Yes I know it's a very long chapter but trust me it's worth it!

Chapter 6:

Trust :

After their rather heavy and intense conversation Maura decided to lighten the atmosphere by offering Jane to reorganize her closet and kitchen.

As much as Jane hated Maura's almost visceral need to clean, tidy, arrange food by alphabetic orders and clothes by color she was grateful for Maura's attempt to cheer her up.

"Alright, it looks like we're finished here. I know a few charities who are going to be thrilled to receive those clothes."Standing in front of Jane's bed looking at a pile of clothes they both agreed could go to charity Maura was proud of herself, not only she had cleared Jane's closet of unused clothes but she knew those clothes would be appreciated by people in need.

"Well as much as I hate it when you put your nose in my closet or rearrange everything I must admit that it was necessary."Standing behind her arms around her waist Jane couldn't believe the quantity of clothes she had in her closet that remained untouched.

"I agree and considering that I bought half of those clothes for you I think I should stop shopping for you, as it's obvious that we don't share the same taste."

"Oh baby, I'm sorry. Of course I love the clothes that you buy me, it's just that as sexy and classy as those suits are I don't feel comfortable wearing them. Not to mention that I don't need that many different suits you know." Kissing Maura's neck Jane was genuinely sorry that they didn't share the same enthusiasm for fashion and that as expensive as those suits were they were cut in a way that didn't allow her to run after suspects if needed. As in love as Jane was and as willing as she was to make compromises and to do all sorts of things that she didn't really want to do to please Maura, she needed to be comfortable in her work clothes.

"I know. I realize that they are not very comfortable or practical and besides I'm not your mother, it's not my job to dress you, not to mention you're extremely sexy no matter what you wear."Maura replied turning around snaking her arms around Jane as well.

"Alright, so you don't want to see me in that sexy lingerie you got me for valentine's day?"Jane innocently said biting her bottom lip.

"Of course I would love to see you wearing it, just like I would love nothing more than seeing you take it of so I could feel your naked body against mine, but I know you're not ready but it's alright I will wait as long as it takes."Maura quietly replied inviting Jane to sit on her bed with her. A few days ago Maura would have been really careful when expressing her desires especially after Jane told her the truth about her issues but she was now feeling confident that Jane felt comfortable enough to at least hear about her desires and express her own.

"What else would you want me to do?"Remembering the conversation they just had a few hours ago Jane knew how important it was for Maura that they vocalized their fears and desires from now on and as unsettling as it was for her she knew that talking would probably be liberating not to mention that after all the patience and love Maura had given her it was the least she could do.

"For now?Nothing, really. I'm happy that you trusted me enough to confide in me and I just want you to continue on that path."Kissing Jane's finger tips Maura could see how lost she was but couldn't help but admiring how willing she was and the strength she was demonstrating.

"Come on Maura I'm sure you have all sorts of fantasies."

"Yes I do and we have the rest of their lives to act on them."Leaning over to kiss her Maura was a bit scared that confessing her fantasy might scare Jane and after making such terrific progress she wasn't willing to risk sending them back where they were a few days ago.

"No Maura. I want to satisfy your needs now!"Jane objected rising her voice.

"Jane…"

"No, I mean…Ever since we started having sex we have been doing things my way and I'm sorry for being so selfish. Now I want to do things your way so please let me and tell me what I could do to satisfy you please…"Jane replied trying to breath out.

"Alright Jane but first I want you to know that if I let you take the lead in the bedroom it's because I wanted to. Making love with you is by far the most incredible experience of my life. You are everything but selfish Jane, I mean I never met someone who was that patient, who listened to me and my body like you do and who I could completely let myself go with without feeling embarrassed or weak. You unleashed feelings, sensations in my that I never thought I would experience but you're right there is something I would like for us to try. Wait here."Facing Jane's determination Maura knew she had no choice but to surrender and was hoping that her fantasy wouldn't scare Jane.

"Alright." Sitting on her bed biting her nails Jane was torturing herself trying to figure out what fantasy would require that Maura left the room for a few minutes but trusted her enough to know her limits and was appropriate to ask her to do or not.

Walking towards the small closet between Jane's bedroom and the bathroom Maura couldn't help but admiring Jane for being to stubborn and eager to get better.

A few minutes later Maura was back in Jane's room a rather large black box in her hand.

"What do we have here?"Sitting up straight in bed her arms crossed on her chest Jane was playing naive but had a very precise idea of what was in that box.

"Well. I bought this about tree weeks ago thinking that it would be fun to use it, that it would allow us to experience new sensations and a new way of making love."Opening the box taking a deep breath Maura was praying for Jane not to over react and to let her explain her fantasy before jumping to conclusion.

"Holly crap, that thing is huge!I thought size didn't matter."Jane joked almost choking on her saliva.

