A/N: Hey guys! Second Chapter! Okay, so I got a comment on the story asking me to clear some things up and such. Anyways, Roxas isn't as depressed as he seems to be in chapter 1! He's really not. He's unsure of everything. He smiles, but he's not as happy as he seems but also, he's not all that depressed. He just doesn't know how to handle things now! When he stated the thing about Zex and Dem being cute together that's just a confidence outburst. You see, the way I made my Roxas out to be in this story, is confident, a little cocky, and depressed a little, but can't seem to accept it. And the main pairing is still unsure. As I was writing the first chap, I was thinking Rox/Zex then I'm like...maybe AkuRoku. But I decided against AkuRoku because most of my stories so far are AkuRoku. And it can't be Rox/Dem cuz Zex and Dem are going. And just to clear up one of the questions asked: It CANNOT be Rox/Sor cuz Sora's Roxas's brother. But you get to find out what happened later on. I refuse to give it away. Anyways, the couple maybe will be AkuRoku or if anyone else has an idea, please tell me. BTW: Just to clear up any confusion you might have during this chapter, the month is December. It's currently about a week from Christmas. The date is December 14th. This chap's gonna be a flashback and a very important part of the story. So, anyways, please review and enjoy! ^_^
Mar...Mar-something was his name. He told me so. He told me I could trust him. But...he just killed my parents. I'm lying on the ground. I feel like I'm falling apart. I can't move, everything hurts. My back burns, and I'm bleeding from a lot of places. And now, I've also become a bad brother. And that hurts more then the pain I'm in. He's raping Sora now. I've failed as a brother. I promised him I'd always save him, always be there when he needed it. But now, He needs me. But I can't get up. I-I can't. But, can I really not at least try? I have my voice but I'll have to wait for the perfect time to use it.
"No! I don't want this!" I screamed at the top of my lungs, as much as my 12 year old voice would allow. The man I trusted more then my own parents laughed, his pink hair bouncing as he slammed into me harder and harder each time. Tears were streaming down my blood stained face. This man, this man that I loved as a brother, had killed my mom and dad and Sora's bleeding really badly on the bed. I have to save him! It's my chance! If I do this, the man said he'd leave without killing me and Sora, just rape us... I had to do this, no matter how reluctant I was. It may hurt but...He's my little brother! I have to save him even if I die!
I closed my mouth and sucked my lips into my mouth so I could stop screaming. This was for Sora, for Sora... After that, everything went black.
Or so I thought. I woke up half way through, the pink haired boy pulling me up by my hair. He was only 2 years older then me! How could he even manage to do this? But...I guess it doesn't matter. All that matters now is Sora's safety. Sora's safety...
As fast as he yanked me awake, he threw me onto the bed, bumping into my brother. We both moaned in pain and agony. The pink-haired bastard, who was only 14!, smirked and came up to me, whispering something into my ear, so quiet not even Sora could hear.
"Well Roxas...at least now you'll learn not to trust everyone you think is trustworthy and you don't have to worry about being good enough for your parents." My heart ached at the statement. It was true, now, I don't think I could trust anyone except Sora. And I was kind of, and I'm ashamed of this, happy my parents are now deceased.
As the teen was preparing to leave, he addressed me and Sora.
"I called an ambulance. I'm only letting you live because Roxas was such a good boy in the end. And, if you tell anyone about who did this...I will not hesitate to kill you both. I'll see one of you very, very soon." He closed the door and locked it from the outside before we heard his boots tromp away and out of the house. Once the back door slammed closed, the front door was pounded open and soon enough, police were bursting down the door to my parents room, where we were, and me and Sora were soon on an ambulance to the nearest hospital.
When I woke up, I was in the hospital. I was allowed to get up because apparently the only reason I was here was because I had been asleep for 3 days and I had some pretty bad bruises. I asked to see my little brother Sora. They allowed me, but I instantly regretted asking. Sora was laying on a bed, hooked up to so many machines I couldn't count. He was 8 years old! How could this happen? The nurse came in a few minutes later, telling me Sora may never wake up. I told her to keep him alive, to keep trying, that'd I'd pay for it. I made an agreement with the hospital and soon, was paying for Sora's hospital bills and my living.
Ugh! Dammit! I need to focus on class right now, not my problems! I shouted to myself mentally after 'waking up' from the memory.
I lifted my arm up onto my desk and leaned on my hand. Yup, I hated math. I mean, what was the point? Seeing a bunch of wacked up thingy's called numbers and adding them and such. No. Fucking. Point. And no matter how much I try I can never stop myself from daydreaming during math, you know?
"Roxas. What is z minus seventy-four times pi if z equals two-point-seven?"
Oh. Crap. Did he have to call on me? Well, at least I'm good at math, even though it sucks.
"Minus two hundred, twenty-nine point sixty-six." I answered easily. My new teacher looked surprised.
"C-Correct." He stuttered, still awestruck. I looked at the clock. Oops. Guess I should have answered in under a minute without working out the problem. I hope I don't get offered a ticket straight to collage again. I'm still paying off my debt for...S-my brother. Yeah, I'll just say my brother. But, anyways. I just shrugged, answering, kinda, my teachers skeptical looks.
