Hi everyone. Thank you so so much for the amazing reviews for my lemon. I'm not a pro and it was hard to write, so it means a lot that you liked it. I hope I won't disappoint with this new chapter. Please let me know what you think.
Don't forget that english is not my first language, so feel free to correct any mistakes you could find.
Don't read the rest of the author note if you don't want spoilers about the 3x21 (but you can read the chapter, it's totally different from the show)
Fortunately, the chapter was written before I saw the 3x21 because I think my inspiration is gone with Klaus. My God, I'm still crying.
During a few minutes, the only sounds in the room were heavy breathing and loud panting. Klaus finally managed to recover enough to straighten up on his feet. Without a word, he lovingly lifted Caroline up from the table. He put an arm behind her shoulders and the other behind her knees. Carrying her bridal style, Klaus took her upstairs, until his bedroom. He lay her down on his bed and settled down next to her, pulling the covers over them. Caroline immediately snuggled into him, the happy smile on her face refusing to disappear. They remained silent for a moment, each one lost in a blurry haze. Klaus finally spoke with a hint of apology in his voice.
"I'm sorry for the table, sweetheart, but I couldn't have made it to the bed."
Caroline chuckled and lifted her face to kiss him.
"In case you didn't notice, Nik, I really didn't mind the table" she smiled. "And to be honest, I don't think I could have made it to the bed either" she added honestly.
Klaus looked at her, mesmerized.
"Did you just call me Nik?" he asked in amazement.
Caroline blushed slightly. The name had just escaped her mouth before she could think about it. In her mind, he had stopped to be Klaus a few weeks ago, turning into Nik. Klaus was his bad side. His tormented and lonely side. Nik was his human side. The one with feelings. And even if Caroline knew that these two sides were both part of him and that she would have to deal with it, he was now Nik in her head.
"I'm sorry" she answered embarrassed. "It just slipped."
Klaus frowned.
"Sorry? Why is that?"
"Well, it's the name your family calls you so maybe you don't want other people call you that" Caroline explained.
Klaus made a happy grin.
"Are you kidding? Nik is used by my loved ones. I'll be delighted if you call me that."
Caroline grinned too, relieved by his reaction.
"Ok. I'll remember it…Nik" she answered.
Klaus smiled and wrapped his arms around Caroline who nuzzled into him. His embrace was tender but Caroline noticed that something seemed bothering him. She frowned, her heart suddenly clenching in her chest. Why was he bothered? Was he disappointed? Didn't he like what they did? Was it the Nik thing? Caroline suddenly felt on the verge of tears. Maybe she was right before by fearing that things couldn't go well between them. Maybe he had just realize that she was too young and too inexperienced for him?
Klaus noticed immediately that something was wrong. Taking Caroline's face in his hands, he forced her to look at him. The tears alarmed him.
"What's wrong sweetheart? he asked hastily. Caroline shook her head, trying to smile but failing.
Klaus looked seriously worried now. He softly stroked Caroline's cheeks with his thumbs.
"Please tell me…" he pleaded.
"Do you have any regrets?" he asked very softly, failing to hide the hint of sadness in his voice.
Caroline lifted abruptly her face, almost irritated.
"Regrets? How can you think such a thing? I just spent the most horrible weeks in my life thinking and moping about you every second of the day! How could I have any regrets?"
Klaus smiled, relief washing all over him.
"So what is wrong?" he asked again lovingly.
Caroline made a poor smile.
"I don't know. You seemed bothered with something, so I thought maybe you were disappointed or something." she said shyly. "I'm only eighteen you know, so I guess I have still a lot to learn in a lot of areas…especially with sex" she added even more shyly.
Klaus looked at her in astonishment.
"Are you serious?" he exclaimed incredulously. "Do you really think that I am disappointed? Didn't you notice the effect you have on me? Caroline, I almost died from pleasure with you in my arms!"
Caroline smiled, her heart suddenly unclenching.
"Really?" she insisted. "You mean it?"
Klaus growled.
"How can you think the contrary for only a second" he scolded almost angry. "Have you any idea since when I'm waiting for this? It was heaven, Caroline, pure heaven."
