Hurricane.
You're standing in my doorway, though he's asleep in my bed.
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Light fell through the window of Rin's average sized bedroom. She expected that he would pay her a visit soon as he always did around this time. A quiet sigh left her as she turned in the soft cotton sheets of her bed. He always seemed to make her nervous. Of course he had always been in her life but things were different now that he was sick. The visits became more and more frequent and it seemed that he was preparing to die, that he was preparing her for his death. Rin bit her lip and squeezed her eyes shut. She was praying for sleep to come and take her from reality. She didn't want to watch her father die. She did not want to watch her mother lose him again. Riko always had a cheerful face on; she was always trying to be brave. How could Rin leave her when the time for college came? Rin felt her eyelids start to feel heavier on her already closed eyes and drifted away.
The touch was warm and soft against her bare arm. Could it already be dawn? It could not be when she had only closed her eyes for rest for what only seemed like moments. There was this unquestioned feeling of doubt in the pit of her stomach, it was cold and irritating. Those eyes had changed she observed as she turned around to look at him, her father. His cheeks had begun to sink until the bones were clearly seen. Yet, there was the smile that she had always known him to have with his teeth white and charisma shining. She turned her eyes away from him and could feel her throat tighten, her breaths began to quiver like shutters during a wind storm, and her eyes sparkled with tears not yet shed. He chuckled lightly and began to rub her back.
"You shouldn't have come all the way out here." she told him.
"I wanted to see you." his voice had a rasp to it's normal chocolate and she laughed along with him bitterly while willing herself to sit up and throw herself in his arms. She couldn't take it anymore as she felt his warm arms wrap around her, she could feel how thin he had become when her arms encircled him easily. She listened to his steady breathing and heart beat. Oh, how she had missed him. Oh, how she would miss even more when he was gone. Riko had her back to the wall of the hallway. She knew this had not been easy for her daughter. She knew that her choice in her father had hurt her many times over the years. How selfish she had been in falling in love with him. Riko knew that she had hurt all of them.
It had been a rainy morning, the atmosphere of the entire day had been set up to become a dreadful one. Riko had walked into her college class late and attempted to prove her stealth by not being noticed by the watchful professor. Her effort was of no use as she heard her name being shouted across the room by an all to familiar voice. Immature as always she turned with a frown and loud sigh of disappointment.
"Riko, way to show up twenty minutes late for class." he laughed at her. This earned the pair of them detention and extra classwork. She glared at him while he only smiled at her throughout the entire time. Somewhere in between she found that her scowl turned into a grin as he too smiled back at her.
She wiped the tears quickly thinking fondly of the memory. That had been the moment in which she fell for a man she was destined not to have. She knew it, something told her that he had a bigger destiny. She had gone against what her mind told her and taken his heart. This was not intentional, it just so happened that they had stolen each others hearts. It was like magnets that could not stay away from each other. Riko never expected him to stray from the path laid out by his parents. In matters concerning them he had always bowed and been an obedient child before. There was only one time he attempted to go against there wishes. Riko shook her head and peeked in the doorway. She went unnoticed by the father and daughter. He was rocking Rin in his arms holding her like a precious swan as she sobbed into him. His chin rested atop her head. The tears that streamed down his face were silent against the peaceful smile on his lips. Turning back with her back to the wall she sunk wrapped her arms around her knee. Lifting her gaze to the ceiling she could feel the string of tears that threatened to fall.
"Riko...I love you." he whispered in her ear.
"I love you too, Kouta." she told him, following by smoothing his black suit with her hands. The suit fit him perfectly all the lines falling perfectly over his long limbs. Riko couldn't take her eyes away from his hazel gaze, tears fought the way up to her eyes and she laughed a little to force them back. She wanted to mess up his perfectly slicked back brown hair and press her hand to his soft freshly shaved cheeks. Riko held herself back from throwing herself into his arms, from breathing him in. This was it there was no more chances. It was over, she knew as she turned and walked away from him. She felt his hand wrap around her wrist and pull her into him. She didn't want to lose him, she wanted him to be hers forever.
