ZIN: Leader in a Mental Breakdown

5th chapter…huh? I am amazed! I haven't done this in a while but…Pein since this is your very own chapter why don't you tell them?

Pein: She doesn't own anything, and is not making a profit of this. She wishes she was though.

Me: Very much! Anyway, Thanks Pein! I love you!

Pein: Yeah Yeah Love you too

Me: *Smiles and hugs Pein*

(the first part is INSIDE of Pein's mind! His inner thoughts and feelings)

This was becoming unbearable; all this depression was eating away at me. I can't believe this happened, I was suppose to be the leader…I was suppose to be in control of the situation! But, now I don't know, I don't feel much like the leader anymore. I feel like a child or a puppy being kicked. Now looking at all my fellow Akatsuki members…The ones that followed my orders, they all look stronger then me. I try not to cry, but I can't help it. The tears try to form; I continue to bat them away. I was mentally breaking down I was thinking of suicide, of death. Maybe if I kill myself then the zombies can't get me anymore. They can't harm me! But…What kind of leader would I be if I kill myself and leave my team to suffer on their owns. But if I do commit suicide, if it do "Pull the plug" and die, then maybe they will all be ok! Everything will be ok…Everything…NO! I can't. They will all think lowly of me. Think I am a coward…But I am. I am just a coward, I can't be the leader. I am just a shell of what the old Pein use to be; now I am just a broken man. Then zombies have not managed to actually eat me, but they have managed to eat away at my pride and conscience. I curl up into a ball, as a shadow of myself laughs at me. The zombies stumble forward and bite into my neck, my legs, my arms…I scream bloody murder, but no one seems to hear my screams. The world around me turns black, and I am just standing alone. I can't see, so I stagger forward and hit a wall. I push off that wall and bump into another wall, claustrophobia sets in, and I can't breathe. I can't talk! I can't scream out for help. A light turns on and I am facing a mirror, the reflection shocks me. I am a zombie, blood running out my mouth as I moan. The mirror cracks as I finally scream, blood seeping from the cracks in the broken mirror. The floor breaks away, and I am falling. "HELP ME! SOMEONE PLEASE!" I scream helplessly, and then the world turns black again. I am once again alone, twitching and crying in fear. No one to comfort me in this dark place. I turn around the rest of the Akatsuki are all zombies…They are grinning at me.

"Join us Pein…Let us bite you. Become one of us." I scream. I scream until my throat hurts then I continue to scream. They walk toward me, their sadistic grins never faltering. They reach out for me, scratching my eyes out. Ripping away at my throat, they sink their teeth into my flesh and I can already feel the poison inside me. I keep screaming at them, but they are unaffected by my screams. The screams turn into broken sobs, and the infection turns those sobs into moans. My skin pales…It's all over.

_OUTSIDE OF PEIN'S THOUGHTS_

I pull my knees to my chest and cry into my knees. This situation has managed to turn me into a coward, Konan stares at me, her eyes filled with worry. I pay her no mind though, I am too busy crying. The other Akatsuki members ignore my crying, most of they, are crying too. We have all been beaten down by this, mentally, and physically. I have never really cried before, but now I am sobbing and weeping like a child. Konan tries to comfort me, cradle me in her arms like a small child. But her efforts have been in vain.

We have no more food, no more water. We need to leave so we can survive, but to tell you the truth I am too scared too. I would rather die of dehydration or starvation then leave the safety of this room. Never have I felt so defeated, never have I felt like crying and sobbing was the only thing I could do. But since the zombies have arrived and we have been stuck in here, just awaiting our deaths…With that thought in mind I cried myself asleep. That's when the nightmares crept into my mind…When the fear ate me alive.

_BACK INSIDE PEIN'S MIND (HIS NIGHTMARE) _

I opened my eyes slowly, blood on the floor. Konan's body lying lifelessly in front of me, bite marks littered her arms and legs. I stared at her face, but I could only see red. I glanced down at my hands to see they were pale, blood spots all over. I looked back at her body, I HAD DONE THIS. Had I bitten into her? Ripped away at her flesh? I certainly didn't feel the need to eat flesh, but I knew I had done something to her. She was like a sister to me, and I killed her. Tears slipped down my cheeks and I crawled to her body, took her hand in mine. She had no pulse, but she was moaning. Her mouth hanging agape, teeth broken and chipped, she truly looked dead. Why? How could I have done this? I wasn't an Undead; she was trying to eat me. She lunged forward, and I screamed, trying to pull my hand out of hers. I couldn't, her grip was too strong. So I let out a scream and reached for a nearby weapon, I grabbed a piece of wood and drove in into her head. She groaned and fell back to the floor; I pulled my hand away from her and cried. I crawled away from her and sobbed, my hands were covered in her blood. I crawled farther from her body and something grabbed me, it latched onto my arm and sunk its teeth into me. I screamed loudly, but no one heard me. I was alone, to face the infected by myself…Alone.

Sorry to end this chapter like this, but OHH WELL! Anyway Hope you Liked it and Pein was OOC (Sorry again) I am really tired. I did this chapter and the next one…It is only 2 in the morning. I need to get some rest and rest my fingers! They are aching x(

Oh and I might be adding some new characters…Any ideas who I should add? Review and tell me! I might continue with Pein in a later chapter.(Again sorry if he was OOC)

Thanks for reading