Chapter 7

James' POV

"Yeah, Prongs! Get some!"

Startled, I opened my eyes. Sirius, Remus, and Peter were standing over me, grinning like idiots.

"What?" I asked groggily.

Lily moved under my arm.

Wait.

Lily?

And at that point, that night's events came rushing back to me.

"What's going on?" she asked, opening her eyes tiredly. "Oh, Merlin!"

Sirius was on the ground laughing, Remus and Peter were supporting each other, and I just dug my head in my pillow, embarrassed.

Lily climbed out of my bed (never thought that I'd actually get to say that), and quickly hurried towards the door.

"Wait!" I called, hopping off the mattress and running towards her. "Don't go!"

"James, I'm really sorry, but this was a mistake." she said opening the door and stepping outside. I walked out after her and closed the door behind me.

"Lily?" I said, confused. "What's the matter? What do you mean this was a mistake?"

"James, I shouldn't have stayed here." she said, running a hand through her long hair.

"Why not?" I asked, taking her hand.

"No," she said pulling her hand away. "You don't really like me, James. You chase me because you can't have me. I keep you entertained, and the moment I were to say yes to you, you'd get bored and leave."

"What?" I asked. "Is that what you think of me?"

"Yes! That's what I think!"

"But I'm better than that, Lily! And this wasn't a mistake! Lily, you know that whatever you say or do, I'll never stop. You do know it, don't you?"

"There isn't anything to know, James!" she shouted. "Don't you get it? I don't like you!"

"Then, what?" I asked. "Then, you just dream about us being together and our child? You know that's what happened, Lily. You may not admit it, but you know that it was you and me and our baby in your dream. Your subconscious can see it, why can't you?"

"It was just a dream! It doesn't mean anything! And it wasn't our baby! "

"Do I mean anything?"

She was quite and wouldn't meet my eye.

"Lily?" I pressed. "Don't you care about me?"

She was still quite.

"Lily." I said, shutting my eyes tight. "Do I matter to you?"

"Yes!" she finally shouted. "Yes, you matter to me, and yes I care! But I'm tired of you! I'm tired of the way that you act in public towards me, and I'm tired of your persistence and I'm tired of you chasing other girls to annoy me."

"That's not why I do that." I said quietly.

"Then why?"

I hesitated. "I do it…because I want to make you jealous. At first it was to bother you and let you know that I didn't need you, but now it's just…just to get your attention."

"Oh."

"I just want you to know, Lily, that I don't think it was a mistake. Ok?"

"Ok."

"Well, uh…I'm going to go back now and leave you alone. I won't talk to you anymore, if that's what you want. Bye, Lily."

I turned around and walked back into my dorm, shutting the door again. I leaned against the door and sighed.

I. Am. An. Idiot.

"Oi, Prongs?" Sirius teased. "What happened? She dump you?"

"No, Padfoot, that couldn't happen, could it?" Remus laughed. "They were never dating. Unless sex is dating, in which case, they're practically married!"

"Shut up." I snapped. "We didn't have sex. She was scarred so I was there for her."

Sirius laughed. "Was she scarred she'd be a virgin for forever, because in that case, yes Prongs, yes you were there for her."

The three of them laughed. Pulling my wand out of my dresser drawer, I took three steps towards Sirius and pointed the wand right at his neck.

"Whoa!" Sirius screamed, holding his hands up. "What are you doing?"

"Take it back!" I screamed. "Take it back!"

"Take what back?" he shouted.

"Prongs, put the wand down!" Peter shouted at me.

"James, are you mad?"

Slowly, realizing that I was threatening to harm my best friend, I lowered the wand.

"Sorry, mate."

Sirius nodded, putting his arms down.

"Wow." Sirius said, relaxing. "I guess that a red-heads temper is contagious. Tell me James, do the carpets match the drapes?"

I punched him. I punched him right in the jaw. He flew onto the bed.

"What the hell!" shouted Sirius, standing up.

"Don't!" I yelled. "Do not talk about her like that! Don't you talk about her like she's some sex object!"

"James, why don't you go into the hall?" Remus suggested. "Calm down a bit?"

Without saying anything, I turned to go to the hall, grabbing a notebook and quill as I left. I walked down the steps to the Common Room, sitting down at a table. I quickly wrote down the date and started writing.

I wasn't going to be talking to Lily? Fine.

She'll still have to listen to me one way or another.