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Warnings: First sexual situation and Shizuo swearing slightly. So kids, stay away from now on XD

Excitement rushed through Shinra as he raised his right hand to touch the pale, smooth cheek of Shizuo. It was hot under his cold fingers, burning with the blood of a racing heart. His thumb went to the pink lips. His friend was silent, didn't move nor wince, not one sign of uncomfortableness but the doctor knew he was only putting up a big front. The doctor traced his thumb over a stiff bottom lip, exposing white, even teeth. Shizuo's expression changes immediately to one of disgust as he attempted to turn his head away from the unwanted touch, the doctor though grasped him by the jaw, holding him in place.

"Shinra, what the hell are you doing?" If there was anything scarier than the dark room and him not being able to escape, then it was his formerly best friend who hasn't spoken one word when Izaya had left. Was he in trance or was he just ignoring him?

A chuckle escaped Shinra. The young man assimilated every information about the blond man in front of him so when he began with his experiments, he could do it without damaging the body or mind. Shinra could feel the body tremble under his fingers, a touch of panic. It was such a beautiful sight, almost heart-stopping to see, to feel the strong man tremble. His arousal responded to it with increasing insistence. The doctor had to hurry up otherwise he couldn't hold himself back anymore and Izaya wouldn't like it. He got up on his feet and walked to the end of the room, leaving Shizuo temporarily alone. His shoes scraped against the floor as he removed the scalpel and other toys from the drawer as well as the syringe just in case Shizuo got his strength back again. Eyes were following his every step, he could feel it the whole time, but he knew nothing could happen to him. Not when Shizuo was like this, so he had to calm down, because he was safe…

The doctor got to his knees again, took a long breath and leaned forward to the mouth which made a small sound of protest, before Shinra's lips covered it. Shizuo's lips were so warm and soft and squeezed shut in unwillingness to be kissed by his best friend. The blond man exhaled through his nose with a slight whimper and he was as stiff as a board, not even squirming or struggling, just closing his eyes tightly just like his mouth as if it could protect him from what was happening as if he could shut his mind as well.

When Shinra pulled back, he smiled warmly when Shizuo tried to gain his composure and control his breathing again.

"You're a damn bastard, Shinra!", said Shizuo full of disgust. "Celty will kill you, I'll make sure of it!"

Again Shinra just smiled eerily and dark, dense fear reared up as Shizuo jerked away. It probably did him more harm than good but he still had to try to get out of here. Shinra grabbed Shizuo's elbow when he took the scalpel with his other hand to Shizuo's neck. Even Shizuo won't be able to survive this, so he was still again. Soon the hand on his elbow strayed southwards to his groin, took a hold that Shizuo froze and it forced a quiet whimper from the blond-haired.

"Shinra, stop this…", whispered the blond-haired in fear. After a long minute Shinra withdrew the hand from between his legs and that's when Shizuo realised, for the first time since they were prisoned in here, the stiffness of Shinra against his hips. A whimper escaped him once again, but it sounded so pitiful, so childlike… For just one second Shizuo felt like a little child again, before he got his strength. Shizuo tried to distance himself, but Shinra was licking his neck and biting into it, making it quite difficult to just vanish mentally from this situation.

"Fine, I don't care… You bastard, I won't fight you anymore", said Shizuo in an attempt to calm Shinra down so he'll let his guards down. "I won't struggle. I won't resist. I'll cooperate so it's all right already. You don't have to do it."

"Shizuo-kun, look at me." Shinra said with a calm voice. No matter how much his friend hated him right now. Amber eyes looked up, still full of hatred and fear. "You said you won't struggle, so keep that in mind, all right?"

"W-What are you going to do?" He had to breathe… Breathe in slowly…

Shinra smiled softly, before he leaned in again for a kiss. The kiss was very violent and the bartender closed his lips tightly again. There were teeth which split his lips open, though as soon as the kiss started, it ended again.

People called him a monster, but what a monster really was, was his friend with the cold eyes that met his, alight with a weird fascination, treating him only as one of his experiments, while sexually abusing him. The only monsters were Shinra and Izaya. His thoughts were interrupted by Shinra's right hand trailing to his hip, tugging at his shirt.

"You know what, Shizuo-kun? I think you will struggle. That's just how you are."

With Shinra's scalpel he was not so stupid as to fight back and his strength was still not coming back, it was frustrating. His former friend handled him like a ragdoll, completely careless, like he was a child who has found a toy to play with and break.

"Come on, Shizuo-kun, we'll take you somewhere nicer!" Shinra pulled him up as much as he could and laid him on a small table with straps on it. As soon as Shizuo was laid to the table, he struggled again but a hard slap silenced him as the doctor got to strap him to the table as good as he could.