Eventually I got out of my first class and sighed. Ugh. I wish I was out of school already. I didn't have work tonight and I was looking forward to being at the beach all night again. I feel...calm there. As I was walking to my next class, I saw Zexion again. He came up to me and smiled a little.
"Hey Roxas." He started as we continued walking. I nodded my greeting as well.
"How was your first class?" I groaned and he chuckled.
"It was terrible." I muttered. Ugh, did I hate math.
"I had math." I finished. He stopped and looked at me, with wide eyes.
"With which teacher?" He asked. I rolled my eyes and started walking again.
"Dr. Ansem. I don't have anything against him, I just hate math. That's all there is to it. Why?" I asked. He must've had some reason to ask. He shook his head.
"Just wondering. Because I was about to say, if you had math with Dr. Vexen then Axel would have also been in your class because he didn't take math is his Sophomore year, last year, so he has to take it this year, his Junior year." Zexion stated. So, Axel's a year older?
"So, Axel's a year older?" I asked, speaking the question I had on my mind.
"No, he's actually 2 years older, he should be a senior. But he failed his Freshman year and had to retake it." Zexion told me. I nodded. Wow. There's a lot of things I have yet to learn about my new found friends. Thinking of...there's something I should ask.
"Do you have any other friends?" I asked, now feeling guilty for being so outright. He laughed and nodded.
"Yeah, actually. Me, Axel, and Demyx were going to introduce you at lunch, that okay?" He asked, thinking I was offended for them not asking me first. I nodded, then smiled a little. But, that memory was still plaguing my mind right now. I keep thinking of what he meant by, "I'll see one of you very, very soon." My head hurts from thinking about it so much. Ugh.
"What's your net class, Roxas?" Zexion asked, snapping me out of my thoughts.
"O-Oh. I have..." I looked at the schedule I held in my hand.
"I have History. What about you?" I asked. He smiled.
"History." After he answered we started to compare our schedules. Apparently, on Tuesday's and Thursday's I have Math with Axel, On Monday, Wednesday's, and Friday's I have History and Language Arts with Zexion, and On Monday's and Thursday's I have Art, Music, and Chemistry with Demyx and then I have only Gym by myself all days. My exact Monday schedule says,
Monday Schedule:
1st Block: Math - Dr. Ansem
2nd Block: History - Mr. Luxord
3rd Block: Chemistry - Mr. Saix
LUNCH
4th Block: Art - Ms. Namine
5th Block: Language Arts - Mrs. Yuna
6th Block: Gym - Mr. Tidus
7th Block: Music - (Taught by Students With Teachers) Demyx and Ms. Namine
Me and Zexion walked the rest of the way to class, and sat through the entire lecture/introduction of the new student, me, and soon, we would head to lunch. I just hoped lunch would come soon. I wanted to meet some new people. After meeting these 3 crazy lunatics...I actually feel something other than nothing. Rather than nothing. It was...amazing? Incredible? I'm not sure but, even though I've only known them for a little while...it seems like I've known them forever...
Finally, me and Zexion got excused from class and no sooner I had to track down Demyx. Zexion wants me to get to know both Axel and Demyx really well, so, I guess I better try hanging out with the two alone.
As I walked down the hall, searching for the mullet-haired teen, I saw a flash of...pink. No. No, No, No, NO! It couldn't be him! Could it...? No. I guess it's that memory haunting me again. Ugh. When am I going to get over this? Why does it still bother me? Past shrinks have told me not to think like this, saying it's not my fault it bothers me. But I never did believe what those doctors said. After all, they told me Sora would never wake up...and he did. Why should I believe what they say?
Soon, I finally ran into Demyx and me and him are finally walking down the hall to Chemistry.
"So, Roxas." He starts, obviously trying to start a conversation.
"Yeah?" I ask. I knew he was going to finish anyways, I just thought I'd ask the question.
"I know it's personal and I haven't known you very long...buuuuuut...can you tell me a little about why you moved here? You don't have to tell me everything! I'm just...curious." He states. Well, I don't have to give him the whole truth.
"When I lived in...the town I was at before..." I started, trying my hardest to sound nonchalant. "There was only one place that would hire me for work. Now, I'm not going to tell you why I had to work right now, but anyways, they ran out of business about 2-3 months ago. So, once I finished my Freshman year there, I started to pack up and get ready to move. And, here I am." I finished and gestured to myself. Demyx chuckled and slung an arm around my shoulder.
"When I get to know you better, will you tell me the whole reason you came here?" He asked, smirking slightly. My eyes widened. How did he..? "I know that's not the whole story and I know you won't tell me the whole story at the current moment. But, I just hope someday you will." He said, sounding as if he didn't have a care in the world. My eyes widened. It was amazing. How could someone you just meet make you feel so special, so loved as a friend a peer, to say something as gentle, as loving (in a brotherly way), as that? I nodded and smiled, a few tears in my eyes.
"Of course Demyx." I said, pure sincerity in my voice. He just smiled back.