"Of course size doesn't matter , what matters is how you use it and considering those great hip moves you got I figured we might as well try a larger model that would allow you to go deeper inside of me and reach spots that remain untouched to this day." Taking the large black strap on out of her box Maura suddenly realized that Jane was right : it was not only long but thick.

"So you never slept with a guy who was that well hung?"Looking at Maura manipulating that dildo Jane was amazed by how comfortable she was and was relieved that at least one of them was confident about doing this.

"No, I met a few gentlemen who were well proportioned but it never turned out to be enjoyable. Men who are well endowed often think that the size of their penis is enough to satisfy their partners and therefore don't feel compel to do put any effort in it. Unfortunately being well endowed doesn't make a man a good lover actually it can make it a terrible and painful one if he's not gentle and patient."

"Oh and you trust me not to hurt you?"Swallowing hard Jane realized that Maura wasn't unlike what she previously thought wasn't particularly attracted by well hung men and it seemed that she actually had bad experiences in the past.

"Yes I do. I trust you to be gentle, to take your time and make sure that I'm lubricated enough before …"

"Yeah I get the picture. Well I'm grateful that you trust me enough but…"

"But you don't picture yourself using a third party to satisfy me."Maura pouted looking down.

"No, it's not that Maura. Actually I can totally picture myself with that thing around my waist. It's just that the whole point was to help me feel more comfortable in my body as a woman…"

"And you think that wearing a strap on would to the contrary emphasize your masculine side…"Maura nodded realizing that her offer might not be the most adequate thing to help Jane being more in touch with her femininity.

"Yes."

"Well…I think that making love to me with that strap on might actually allow you to unleash your desire and passion in a way that you never expressed before. I think it would be very liberating and that it could help you to get more in touch with your sexuality and your body."

"Well that's what I'm afraid of Maura. I told you I had a dark side and by unleashing my desires to their full extend I might end up hurting you, especially if I have that thing between my legs." Looking down chewing the inside of her cheek Jane was faced to her darkest side and knew that by unleashing her sexual fire might end up burning what was left of their relationship and the respect Maura had for her.

Thinking about it Jane realized that Maura was right, that for her to get better she would need to completely loose control, that it would probably liberate her but she knew herself and her dark side well enough to know that it would probably mean hurting her either physically or emotionally and as eager as she was to get better she wasn't willing to sacrifice the love of her life for it. Closing her eyes Jane realized that maybe accepting herself the way she truly was actually be the best she would ever be able to accomplished and considering that if getting better meant hurt Maura maybe she would have to settle for that.

"Jane, look at me. I love you more than science, more than shoes God I love you more than life itself. I trust you with my heart, my life and by body. I know you're lost and that you're scared that by loosing control you might hurt me but I know for a fact that you would rather shoot yourself before hurting me. If you don't trust yourself than trust me."Cupping Jane's face with her right hand Maura could see how torn Jane was between her desire to get better and her fears of hurting her but she trusted her and she knew that she was safe with her, all she needed to do was to make Jane believe it to.

"Well I did promise you to trust you didn't I?"Even if she knew that Maura wouldn't take it personally if she declined her offer and would understand and wait for her to be ready Jane couldn't help but wanting to give Maura what she wanted, what they both wanted actually.

Feeling Maura's warm hand on her face tensely stroking her cheek Jane felt safe, and loved enough to take that leap of face. Thinking about it Jane was praying that Maura was right and that if things got out of hand she would be able stop herself before hurting her.

"Good, now I'm going to take a quick shower while you and our new friend get better acquainted."Maura smiled pressing her lips against Jane's.

"I will be waiting. I love you."

"I love you to. I promise you everything is going to be just fine."Maura whispered kissing Jane's forehead before slowly walking towards the bedroom.

For the next 10 minutes Jane sat on her bed, that strap on in her hand examining it from every possible angle.

"God, she's certainly confident cause she might not realize it but even when she's really wet, she's still very tight. How in hell Am I gonna manage to excite her enough so it doesn't hurt her?"Scratching the back of her head Jane couldn't possibly imagine how in hell Maura was going to be able to take that thing til the end and knew that she would have to use her best skills to arouse her enough to make it as comfortable and enjoyable possible.

After a few minutes of inspecting their"new friend" Jane slightly felt more comfortable having it in her hand and decided to drop her pants and put it on.

Standing in the middle of her bedroom hoping that Maura wouldn't barge it and see her like this Jane quickly attached the strap on around her waist, tightening it enough to make sure it wouldn't down at that massive cock hanging between her legs Jane felt extremely weird, so weird that she started laughing.

"The things that woman can make me do."Jane said to herself pulling her pants on.

A few minutes later Maura finally came out out of the bathroom only wearing a towel.

"Finally!"Jane said almost drooling at the view of Maura walking towards her bed, apparently still wet and only wearing a black towel.