"Please Riko..." he looked into her eyes with absolute longing and fear. Voices filled the hallway, he quickly pulled her into a changing room. It was small and cramped, it was more like a closet with a chair, mirror, and a shelf. They were so close only inches between their faces. It was unconventional, passionate, their first time, and the last time.
After the crying ceased Rin looked at her father and smiled. She was still terrified to lose him but she knew that she had to make their time count.
"Now that the crying is over. What does my princess want to do?" he asked. Rin played with her fingers and looked around thinking about what she wanted to do.
"I was thinking that you should meet my boyfriend." her attitude changed to fumbling her fingers in her lap. Kouta looked down at his daughter with a smile and removed his hand from her back.
"I'd like nothing more." he stood and looked out to the sunrise.
"It's going to be a beautiful day." Riko appeared in the door way with arms crossed . She looked him over and smiled while noting that his beauty was still intact. The thought that she was now just a writer who lived with her daughter crossed her mind. Would he still find her beautiful? Could it be that he only saw her hair held in a low and homely ponytail instead of the young woman that he had cried for on his wedding day? Was she now in his eyes a hermit, a reclusive writer whom ran for the hills after she'd lost him. Kouta looked at her seeing her just as he had in that changing room. Riko had been the most beautiful woman that he'd ever met. He had completely nonperishable love and longing when it came to this woman. She was the only one he would allow to give him a child. He had already wronged her once and he promised that he never would again.
Riko smiled at him and he felt undeniable peace flow through him. The fact that she had been able to build such a wonderful life, it made him love her more. In love with another woman and still he was completely faithful to his wife. He needed to be because he had willing made the vow to his wife. It didn't matter that he didn't love her, it was all business and business was ,well, a cold game. He knew that Riko had a hard time during his entire marriage and at first she didn't understand why he had married the woman his parents chose but, it only took time.
"If you guys want to make it up to the valley before the sun comes up completely you're going to have to drive fast." Rin watched her mother turn into the next room and then they'd both heard the door shut. She couldn't understand the dynamic of her parent's relationship. They had lied to her. In this version of her conception, it was just a drunken night between two very confused friends. The two remained close friends and chose to go on living their lives separately. It wasn't even too complete of a lie.
"Well, we don't want to miss it." Kouta smiled to his daughter before going downstairs.
"It should only be a minute or two!" Rin yelled look out to the window only the first tips of the sun shone along the horizon.
Kouta chose to tiptoe into Riko's room and look at her. Her room was dark and kept the natural light out by heavy dark curtains on the window frames. She was sitting at the edge of the bed with tears in her eyes. A few shots of guilt attacked his heart, an assault that he knew was well deserved.
"Why didn't you have any other children?" her voice was soft as the question erupted.
"I didn't need any more. One from you was plenty enough." he grinned at her with that boyish smile again. She scoffed and looked at him again her eyes even more tearful.
"We aren't kids anymore, that doesn't work on me anymore." it was a lie because she still saw him as that boy fresh out of college, the boy who called her out in class and grinned afterward.
"When you told me that you were pregnant. I felt so horrible. I felt that had made the wrong decision in getting married. I only wanted to be with you. I wanted to have a family life with you and Rin. You wanted nothing to do with me, do you remember?" he looked into her eyes and she could only turn away as she nodded, his gaze was too much for her.
Riko sat inside of the taxi, it was late afternoon and the sun was hiding behind a multitude of clouds. The clouds themselves looked bloated and grey with thunder and rain. She had been crying long before she got in the taxi. The cab driver was far too obnoxious to notice this. Even though a badly hidden whimper and tears left her he continued to talk on his phone, one hand leaned on the window and the other barely guiding the steering wheel. Riko could see his car sitting outside of her apartment.
