He didn't say anything for a moment. He looked like he was trying to decipher exactly what I said. Slowly, he said to me, "Lily, but I thought you've always wanted to wait. Why now? Why not tomorrow or next week?"

Quietly I muttered, "James, there might not be a tomorrow or a next week." He looked like he was about to object but I put my finger to his lips to hush him. "To be honest, I know I have no defence for choosing this date rather than the fact that I have a dreadful feeling something's going to happen tomorrow. Merlin, I hope nothing does but I have that fear in my stomach. And if anything does, I know that if I could have one last thing it would be to be with you. I already know where you're at with all of this, so I don't know why you wouldn't say no."

"Lily, I'd have you anytime; don't you ever think I don't want you. But I just don't want you to regret your first time or have it compromise your values."

"I'd never regret you, James. You're the one I want, I know it and you know it."

By this time I was caressing my fingers along James' t-shirt, and I started to play at his Adam's apple, which I knew was a weak spot for him.

"I promise I won't hurt you." He swore to me.

"I know you won't."

"No regret?" he whispered.

"No regrets," I promised him back. A smile crooked up upon his face as we touched our foreheads together. Slowly, I adjusted myself so I was straddling his lap. He leaned in closer, and then softly, he kissed me.

One of his hands cupped my head, knotting his fingers in my hair. The other wrapped around my waist, bringing my chest closer to his. I took my hands and placed them on both sides of his face.

As he deepened the kiss, reality had hit both of us. Without breaking the kiss he scooped me up and brought me down so I was lying on my back with James on top of me.

It was slow, and then we began to speed up. He traced my shirt down the sides until he had hit the hem, then scooted it up my sides and over my head. We only broke the kiss for the smallest amount of time possible while the shirt passed our mouths, then he immediately brought his lips back to mine.

His tongue began to trace my lips and begged for entrance. I accepted immediately and our tongues met. Every worry that I had disappeared. I felt safe. His body covered mine and it had a calming effect on me. An explosion occurred in the pit of my stomach as we met, and he slowly lowered himself fully onto my body. The feeling of his covered chest against the soft skin of my curves brought a frenzy in me. My hand crawled under the bottom of his shirt, and I traced lightly the warming skin of his abdomen. I brought my hand up further until my elbow began to bunch up the fabric.

He leaned away from our close embrace and I missed the contact immediately. My head was screaming, No! No! As he sat up and straddled me. His dominate stance above me sent a wave of ecstasy through my body. He took the bottom of his crumpled shirt and brought his shirt over his head, revealing his chest to me. Thank you, Quidditch! He tossed his shirt to the side without giving it a second glance. He then leaned down and places his left arm beside the right side of my head while using his right hand to place his glasses and wand on the side table. He asked me where my wand was, and after collecting it from the back of my jeans, I passed it to him and he sat it on the table. His long neck was directly above me, so I lifted my head and kissed the side of his neck. After dropping my wand, he brought his right hand and cupped my head, turning his head and capturing my lips with his.

We took our time, and James being the most amazing person ever, was never in a hurry was never frustrated at me, but the most patient and gentle man the world has ever created. There were a few moments where I had no clue what I was doing and instead of rolling his eyes he gave me the most adorable smile and helped me. There was a moment, right when James slid inside of me and before the pain had disappeared that I knew I had made the right decision. It was the right decision that I waited for him, because although the physical was not perfect like described in my fairytale books, emotionally, I was in bliss.

"Oh, Lily," he moaned as his body was shot through with pleasure.

He collapsed right on top of me. I was exhausted as well. I softly swiped his hair off his forehead as we stared into each other's eyes.

"I love you," he declared to me.

I smiled, "I love you too."

He slipped out of me and I missed the connection instantly. I groaned and he laughed. He laid down on his side with his two arms out. I laid on his one arm while his other laid across my waist. I hugged him close to my body and after kissing him one last time, I drifted off to sleep.

And I had no regrets.