"Stop it! Please don't, don't do this, Shinra! We were friends, we were friends! Just don't!" Shinra had pulled out the scalpel and as soon as Shizuo had taken a look at it, he screamed wildly. Shinra put the scalpel to the bartender's jaw, then let it sway along his collarbone. His breath got faster when Shinra cut him slightly on his left shoulder.

"I-I won't fight you. I won't. So just-"

"Shizuo-kun, let me ask you something first, all right?" He didn't bother to wait for an answer before continuing "Have you had any sexual experiences with men?" The blond-haired looked shocked and angry as he struggled more. They had taken his shirt off some time ago, he never noticed it until now. The cut on his left shoulder didn't hurt as much as he thought, but considering the fact that he barely noticed such a little cut in his usual state he panicked. A lot! Shinra proceeded to his pants, unbuttoning it , unzipped it and yanked them down his long legs.

"Shinra…"

The young man just let his hand hover over the underpants, inches away from Shizuo's groin. Cold, cold air went through his whole body, through his insides, as he was stripped of his last piece of clothing, leaving him completely vulnerable, exposed to the world. The doctor moved his hand along his cut shoulder, his chest before stopping at one of the nipples, taking it between the thumb and forefinger and twisting it as though he wanted to see if he could pull it free from the skin. A strangled yell tore out of Shizuo before he could stop himself.

"Shinra, what are you going to do? Don't listen to Izaya, I'm a human just like you, my body is not different."

Maybe, just maybe that could stop the hand from moving over his body, searching for something unusual, something not normal. The wandering hand though had other plans. It moved to Shizuo's hips, stroking the curve of his behind before grasped him with cold fingers. The blond-haired gasped, before holding his breath, bit his cheeks to prevent him from making any noises. He couldn't open his mouth, otherwise he would have screamed, screamed at Shinra, at the world, at himself not do give in, not to give up.

The hand was almost gently moving along his length, lightly as if Shinra wanted to watch every reaction as if he'd react different from other men. His heart felt so heavy, he felt so sick from all of this. Shizuo had to focus on anything else but the hand between his legs. Maybe he was too successful of keeping his mind on something else, because the third kiss came unexpected, forcefully claiming his lips in a kiss before the bartender could take a breath. He so wanted to just bite down on the tongue in his throat, but there was a knife on his shoulder again, reminding him not to do anything but lie here. Shinra pulled his hand away and stood up, eyes fixed on Shizuo's unwavering gold-brown eyes.

The cut along his right arm was coming fast, so fast he couldn't even react to it. It was pretty deep this time, as if Shinra held a lot of grudge inside of him, only waiting to be released. Shizuo told Shinra he wouldn't fight him, so he couldn't do anything but take the violent slap from Shinra, which made his eyes tear up. Fuck it, he couldn't just sit still. The doctor was probably right!

"Stop it, you stupid asshole or I'll fucking kill you!" It was probably a stupid move from himself, but he was not known for his intelligence after all. Whatever Shinra decided to put him through know, he could take it. He was not weak. He was strong. His eyes were closed as a pair of hands were lifting him by the shoulders, heaving him off the table, easing him upright. Truth be told, Shinra didn't have good intention, before he showed Shizuo the scalpel yet again. For just one second Shizuo had thought that his former friend would kill him but soon realized it would be hard to kill someone so fast with a scalpel. The doctor went behind Shizuo and retrieved his wrists from the ropes. Confused, the bartender looked up.

"Shizuo-kun, I'll tell you this, because we are friends. The door which Izaya-kun went through – it's unlocked when I'm here. As soon as I get out of this door, I'll lock it. You could escape if you feel up to it."

"You said that, but when I get up, you'll attack me. You have a weapon and Izaya drugged me, so that I don't have the strength to attack you back. How do I know you'd just let me off?" Shinra smiled, his eyes lightening up immediately.

"You can't know, because I won't just let you go. At least not until I'm finished."

Shizuo decided against it. He knew Shinra had much more weapons around here. But he wasn't going to die down here. If it required a fight from him, so be it. Izaya and Shinra won't be able to break him. The brown-haired lowered one of his knees to the floor, making himself comfortable while looking at the scalpel, turned it around his fingers. The blade made contact with Shizuo's skin, just underneath his collarbone.

"Shizuo-kun… I hope you understand that you won't be able to leave this place ever. The door may be open, but the way to freedom will still be far away. I just want to have you for me. You're mine, Shizuo-kun. My own personally monster to experiment."

Shizuo didn't know a way out of this anymore. His former friend had no idea what he was saying. Probably wasn't exactly sane at the moment. Maybe he never was sane to begin with and this realization scared the blond-haired. Because it seemed like he just lot more than a good friend.