I was suddenly inside my home at England, I saw my brother, Dan. He looked sad he was sitting in the corner of his bedroom. I tried to speak to him but nothing came out, I frantically tried to use my voice but it just refused to work. I saw Dan stand up and walk into the bathroom, I followed him. I stood in the bathroom watching him as he ran a bath. He then stepped into the water, fully dressed. I suddenly occurred to me what he was doing. He pushed himself under the water. I tried to move. Tried to run over and grab him, pull him from the water.

I woke up with a start and smacked my head on the bunk above mine

'Shit!' I mumbled and grabbed my head. There was a layer of cold sweat all over my body and I couldn't stop shaking. I pulled my knees up against my chest and hugged them, I kept blinking back the tears but it became too much and I broke down.

'Leda?' I heard a voice say from outside my bunk, I pulled the curtain back and Jack was dangling upside down, his legs still inside his bunk but his torso dangling outside. His hair was sticking up all over the place, it made me smile.

'What's wrong?' he said quietly

'Just a dream' I whispered, half to myself.

'Are you okay?'

'Yeah, I'm fine.' I wiped a tear of my cheek

'Leda, I know when you're lying.' He said and dropped out his bunk. He clambered inside my bunk, I shuffled over to make some room for him. He lay down next to me and wrapped him lanky arms around me, it made me feel safe.

'Alex told me about your dreams.' He whispered to me. I took in a ragged breath and felt Jack's grip tighten. I moved my arm and felt a shot of pain shoot up my wrist, I winced. Jack frowned at me before gently taking my wrist, he pushed up the sleeve of my shirt and his eyes widened.

'Is that what that dick did to you?' he said with his teeth clenched.

'It's nothing.' I mumbled and tried to pull my sleeve back down.

'He comes near you again and I may tear his head off.' He said and brushed his lips across the bruise before planting a couple of light kisses against it.

'Leda, what am I doing?' he said and looked me straight in the eye.

'What do you mean?' I said, confused.

'You are right here, you're funny, we have loads in common, you're sexy and I really like you but I'm pushing you away.' He sighed 'what am I doing? I want to be with you so much.'

'Jack.' I mumbled, he placed his thumb on my lips with his finger place under my cchin.

'I've decided what I want.' He whispered, and brushed a hair out of my face before leaning into my lips. The kiss only lasted a minute before he pulled away.

'Go to sleep.' He whispered and I snugged against his chest before falling into a dreamless sleep.

I woke up the next morning and Jack wasn't next to me, I then noticed black pen all over my palm. I looked at it, it was Jack's nearly unreadable scrawl.

I went back to my bunk when you fell asleep, may have been awkward to explain to Alex why I was sleeping in his sister. I promise I'll tell him today but if he kills me remember me as I was –Jack

I laughed to myself, he was always so unpredictable, and I loved it. He was so wonderfully weird that he made every day an adventure. I smelled fresh coffee and dragged myself out my bed. Rian and Cass were sitting laughing with coffee.

'Morning guys' I said and went over to the coffee machine, my head was hurting slightly and coffee usually helped. I took a sip of a black coffee, and I felt the pain numbing out. I then added milk and the usual bucket load of sugar.

'Morning Leda bunnie' Rian said. I had missed being called that. You okay? I heard you hit your head last night.' I stiffened, Rian's bunk was close to Alex's and if he had heard.

'Yep, I'm fine. You hear anything else?' I said as casually as possible.

'Nah, all I heard was a thud and you swearing' he said with a laugh.

'Okay, yeah I'm fine.' I said

Alex walked in and I looked away sipping my coffee. 'Morning baby girl' He said and kissed my cheek, I smiled at him. I felt the bus suddenly come to a halt.

'Woo hoo!' Alex said and jumped on the couch between Cassadee and Rian to get a look out the window 'Arizona here we come!' loads of people started to come into the longue. Alex opened the door to the bus and I stepped out after him, the heat washed over to me suddenly and I got a head rush and blacked out.

'Leda?' Alex said and my eyes fluttered open. I was lying on the slightly dried out grass and people were surrounding me looking down at me 'You okay?'

'Yeah,' I said sitting up and clutching my head 'I got a head rush. Could you get my migraine meds, they're in the bathroom.' Alex ran off and Danny helped me to my feet. Alex came back and handed me the packet and a bottle of water. I downed them, my head was being a bitch lately. The heat in Arizona was almost unbearable. Even in the shade it was like living inside one huge oven. It didn't help my head either, the heat just made it hurt more than usual. And to top it all of Jack was going to talk to Alex today and I had no idea how he was going to take it. Once all the merch was sold, I went to put it away. Vinny stopped me.

'Go take a break Leda, I can tell you're stressed.' He said.

'Thanks Vinny.' I said and smiled at him before I walked off.

I went to the bus before collapsing on the ground leaning against the bus, I let out a sigh and tried to relax. I was getting way to stressed out lately. I was only there for a couple of minutes before I got interrupted again, this time by Alex.

'You and Jack? LEDA ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME?' he said to me anger in his voice

'Is there something wrong with that?' I said, my temper was pretty short today, I had no time for this.

'EVERYTHING IS WRONG WITH THAT! LEDA FOR FUCKS SAKE HE'S MY BEST FRIEND!' Alex yelled

'Alex, stay out of it! Its none of your business!' I said getting pissed off.

'BUT HE DOESN'T LIKE YOU! I KNOW HE DOESN'T! HE'S JUST TRYING TO GET OVER HOLLY BY GROPING ON YOU! YOU ARE SO STUPID FOR THINKING HE WOULD ACTUALLY LIKE YOU!' Alex bellowed at me. I was about to open my mouth to yell back but I got tears instead. I CAN'T BELIEVE HE HAD JUST SAID THAT, Alex had always been so understanding of me, he always supported me. I took in a breath and pushed past him.

'Leda please wait!' he called but I ran off. I don't know where I was going and I ran straight into someone.

'Sorry' Said the guy.

'No, my fault' I said looking away and rubbing the tears away.

'Leda, are you okay?' I looked up it was Gerard, I tried to speak but I broke down again.

'Hey, hey' Gerard said and hugged me 'Shh, it's okay.'

Gee didn't speak, he just let my cry against him.

'Do you mind?' said a voice. I felt Gerard let me go and someone else hug me.

'I'm sorry Leda.' Said Alex's voice, he rubbed my back. 'I'm such an idiot.'

'Yes, you are.' I said against him.

'Look, I just over reacted.' He said to me 'I can see Jack makes you happy and if being with him is what you really want then.' He breathed in 'who am I to hold you back.'

'Are you sure?' I mumbled and he chuckled.

'Yes, I'm sure. Now go find him.' he said and gave me a shove. I smiled at him.

'Thanks Alex.' I said and ran off.