Sorry! It's been ages I know, I really do. I have fired my muse and currently i'm looking for a new one. Been sick, have had a few infections as so long. Not trying to make excuses.

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Not mine

I heard strange commotion from nearby. Men's voices screaming, arguing about something. The voices got louder as the banging inside my head calmed. Strange, it sounded like Chris, one of my employees. And some other voice was heard too, but I couldn't bring myself to recognize them even though they seemed familiar.

"By the love of god Tank move over!" I heard a voice and it all came back to me. Tank was here. The voice belonged to Lester and I heard the familiar chuckle of Bobby.

"Can wait until you tell her." Lester continued. "She's going to flip out. "

I longed after the familiarity of their voices, their presence. I was okay. I felt my heart soar with happiness. I was going to live happily ever after with Ranger, I mean Carlos. Still felt strange to call him Carlos instead of Ranger but it felt right. My heart had known all along that he was the missing part in my soul.

Then it hit me. I remembered the torture and the terror. Oh my god the beating s and the raping. Adam! What had happened to Adam? I could remember Ranger coming, the ambulance but after that I couldn't remember a thing. I struggled to open my eyes.

I shut them quickly; the bright, clean light hit me like a truck on a highway. My head started to throb, black dots flying across my vision.

"Beautiful? Are you awake?" I heard Lester ask and felt pressure in my hands. I opened my eyes again and gazed into his green eyes, filled with worry and hope. I saw that I was in a hospital and that Tank and Bobby were there too. They all looked worried and sad but to be honest their eyes weren't the eyes I looked for. A pair of chocolate brown eyes was not seen and I felt my heart sink.

"Hey" I croaked and Lester swung into action. Still holding my hand, he reached out and grabbed the glass with water and guided the straw between my dry lips. I couldn't believe how thirsty I was as I had finished the glass. I gazed into Lesters eyes.

"What are you doing here?"

"Is that the way you treat friends you abandoned and left behind? He asked me and a glimpse of humor was seen in his eyes. But there was something that was hiding behind his blank face and he kept glancing at Tank and bobby. Something wasn't right.

"What is it?" I asked calling their bluff and they all glanced at their boots. "Where is Ranger?"

Lester looked like he was between a rock and a hard place as he watched me. I became more and more agitated and the heart rate monitor was going insane as my heartbeat raced through the roof.

"Well the thing is…" he began and twisted his hands, like he was nervous. My mind was screaming at me and fear filled me. This couldn't believe that our happily ever after wasn't going to happen.

"What Lester, spit it out" I said and my voice showed the fear in me

"We came to rescue you and Adam. Ranger found you and got you quickly in the ambulance and we… eliminated Petrocha. We thought it was over, you and Adam were going to be okay and so. Ranger got into the ambulance with you and we drove after it. He was so scary when he was looking for you; the man hadn't slept or eaten enough during the time you were missing. Kept blaming himself for it too. Anyway, we got to the hospital a few minutes after the ambulance and the strangest thing happened. You we're still in the ambulance but nobody else were visible. Your heart rate monitor was screaming and we all thought the worst, so I climb up and give you a last kiss on the forehead and noticed that you aren't dead! So immediately we thought that Petrocha must have had an inside man in the ambulance and that they faked your death so that Ranger would die of sorrow and that they would have the advantage and they could kill him. So Tank rushed into the woods and founds Ranger just as a guy shots him. Tank kills the man and rushes Ranger into the hospital. Meanwhile I had taken you inside and they wheeled you into the OR.

That had to be the scariest 10 hours of my life. You in your operation to fix the internal bleeding and Ranger in the operation room next doors getting his bullets out of his body and fixing some bleeding too. That was a week ago and we've been here since. Ranger hasn't woken up yet but the doctors are optimistic about his recovery. He is just next door"

I laid there listening to his story, getting angrier by the second. Lester just kept on talking, not noticing the fury inside me. Like an open book, my ass. I felt sore all over but that seemed so unimportant right now. Tank , Bobby and Chris stood beside Lester on my right side. The door was to my left. I knew what I had to do.

"Oh my god, who's that and why is he lurking outside my window!" I screamed and all four men sprung into action, jumping to the door with their guns drawn. I sat up, ignoring the pain and ripped out the equipment strapped to me. Before they even noticed I was in the hall limping with my cast and heavy bandages. I was a woman on a mission and I wasn't going to let anything stop me. Not even the fact that my butt was hanging out of my robe. I banged the door open to the room next door and heard footsteps thundering behind me. I limped to the bed and looked at the man lying in there. He looked so fragile and lonely but that didn't stop me. I took a breath and started.

"You son of a bitch! You... You idiot!" I screamed at the top of my lungs and hit his arm. "What on the earth were you thinking? Were you thinking at all? Fuck you, going all Romeo and Juliet on me! Stupid, stupid, stupid! What were you thinking!"

I heard that Lester chuckled from the door and said "I told you she was going to lose it." but I didn't care. I was beyond furious; I was outraged that Ranger walked right into certain death. What was he thinking? I hit his arm once again, slumping myself on his chest, sobs ripping me apart as I cried all my fears out. What if Tank hadn't been there? What then? He would have died and I was going to live without him? No way ever, I couldn't live without him a single day anymore, I realized that now. The time apart did only increase our love for each other and I couldn't help but to surrender to the feeling. I lifted my head up and gazed at him. Was it just me or was he smiling?

"Babe…" he breathed and smiled wider. I stood there and looked at him as he opened his eyes. His eyes cut to me and he grabbed my hand and squeezed it tightly. "Hey." he said.

"Oh no mister!" I said channeling my inner Lula." I ain't done with you just yet. Do you think that you could just "babe" me and smile and that everything would be okay after that? Have you completely lost your mind!"

"Yep." he said and just kept smiling at me and kept squeezing my hand.

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