Ashley
I sat there in the quiet hallways w/ Amanda, thinking about all this. The fact that back in Brooklyn when it was quiet meant something bad was going to happen wasn't. good. Well it was that way here too but it didn't mean I was in danger just that kate was. It was really a matter of unpredictability the unpredictability of life. And timing the timing of everything. My dad could've done worse than hurting me the way he did. Id ended up hospitalised bc of him. But, if id somehow died, I wouldn't have to live w/ that knowledge. I was young when my mom died. She was sick. And in a way she was lucky my dad didn't kill her that she went that way. She was the one who taught me to play piano. After she died I stopped playing.
I didn't know what it meant for things to be quiet without something big happening.
Its pretty sad that my own adoptive mom didn't tell me she was scared that her own friend, one of my bosses, had to. Amanda was nice a lot nicer than karen at times. Karen basically inferred she didn't care what I did w/ my life. And neither had my dad. But I had to stay w/ my family in case something happened to karen. So I didn't have time to focus on me.
"hey," Amanda said quietly.
I looked at her; "yeah?"
"im going to go check on your mom ok?"
"ok. Thank you."
"of course honey. You know where to find me."
"yeah always."
She stood.
She left leaving me there in the quiet.