Chapter 7 :

Giving back :

For almost an hour Jane and Maura stayed in bed in silence trying to recover both physically and emotionally from their intense love making session. Jane was on her back her pants still on, the strap on hanging between her legs while Maura was naked curled in fetal position her head on Jane's chest. Neither of them were willing to talk or to even dare moving, Jane because she was scared that once back to reality Maura might realize how insane this little experiment was and and just freak out on her. Maura on the other hand knew that Jane needed reassurance and to hear from that what had happened hadn't scared her but the truth was it did scare her. Lying in bed Maura could barely move, her back, inner thighs and vagina were burning if not hurting. Unfortunately Maura knew that mentioning it to Jane would only upset her and send them 10 steps back. For the first time since they have been together Maura was about to lie to Jane, or at least minimize the truth, it was her fault after all. It was her who suggested this little game, who choose the biggest size she could find and who almost begged Jane to trust her and let go completely. Unfortunately she couldn't have known how powerful Jane's impulses were .

"Are you cold?You're shaking."Jane finally spoke pulling her covers up.

"It's a bit chilly in here. Thank you." Maura replied closing her eyes.

"I should take this off, just give me a second."Jane said reaching out for her pants, pulling them down and finally releasing herself from the dildo's grip.

"Oh it's almost 7pm already. I should get dressed."Maura replied sitting up in bed trying to cover herself.

"Why?Are you going somewhere?"Jane frowned pulling Maura against her.

"I haven't been home in two days. I need to take care of Bass and I have a few things to take care of before going back to work tomorrow." Maura replied wrapping the sheet around her looking around for her clothes.

"Don't worry about Bass. I'm sure Ma is taking good care of him, and who said we had to go back to work tomorrow?We both have accumulated so much overtime and vacation days we never took that we could retire."Kissing Maura's shoulder smelling her hair Jane wanted to make those two days last for ever.

"I know but I have to testify in court on tree different cases this week and I need to be prepared."

"I'm sure you have been preparing since the day you received the trial's date, come on stay the night."Pulling Maura closer to her attacking her neck Jane was already up for a 5th round and had no intention of taking no for an answer.

"Alright, alright but I really need to get a good night of sleep, so you're going to have to behave."Turning her head forcing herself to smile all Maura wanted was to go home, draw herself a hot bath and analyze what had happened and try to make sense out of it. Unfortunately she knew that Jane would feel abandoned and would start wondering if she had done something wrong. So Maura agreed to stay the night hoping Jane would behave and not try to seduce her again because she knew she wouldn't be able to have sex again for a while. Luckily for her she knew she was going to spend the next week in court and that she wouldn't have time to see Jane and that she would probably be physically recovered once free of her court duties.

"Alright. I promise I will keep my hands I'm my pockets and my tongue in my mouth."Jane joked pulling them back on their pillows.

The next morning Jane and Maura woke up at the same time unwilling to go back to work.

Trying to sit up in bed Maura was still in pain : her lower back was hurting so much that she couldn't sit straight.

"Are you alright?"Sitting on the edge of her bed looking at her girlfriend Jane could see there was something wrong but couldn't pin point what is was.

"Yes. I'm just concerned about those trials. It's going to be a long week and 'm not sure I'm going to have much time for you."The truth was Maura has never been so grateful for court duties. She knew she was going to have an entire week for herself to recover both physically and emotionally.

"I know, but you need to do this for the victim's families. I will see you whenever you can catch a break. don't worry about it." Jane replied kissing her shoulder knowing that as much as she hated it trials testimonies were important and that their relationship had to come second when one of them had to spend time in court.

"Alright. How about you go meet ahead and prepare some breakfast while I take a quick shower?"

"Alright."Nodding as she bounced out off bed Jane couldn't help but feeling that something was seriously wrong with Maura and didn't know if she should confront her or not.

Thirty minutes later after painfully dragging herself towards the bathroom and taking a hot almost burning shower Maura joined Jane in the kitchen feeling slightly better.

"The bathroom is all yours if you want."Maura said forcing herself to smile as she walked towards the counter trying her best to hide her discomfort.

