chapter one
She wore a dress, her hand improved the crumpled material and then combed hair. She looked around looking for her shoes. Then the gaze fell on the man who was laying in the bed. She bit her lips.
"It was mistake." She thought." I am not a whore…but why did I sleep with him? You know why you did it, you need his money and you don't have another choice. But I can't, I just… Fuck, stop thinking, just stop it."
She moved to another room and found her shoes. She reached for her beg and headed to the door.
She hesitated and came back to the room, she grabbed his jacket and searched his pockets.
"You will not find it here."
She jumped. White haired man who was wearing only black tight jeans, leaned against the bedroom door. He pierced her with his eyes and smiled mockingly.
"I didn't know that your services are paid."
She stood with his jacket, slowly recovered from the shock.
"This was not a service." She hissed. Yes she wanted to rob him, but she wasn't a whore. Right? This was just a moment of a weakness and a big mistake.
"Really?" He slowly walked toward her. Instinctively, she began to retreat.
"I beg your pardon, but you are looking for my wallet."
She realized that she still had his jacket in her hands. She threw it on the sofa.
"Listen… Gilbert." She hesitated for a moment. She wasn't sure if it was his name, but he didn't improve her, so she wanted to continue.
"And you will be explained yourself." He sneered.
"No, I just want to explain a small misunderstanding." Her back hit the wall, there was no way to escape.
"Misunderstanding? I understand that you didn't try to rob me, you only touched my jacket like you touched me?"
"Do not flatter yourself."
"And you stop taking me as an idiot!" He shouted suddenly. Sophie was scared, but then she felt anger.
"You want me to admit that I wanted to rob you. Good, I wanted to do that. Happy?"
"So, you cheated, first you slept with me and then you happily rummaged my stuff in searched money. You know how people name women who sleep with someone for money?"
"This, what happened between us was a mistake. It wasn't planned."
"It wasn't planned? What? Then…" Suddenly she saw that he understood. "Ah, now I understand. You wanted that elegant guy from the bar not me…am I right?"
"You can say that…" She barely supressed the anger. She could feel her face burning.
"Well actually you failed, since you fucked with me not with that guy, bit…"
She slapped him in the face. A dry crack sounded incredibly loud.
"Fuck you." Sophie growled, pulling the door handle and disappeared in the night.
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She locked the door quietly and took off her shoes.
Suddenly the light flashed, blinding her for a while.
"You slink like a thief."
At the table in a tiny kitchen, wearing tight skirt and a white wig was sitting the owner of this apartment, Bell. She had come back from work.
Bell was a prostitute and the only friend of Sophie and when she needed a place to stay she didn't say no.
"I tried to be a thief, but I am not good at it."
"That elegant guy from the bar, didn't catch the bait?"
Sophie closed her eyes at the memory of last night. It had to wait.
"No, but I will keep trying."
"I don't like it." Bell muttered, taking off her wing. Her short blond strand were in a mess.
Again the same. Bell looked in Sophies' eyes.
"No, well I am sorry about that. But I need those money and you know that."
"Don't you understand that it can be dangerous. Someone can catch you."
Sophie imagined the picture of furious Gilbert, she tried pushed it away from her memory.
"Don't worry about it. I will be all right." She whispered through gritted teeth.
"Anyone can harm, rape or kill you in a dark alley!" Bell continued. "Why can't you get a normal job?"
"Like you? Sophie said and immediately regretted it.
"Bell, I..I am sorry, I did not want to…"
"…say what I am. I know who I am Sophie. And you, you ended the university, you can change everything."
"Bell, I can't…"
"I just worry about you."
Sophie grabbed Bells' hand
"No need to worry, I am an adult, you know."
"Listen, I know what Sadik did to you. If I got that bastard in my hands…" She was silent for a moment. "Your leaving was the best thing you could do. But in the world are many assholes like him, bullies, rapists, murderers. And I know you know it. " She said quickly, because Sophie was opening her mouth. "And you are provoking them. You are cheating on them, trying to rob them. Maybe you can win with drank idiots, but what if you meet the second Sadik. What then?"
Sophie was silent. She was looking at her hands intensely. And then she looked straight into Bells' eyes.
"It will not last long, I need the money and I cannot stay anywhere permanently, I can't work, not yet."
"Soph, when it comes to money…"
"You've done enough for me, I promise, I will try one last time with that guy from the bar."
"Sophie…"
"One last time and I can start a new life. Away from the past." She smiled lightly. Bell sighed.
"I hope you know what you are doing."