Caroline smiled again, definitely reassured. She went back in his arms, snuggling into him and Klaus leant to kiss her shoulder.
"So nothing is bothering you?" she whispered from his chest.
Klaus hesitated. But she had been honest with him so the least he could do was to do the same.
"Something is bothering me" he admitted.
Caroline lifted her face to look at him, frowning again.
"What is it?" she asked worriedly.
Klaus hesitated again and instinctively tightened his grip around her.
"I was just worried that you might regret what we had just done" he confessed very slowly.
Caroline suddenly straightened up, her eyes flashing.
"Are you kidding me?" she exclaimed angrily. "Weren't you listening to me a few minutes ago when I told you I spent two weeks crying about you? Do you think I would have slept with you if I wasn't sure about what I feel?"
Klaus looked at her sadly. "Please don't be mad at me love. I just can't say that I'm used to be the chosen one."
Caroline's anger suddenly disappeared in front of the obvious vulnerability of Klaus. He was always so strong and so confident that sometimes she forgot this other side of him. Actually he was just like her she realized. He was desperate to be reassured about her feelings, because he genuinely cared about her.
Klaus was mistaken by her silence.
"I'm sorry Caroline. I don't doubt you. I just care about you so much that I couldn't bear that you might have second thoughts."
Klaus suddenly cradled her face in his hands and kissed Caroline urgently. "I care about you so so much, Caroline, you have no idea what you do to me" he whispered desperately against her lips. "I couldn't bear to lose you now, I couldn't. You drive me crazy Caroline." Klaus poured all his passion in his kisses and Caroline melted against his lips. "I need you Caroline, I need you so much" he murmured feverishly between kisses. His kisses were so hungry and yet so sweet, Caroline moaned in his mouth. She gripped his hair in her hands, pulling him closer to her and kissed him back with as much fervor as she could.
She eventually gently pulled away and this time it was her to take Klaus' face in her hands.
"You have absolutely nothing to worry about" she maintained firmly. "I have no regrets. I wanted this as bad as you did. The only regret I could have is not having done it earlier."
Klaus smiled softly.
"Really?"
Caroline nodded with force.
"Really" she assured. "I care about you Nik. I do. You became really important to me. I know things are not going to be easy between us but I want to give it a shot. You have no idea how much I've missed you during the past few weeks. I'm sure about what I want and what I want is you."
Klaus closed his eyes, trying to process her words. Nobody had ever told him that kind of things. Nobody had ever truly cared about him. The feeling was overwhelming. In a good way.
Klaus kissed Caroline again, very softly this time, savoring the feeling of her eager lips against his. She sighed when he slowly deepened the kiss and this only sound was enough to make him melt. He lay down again, pulling Caroline with him. She nuzzled into him, glad they had cleared things out. Klaus wrapped tightly his arms around her and it was on this very moment that he decided to never let her go.
Caroline suddenly chuckled softly against his chest.
Klaus raised an eyebrow in confusion.
"What is it love?" he asked curiously.
Caroline lifted her face and grinned at him.
"Do you know which day we are?"
Klaus shook his head, genuinely intrigued.
"No"
Caroline chuckled again.
"Today, it's been three months day for day since we have started the deal" she explained. "So technically, I can get rid of you if I want you" she added teasingly.
Klaus growled and tightened his embrace around her until she was crushed against him.
"Change of rules, love. You are not allowed to leave me anymore. Now that you are in my arms, believe me, I'm never going to let you go."
Caroline laughed and gave him a loving kiss.
"Well, that's a good news because I'm not going anywhere" she whispered. "Now that I know what it feels to be in your arms, believe me you have no chance to get rid of me."
Klaus hesitated.
"What about your friends? They are not going to be thrilled. And I don't blame them" he added quickly as Caroline was about to talk.
"No, they are not going to be thrilled" she admitted softly. "But I have made my decision. My friends and my family mean the world to me but I cannot take all my decisions according to them" continued Caroline. "There are some decisions in my life that I need to make for myself and only for myself. And you are one of those decisions. Being with you is a choice that I'm making for myself and for nobody else."
Klaus nodded.
"I understand what you mean and believe me nothing could make me happier than your decision."
Klaus stopped but Caroline felt that he wasn't finished.