There was stillness in the air when I woke up. I was lying on my stomach with my back exposed. I was facing towards the wall, I assumed, because there was completely darkness. I felt a heavy weight on top of my back, and I turned my head to see James' arm on top of me. He was sound asleep. His faced looked completely in grace, escaped from stress. I felt a pressure on my bladder and I knew I had to go to the toilet, so I quietly slipped out from under his arm and jumped over him. He had a bathroom attached to his room so I slipped in there and went to the toilet. As I was washing my hands, than noticed that down there was hurting. I ran through the bathroom's medicine cabinet but I couldn't find any ibuprofen, not that they would likely have any in a magical household. Although I was a witch, there were still a few habits I kept from having muggle parents. I still preferred ibuprofen over the variety of spells and potions. I realized, I had a bottle in my bag, which is in my and Marlene's room. I'd have to go get it. I came out of the bathroom and into the bedroom and looked around the room to see if I could find my clothes. The room was too dark, and James had just thrown my clothes everywhere last night, and I wasn't exactly paying attention to where he had thrown them. I found a pair of jeans, but after checking out the design and size I realized they were James'. I patted around and found my bra, but that was not so appropriate to just be walking around in. I found James' boxers and what felt like either a soft shirt or the end of a sheet, when I heard rumbling in the bed,

"Lily?" said James.

"Hey."

"Are you leaving?"

"Um, well not really. I just need to get some ibuprofen, but there's none in your bathroom, so I'm just going to grab it from my room."

"Good. I don't want you too leave tonight. Why don't you just Summon the bottle?"

"I don't know...but I don't want to scare anyone."

"Ah, I see." He said.

I still couldn't find my clothes, "I can't find my clothes. Do you remember where you threw them?"

He smiled, "I was a little distracted to remember where exactly. Wear my clothes. My boxers are right in front of you. And I think that's my shirt is wrapped around the bed post."

"You don't mind?" I asked, trying to locate his shirt.

"Nope."

I squirmed into his boxers and shirt, still a little too shy to fully expose my body to James, I tried to hid myself with my arms. I didn't think it really mattered, as after I dressed I looked over at James, who appeared to be asleep.

I left the room and went up the squeaky stairs to my room. The house was completely quiet. Although I could hear snoring coming from a few of the rooms. I was grateful James did not snore but only breathed loudly and heavily. I came into my room and Marlene seemed passed out on her bed. I looked closer and noticed another lump beside her. Her and Fabian must have made up, I thought. I'm glad they made up. I looked through my bag and found the bottle in a side pocket. I opened the lid and popped two tablets without taking any water.

I quietly snuck back into the room and closed the door. I walked over to the bed and pause. Was I to wear James' clothes or get naked? After thinking for a moment, a slid the boxers off of my hips and brought the shirt over my head. James would like this more, and it was more comfortable than sleeping with clothes on. I slipped back into bed with James now on his stomach. I cuddled into his side when I felt a hand snake its way across my stomach and up to my right breast.

"Your naked." James said.

"Yeah, I thought you might like it better than all those clothes." I said cheekily.

He lifted his head up and smiled at me, "I think you looked better in them than I did. Are you tired?" he asked.

"Not really."

With a grin on his face, James brought himself up above me and kissed my lips. He leaned on his elbow and brought his other hand to my face. "Lily?" he asked, shyly. "Um, I was going to ask you a question. And I'd appreciate it if you could answer me honestly. And don't judge because it's a little embarrassing."

"James, it's just me. Shoot."

"Well, just with last night...was it good?"

"Good? James, it was bloody amazing." I answered honestly.

He smiled than looked at me seriously. "Did you know? Come? It's just, I didn't realize until after that you may not have. And I feel bad that it was your first time and you didn't -"

"James," I said, holding onto his face so he was looking into my eyes. "Girls are different than guys their first time. I wasn't expecting too."

He looked at me and in a split second, he kissed my lips deeply.

"Lily, I want to make it up to you."

"Hmm?" I answered, not knowing what he was talking about,

"I love you, Lily. I love you so much."

Leaning on his left forearm and his knees, he's slowly snaked his right hand down my body. Across my chest and down my stomach, he moved slower until he hit my wetness. A spike rode through me. James lowered himself onto my body until he was coving me. He brought his lips to my jaw and slowly kissed down my neck, while his fingers caressed me.

It felt so good that for the first few moments I could do nothing but lie there and concentrate on the amazing feelings. After a few minutes, my arms snaked around James' neck and back, bringing his roaming lips closer to my skin. His arm was also trapped between our bodies as it began to work faster. My eyes closed and I began whispering 'James' as I felt the climax coming. Within a moment, my body began to shake and I lifted my hips off the bed and ecstasy rolled through me. I began to die down and with a sleek of moisture covering my body, I slowly opened up my eyes and looked straight into his.

"Oh, God James." I whispered.

"Lily, you looked so fucking sexy," he confessed, brining his lips to mine, full forced. He plunged his tongue into my mouth, without asking permission, but I did not care.