"Yes, I apologize for the delay. I see you put it on already."Maura smiled licking her lips.

"Yes. I wanted to see how it felt you know get used to it before we tried."Jane replied welcoming Maura on the bed.

"Well let me see how it feels."Jumping on her lap immediately placing her hand between Jane's legs Maura was already highly aroused just by feeling the thick dildo hanging there.

"Easy tiger, I thought you wanted us to take our time."Jane objected feeling the dildo rubbing against her leg as Maura was gently rubbing it through the fabric of her pants.

"Right right…How about I take this off?"Sitting on top of Jane opening her towel before dropping it on the floor Maura felt more excited than she ever felt before. This was going to be a life changing experience, she knew it.

Sitting there in bed looking at Maura sitting on her lap completely naked, water drops streaming down her gorgeous breast all the way down to her firm belly Jane suddenly felt extremely confident and overly excited.

"My eyes are up here Detective."Maura smiled voluntarily rising her chest literally flashing them in Jane's face.

Looking down at her beautiful girlfriend Maura could see the desire and confidence that made her so sexy.

"Right now babe you could have a third eye on your forehead I wouldn't be able to see it." Jane replied as she gently started to kiss her.

Gently brushing Maura's lips, wandering her fingers on her naked back Jane was already aroused and wanted only one thing : be inside of her. Unfortunately as eager as Jane was she knew that if they wanted this to be enjoyable they needed to take their time.

Feeling Jane's mouth on her neck, her tongue tickling her skin and her finger tips roaming on her back Maura was also eager to get in the heart of the action. Unfortunately she knew that for this experience to be successful she needed to let Jane take the lead and as excruciating as it was she knew that she enjoyed taking her time.

Kissing Maura's neck, dragging her tongue on her chest towards her left breast Jane could feel Maura shivering under her touch, her breathing becoming heavier.

Eager to arouse her girlfriend a bit more Jane cupped her right breast and started tickling her nipple while drawing circles around her left nipple with her tongue.

"Oh Jane…"Her eyes closed her arms wrapped around Jane's neck Maura could feel the warmth streaming down her legs.

"Excited much Dr Isles?"Jane replied dragging her fingers towards Maura's folds.

"You know I am."Without even noticing it Maura had started rubbing herself against the dildo that was hanging between Jane's leg.

Through the fabric of Jane's jean she could felt the thick object and feeling it stroking her clit.

"I can see that, God you're so wet for me baby."Placing her hands between Maura's legs Jane couldn't believe how wet she already was.

Feeling the juice streaming down on her fingers Jane couldn't take resist anymore so she quickly buy gently pushed Maura aside before rolling on top of her.

Her breath immediately taken away by Jane's spontaneity Maura's heart stopped beating for a second as she felt the weight of Jane's body pressing against her and the dildo against her leg.

Feeling Jane's fingers between her legs Maura started to rub herself against them hoping it would encourage Jane to take the next step.

"Alright baby, alright. I'm giving you what you want."Jane said as she unexpectedly thrusted one then two fingers deep in Maura's fold making her arch her back instantly.

"Oh Jane…."Maura panted following Jane's thrusts with her hips, rising them as Jane plunged her fingers inside her helping her go deeper inside her.

Feeling encouraged by Maura literally dancing below her Jane continued to thrust inside and out of her, pushing her fingers deeper and pulling slower each time. Kissing her girlfriend's gorgeous breast, hearing her moan Jane could feel her own arousal rising exponentially.

Feeling Jane inside of her, giving herself completely to her, feeling her tongue on her nipples Maura was already over the edge. Unwilling to waste another minute Maura quickly reached out for Jane's zipper expecting her to stop to her big surprise Jane didn't and to the contrary allowed her to pull out the massive dildo out of her pants.

"I let you take it out but we're still doing this my way." Jane grinned rushing her lips against her.

"Yes. I'm sorry."Maura nodded smiling internally at how comfortable Jane seemed to be, her who half an hour ago was so reluctant to try this new experience.

Feeling that Maura was almost over the edge Jane started it was time to play a little bit and started to gently rub the head of the dildo against Maura's legs gently moving it towards her folds.

"Oh, she's killing me!What is she waiting for?"Bucking her hips hoping that Jane would accelerate thing Maura was desperate, she wanted, she needed to feel it inside her, now.

"Not so fast my love."Jane said to herself as she gently started to rub Maura's clit with the tip of the dildo guiding it with her hand.

Her eyes closed feeling the cold object stroking her clit Maura had to use her best self control not to buck her hip so hard that it would cause the dildo to penetrate her. Unfortunately she knew that she needed to respect Jane's decision to take the lead on this, that the role point of this little adventure was to help Jane gain more self confidence and feel more in touch with her desires.