"But?" she encouraged him.
Klaus shrugged.
"But I can't help being scared that they can change your mind about me" he admitted with a poor smile. "I know what they mean to you and I don't want you being tearing apart between them and me. You'll be unhappy and if there is something that I don't want, it's this."
Caroline sighed. "I never said it would be easy" she answered honestly. "But as I said, I have made my decision Nik. I'm not going to turn my back on you now."
Klaus leant and kissed her lovingly. "What did I do to deserve such an amazing woman?" he whispered against her lips.
Caroline smiled. "You let me in" she answered simply.
Klaus kissed her again and Caroline put her hands on his jaw to keep him close to her. She eventually pulled away and looked at him suddenly very serious.
"You are not going to hurt them right? My friends?" Caroline's voice was unsure and Klaus noticed it.
"As long as they won't do anything against me, I won't do anything against them. But if they try to kill me, I will defend myself Caroline."
Caroline pursed her lips.
"Fair enough" she admitted. She hesitated.
"And what about Elena?" she asked on a very low voice, avoiding his gaze.
Klaus tensed immediately and Caroline felt it. She froze against him, suddenly scared to have crossed a line. But she had to ask, no matter what. It was too important to her. Klaus felt her sudden anxiety and he gently stroked her back until she relaxed again in his arms. He then rolled on his side so he could face her.
"I have waited one thousand years to make those hybrids Caroline. One thousand years of loneliness. One thousand years feeling like a pariah, because my mother made sure that I was the only one of my kind. One thousand years of craving to finally have a family of my own kind. I have never wanted to hurt Elena on purpose. I just wanted to finally break the curse so I wouldn't be alone ever again. I'm not sure I'm ready to let go of one thousand years of hope and despair."
Klaus closed his eyes. He knew he could lose Caroline right now by being so honest. But he owed her the truth. She deserved it. Caroline was the first one in one thousand year to accept him the way he was and to want to be with him. He couldn't lie to someone who trusted him so much.
Caroline stroked his cheeks again. "Look at me Nik" she asked softly.
Klaus opened his eyes, scared of what he was about to find in Caroline's face. She was serious but not hostile.
"I know why you did what you did. I can't say this is ok because it's not and you know it. You hurt us so bad, Nik. I could never tell you that what you did was ok. But I do tell you that I understand why you did it. But you are not alone anymore. You have me and I'm not going anywhere. And you have Rebekah" Caroline added reluctantly.
In spite of the seriousness of the conversation, Klaus couldn't help but chuckle by hearing Caroline's tone. The two women of his life couldn't stand each other, but he was pretty sure that it could be arrange. They were very similar even if they couldn't see it right now.
"She loves you" Caroline continued "she will always be there for you and so do I. And you have Elijah and Kol. Despite of everything, they still care about you and I'm sure you can fix things with them. "
Caroline hesitated but she kept going. "You do know that the hybrids have nothing to do with a family. They are with you because of the sire bond and not because they care about you. Rebekah and I, we are with you because we care about you. Isn't it more important and more meaningful?"
Klaus remained silent for a moment.
"Of course it is more meaningful" he admitted. "But I'm scared that one day, you or Rebekah might change your mind and I'll be alone again."
Caroline cradled his face into her hands and kissed him.
"This is a risk you need to take Nik. Once you care about someone you take the risk to lose them. There is no insurance against that. The hybrids can't be your insurance. You have to trust me enough to believe that I won't leave you. I know it's hard for you but will you try? For me?"
Caroline was now pleading him and just by looking her puppy eyes, he knew he couldn't deny her anything. And she was right. How could he content himself with some sired hybrids after having known the feeling to be with someone who truly cared about him? Leaning to press his forehead against hers, Klaus gave in.
"Ok, you win sweetheart. No more hybrids."
Caroline grinned.
"Really?"
Klaus thought that he would do anything to see her grinned at him like this.
"Yes, really"
Caroline threw herself in his arms and kissed him passionately. The kiss quickly heated up and Klaus rolled to cover Caroline's body with his.
"Can we stop the whole serious conversation thing now?" he asked on a husky voice. "I really need to make love to you right now."
Caroline didn't answer but the way she kissed him was enough for him.
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