"Someone isn't walking straight today."

"I haven't been walking or thinking straight since the day we met Jane, you have that effect on me."Maura replied through grinned teeth as she sat down trying to remain as straight as possible.

"I hurt you didn't I?"

"Jane…"

"No, tell me the truth, did I hurt you?"

" I do feel a bit uncomfortable which was to expect but I must admit I underestimated the consequences of choosing such a massive object to play with especially with someone as passionate as you but I'm not hurt alright?"Holding Jane's hand looking at her in the eyes Maura did her best to twist the words coming out of her mouth to make them tell something must less dramatic than the ugly truth.

"I'm so sorry Maura I think I might have gone too far. It won't happen again."Withdrawing her hand facing the truth Jane knew she should have never agreed to play that stupid game. She knew from the start that she was probably going to hurt her but she let her guard down and allow herself to trust Maura and now the woman she loved was in pain because of her weakness.

"Don't worry about it. I had a fantastic time but I think you already knew that."

As painful as it was to admit it Maura actually enjoyed herself more than she ever did in her entire life. For some reason the pain and discomfort had aroused her to a point she never thought existed, maybe because she had finally managed to make Jane trust her and lost control or maybe it was the actual pain. Maura didn't know why she enjoyed it so much and was determined to find out why.

For the next week the two women lived two separate lives : Maura spent the entire week in court testifying on multiple murders cases and Jane investigating a triple murder. Even if they managed to have lunch a couple of time together the two women spent the entire week sleeping each in their own house.

Against all odds this forced separation turned out to beneficial for the two of them. It allowed Maura to rest and her body to heal and to analyze their passionate love making session and try to figure out why she had enjoyed she pain to that extend and it allowed Jane to also analyze that precious night as well and to find a way to make it up to Maura for being a little rough and also to try to find the best way to reciprocate and finally give something back.

On the 7th day of their forced separation Jane, knowing that Maura was now free of her court duties finished writing her report on the triple homicide her and her team had managed to close that same day and drove to Maura's house determined to surprise her.

After stopping to Maura's favorite chinese restaurant for some sushi Jane arrived at Maura's mansion and did her best to create the perfect atmosphere and spared to effort to transfer their bedroom into a perfectly romantic love nest.

After lighting him a few perfumed candles and throwing rose petals on Maura's bed Jane stepped into the bathroom, took a deep breath and turn the hot water on throwing a few of those bubble soaps Maura loved so much in the tub hoping she would enjoy it.

Sitting on the edge of the tub trying to compose herself Jane was hoping that what she was about to do would satisfy Maura, that as small as the gesture might be she would be able to see how big of a step it was for her.

"Jane what are you doing here?"Maura said standing in the middle of the door.

"Oh you're here, crap that was supposed to be a surprise."Fidgeting hearing Maura's voice, almost falling in the tub in the process Jane realized that she had been so focused and deep in her thoughts that she didn't hear Maura come home.

"I figured that much when I entered the bedroom. It's sweet but you didn't have to go through all that trouble."Taking a step towards Jane snaking her arms around her neck Maura was touched. She knew that Jane was doing it not only because she knew she had had a rough week but also to thank her for their last night of passion.

"It was no trouble. I know you had a rough week. So I stopped by that chinese restaurant you love so much and brought some sushis but first you and I are going to take a bubble bath together, so strip down Doc."Jane enthusiastically said slapping her back side.

"I…are you sure?We never took a bath together before…"Maura mumbled touched by Jane's gesture.

For the past 3 months the two women had made love on almost daily basis but she had never seen Jane naked, actually Jane had barely allowed to touch her. Looking down at the bubble bath Maura realized that Jane was serious and knew what a huge step it was and how much courage it had required and she was extremely proud of her.

"Yes I am. " Taking a deep breath Jane wasn't sure at all and was extremely uncomfortable picturing them naked, their bodies rubbing against each other but knowing that the bubbles would at least cover her body made her feel slightly better.

"Alright then. How about I step out for a minute and take off my clothes while you slid in the tub?"Maura offered kissing Jane's forehead.

