Sorry for the huge delay, but my internet was down for weeks! Thanks for all the awesome reviews and favorites and alerts! They mean so much! So some of you guessed right, Beck got a Tattoo! Um, yeah, anyone see the new promo for Tori goes Platinum! I made a weird squeaking noise when Beck and Tori leaned in to kiss! Let's just hope BORI finally happens!
"What the hell did we do last night Tori!" I heard Beck say on the other side of the line. I guess he must have woken up with a hangover, like me, and gotten up to have a shower and discovered a plaster on his lower abdomen, just like I had.
I had woken up to my eye balls seemingly pulsating in their sockets, and a nasty ache in my head. I turned over, shutting my eyes tightly to prevent the light from hurting them more. I blindly felt around my bedside table for the aspirins I know Jade put there. When I found them, I swallowed them whole and slowly pulled myself up and out of my bed. Before I headed off to the bathroom, I checked to make sure that Beck wasn't naked somewhere in my room. When I didn't find him anywhere, I felt kind of disappointed. I shook my head, which was a bad idea, and banished the thought out of my head. Beck was a friend and nothing more. I walked over to my bathroom, with difficulty seeing as I was squinting. I splashed cool water on my face, relishing in the slight wave of normality that came with it. Standing upright, I noticed a pinching feeling on my lower abdomen, just above my hip. I squinted down and saw a large white plaster. I gently rubbed my fingers across its surface, before swiftly pulling it off. I took in a sharp hiss of pain, before looking down at the place where the plaster was.
My eyes struggled to focus on the words that had been permanently drawn onto my skin. When my eyes did adjust, I let out a scream and ran to my room picking up my phone dialing a number I knew off by heart. But before I could say a word, he asked.
"What the hell did we do last night Tori!"
"So I guess you saw the tattoo?"
"You have one too!"
"Yes, I'm still in shock!"
"What does yours say?"
"Umm, it's a tattoo of your name! I'm assuming that yours is my name!"
"Yeah, look I'm coming over." And with that he hung up.
I dropped my phone on my bed and looked down at the beautiful letters written in plain, black ink, in calligraphy that read "Beck"
'Oh boy…' I still hadn't figured out my feeling for him. I can think of all these overly used clichés and cheesy lines to describe the way I feel about him, but I just can't put my feelings into true, honest words. I love him that much I am sure of. But I can't figure out if it is that family type of love or that epic type of love. There's a lot of reasons I like hanging out with him for, but could those reasons have a deeper meaning too them? I am attracted to him, there's no denying that he isn't hot, but here I am again thinking that it's just because of his looks. It's not his smile, which makes his eyes crinkle. Or his rough hands that feel strange and amazing against my skin. Or his warm breath that tickles my throat when he kisses my neck… No, it's none of that, right? But Damien made me feel all those ways too.
The thing is, I like Beck and his kisses that shatter my world and make my head spin and make me feel as if I'm caught in an avalanche of lust and sweetness and Beckness. I like his unique sandy, wet jean smell that wafts into my nose when we hug and makes me feel warm and fuzzy. I like his soft hair that my fingers run so easily through. I like his voice that vibrates through my body when he speaks and his eyes that seem to see apart of me that I clearly don't. I just like Beck, not love. Not now, not ever. But that's a lie a complete and utter lie. I was falling for him, fast and hard and hopelessly. Like a brick being dropped out a fifty story building, I was going to hit the ground fast. But then on he other hand I love Damien, and I know if I start something with the guy that should have been mine long ago, that he'll just land up being my rebound and I'll always ask myself the same question; "What if I went after Damien?".
I wouldn't do that to Beck, or myself, I will just have to set the boundaries and prevent us from doing more idiotic things. Seriously, who in their right mind gets a tattoo of their best friend's name?
That's when I started panicking again, I picked up my phone and sent a text to Jade, telling her it was a 911 and she needed to be here in an hour.
I started pacing my room, thinking of any explanation I could give my parents if they ever saw Becks name printed on my body. I was stopped mid-pace by a pair of warm hands that were on my shoulders. I spun around to face Beck, who took a deep breath.
"How did we get tattoos?"
I shrugged, walking over to my bed and sitting down, he sat down nest to me and I gently pushed up his shirt to see tattoo that was very much like mine, except it said "TORI" and not "BECK".
"I umm…" I tried to clear my foggy memory. "I remember making-out on the side of the road and walking down the street by that mall."
A slight blush colored his cheeks. "I, ah, remember that too. Then I remember walking into the mall and that's where I black out."
"Look, Beck we can sit here and try to remember something that we never will, or we can try to find a place o get the tattoos removed."
He sighed. "That's the thing Tor; I don't want to have it removed. I liked kissing you last night, I liked last night, and I like the idea of having your name with me forever. I've been trying to tell you this stuff for months. I adore you, and I want to be with you and I think I might lo-"
I put my fingers on his mouth, stopping him. "Please Beck, don't say that. I just broke up with Damien; I can't let you say that."
"Okay, I won't say it, but Tori, please, please understand where I am coming from. I get that you don't like labels and all, but please just open your eyes to what has been standing in front of you. All those guys broke your heart, but I won't. I get that you need time to adjust to all of this, but I at least deserve a chance. You don't have to say or do anything you don't want to. I just, I'm actually going to beg you to give me a chance."
The look on his face, coupled with my earlier thoughts made it all much harder for me. Should I give us a chance, even with the thoughts of Damien running through my head?
"No labels, no names, no promises." I whispered, for his sake, this was for his sake, and maybe even for my own.
"Deal." Was all he whispered and then his lips were on mine. He pushed me back down onto my bed and climbed on top of me. His mouth was hot and sensual and amazing. He was rough and soft at the same time as his tongue pushed into my mouth and fought my tongue. His hands gripped the hem of my shirt and pulled it above my head. He stops for a second and looks down at me as if contemplating if he's doing the right thing. To help him along, I graze my hands over his back, and force his mouth back onto mine. I slip my hands under his shirt and trace every contour of his muscled chest. He slips his pants off and I take the moment to brush my fingers across my name on him. Beck shivers under my touch, and rips my pants off with a new desire to have me, right then and there. And I let him, I let him rock back and forth in a slow, mesmerizing motion that leaves me tingling from head to toe. I allow him to place hot open-mouthed kisses across my chest, and I allow myself to tangle my hands in his hair and kiss him if there was no tomorrow.
When we finish, and he holds me in his arms, I know that I did wrong. But I did it all for him. I helped him after his break up with Jade, I fixed him. Now, I'm lonely and he can fix me, he will fix me. But I realized again, that I keep on doing stupid things and if I'm not careful, I'll land up breaking my best friends' heart.
Well, I feel that this chapter sucked… Any thoughts. This was just to show case that Tori is not really over Damien, and is trying to make herself feel less lonely by being with Beck. I want Beck to be the one that has to fix her, and make her fall in love with him. They will be doing more stupid things, and that's how Tori is going to realize that she loves Beck… Please review… And lets all hold thumbs for a Bori Kiss!