane, for the second time could see the hatred and disgust in her friend's eyes and couldn't help but wondering if Maura would ever stop hating her.

"You didn't need to come inside for that, you could have asked a nurse." Clearing her throat, her head pounding from the lack of sleep and proper meal Maura wasn't touched or impressed by Jane's apparent concern. Seeing her genuinely worried for Doyle enraged her to a point where she could have slapped her.

"Look Maura I know you hate me and trust me I hate myself even more for what I did but you can not avoid confronting me for ever. Building up so much hate inside isn't healthy, trust me I know. So please talk to me, yell at me, hit me if you want, but please do not ignore me anymore, please."Feeling the tears streaming down her cheek Jane was desperate. She couldn't stand Maura's silence anymore, she couldn't just stand behind her for hours anymore knowing Maura knew she was here and being ignored.

"You're not even worse the energy it would require to hit you Jane. Now get out." Looking at Jane in the eyes showing no emotion Maura remained insensitive at Jane's attempt to make her express her repressed emotions.

Nodding, dragging her feet towards the door Jane started to feel that Constance was wrong and that their relationship was broken beyond repair, that no matter what she was willing to do or say to make things right Maura would never forgive her. In fact seeing her emotionless face Jane understood that Maura had passed the stage of hatred , stage that required carrying a minimum and that she was now completely lacking any feelings for her proving that things were indeed damaged beyond repair.

"I know I never said it but I love you too Maura, more than you can ever imagine." Jane muttered as she she reached the door slightly turning her head so Maura could hear her. Saying those words Jane was referring to what had happened with Tommy only a few weeks back and that moment Maura had told her she loved her regretting not having said it too.

Alright guys. I know it was short but intense right? I think this story might be a bit slow but I believe that Jane and Maura can't possibly go back to be LLBFFS in a blink of an eye right?

As it's a new story I'm opened to reviews and suggestions!

What do you think?Will Maura explode at Jane's face at some point?Will Constance manage to make Maura give Jane another chance?Where the hell is Dean?Is he dead? So many questions that will be answered don't worry :)