"Go around one more time, please." she muttered trying to hide despite the heavy downpour. Riko knew it was foolish but she hoped he would. She knew that he would not because he knew now that he was going to be a father. She couldn't look at him. His face on the cover of Forbes, as a new mogul who was revolutionizing his industry. There he sat in his car ridiculously dressed to hide from the paparazzi who now craved a taste of him. This was a big risk for him.
"Stop the car." she said, as she threw her money in the front seat and got out. It was rash and she knew that he would see her. She didn't want to see his bright smile, she didn't want to see what she couldn't have.
"Riko!" he called to her after lowering the passenger window.
"I lied, I'm not pregnant okay! I was just mad." she subconsciously held a hand to the barely there bump. Already beginning to show at three months she should have been able to hide it a little bit longer.
"Get in the car!" he said this with authority, and she found herself obeying him before telling herself to resist. He pulled far into the back of an alley way and looked at her now soaking hair.
"You'll catch a cold." he didn't look in her eyes and faced the steering wheel.
"I'm sorry...please forgive me." she could hear his breathing shake and the tears that she'd failed to notice falling down.
"For what?" she said.
"I should have never said anything about how I felt." Riko shook her head and reached for the door.
"I don't care, it doesn't matter. You got married and I can't do anything about it but that is life. I had to live and learn. I won't cut you out of this baby's life, you know I would never. This is your child and he or she is going to need you in her life. I don't care if it's even a phone call or a few visits every few months. As for me, I can't stand to look at you." she got out of the car and stormed up her front steps.
"After we had that big argument and I didn't know what to do with myself. I found myself driving to my doctors office and I walked in. He was getting ready to go home. I begged him to stay. I told him that I never wanted to have children. So he told me I could have a vasectomy. He tried to talk me out of it but I did not change my mind. You were the only woman good enough to give me a child." he pressed his hand into her shoulder.
"You are so dramatic." she turn into him and wrapped her arms around him while inhaling his scent.
Rin had a coral sweatshirt and a pair of fitting jean shorts with sneakers. The valley was always the most beautiful when it was sunrise. She grabbed her father's hand tightly while running towards the giant willow tree. Once the area was reached Rin plopped on the ground easily with a laugh as she pulled Kouta down with her. A grin covered his face as the fresh sun light gave him warmth. He closed his eyes and pulled Rin's hand to his lips. He gave her a kiss and began to reflect of the things he could have done better. Rin closed her eyes along with him as she leaned on his shoulder. The next time she opened her eyes she could see him laying out in the flowers. Further in the distance there was another sight to behold. It was a silver haired man who held a younger man by the collar.
"What the?" she stood slowly and squinted her eyes to get a better look. It was Kouga and Sesshoumaru. Her eyes widened and her heartbeat began to race just as her legs did.
"Stop!" she screamed as she reached them. Sesshoumaru's eyes had a evil glare in them as he threw Kouga to the floor. Kouga looked up at Rin he was also angry. Of course who wouldn't be angry after being thrown on the floor.
"What does he mean by saying that you're his?" Kouga growled at her getting up and wiping his bloody lip.
"I just met him, he has nothing to do with me! The only one in my life is you!" she told him desperately as she grabbed on to his arm. His electric eyes softened, she was encircled in his arms in less than a moment. His face was buried in the crook of her neck.
"Never leave me. You only belong to me." he whispered with a kiss to her collarbone. Kouga worried as he watched the retreating back of Sesshoumaru. This man he rubbed him the wrong way. It made him nervous. He wanted to hold on to Rin tightly and never let her escape his watchful gaze. It couldn't be too much to ask for her to stay forever by his side. Rin held onto him tightly watching her father approach slowly when he realized that all was well.
"You know that in my heart there is only you." she tightened her fingertips on his shoulders.
"Never let any one else in." he said.
"I love you." she smiled.
"Not nearly as much as I love you." He released her while keeping one arm around her shoulder. Golden eyes watched from a distance and he was disgust beyond compare. To see his Rin holding on to this man who could do nothing but ruin her. Comforting the man that had been her doom.