"Baby, I want you." He asked, full of desperation.

"Oh, God." I replied.

He rolled me over until I was on top of him. Without hesitation I sat up and straddled him.

He looked amazing, lying below me with his arms raised slightly above his head. "Can you help me?"

"Yes." He said, and placed himself right below me as I lowered myself onto him.

This time was different than the last time. Now that I knew what was going to happen, everything that was happening was second on my mind. There was this connection that James and I had. It was deeper than physical, instead to the core of the emotional. We went slower than we did last night. There were no sounds but our quiet breathes and the occasional soft moan. My thighs began to ache from moving up and down, and James began to notice, so he opened his arms to me. I leaned into him, bringing my lips to his where they remain locked but not moving. Intensity began to grow in me and I moved my head into the crook of his neck while James wrapped one arm around my back and the other to the small of my back, helping me.

I felt pleasure in the pit of my stomach, and James must have recognized it too because he started to pump into me. That sent me over the edge as spasms of pleasure were shot through me. James soon followed and his hands began to squeeze and rub over my entire body. Once we were done, I barely had any energy to open my eyes as I laid on James' chest.

I knew I had to get up so I slowly lifted my body from James' but his arms wrapped tightly around me.

"Don't move. Just stay right here, it feels so good." He mumbled and drifted off to sleep. I had no energy to move and it felt so good with him in me. Lying on his chest I laid my head on his chest and fell asleep.

Light from the window shined lightly threw onto the bed. I was lying on my back facing the window. I felt a light caressing across my exposed abdomen, back and forth. Light as a feather. I moaned at the contact.

"Lily, baby. Wake up."I turned my head towards him and opened my eyes. With his head popped up on his hand, he was caressing me again with his fingertips. "Good morning."

"Good morning to you."

"How was your sleep?" he asked, his voice deep with sleep.

"Excellent, actually. I've never slept as soundly as I did last night."

"Same here. And the company was quite nice," he said with a smile.

"I officially determined that I love sleeping beside you."

He laughed, "I officially determined I love making love to you," he leaned over and brought his lips to mine. It was not filled with love and lust as it was last night, but just a sensual love.

He brought his lips from my mouth to down my face, jaw, just below my right ear and attacked my neck.

"And you didn't even snore," I added, "It was perfect."

He stopped the attack on my neck and looked into my eyes. "Lily, I don't snore."

"Yes, you do."

"Lils, I slept in the same room with three guys for seven years. They would have said something if that was the case."

"Didn't you apply a sound proofing charm on your bed curtains?"

He just glared at me, "Are you trying to be smart, Miss. Evans?"

"Perhaps," I said with a smile.

He leaned away and I was curious about what he was going to do. A smile creped on his face. A moment later, I felt the sheets that were covering me being ripped off while James jumped off the bed.

"James!" I yelled in shock.

"James!" yelled another voice. I saw the door open and a shocked Sirius stared at the scene in front of him. I was desperately trying to cover myself with my hands while a naked James, with sheet in hand, picked up a pillow from the bed and whipped it at Sirius. He slammed the door shut not before a grin grew across Sirius' face and he wiggled his eyebrows.

"Oh my gosh!" I said in shocked. I must have had a funny expression on my face because James turned his head away from the door, stared at my expression, and laughed.

Filled with embarrassment and a comedic desire to get James back, I ignored my shy instinct to cover myself and boosted myself from the bed, smacking him across the arm. "James! Why are you laughing?"

"Your expression was priceless!"

"Your best friend was just staring at me!"

"Well, you do have a hot body."

I gave him another smack.

"Ow!" he rubbed his arm, "That was a compliment!"

I tried to keep a serious face but I was honestly laughing on the inside, "I'm so embarrassed right now! I don't want to face him."

He saw my honesty and embraced me, snaking his arms around me. "He more than likely will, but I have some shit on him and I'm not afraid of blackmailing."

"You don't have to go to those extremes."

"Yes I do, because it's you," he said, kissing my nose.

I heard his stomach growl. "Ugh," he moaned and backed away from me. "You know Lily. I'm starving so you better get some clothes on before I decided to eat you instead."

My face turned red, "James!" I said before smacking him in the arm for the third time.

After he hugged me again, I got my clothes on and hurried towards the shower out in the hallway. Once I was privately by myself soaking in the warm water, everything that happened last night had hit me. I was finally able to be with James. He was the sweetest and most caring man I have ever known and last night had confirmed it. He made all my worries disappear.

Just like the worries I had about today.