Eventually we finally made it to Chemistry and after my introduction again, was assigned to be Demyx's lab partner. Well, at least that's cool, I guess.
FINALLY! In my old school I loved Chemistry! Now, this is suckish! didn't teach us hardly anything and then tested us on what he supposedly "taught" us. Bull shit he taught us anything. Well, at least it's time for lunch.
"So, Roxas...how'd you like Chem?" Demyx asked, curiously. I sighed deeply and frustratedly.
"Horrible." I stated. He started to laugh.
"Yeah, always talks either too fast or too quiet for us to actually learn anything!" He laughed. I smiled a little. That was true. First he talked really fast and when he slowed down, he was too quiet. Ugh.
"Either way I'm probably gonna fail this class unless I read the entire Chem book myself." I stated. As soon as Demyx agreed, Axel, I believe, bumped into us to come with us to get Zexion and go meet their friends in the cafeteria.
After a little wondering around we found him and began our way to the Cafeteria. As soon as we stepped in there, I suddenly had a bad feeling. I knew something was wrong here. Now, I'm not sure what it is, all I know is it's bad news.
"You okay, Roxas?" Axel asked. I nodded a little shakily. He looked unsure but nodded and opened his mouth again. "Do you buy lunch? Or not eat?" He asked. I looked up at him and he smiled a little.
"I usually don't eat, but I guess I can. But I don't have any money with me. If you have enough could you buy for me and I pay you back tomorrow?" I asked, a little guilty. I didn't want to borrow money. I really didn't. But, if I don't want to seem weird I guess I'll have to eat. He raised his hands in surrender.
"Hey, it's cool. You don't have to pay me back." He stated. I smiled a little.
"No. I'll pay you back. I've always payed back my debt. I'm not going to change now." I stated. He smirked.
"Fine. But...you better let me buy you a lunch sometime. Without you paying me back!" He shouted playfully. I smiled.
"Sure, Axel." I agreed. He smiled and clapped his hands together.
"Cool! Okay, Dem you buying today? I know Zex is but are you?" Axel asked Demyx. Demyx shook his head.
"Nope." He stated. "I'm not eating today. Ate a big breakfast. I'll find our table and save you 3 seats, 'kay?" Demyx clarified. Axel nodded.
"'Kay. See ya in a minute." Axel replied. After they finished, Demyx walked off and we walked into the lunch line.
After walking though the lunch line and Axel paying for both of our lunches, we walked towards where Demyx was waving frantically. We soon reached him and I waited to sit until after I get introduced to everyone.
"Okay, Roxas." Zexion started. "That." He pointed to a girl with blond hair with two antenna? looking things spiked out of her hair. "Is Larxene." He stated. "That." He pointed to a man messing with a deck of cards, "Is Luxord."He pointed to another person, "That, is Vexen." Another different person, "That's Xaldin and that there," He pointed to someone wearing an eyepatch, "Is Xigbar. Though, one of our friends hasn't arrived yet. He should be here in-" He was cut off by a voice sounding behind me.
"I'm right here." The man stated. I didn't turn. I was in shock. No. No. It couldn't be. It COULDN'T! IT JUST CAN'T BE! "And hello," He whispered the next part in my ear, "Roxas." BANG! There was a clatter. I dropped my plate.
"Roxas! What did you do?" Axel asked. "What's wrong?" He asked worriedly. I shook my head, my eyes wide. I slowly turned my head around to see...Marluxia. The one who raped me only a few years prior. He said it. He said he'd see me again. I-I didn't know he meant it! I turned completely around, still in shock.
"How?" I hissed out. I barley even managed that. He smirked. He whispered in my ear again.
"I told you I'd see you again." Was all he said. Tears came to my eyes.
"You fucking bastard." I didn't bother to whisper this. Zexion, Demyx, and Axel gasped. "You ruined everything. Everything. I hope you know, because of you, Sora may have never woken up." I choked/sobbed out. Zexion's eyes have long since gone wide. Marluxia's eyes widened.
"Really?" He asked, actually concerning. That scared me.
"Really. I had to- Do you know what I had to do just to pay for that?" I shouted in his face. "No! No you don't!" I finished. Tears were poring down my face. He looked sad.
"I-I'm sorry." He whispered. I didn't hear him. I couldn't have.
"What?" I asked, not a note of sympathy in my voice. He took a deep breathe.
"I'm so sorry, Roxas." He said, tears were in his eyes. Mine widened.
"You liar." I hissed. He looked shocked that I said such a thing.
"Okay, what the fuck is going on Marly?" Axel asked, kind of sounding worried. Marluxia looked over my shoulder at Axel then back at me.
"Can we talk about this outside?" Marluxia whispered to me. My eyes widened.
"What?" I whispered back, "So you can rape me again?" I whispered. He shook his head.
"No." He stated in a normal tone. "We need to talk about this." He stated. "And I don't think you want these people to hear us anymore then they have." He whispered the rest. I reluctantly agreed.
"Zexion." I said in a normal voice. He nodded. "I'm going to talk to...this person in private for a while. Okay? I promise I'll be back in a minute." I state. He nods reluctantly. And then, me and Marluxia walked out of the Cafeteria.