Feeling Maura's uncontrollable desire Jane paused for a second and started to think about the best position, the one that would make her experience this sensation more deeply. Tempted to ask Maura Jane suddenly remembered that she was in charge at the moment and wasn't willing to appear uncertain of what she was doing. From experience she knew that taking her from behind would allow her to thrust deeper inside her girlfriend but couldn't help but thinking that this position was completely impersonal and wouldn't allow them to look into each other's eyes. Unfortunately Jane's priority was Maura's pleasure not hers.

Hesitating for a second asking herself if she wasn't going too far Jane suddenly stopped stroking Maura's clit.

"Something wrong?"Maura mumbled trying to catch her breath as she saw the sudden doubt in her Jane's eyes.

"No, on your knees now!"Jane ordered rising her voice.

"As you wish Detective." Swallowing hard feeling her heart hammering her chest Maura was more than happy to oblige happy that Jane was finally starting to unleash her passion.

"I mean, if you don't mind. I know you love it when I kiss you and look into your eyes when you come and…"Jane mumbled readjusting her tone.

"No, it's alright Jane. We both know this position is perfect for optimal penetration." Maura smiled kissing Jane's forehead before poisoning herself as Jane had requested.

On her knees looking at the bed board Maura was excited. Yes she loved kissing Jane and looking at her in the eyes, but the idea of not knowing or seeing what was going to happened aroused her deeply.

Kneeling behind Maura one hand on her lower back and the other holding the dildo Jane took a deep breath knowing that this was the moment of truth. Making sure Maura was wet enough to welcome the massive dildo Jane started to gently stroke Maura's entrance with the tip of the toy.

Feeling the head of the dildo tickling her entrance Maura was almost over the edge and rose her ass slightly to show Jane she was ready.

Receiving Maura's message loud and clear Jane slowly pushed the head of the dildo inside Maura's core almost waiting for her to stop her.

Her head down, biting her pillow as she felt the dildo slowly penetrating her Maura started to feel her inner muscles tightening around it, she was close, very close but knew that coming too fast would ruin everything.

"You like that baby?"Jane muttered as she suddenly thrusted the rest of the dildo deep into her girlfriend.

"OH God."Maura screamed literally jumping out of her skin as he felt the massive dildo reaching the end of her folds.

"Am I hurting you?"Scared by Maura's scream Jane suddenly stopped her thrusts already hating herself.

"No, continue."Maura replied rising her ass pushing the dildo back inside her to encourage Jane to continue.

The truth was as wet as she was Maura could feel a slight discomfort. It wasn't painful but it was a bit unsettling. Unfortunately she knew that expressing her discomfort would just make Jane feel guilty so she didn't say a words and continue to follow Jane's thrusts with her hips.

Still behind Maura, her hands on both side of her hips Jane was having the time of her life. For the first time in her life she was able to completely let go of her pulsions , her frustration and her darkest desires.

Thrusting inside and out of Maura hearing her moan, feeling her shake under her touchJane never felt so around in her entire life. Obviously she had experienced some great satisfaction making love to Maura in the past but nothing compared to this.

Two hours and several orgasms in several positions later Maura and Jane literally collapsed, unable to breath, to talk or think even in bed resting her head on Jane's chest Maura had never felt so satisfied in her entire life. Even if her vagina was now burning and no matter how uncomfortable and painful that was she had the time of her life and was even more satisfied knowing she had managed to make Jane loose control. Yes trying to catch her breath Maura felt that Jane and her had just took an important step and could only hope it was the first of many.

Trying to catch her breath as well, the dildo still hanging between her legs Jane couldn't believe how intense and satisfying this experience has she hadn't climaxed but she had experienced a lot of pleasure and most importantly had felt overwhelmed with a feeling of freedom and that after all was the whole point of this experience.

Stroking Maura's hair with her fingers Jane was also convinced that Maura and her had achieve something great today. Unfortunately she didn't know where that experience was going to lead them or what the next step was. Luckily for her Jane knew that no matter how lost she was she could always count on Maura to guide her, push her a little bit when needed. Yes as lost as Jane still felt she was now convinced that Maura was the key and was more determined than ever to trust her and for the first time in a long time even started to believe that she might now be as unfixable as she thought

Alright guys, I basically spent 5 hours straight writing this without stopping for a minute(yes I'm slow.)

I hope you enjoyed the sex and more importantly you understood the meaning behind this whole experience.

I think you guys know me well enough now to get my point and understand what I'm trying to express with this story.

I know it's very shallow of me but I think this might be the best chapter I ever wrote on both the sexual and emotional aspects ! I would really love some reviews on this chapter, you know how uncomfortable love scenes make me but this one ...well actually I was turned on just by writing it so I really really would love to read your feedback…Pretty please with cherry on top:)

Thanks guys!