Hey peoples (I find it funny that peoples is actually a word LOL) anyway um, I wanted to open the floor for your theories and input for this story.

Do you like that I include songs?

Do I confuse you when I have more than 1 perspective in each post?

Is there anything I can do to improve it?

What do you think should happen?

PLEASE I need your help to see where this story is going. XXX Shar-Lyn

PS. The chapter previous 'Bad news comes In 3's' still has one more thing to do and it will be revealed in this chapter. MWAHHHAHAHAH (evil laughter) Oh, this chapter is back to Ryan PV. Ta

Chapter 18: Honey and The Moon

Don't know why I'm still afraid.
If you weren't real I would make you up now.
I wish that I could follow through.
I know that your love is true and deep as the sea.

I am sitting looking around the empty room, empty except for our two beautiful little girls. Marissa haemorrhaged and was rushed to surgery. My thoughts are interrupted by a little cry. I turn to see Autumn has lost her pacifier. I walk over to her and pick her up placing the pacifier back in her mouth. I pace around the room cradling her. I look into her eyes, she has the same eyes as Marissa -they both do. The only difference between the 2 of them is that Autumn has a little beauty spot under her right eye. I see Marissa as I look into her little face. What am I going to do if she doesn't make it? How am I going to survive without her? How will our girls make it without their mom? I am petrified that I will lose her.

As Autumn doses off I place her back in her little bed. I wonder if Summer has woken up yet. Seth waited for a little while with the girls and I but I could tell he wanted more than anything to be with Summer when she woke up.

I walk over to the bed in the middle of the room and look at Marissa's Care Bear that lies in the middle. Picking it up I walk over and flop down on the chair in the corner. I remember when Summer and Seth found this bear when they re-did her room at Jimmy's apartment. That was when Caleb proposed to Julie and Luke left for Portland and then Caleb blackmailed her into living with them at 'The House on Haunted Hill' I laugh out loud at remembering how she called it that.

But right now, everything you want is wrong.
And right now, all you dreams are waking up.
And right now, I wish I could follow you
To the shores of freedom
Where no one lives.

My thoughts are again interrupt except this time by a knock on the door. I turn to see mom and dad standing there.

"Hey honey, the nurse said that we would find you here."

I force a smile as I walk over and hug them.

"Hey guys, thanks for coming back down."

"We wouldn't be anywhere else."

I don't even bother to smile this time.

I turn as Delilah cries this time, it's only been 3 days but both Marissa and I can already tell by their cries who wants what.

I walk over to her

"Does someone need their poopie diaper changed?"

I walk over to the change table placing her on the top and undo her little suit and grab a new diaper, lifting her up legs and place in underneath her before I take the messy one off. Cleaning her up I sprinkle her with baby powder and do up her clean diaper and re-clip her little pink suit.

"There bubby, is that better? Yeah daddy thought so."

I walk back over to where mom and dad stand hugging Delilah. They are both smiling,

"What?"

I say as I rock her gently to get her back to sleep

"I am so proud of you Ry."

I smile.

"So did you guys stop in to see Seth and Summer?"

"Yeah."

"I she awake yet."

"No."

I wish that I could be there with Seth but my little girls need me.

"Honey, did you want me to take care of the girls so you can go down to see Seth?"

"You wouldn't mind?"

"Are you kidding I would love to take care of them, I am their grandmommy."

"Thank you mom."

I place Delilah in her arms and kiss her head and then go over to a sleeping Autumn.

"Daddy will be back soon- be good for your grandmommy."

I wave and smile as I walk out of the room.

Remember when we first met
And everything was still a bet in love's game
You would call, I'd call you back
And then I'd leave a message on your answering machine

I walk in to see that Seth has fallen asleep with his head on Summer's lap. I am met however by a pair of smiling eyes, I whisper

"Hey does Seth know that you're a wake?"

"No he looks so cute sleeping an I didn't want to wake him."

I smile

"How are you feeling?"

"A lot better thank you."

"Why didn't you tell anyone you were sick?"

"I didn't want to break the happy mood everyone was vibrating at a very high frequency."

I smile but I look down

"Babe- what's wrong?"

I pause and look up to her eyes

"Marissa haemorrhaged and she is in surgery"

"Oh no, is she okay? Do you know if she's okay?"

"No, she's not out of surgery yet."

"Is there anything I can do?"

"No just work on getting better."

She smiles,

"If there is anything just let me know."

"Okay well mom's looking after the girls so I could see you- so I better go but wake up Seth and don't let him know that I talked to you first, he has been freaking out about you."

I kiss her cheek and wave goodbye.

But right now, everything is turning blue.
And right now, the sun is trying to kill the moon.
And right now, I wish I could follow you
To the shores of freedom
Where no one lives.

As I walk through the door to Marissa's room I see Julie there and she is wailing; my heart skips a beat.

"Jules what is it? Is Marissa okay?"

She nods her head yes

"What happened?"

She continues to sob so mom answers

"Kaitlin ODed."

"Is-is she okay."

"We don't know."

We're made out of blood and rust
Looking for someone to trust without a fight .
I think that you came too soon;
You're the honey and the moon that lights up my night.

Poor Julie both of her girls are in hospital and she doesn't know if either will live.

But right now, everything you want is wrong.
And right now, all you dreams are waking up.
And right now, I wish I could follow you
To the shores of freedom
Where no one lives.


Seth rushes in smiling

"Mom, Ryan! Summer is awake."

He pauses and looks at Julie

"Oh no Marissa?"

He looks to me and I shake my head no-

"No Kaitlin ODed"

We got too much time to kill
Like pigeons on my windowsill we hang around.
Ever since I've been with you
You hold me up all the time I'm falling down

The Doctor walks in and everyone hold their breath. As he walks in Autumn and Delilah start to wail.

But right now, everything is turning blue.
And right now, the sun is trying to kill the moon.
And right now, I wish I could follow you
To the shores of freedom
Where no one lives.

The song is HONEY AND THE MOON- JOSEPH ARTHUR. Will Marissa make it? Will Kaitlin make it? MWAHHHAHAHAH Read and Review. XXX Shar-Lyn PS. So Kaitlin ODing was the 3rd with Summers Glandular Fever and Marissa haemorrhaging being the first 2. Just wanted to clear that up- cause I sort of confused myself with it. LOL! Lovies.