"Alright."Watching Maura's walked toward their bedroom Jane was finally able to breath.

Slowly unbuttoning her black shirt dropping it on the floor before taking the rest of her clothes off and sliding in the tub Jane was more and more nervous and had no idea what she was doing. She knew she wasn't ready to let Maura touch her or see her naked but remembered Maura telling her she would enjoyed feeling their naked bodies pressing against each other and was hoping she wouldn't chicken out at the last minute.

A few feet away Maura was sitting on her bed wearing nothing but a blue silk robe. Even if only took her a couple of minute to strip down she wanted to give time to Jane to reconsider her decision and eventually take a step back.

Sitting on her bed wandering her finger tips on her chest Maura couldn't help but being excited but the simple thought of feeling Jane's naked body pressing against her and was hoping that everything would go smoothly and that she would be able to reward Jane for her courage later in her bed.

"Jane?May I come in?"Maura said slightly opening the door.

"Yep, I'm all wet. I mean…I'm in the tub already."Jane mumbled rolling her eyes hitting her forehead with the palm of her hand.

"Alright, would you mind closing your eyes please while I take my robe off?"Maura was no prude and Jane had seen her naked dozens of times but she thought that considering she was naked as well seeing her naked in front of her might make Jane uncomfortable.

"Okay."Covering her eyes trying not to cheat Jane could feel her heart hammering her chest and almost burst out of her chest when she felt Maura sliding in the tub.

"You can open your eyes now." Maura said siting in the tub in front of Jane her legs lifted against her chest, turning her back on her.

As eager as Maura was to sit in front of Jane and to face her she knew that starting by turning her back on her was the most reasonable thing to do, that it would allow Jane to get more comfortable with the idea of their two bodies naked so close to each other.

"How's the water?"Jane asked swallowing hard trying to refrain from the urge to flip her and make love to her in that tub.

"It's perfect thank you."

"Don't be shy. Come closer."Jane said pulling Maura against her.

Feeling Jane's arms against her waist and her breasts tickling her back Maura could barely breath and resist the need to turn around and wander her hands on her perfect shaped breasts and firm stomach but she knew she couldn't do that until Jane instructed her to, that it would ruin everything.

For the next half hour the two women stayed in that tub in silence, Jane gently massaging Maura's tensed back muscles, starting from her lower back all the way up to her shoulders.

Maura quietly settled between Jane's legs remained silent as well unwilling to spoil that perfect moment. Using a big blue bath sponge to spread hot water on her arms and chest Maura could barely believe that after months of refusing to be touched or to be naked with her Jane was finally letting her guard down. Thinking about it Maura realized that this sudden excess of trust and confidence was the result of their passionate love making session. That by allowing Jane to unleash her sexual impulses freely she had gained her trust and boosted her self confidence. Sighing as she felt Jane's mouth on her shoulders Maura finally felt that the pain she felt and was actually still feeling wasn't for nothing.

Sitting behind Maura pressing her fingers on every single square inch of her back Jane was finally much more relaxed. Feeling Maura wasn't going to ask her more that she could give her and that she was once again letting her take the lead Jane felt in control at least physically. Emotionally she was overwhelmed by Maura's love and patience and couldn't help to think that she deserved better than this but wasn't sure if she could give her more. A few steps away from Maura's bed Jane didn't know if she was going to be strong enough to allow Maura to at least see her naked and allow their bodies to press against each other as they make love. One thing was sure though she wasn't ready to allow her to touch her and reciprocate she was praying that Maura would understand and that feeling her warm body against hers would be enough.

So guys ...once again autobiographic chapter...

What do you thin about Maura enjoying the pain?

Do you think Maura is going to understand that Jane isn't ready to let her touch her and satisfy herself with the bath and by feeling their naked bodies pressing against each other as they make love?That's going to be frustrating feeling her against her but not being able to touch her breasts or her thighs...

Thank you for the reviews on last chapter it encouraged me to write another hot chapter that will be published soon(I still need time to make it as perfect as the first one. Encouragements wouldn't hurt :) )